Note: Well... I have some kinda plot now (Yatta yatta! ;) umm... the beginning
is quite... cruel? Bloody? Easily offended readers please don't read... or skip
the first part of this chapter...
Chapter 4 - Changes
Shuichi was standing in a garden with fresh green grass and white flower petals whirling around. In the middle of it there was a tall, black- dressed, blonde man. He turned around and smiled to Shuichi. It was Yuki - HIS Yuki. He started running toward his beloved who opened up his arms to give Shuichi a warm and caring embrace.
"Oh, Yuki. How I've longed for this moment to come. I can't belie-" "Shh... don't talk now. Shuichi, I love you." A warm feeling expanded throughout Shuichi's whole body he wanted to hear these precious three words again and again. "Shuichi-" "I love you, too, Yuki"
Yuki made Shuichi shiver as his cold hand made its way down from Shuichi's neck to his chest. Yuki caressed Shuichi who seemed to enjoy it. He literally hungered for love and now he finally got what he had longed for.
But - something... just felt not...right. Shuichi looked down on himself as realized that Yuki's hand was entering his body - he grabbed for his heart and ripped it out of
him - holding Shuichi's heart in his hands Yuki was squeezing it - he squeezed harder and harder - Shuichi could feel the pain..
"Yuki.. why are you doing this? What did I do? You..you've just said you love me!" Shuichi cried out these words full of despair, fear and sadness.
"Oh...did I really say 'love' ? I meant to say that - I loathe you. Really, from the bottom of my heart, Shuichi, I deeply do."
With the squeezing becoming harder and harder, also the laughter of Yuki became harder and louder. It was a cruel and shrill laughing. It took insane measures as Yuki squeezed so hard that the heart burst. Shuichi screamed out - he couldn't bear this anymore. Shuichi sank to his knees with rivers of tears running down his distorted face. "Yuki... why do you do this to me? If you hate me that much, why don't you let go? Why do you haunt me every single second of my life? I never wanted to harm you! I LOVE YOU! Let it be...come on, don't torture me like that.. don't do this to me... I just want to be happy with you..." Shuichi had ran out of strength as he gasped these words crying and sobbing. "Yuki!"
"Yuki!"
"Yuki!"
"Yuki!"
Hiro heard the screams from the living room and quickly walked in there. He grabbed for Shuichi.
"Shuichi! Wake up!" He shook the smaller one to free him from whatever was taking over him. "Shu! Wake up, please!"
All out of a sudden, Shuichi opened is eyes in shock. He watched Hiro with unnaturally wide opened eyes as if he had seen the most horrible and terrible thing on earth. "Shu, everything okay?" Shuichi wasn't able to talk, neither to think. He looked around to find Yuki but couldn't see him anywhere.
"Yuki, where are you? Why are you gone? I still love you! I can't hate you! You can't do anything to make me stop loving you."
"SHU! Wake up for god's sake!" Shuichi made himself sit up to watch Hiro.
"You are not Yuki! What did you do to Yuki?" Shuichi suddenly went all mad and began hitting Hiro. "Give him back to me!"
Hiro grabbed Shuichi's fists to keep him from hitting him.
"SHUICHI! It's me! Hiro, your friend!! Yuki's not here, we are going to find him!"
Shuichi's face changed. The scared look turned into a sad heart-breaking expression.
"Hiro? Why..? Why can't he let me alone? He haunts me wherever I am. I'm not even save while I'm sleeping.. I can't... I can't go on, I won't have the strength to find him... and if I have, it won't be enough to face him."
"Shu, don't be foolish. Assumed that we'll find him, you'll be more than just happy to see him again. I'm sure of that."
"You really think so? Maybe..you're right..again. Oh, Hiro, what would I do if I hadn't you?"
"That's what friends are for, ne?" Hiro turned away from Shuichi to look out of the window and smiled a sad smile. If it weren't for Yuki, maybe he and Shuichi would be happy now... maybe Shuichi would realize that he was loved by someone. And for him, Hiro, love didn't only mean to be with the beloved but to be happy when this significant other is. With Shuichi being sad and depressed, he was as well. What kind of man Yuki had to be... that couldn't be love...
