Steve told Benny what he had discussed with David and Tommy.  He also mentioned what Tommy had said to him about emotional amnesia.  It was decided that Danny would go to work with him in the morning and not to the Punana's.  Benny would break the news to him in his afternoon session and Steve would brief his staff on what they might be able to expect.

As he hung up the phone Kono and Chin entered Steve's office.  They were able to determine that there were three witnesses who placed Danny and the girl at the record store just down from where Danny lives.  Danny goes their often so they knew him right away. 

"The clerk who waited on the girl said she was short some money so Danny helped her out.  She said the girl waited until after Danny made his purchase and they left the store together.  Last she saw them they were talking to some other people and they left.  Said Danny and the girl left in a van together."  Kono reported.

"That clerk remembered a good bit of detail."  Steve said surprised.

"She has a thing for Danny, so that's why she remembered...least that's what she said.  I was going to ask her out, but I thought maybe she's too young."  Kono answered honestly.  "You know though, she said no one ever approached her about this.  HPD never talked to her, but in the file it states they went to the store asking questions."

"I guess they just didn't ask the right people!"  Steve said as he tossed the HPD file on his desk.  "So we had at least three of them confront Danny and Mary Leipua in the parking lot.  My guess is one drove the van, one was in back of the van with Danny and Mary and one must have taken Mary's car back to the house.  That adds kidnapping and car theft to the list of offenses.  Also makes me believe even more that Mary was not a willing partner in any of this at any time."

"The kids Mary was to be with that evening said they never heard from her and it wasn't like her.  Can't imagine agreeing to party with your friends and then just running off to one where you don't know anyone!"  Chin supplied.

"I agree Chin.  For all practical purposes, I feel our official stance will be that everyone at that party were wiling participants with the exceptions of Danno and Mary Leipua.  I feel Danno can offer information on the holes we have and with that we'll close the case.  This time it will be closed with all the facts known!"

******

Steve looked over to his nervous passenger and tried his best to reassure him.  If the situation didn't have the potential of being traumatic to Danny, he would have teased him.  But Steve knew that today was going to be hard enough...he also couldn't shake the feeling that the evening would be even worse.  There would be a late session with Benny today and Danny would be walked through what happened to him that night of the incident.

No one was in the office when they arrived, Steve had planned it that way.  He felt this way Danny could take a look around without anyone watching his every move.  As they walked through Danny stopped at his office.

"This is mine isn't it?"  He asked his voice shaky.

"Yes.  Why don't you sit down at your desk and I'll start some coffee."

Danny hesitated, took a deep breath and stepped into the office then behind the desk.  He looked at the walls as if to study everything in detail.  He managed to sit down and slowly opened the drawers to his desk.  Finally he looked at the files and paperwork on top of his desk, even reading some of the case files.  Everything was familiar and he felt comfortable with the routine, he came very close to offering to start back to work.  'But what if something happens and I freeze.  What if someone gets hurt because of my hesitation.'  The thought almost made him tremble.  Thankfully he heard Steve call to him from the outer office that coffee was ready.

Following Steve back to his office, he felt as if he were at a second home.  If it weren't for his fear of inaction in a time of need, Danny knew he could fit back in as if he never left.  In time Chin, Kono, Duke and then Jenny all came in and the reunion was exuberant.  Danny's memory of the people he worked with and even some of the cases came to him rather quickly.

With the success of the office, Steve was anxious for Danny to go back to his apartment.  Unlike earlier that morning, the drive to Danny's apartment was filled with excited conversation from the passenger.  Once they arrived, Steve was pleased that Danny remembered which apartment was his and went straight to it.

Walking in Danny felt renewed.  He knew his memory was back.  There were a few holes, but nothing he felt significant.  For the first time since the incident, Danny felt as though all would be well. 

"So when do I get to stay home?  Not that I don't appreciate staying with you!"  Danny added with a grin.

