Title: Sanctuary Psych Ward
Rating: Rated R
Disclaimer: I do not own Angel Sanctuary and I do not claim to.
Warnings: Alternate Universe (AU), Yaoi, Yuri
Pairings: RosielxKatan, KiraxSetsuna, KatohxArakune, KuraixSara
Genre: Angst, Romance
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Sanctuary
Psych Ward: Chapter Twelve: Broken
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Setsuna lay on his bed, reading another book he borrowed from Rosiel. He hadn't spoken to anyone in a few hours, but
most of that time was in the shower. He
had an hour long cold shower, then switched the water over to 'hot' and had an
hour long hot shower. When Sara came in
to talk to him, he told her he wasn't in the mood to talk. He felt depressed.
He wouldn't admit it, but finding Kira with someone else hurt. It didn't hurt so much that he had found
Kira, but it was the fact that it was the first time he had allowed someone to
get that close since his parents divorced.
He allowed someone that close and it blew up in hit face. That's why he was depressed.
Sighing, Setsuna shut the book and placed it on the table next to him. Pulling the blanket up to cover himself,
Setsuna shut his eyes. No sooner had the
calming dark of sleep taken him, Kira walked into the room. He quietly made his way over to his bed when
he saw Setsuna sleeping. He didn't want
to wake the other boy.
Kira plopped down on his head, staring at the ceiling. For the past few hours he had thought about
what Setsuna had said. He didn't believe
the blonde. He wasn't scared. No, no, no, Kira Sakaya wasn't scared. Kira knew he wasn't, but couldn't help but
think about it.
It's true; he never really opened up and allowed anyone to help him. He never really trusted anyone though. Well, except Katoh. However, Kira considered Katoh to be
different then everyone else. Him and
Katoh got into trouble together, but never ratted each other out, so it was
easy to trust him. He doubted they would
ever rat on each other.
Kira sighed. He had no reason to be
thinking about this, but he was. It was
the first time anyone had ever said anything like this to him, and it bothered
him. 'Maybe
I do, but you blame you're disorder for not being able to feel complex emotions
when I think you're just scared.' Growling softly, Kira buried his head
under his pillow, trying to forget the sentence.
He remembered the way it was before he was admitted. If anyone had ever called him scared, they
wouldn't be able to walk for weeks. Why
was it so different now? There were so
many questions in his head that he couldn't answer. Well, at least he didn't think he could
answer them.
Reaching over at the table, he grabbed his portable CD player. Placing the headphones on, he turned the
player on with the volume all the way up.
The sounds of 'Juliana Theory' assaulted his ears. His foot slowly moved to the beat, helping
him to ignore the nagging questions in his mind.
Nothing was going to get rid of them though.
Even through the music, Kira could hear himself think. Analyzing each question to find the best
answer for each. He wasn't scared, at
least not of the normal things. He
wasn't scared about trusting people, but it did worry him. Outside of Katoh, people he trusted in the
past always betrayed him. He wasn't
using his disorder as an excuse though, that was the one thing he was sure
Setsuna was wrong about. That was the
only thing though.
Sure, he was slightly worried about trusting people, but not scared. Kira was sure of it. He didn't need anyone's help though, which is
why he never allowed people to help him.
Or so he thought; now he wasn't so sure. Of course, that didn't explain why he didn't
help himself.
Sighing again, Kira shut off his CD player, and got off the bed. He walked the few feet and sat down on
Setsuna's bed. Taking a deep breath, he
reached out and shook the blonde's sleeping form. Setsuna rolled over in his bed, looking up at
Kira with sleep laden eyes.
Setsuna sighed softly, rolling back over.
"Go away, Kira..." he muttered.
"No..." Kira responded. "We....we
need to talk..."
"I don't think we need to."
"I do..." Kira stated. He turned
Setsuna over, grabbing both of his wrists with one hand, his other hand on the
blonde's stomach to keep him from turning.
Setsuna glared up at Kira. "What do you
think you're doing?!"
"I have something I want to say and I'm going to say it. So you're going to lay here and listen to me." Kira growled.
Setsuna glared at Kira again but didn't respond. Kira sighed softly, releasing his grasp on
Setsuna. The blonde moved into the
sitting position. "Okay...you were
partly right."
"Excuse me?"
"What you said earlier, you were partly right in what you said." Kira
stated.
Setsuna raised a blonde eyebrow. "So you admit that you're scared?"
"No...I'm not scared." Kira stated. "But....I have my reasons for not letting
people help me."
"Really? There's more then the simple fact that you're an ass?" Setsuna
retorted.
"Shut up!" Kira snapped. Setsuna became
quiet. "I just...I didn't trust anyone before I got here and I still don't."
"So that's why you sleep around?"
"No, I do that for fun." Kira stated.
"Right...have you ever been with just one
person?" Setsuna asked, stressing the word 'one'.
"Once...but you know, they betrayed me.
I guess that's when I stopped trusting people."
"So instead of having your heart broken you break other people's hearts?"
"I guess...if you want to put it that way..."
Setsuna sighed. "Is there a reason you're
telling me this?"
"Yes..."
"What is it, then?"
Kira smiled softly, leaning over and giving Setsuna a quick kiss. "I guess...I'm
trying to say I'm sorry...." he stated.
"And you do a hell of a job..." Setsuna stated.
Kira rolled his eyes. "Go back to sleep,
we'll talk later."
"Fine." Setsuna laid back down, curling into a little
ball.