//...he knows that Shuichi admires and adores him... if he loved him he wouldn't just run off without saying a word. Or..is that man only a coward who doesn't know what love is? If I just could make Shuichi feel better... and forget Yuki.. Shu...//
"Hiro, what's up?" "Oh... nothing...just thought about something." Hiro forced a smile and sat down next to Shuichi. "Shu... I just wanted to tell you.." Shuichi made a questioning face. "Then tell me." "I.. umm.. I want you to know..."
Ding dong, the doorbell rang. [That thing's a timing... ^_]
"Tell me later, okay? It must be Mika." Shuichi stood up to open the door.
"Mika-san, thanks for coming. Please, come in."
"Domo." Mika entered the apartment and made her way to the living room. "Nakano-san, hi."
Hiroshi gave her a wave and drew his attention away, to the window again.
"Well, Shuichi, what can I do for you?"
"Mika-san... you know it. I have to know where Yuki is. Please. I'm begging you, tell me. I need to talk to him very urgently."
"Shuichi, you know that it's better for him not to see you." " Why Mika?... naze?" "You do know what happened not long ago... he had to go to the hospital because of you...I don't want him to be destroyed by you." Shuichi was speechless. Was he really destroying Eiri? Was it really his fault that Yuki went sick? He never wanted that... the only thing he longed for was to give Yuki his love.
Hiro interrupted. "Mika-san... do you really think it was Shuichi's fault? There have been problems in your family, right. With Ayaka, his fiancé... if it weren't for Shuichi, maybe Yuki would have turned to another person. He had never been interested in Ayaka after all. So don't blame Shu, it's not his fault. He just wants to be with Yuki because he loves him." Hiro felt a sudden pain like thousands of needles hitting has heart at once. Shuichi loved Yuki and not him. That was for sure... "What...what would you do if Touma would just leave? As long as you loved him, you'd want to see him. It's as simple as that... think about it. What's wrong with wanting to be with his beloved?" Mika's mouth opened then closed again. She thought about Touma..and what it would be like if she hadn't him...she'd be lost. Hiro was right... maybe it was not Shuichi's fault... "You're right..." Mika smiled. " He's in New York.. at least that's what I know. Good luck, Shuichi." Mika lift from the sofa and smiled again toward Shuichi who jumped from the sofa to hug her. "Thank you." She was surprised but her mouth formed into a smile. "You're welcome. I gotta go." Mika turned around and went to the door. "Ja." "Goodbye."
Shuichi sat down and leaned back. "Ha... I can't believe that she told me... Hiro... I owe you something. Umm...what was it you wanted to tell me before?" "Well.."
Outside, the sun was just about to set and the sky was colored in the most beautiful colors. Everything was yellow, red, violet and pink fading to the blue sky. Hiro watched it and made a decision. He turned around to take a look at Shuichi. He looked so beautiful with the glow of the evening sun on his face. The golden shimmer of the light was reflected by his dark, violet eyes. Hiro hugged Shuichi who hugged him back. Shuichi whispered a gentle 'Thank you' into Hiro's ear. His warm breath made Hiro shiver. And he pushed Shuichi tenderly an inch away. They now were face to face and looked into each others eyes. Hiro put his hand on Shuichi's cheek and caressed him lightly. Shuichi just blinked in surprise as Hiro's lips softly touched his. He closed his eyes and his lips parted to let Hiro's tongue explore his mouth. Shuichi touched Hiro's hair and combed it with his fingers. Their kiss became harder and faster while Hiro's hand moves under Shuichi's t-shirt to pull him closer. But Shuichi grew uncomfortable and pushed Hiro away from him."Hiro... I can't... why-" Hiro turned away. He couldn't stand it anymore. He wanted him. So badly. So long."Shuichi... I know that now isn't the right time..but if I don't tell you, I'll go crazy. You are not alone... "
// I love you.//
End of Chapter 4 - Changes
Chapter 4 - Changes
Shuichi was standing in a garden with fresh green grass and white flower petals whirling around. In the middle of it there was a tall, black- dressed, blonde man. He turned around and smiled to Shuichi. It was Yuki - HIS Yuki. He started running toward his beloved who opened up his arms to give Shuichi a warm and caring embrace.