"You're off the hook Danno!  I know what you're trying to say.  As for when, maybe we can ask Benny that question tonight."  Steve knew there would be no way Benny would let Danny be alone until everything was settled and out in the open.  But that would be left for Benny to say.

After more than an hour in the apartment, Danny got some things he wanted to take with him and they headed for an early dinner, then on to see Benny.

******

Unlike his previous visits, Benny met Steve and Danny in Steve's office.  He wanted to talk to Danny in surroundings that he was more familiar with, but not completely comfortable around.  Danny knew immediately what was going on and settled into one of Steve's chairs.  He knew it would be a long night.

"Danny, we know that you met a teenager girl at the record store just down from your apartment. We know you helped her purchase a record then left where you were met by three men.  The two of you got in a van, most likely against your will and then taken to a house where a drug party was underway.  While in that house, you were badly beaten, stabbed and rendered unconsciousness.  When the police came, they found you handcuffed to a wall ornament."  Benny didn't go into any more detail, the rest Danny would need to discover for himself.

Danny was quiet as he took in the information.  He showed no expression of recognition, but did seem to be slightly upset with what was being said.

"We're going to take you to each place in hopes that it will help you recall.  Steve and I both will be with you, we will not leave your side at any time."  Benny added.

"I really don't want to do this just yet."  Danny answered as he stood and nervously rubbed his hands.  The sweat on his hands and his forehead began to build.  Wiping his hands on his jeans, he didn't feel as though they could get dry.

"Danno, it's time.  For the most part your memory has returned.  But you seem to refuse to face what happened to you...you're afraid of someone getting hurt around you and you failing to help them."

"What's so unusual about that?!"  Danny snapped angrily.

"Nothing is wrong with that...but you're obsessed with it!  It runs yours life and is preventing you from recovering enough to continue with your career.  That's not you Danno."  Steve retorted.

Danny knew there was no way of changing their minds, so he felt he had no choice.  He agreed, but knew he already didn't like any of it.

Danny listened carefully to what Steve thought might have happened at the record store.  Being there didn't refresh his memory and caused no reaction on Danny's part.  The ride to the house was also uneventful as was looking at the house once they reached their destination.  The three men went into the house and stood at the doorway to the living room.  Danny looked around but didn't seem to feel anything.

He was led to the bedroom where he was found and again there was no reaction.  Steve went to where Danny had been handcuffed and began to describe what he thought happened.  This was information Danny had not been given before.  As Steve slowly began to recount his theory Danny felt his body go numb.  He dropped slowly to the floor, his skin grew cold and clammy, his eyes widened as if in a trance.

"Mary.  Her name was Mary."  Danny began still in a trance like daze.  "I had just gotten home from work and decided to go to the record store before going into my apartment.  It wasn't far, so I just walked.  I was in the check out line and Mary was short some money for a record she wanted.  I heard her say it was the last one they had and asked if they could hold it for her.  They said no...so I gave her the money she lacked.

She was all excited.  She couldn't believe I did that for her and she kept thanking me.  She said it was her 16th  birthday and her first time driving alone.  Her parents let her go by herself to buy the album she had been wanting.  Sweet 16 party, she said they gave her a Sweet 16 party earlier and was meeting friends for another party later.  She told me all about getting her license...she got up early that morning and made her parents take her to get them."  Danny began to smile and gave a small laugh, "She was so full of excitement.  I had to laugh, but she knew I wasn't making fun of her.  Her enthusiasm...I couldn't believe it.  I actually enjoyed listening to her.  She talked a mile a minute."  Danny grew silent as he remembered their meeting and the conversation that took place.

'My parents got me a new car for my birthday!  Well, it's new to me at least!' Danny remembered her saying.  The girl giggled and continued.  'I love the Beatles and I couldn't believe that they still had this album left!  It's their newest one.  Do you have it?'

Danny recalled looking at the record she was holding and knew he wouldn't get a chance to answer so he just nodded yes as his smile grew wider.  He wasn't sure what it was about the attractive teen that drew him to her.  She had such a magnetic personality...not to mention her perky energy.  Her voice was soft and sweet.  Just like...Jane...that was it...she reminded him of Jane.  Looking at the pretty girl Danny couldn't help but think Jane was probably just like her as a teenager...only unlike Jane, Mary had doting parents.

