A/N: So I got 6 updates, which isn't bad. I'm deciding to update this again. I won't make it a full-out story. Just a few Chapters.

Vanished -Chapter 2

First day back to school. Woo-Hoo. It wasn't the summer, I just felt school wasn't the place for me this past week. Everyone keeps saying how it will take my mind off of everything but It won't. Does everyone expect me to walk into French class and not be upset when the seat next to me is unoccupied. Seth would have sat there. We would have not payed attention throughout the whole class and do our French homework together at night. What about the locker situation. I'm guessing I should clean it out. This was not what I should have been thinking about. I had to put on the bright face I hated everyone for doing a week ago. I couldn't let Sandy and Kirsten see my pain. I needed to be strong for them and myself.

I walked slowly towards the Cohen household. Damn, this breakfast was going to be utterly quiet. On school days, Seth would come wake me up, we'd go into the kitchen have Cap't Crunch and talk about his girl problems. As much as I made it look like I hated hearing about them, It was satisfying. I loved hearing how a man with no woman get two, and then ended up with one hot chick. Summer. I wonder how she was even doing. I haven't talked to her at all this week. She hadn't even stopped by, or if she did, not to greet me the brooder who slumped into the poolhouse. I think maybe I'd ask her to go out for a drive today. I opened the door slightly putting on my face of forced contentment. I was not content at all.

"Hey Ryan..." Sandy said it quietly. He hadn't been to work since everything, and for Sandy to take a day off, it was crazy. Kirsten was the exact opposite. She went back to work the day after the service. I wasn't mad, this is how she dealt. By putting it off and putting her head in her work.

"Hey Sandy. How were the waves, where's Kirsten?" Sandy was still in his wetsuit. He surfed everyday this week. I think that's what got Seth off his mind. Even thou, I knew Seth was never completely off his mind.

"Kirsten's already at the office. The waves were great, Ryan. Maybe one day you can come? I'll teach you how to serf!" His face lifted after that. I knew it was a dream for his boys to hit the waves with him. Seth was never into it, but he always said one day he would. So of course, I was complied to say 'yes' as well. I think it would actually be good.

"Yeah, You know what, We'll go this weekend." I said it softly, but said it with enough enthusiasm he would take my answer and be happy with it.

"Great. What do you want for breakfast?"

"I'll stick with the Cap't Crunch.." Just saying it made me want to be sick. Seth loved 'The Crunch'. I could tell Sandy realized this as well, and his smile faded. Dammit, I should have stuck with the bagel.

"I'll grab it for you." He handed me the box, caressing the box gently, it was still half full, Seth touched this box. It brought back feelings of him, as if he were right here.

"Thanks Sandy" I ate quickly, the rest of our time in the kitchen consisted of silence. No one said a word. We both were thinking about the same thing. It would never get easier. As soon as I finished, I washed off my dishes and started to walk out of the kitchen. I didn't want to disturb Sandy's thoughts so I thought a quick exit might be for the best.

"Wait...Ryan. I'll give you a ride."

"Yeah, That be great."

The car ride, again was utter silence. I leaned my head against the window and stared out into the ocean. My thoughts contained of non other then Seth. Of course. I felt like he was right here. Sitting in the car, rambling about stuff. My thoughts felt so real, I turned around and saw Seth sitting there. He was looking right at me. I shook my head. What the fuck was wrong with me. I stared back into the ocean. Only to turn around to see him still sitting there.

"So Ryan, Do you think Summer is mad because I like didn't call her last night?"

"Seth? What the fuck...Your dead." The words escaped my mouth. I didn't even realize I said it. It was so real but it was over. Seth was gone. He vanished as soon as I started to speak. Fucken hallucinations.

"Ryan..." Shit, I forgot Sandy was even in the car.

"It seemed so real, I turned around and he was there....I'm sorry"

"It's okay, I see him sometimes too."

"You do?"

"Yeah...It's like were talking sometimes, but he's not really there, I'm just replaying something that's happened between us."

"That's how it was now..."

"It's good to have the memories, It's like he's still here.." His words were so still at the end, they felt frigid. Like a cold breeze hitting you when you get out of the pool on a cold night. I didn't know what to say to what Sandy said. The stop of the car brought me out of my thought.

"Okay, kid. Call me if you want to come home." His hand made it's way up to my shoulder. I tapped it slightly and exited the car. I watched Sandy pull away. I started to breath again. My heart felt heavy and I knew I wasn't ready for this yet but I walked up the steps..Knowing that this is what I had to do. Seth would have wanted this. I can't be with Seth right now. I need to be strong, and keep him alive. I know was going to be one of the longest days in my life.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong
And carry on
'Cos I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Here in Heaven -Eric Clapton.

Well, After I was done writing this chapter, I realized I want this to be a couple of chapters long. I thought this would be a one-parter. But I enjoyed this. Please read and Review. Be kind. Next Chapter will deal with the school stuff.

Rachel