"Oh, Yuki. How I've longed for this moment to come. I can't belie-" "Shh... don't talk now. Shuichi, I love you." A warm feeling expanded throughout Shuichi's whole body he wanted to hear these precious three words again and again. "Shuichi-" "I love you, too, Yuki"
Yuki made Shuichi shiver as his cold hand made its way down from Shuichi's neck to his chest. Yuki caressed Shuichi who seemed to enjoy it. He literally hungered for love and now he finally got what he had longed for.
But - something... just felt not...right. Shuichi looked down on himself as realized that Yuki's hand was entering his body - he grabbed for his heart and ripped it out of
him - holding Shuichi's heart in his hands Yuki was squeezing it - he squeezed harder and harder - Shuichi could feel the pain..
"Yuki.. why are you doing this? What did I do? You..you've just said you love me!" Shuichi cried out these words full of despair, fear and sadness.
"Oh...did I really say 'love' ? I meant to say that - I loathe you. Really, from the bottom of my heart, Shuichi, I deeply do."
With the squeezing becoming harder and harder, also the laughter of Yuki became harder and louder. It was a cruel and shrill laughing. It took insane measures as Yuki squeezed so hard that the heart burst. Shuichi screamed out - he couldn't bear this anymore. Shuichi sank to his knees with rivers of tears running down his distorted face. "Yuki... why do you do this to me? If you hate me that much, why don't you let go? Why do you haunt me every single second of my life? I never wanted to harm you! I LOVE YOU! Let it be...come on, don't torture me like that.. don't do this to me... I just want to be happy with you..." Shuichi had ran out of strength as he gasped these words crying and sobbing. "Yuki!"
"Yuki!"
"Yuki!"
"Yuki!"
Hiro heard the screams from the living room and quickly walked in there. He grabbed for Shuichi.
"Shuichi! Wake up!" He shook the smaller one to free him from whatever was taking over him. "Shu! Wake up, please!"
All out of a sudden, Shuichi opened is eyes in shock. He watched Hiro with unnaturally wide opened eyes as if he had seen the most horrible and terrible thing on earth. "Shu, everything okay?" Shuichi wasn't able to talk, neither to think. He looked around to find Yuki but couldn't see him anywhere.
"Yuki, where are you? Why are you gone? I still love you! I can't hate you! You can't do anything to make me stop loving you."
"SHU! Wake up for god's sake!" Shuichi made himself sit up to watch Hiro.
"You are not Yuki! What did you do to Yuki?" Shuichi suddenly went all mad and began hitting Hiro. "Give him back to me!"
Hiro grabbed Shuichi's fists to keep him from hitting him.
"SHUICHI! It's me! Hiro, your friend!! Yuki's not here, we are going to find him!"
Shuichi's face changed. The scared look turned into a sad heart-breaking expression.
"Hiro? Why..? Why can't he let me alone? He haunts me wherever I am. I'm not even save while I'm sleeping.. I can't... I can't go on, I won't have the strength to find him... and if I have, it won't be enough to face him."
"Shu, don't be foolish. Assumed that we'll find him, you'll be more than just happy to see him again. I'm sure of that."
"You really think so? Maybe..you're right..again. Oh, Hiro, what would I do if I hadn't you?"
"That's what friends are for, ne?" Hiro turned away from Shuichi to look out of the window and smiled a sad smile. If it weren't for Yuki, maybe he and Shuichi would be happy now... maybe Shuichi would realize that he was loved by someone. And for him, Hiro, love didn't only mean to be with the beloved but to be happy when this significant other is. With Shuichi being sad and depressed, he was as well. What kind of man Yuki had to be... that couldn't be love...