Somehow during the conversation he had managed to tell her his name.  She wanted him to see her car so Danny agreed to walk her...besides he felt it was best.  It wasn't late, but the skies were dark.

Snapping out of his trance only slightly, Danny looked up to Steve, "Who is Jane?"

"I don't know Danno.  Was she at the record store, maybe she was here?"

"No."  Danny replied quietly then looked around the room.  He was still on the floor and made no attempt to get up.  He could feel the tears running down his cheeks but made no effort to wipe them away.

Steve was ready to end this, but Benny held out his hand to stop.  He knew Danny had to go through this in order to be completely well.

"What happened Danny?"  Benny urged gently.

"There were three of them.  Two of them stepped out in front of us in the parking lot, then a third one came up beside Mary and pulled out a knife.  He was holding it to her side.  They told us they wanted our car.  I told Mary to give them her keys and she did.  I knew she was scared so I reached for her hand.  She told them which car was hers, then they told us to get in the van.  I didn't want to do that so I tried to talk to them.  The one with the knife pressed it harder against Mary and she began to cry a little.  I was afraid they would actually stab her, so I did what they said.  When one of them pushed me into the van he felt I had a gun on me.  While the other guy put Mary in, the first one grabbed for my gun.  We were struggling for it when I heard Mary cry out my name.  The one guy who had her, put the knife to her throat and yelled for me to stop.   When I let go of my hold on the gun I was hit.  The next thing I remember was being dragged and then I felt them cuffing my hands to something.  I'm not real sure of what all happened, I was still pretty out of it.

I remember seeing them throw Mary on the bed and tying her to it.  She was screaming for me to help.  I tried as hard as I could but the cuffs only grew tighter."  Danny stopped and a steady stream of tears rolled on to his cheeks and down his face.  Danny looked to the bed and began to cry. "They began to beat Mary yelling at her to shut up.  She was screaming and begging for me to help her.  She was begging me and I just sat here!  I tried so hard to free myself but it wasn't working...I just sat here.  I screamed at them...STOP!  They were ripping off her clothes and began...they..."  Danny struggled to continue but his crying was uncontrollable.  Steve felt tears burning his eyes once more, he desperately wanted to go to Danny and stop him.  But he knew he couldn't. 

Still crying but with more control, Danny looked up to Steve unashamed.  His voice sounded like that of a small child, "They raped her Steve, right in front of me they...all of them!"  Immediately his crying stopped, the tears still flowed down his face, but his voice became strong and angered.  "And I just SAT here WATCHING!  All I did was yell for them to stop...that was all!  One of them came at me with the knife and stabbed me, then the one who had my gun began to hit me.  He didn't stop he just kept hitting me...over and over.  Mary was still crying and I kept trying to get free.  I'M A COP!!  I didn't help her!  Do you hear me...I just sat there!"  Danny's shoulder shook as he softly cried.  His anger gone, his voice now took on the tone of desperation, "I began to yell for you...I thought you could help her because I didn't seem to be doing anything.  I saw one of them leave and come back.  He went to Mary and while two of them held her head the third blew into her nose.  I knew it had to be cocaine.  I don't know why, but I kept calling for you.  Then they tried to force the drugs in my nose but I guess they were so high they couldn't do it.  I couldn't fight them, they didn't even have to hold me down to do it, but they were so out of it.  Another guy was mad cause they wasted they're stuff on me, so he began to kick me.  The last thing I remember, was one of them went back to Mary.  All I did was sit there and cried out for you.  I felt another hit to my head, then nothing."

