This is my last chapter of this story. I know, It will be sad to see it go. I was going to continue it but I got these ideas. If you guys want one more follow-up. Like Ryan getting married and he talks to Seth or any other ideas let me know. I think it's good up to here but it's for you guys, so whatever floats your boats.

Chapter 4

As Summer drove off I felt relieved. Not because I didn't want to be with her, because it was one less person I had to stay around for now. Sandy and Kirsten would be at work for the rest of the day which meant I had the place to myself. For the first time since Seth's death. Of course I had the nights alone in the pool house, but I wasn't alone. I had worry and fear watching from the window above. Sandy and Kirsten's window. I was quite frankly worried about them as much as they were worried about me but It wasn't my place to intervene. I talked to Sandy as he drove me to school, I know a lot has changed, will change, but talking to him helped. I know that I'll still be with them. Now I understand what they would have went through if the spots were changed. I know how Seth would feel too. Thinking about him gave me goose bumps. I feel him as if he's here watching me. I know that giving him up would make me loose everything. If it weren't for him, I don't think I'd still be in Newport anyway. Of course Sandy and Kirsten want me here, there's no denying it but the bond we had is what got them to change there minds when I first got here. I know I, I always will. As I walk to the polyhouse I feel empty yet heavy. Like the weight on my shoulders is back again. I open the door and crash onto my bed. The weight has been lifted but I still feel like worlds on my shoulder. Everyone is leaning on me, like I'm some kind of soldier. As I turn to the side I hear a scrumple in my pocket...What's this? Seth's letter. Well, his assignment. I'm afraid to open it, but it will open wounds that need to heal. I'm the type of person who has seen many friends die over the years, but never someone I cared about this deeply. A brother. I know reading this will hurt. I'll be upset but I have to do it thou. Before I read it, I take out the other thing in my pocket. The picture. I lay it next to me and I start to open the letter. My hands quiver and I shudder. I never knew unfolding paper was so hard. I turn letter away and try to regain self-control. I can't break down but I feel as if I could..

*The Happiest Day Of My Life

When we were first asked to do this assignment I was dumbfounded. I haven't written a paper like this since first grade. It made me think a lot thou. I guess everyone would think that I was a truly happy person but I wasn't. I wasn't happy for the first 16 years of my life. Being Caleb Nichol's grandson had it's perks, believe me. He could buy me a car, even an amusement park If I wanted, but he couldn't buy me friends. I was tortured every day since pre-school. I've never really had a real friend till now.

August 5th was the day that made me life possible. That was the day my dad brought home Ryan. My dad worked as a free lawyer all of his life. My mom was the one who brought in the dough. He'd have many cases with teens that were troubled and needed extra help. He'd never brought any of them home before but that was his life and he loved it. He'd even discuss it at the dinner table. He told me once that he brought Ryan home because he saw something in him. Something he couldn't let get away. He saw him. When my dad saw me, I'm sure he saw my mom. Like, maybe she wasn't into the video games and comics but I was like her. He saw Ryan and it was a young him. I knew when Ryan came into the house that we could have a family. It would be complete I always felt like there was something missing anyway. I never had problems with my dad just because I was more like my mom. Where did he think I got the jew-fro from? I knew he had one back in the 1600's.

So, I'm getting off topic. August 5th was going to be a normal day. I would have played video games by myself. Eaten down by the pier, by myself and then gotten beaten up by Luke and his buddies, by myself. All of that happened, but after dinner is when It got good. Dad pulled in the driveway with Ryan in tow. Ryan was the kinda guy you'd be scared of. He looked like he was ready to rough anyone who messed with him up. I was kinda scared. Dad explained everything and as much as mom protested Ryan ended up stayed the weekend. Mom didn't like the idea of a felon staying in the house but she lost the battle and the war to come. That night we ended up going to a fashion party. Let me tell you, one of Newport's finest events, like every week. Me and Ryan got into an argument but it's after I was getting beat up he still helped me that I knew this wasn't going to slide. I had a friend. Ryan had my back 100% and even thou I was weak, I'd have his too.

When mom finally let Ryan stay for good I gained much for then a friend. I gained a brother. Even since Ryan got here, I looked up to him a lot. Maybe Ryan looks like a brooder and all he wants to do is kick some butt but there's a lot more to him then a lot of people realize. Ryan's got a heart of gold. He would never hurt anyone for no reason. Ryan's loving and caring. He's soft too, he just won't show it and he'd never admit it. Also, his family is most important thing to him. Even thou, he's had a lot of problems with his mom, he's still there for her. Hell, Casino night showed that. Most importantly he's here for me. Mom and Dad too, but with me, it's like I've known him my whole life. Everyday I wake up and thank him. Not to his face, but I say it out loud. I'd still be getting my ass kicked if it weren't for him. I wouldn't have my beautiful girlfriend Summer I wouldn't have anyone for that matter. Without him, I'd still be nothing and I wish he knew how much I loved him for it. Even If I got offered 50 million dollars, all the play boy bunnies a huge mansion or Ryan. I'd choose him in a heartbeat.

Seth Cohen*



After I was done reading the letter I was already crying. Why did he have to look up to me that way? I felt so happy that he did thou. It made me miss him so much It's like it was his voice reading it to me. Dammit I loved that kid. If anything, I wanted to thank him. I wish I just would have known this before everything. My cries were now reckless and I was sniffling galore. He was right about one thing I guess I am soft. I stuff the letter back in my pocket. I won't ever get rid of it. I'll probably read it everyday of my life.

"If you can hear me Seth, Thank you!" Were the last words I spoke till I drifted off into a state of prosperity.

The dream in my head is playing out and for some reason it seems all to real. Seth and I are in the Range Rover driving. I don't know where were going but with Seth there, I'm not worried. Death Cab For Cutie is playing in the background, and I turn to him give him one of my trademark glares. I glance at him for a second and my mouth makes a smile. As I look back out the window I know everything will be okay now. I now feel the comfort I've been searching for. As The car comes to a halt, I get out and walk down the road ahead. Seth's car is still parked behind me and that's my sign. Where ever I go for the rest of my life, I know Seth will be there watching me to make sure I'm okay.

Well That's it! How did you guys like it? Review, It only takes a few seconds, and I review for everyone else!

-Rachel

I'll be sad to see this go :(