//...he knows that Shuichi admires and adores him... if he loved him he wouldn't just run off without saying a word. Or..is that man only a coward who doesn't know what love is? If I just could make Shuichi feel better... and forget Yuki.. Shu...//
"Hiro, what's up?" "Oh... nothing...just thought about something." Hiro forced a smile and sat down next to Shuichi. "Shu... I just wanted to tell you.." Shuichi made a questioning face. "Then tell me." "I.. umm.. I want you to know..."
Ding dong, the doorbell rang. [That thing's a timing... ^_]
"Tell me later, okay? It must be Mika." Shuichi stood up to open the door.
"Mika-san, thanks for coming. Please, come in."
"Domo." Mika entered the apartment and made her way to the living room. "Nakano-san, hi."
Hiroshi gave her a wave and drew his attention away, to the window again.
"Well, Shuichi, what can I do for you?"
"Mika-san... you know it. I have to know where Yuki is. Please. I'm begging you, tell me. I need to talk to him very urgently."
"Shuichi, you know that it's better for him not to see you." " Why Mika?... naze?" "You do know what happened not long ago... he had to go to the hospital because of you...I don't want him to be destroyed by you." Shuichi was speechless. Was he really destroying Eiri? Was it really his fault that Yuki went sick? He never wanted that... the only thing he longed for was to give Yuki his love.
Hiro interrupted. "Mika-san... do you really think it was Shuichi's fault? There have been problems in your family, right. With Ayaka, his fiancé... if it weren't for Shuichi, maybe Yuki would have turned to another person. He had never been interested in Ayaka after all. So don't blame Shu, it's not his fault. He just wants to be with Yuki because he loves him." Hiro felt a sudden pain like thousands of needles hitting has heart at once. Shuichi loved Yuki and not him. That was for sure... "What...what would you do if Touma would just leave? As long as you loved him, you'd want to see him. It's as simple as that... think about it. What's wrong with wanting to be with his beloved?" Mika's mouth opened then closed again. She thought about Touma..and what it would be like if she hadn't him...she'd be lost. Hiro was right... maybe it was not Shuichi's fault... "You're right..." Mika smiled. " He's in New York.. at least that's what I know. Good luck, Shuichi." Mika lift from the sofa and smiled again toward Shuichi who jumped from the sofa to hug her. "Thank you." She was surprised but her mouth formed into a smile. "You're welcome. I gotta go." Mika turned around and went to the door. "Ja." "Goodbye."
Shuichi sat down and leaned back. "Ha... I can't believe that she told me... Hiro... I owe you something. Umm...what was it you wanted to tell me before?" "Well.."
Outside, the sun was just about to set and the sky was colored in the most beautiful colors. Everything was yellow, red, violet and pink fading to the blue sky. Hiro watched it and made a decision. He turned around to take a look at Shuichi. He looked so beautiful with the glow of the evening sun on his face. The golden shimmer of the light was reflected by his dark, violet eyes. Hiro hugged Shuichi who hugged him back. Shuichi whispered a gentle 'Thank you' into Hiro's ear. His warm breath made Hiro shiver. And he pushed Shuichi tenderly an inch away. They now were face to face and looked into each others eyes. Hiro put his hand on Shuichi's cheek and caressed him lightly. Shuichi just blinked in surprise as Hiro's lips softly touched his. He closed his eyes and his lips parted to let Hiro's tongue explore his mouth. Shuichi touched Hiro's hair and combed it with his fingers. Their kiss became harder and faster while Hiro's hand moves under Shuichi's t-shirt to pull him closer. But Shuichi grew uncomfortable and pushed Hiro away from him."Hiro... I can't... why-" Hiro turned away. He couldn't stand it anymore. He wanted him. So badly. So long."Shuichi... I know that now isn't the right time..but if I don't tell you, I'll go crazy. You are not alone... "
// I love you.//
End of Chapter 4 - Changes