Steve and Benny tried to steady themselves, but both men felt their legs becoming weak.  Danny looked up at Steve and began to stand.  He made a feeble attempt to wipe his tears away but they continued to fall from his red swollen eyes.  Danny looked around the room with his head low as if he were defeated and the uncontrollable crying began again. "I'm a cop...I'm supposed to stop people from getting hurt... but I didn't...I didn't do anything to help her Steve.  I just sat there and did nothing.  Her parents, how they must hate me...to think their daughter would have a chance since she was with a cop...only to have nothing done for their daughter."  The more Danny talked the more hysterical he became.  Having heard enough, Benny took a syringe from the bag he brought with him and filled it with a sedative for Danny.  As he administered the sedative, Danny slowly collapsed into Steve's arms and began to softly cry, "Steve...Steve...Steve."

Steve held Danny for close to an hour when Benny began to pull Danny away from him. He had been in his own trance after Danny began to call out to him and now realized Benny was trying to get Danny away from the house.  Each man put one of Danny's arms around their necks and together carried him to the car.  It was decided they would take Danny to his own apartment and that Steve would stay with him there.  They both just felt Danny needed to be in his home and in his bed.  After Danny was taken care of Benny left, there was no talk and no questions...both men were too drained to try and analyze what had happened that evening.  Tomorrow would be soon enough.

Early the next morning Benny came back to Danny's apartment and was greeted with an exhausted Steve. 

"You stayed up all night?"

"No, most of it...but not all of it.  Kept listening for Danno and then thinking.  Benny, how could Danno possibly think he didn't try to help Mary?  I mean one look at his wrists alone should be enough to convince anyone...not to mention the beating he took."

"You've told me before that Danny always seems to lack confidence in himself when he is the one in trouble.  I think this is just one of those times when he felt inadequate.  Think about it Steve...what if it had been you?  Everyone is dead...everyone but you.  Even you would begin to think you must have done something wrong."

Steve rubbed the back of his neck as he walked to Danny's kitchen and began to put on another pot of coffee.  "Maybe so...but that doesn't change the fact that Danno did fight...he nearly lost both hands AND his life because he fought so hard."

"Steve, the reason I came rather than called is because I talked with the Leipua's last night.  I'm going to their house after I leave here and I'm going to tell them everything that we know about what happened to their daughter.  I also plan on telling them about Danny and what has happened to him."

Steve froze, "You've talked with them?"

"Not to the extent I have with Danny, they don't even know I'm seeing Danny.  I told them I was assigned to their daughter's case...and that was true.  I wanted to see how they were, I felt that I needed to."  Benny explained.  "They have healed some, they're very religious and have found strength in that.  They mentioned that you had told them she was raped.  Now I believe they have a right to know everything.  I'm only asking you if I can give them the rest of the story, I don't want to interfere with your case.  As for Danny, it may possibly make a difference for him.  It is my hope that they ask to meet Danny.  I believe all three of them can find some closure in their meeting each other."

Steve continued with making the coffee and was in deep concentration.  There would be no interference with the investigation.  There were no criminals to charge and there would be no trials or sentencing.  No one to say they were sorry...he understood how important closure was in the midst of a horrifying situation such as this.  No doubt Danny would need some type of closure. "I think it's risky, but I also think you're right.  What if the Leipua's don't ask to see Danny?  Will you mention it to them?"

"No.  It must come from them...otherwise it could backfire on us.  Bring Danny by my office at the base after he gets up.  I should be in by that time."

******

Steve sat on the lanai as he waited for Danny to get up.  It was close to 10:00 in the morning when he heard Danny go in the kitchen then walk out to where he was sitting. 

"How is it Danno?"

"I thought I would be grateful to have my memory back...now I know what they mean about ignorance is bliss.  But, I'll be OK."  He replied not so convincingly.

"Yeah, I know you will.  Benny came by this morning.  He was on his way to visit Mary Leipua's parents.  He felt they should know what happened."

Danny stared down at his coffee and began to play with the cup.  "They need to know."

"He wants you to come to his office today, he also hopes that you and the Leipua's can meet."

The news struck a nerve and Danny's head shot up.  His eyes were wide with fear, "Steve, I don't feel like that can help anyone.  I...I don't want to meet them, I'm sorry!  But I can't.  Not now anyways."

"Danno, you gave Mary everything you could...even more.  You have absolutely nothing to feel sorry about."  Steve tried to convince his friend but it was obvious Danny didn't agree.  "Why don't you get dressed and we'll get the visit with Benny out of the way first thing."

Danny shook his head then left to get ready.  Steve watched the younger man as he left...he wanted so desperately for Danny to understand that he wasn't to blame for what had happened...he wanted him to know and to feel that he did his best.

As Danny was going through the living room the phone rang.  Instinctively he picked up the phone without even thinking.

"Hi Dan!  I've really missed you."  The feminine voice at the other end was soft and sexy, only problem was Danny wasn't sure who it belonged to...but he wished he did.  "Dan, I'm sorry that I don't have time to talk and this is in such a rush, but I wanted to give you my flight information.  Mother and father are anxious for me to leave...but not near as anxious as I am.  I have missed seeing you and I can't wait to get home."  Dan tried to interrupt but couldn't seem to get a word in.  The woman gave him the flight information and Danny found himself writing it down.  "I'm so sorry for this rushed call...but I really have to go.  Thank you so much for offering to pick me up...I'm so glad that you did.  Oh and Dan, I can't wait to see you, I've missed you so.  See you soon!"

Danny heard a click and he looked at the receiver.  Turning back to the lanai he called out to Steve.  "I think I have another problem!"

******

Unlike his other appointments with Benny, this time it was at his office on the Naval base.  In the other office, it was always quite and never a wait.  This time it was very crowded and he was certain he was in store for a long wait.  Benny shared this office with two other psychiatrists and Danny hoped that most of the patients were there for them and not Benny.  Steve looked around and told Danny he would be back to get him.

"Listen to Benny, Danno.  Give him a chance.  I know you don't want to see the Leipua's, maybe Benny can add more to it to set your mind at ease."  Steve advised before he left.

The room was crowded but Danny managed to find a quiet corner that offered some privacy.  A couple came in with who Danny imagined was their daughter.  They sat in an area across the room from him where there were several empty seats.  Rather than sit with her parents, the girl came and sat next to Danny.

She noisily thumbed through one of the magazines and let out a deep sigh as she tossed the magazine back on the table.  She looked around the room and then at Danny.  She couldn't help but notice that both of his wrists were bandaged.  Despite her disinterest in life, she found intrigued by his bandages and couldn't resist asking.

"You tried pretty hard for it not to work."

Danny looked at the young teenager quizzically.

"You're wrists," she said motioning towards the bandages.  "You slash both your wrists, but it didn't work."

"No," before he continued Danny looked at her wrists but they were fine.  He may not have become a psychiatrist, but he had enough psychiatry in college to know where the girl beside him was coming from.  "What did you try?" 

She stared at him for a moment studying him, "I guess you're safe enough.  After all, we have something in common.  Pills.  I took a bunch of pills, but my mother and her husband got home early."

Danny hated the thought that someone so young would want to die...or was it that she felt desperate for attention.  She was acting tough and he knew she wasn't, but he also knew if he wasn't tough back she would loose interest. "Did they get home early by accident, or was that how you planned it?"

The girl seemed miffed and nearly got up.  But she knew in her heart he was right and she was curious how he knew. 

"Probably the same as you." She answered sharply.

"So, what's your story?"  Danny asked continuing to play her game.

The girl looked around and tried to be detached from her feelings.  Her eyes betrayed her though.  THAT was what Danny believed they had in common...you could see what they both felt by looking into their eyes.  Finally the girl answered in a soft but unemotional voice.

"My father was killed in action a few months ago.  My mother didn't even cry.  She and her new husband!  She abandoned my father!  She left him and went off with the man she's married to now.  I couldn't take it anymore.  I wasn't sure who I was anymore, all I knew is my father was dead and he was the only one who cared about me."

Danny said nothing while he listened to her talk, but being an outsider looking in...it wasn't hard for him to figure out what was wrong.  She blamed herself for her parents divorce, which she believed in her heart was the reason her father died.  'A heavy load for someone so young.'  He thought before he spoke.

"Sounds to me like your mother cares very much, even your step-father."  Danny said in a gentle voice.

"They say they do.  But I just don't understand why my mother left my father in the first place. If she had stayed with him, then he would be alive today."

"You know that's not true.  Your in a great deal of pain because of your dad, but you're mother had nothing to do with his death.  Neither did your step-father.  And neither did you."  Danny knew that his last statement hit a nerve.

"If he weren't around, my parents would still be married...and my dad would be alive."  She nearly cried.

"Did you talk to your parents about why they divorced?"

"Yes, but I kept hoping they would see what it was doing to me and get back together.  I knew they would get back together...but then he came along."

"Seems to me that your mom and dad's divorce had nothing to do with you...and no matter how hard you tried..."  Danny nearly choked.  He understood what Steve had been trying to say to him and he knew it to be true.  Gently Danny answered, but he wasn't sure who he was talking to...the girl or to his own self, "No matter how hard you try...you can only do what is in your power to do.  It wasn't in your power to bring them back together and it wasn't you who made them break up either."

The girl seemed to finally really hear what had been told to her all along as well.  Her eye's lit up, then she asked, "Are your parents divorced?"

"I don't have any parents.  They died when I was real little.  I do have foster parents though...and if you give them a chance...they can be pretty great."  Danny answered as he nodded towards the girl's step-father.  "I would say they both love you pretty much.  They're here with you aren't they.  I bet your step-father didn't have to be here at all.  He looks scared...they both look scared."

"He's not my father."  The girl spat.

"No, but he's the only one you've got left.  It's not his fault your parents divorced is it?"

"No, but it's his fault they didn't back together.  And that's why my father died."

"The person who killed your father is at fault for his death.  Not your step-father."  Danny's voice took on an even more tender tone.  "You know...when you're a grown up, you have to accept the responsibilities and facts as they are.  You have to leave your fantasy world and deal with reality.  Sometimes that's pretty tough.  I was lucky, I had people in my life that helped me with the real world.  Looks like you have two people over there who want to help you."

She looked to the two people who entered the room with her.  At first she softened, but she was afraid.  "Looks are deceiving." 

Danny looked at the bandages on his wrists and began to remove them.  When they were off the girl's mouth dropped open.  It was obvious that his bandages were not from a suicide attempt.  The stitches were still in and were mainly on the sides and front of each wrist where the handcuffs ate through the skin and nearly to the bone.  "Looks aren't deceiving when everything is uncovered."

"What does that suppose to mean," she asked.

"Talk to your mom and step-father, see who they are.  You may see that they do love you and want you...and even need you.  Take the bandages off of your relationship with them."  Danny answered looking her in the eyes.

"Boy are you corny!"  She replied, but without conviction.

Danny smiled and gave her a wink, "maybe...but you still have a mother.  And she is here and she is alive."  Danny gave her a few moments to let that sink in then began to re-wrap his wrists.  "The doctor said with any luck, you'll barely see a scar after they heal completely.  But as you can see, I didn't try suicide." 

The girl watched Danny wrap the bandages around his wrist.  She was listening closely now and understood completely what he was telling her. 

"Sometimes things aren't the way they appear," Danny continued.  "You look perfectly normal, I wouldn't have known you tried to kill yourself.  Both of my wrists were bandaged, you wouldn't have known that I tried to survive."  Danny looked back at the girl who now had a tear in her eye.  "Why don't you give them a real chance to prove how much they need you in their lives.  Let them help you through the heartache of losing your father...especially your mom."

The young girl wiped away her tear and smiled slightly as Danny finished with the bandages.  The nurse called for Danny and he stood.  Before he left the waiting room he looked back and saw the young girl go back and sit with her mother and step-father.  Danny knew she still had a long road ahead of her, but felt warm inside thinking he may have helped her a little...maybe helped them both.