Title: Sanctuary Psych Ward
Rating: Rated R
Disclaimer: I do not own Angel Sanctuary and I do not claim to.
Warnings: Alternate Universe (AU), Yaoi, Yuri
Pairings: RosielxKatan, KiraxSetsuna, KatohxArakune, KuraixSara
Genre: Angst, Romance

Thanks to the Reviewers
Tia:
Oh...it comes back in this chapter...so grow up...
Dark-English-Rose:  ^_^ I love angst.
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Sanctuary Psych Ward: Chapter Twelve: Broken
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Setsuna lay on his bed, reading another book he borrowed from Rosiel.  He hadn't spoken to anyone in a few hours, but most of that time was in the shower.  He had an hour long cold shower, then switched the water over to 'hot' and had an hour long hot shower.  When Sara came in to talk to him, he told her he wasn't in the mood to talk.  He felt depressed.

He wouldn't admit it, but finding Kira with someone else hurt.  It didn't hurt so much that he had found Kira, but it was the fact that it was the first time he had allowed someone to get that close since his parents divorced.  He allowed someone that close and it blew up in hit face.  That's why he was depressed. 

Sighing, Setsuna shut the book and placed it on the table next to him.  Pulling the blanket up to cover himself, Setsuna shut his eyes.  No sooner had the calming dark of sleep taken him, Kira walked into the room.  He quietly made his way over to his bed when he saw Setsuna sleeping.  He didn't want to wake the other boy.

Kira plopped down on his head, staring at the ceiling.  For the past few hours he had thought about what Setsuna had said.  He didn't believe the blonde.  He wasn't scared.  No, no, no, Kira Sakaya wasn't scared.  Kira knew he wasn't, but couldn't help but think about it. 

It's true; he never really opened up and allowed anyone to help him.  He never really trusted anyone though.  Well, except Katoh.  However, Kira considered Katoh to be different then everyone else.  Him and Katoh got into trouble together, but never ratted each other out, so it was easy to trust him.  He doubted they would ever rat on each other. 

Kira sighed.  He had no reason to be thinking about this, but he was.  It was the first time anyone had ever said anything like this to him, and it bothered him.  'Maybe I do, but you blame you're disorder for not being able to feel complex emotions when I think you're just scared.' Growling softly, Kira buried his head under his pillow, trying to forget the sentence. 

He remembered the way it was before he was admitted.  If anyone had ever called him scared, they wouldn't be able to walk for weeks.  Why was it so different now?  There were so many questions in his head that he couldn't answer.  Well, at least he didn't think he could answer them. 

Reaching over at the table, he grabbed his portable CD player.  Placing the headphones on, he turned the player on with the volume all the way up.  The sounds of 'Juliana Theory' assaulted his ears.  His foot slowly moved to the beat, helping him to ignore the nagging questions in his mind.

Nothing was going to get rid of them though.  Even through the music, Kira could hear himself think.  Analyzing each question to find the best answer for each.  He wasn't scared, at least not of the normal things.  He wasn't scared about trusting people, but it did worry him.  Outside of Katoh, people he trusted in the past always betrayed him.  He wasn't using his disorder as an excuse though, that was the one thing he was sure Setsuna was wrong about.  That was the only thing though.

Sure, he was slightly worried about trusting people, but not scared.  Kira was sure of it.  He didn't need anyone's help though, which is why he never allowed people to help him.  Or so he thought; now he wasn't so sure.   Of course, that didn't explain why he didn't help himself.

Sighing again, Kira shut off his CD player, and got off the bed.  He walked the few feet and sat down on Setsuna's bed.  Taking a deep breath, he reached out and shook the blonde's sleeping form.  Setsuna rolled over in his bed, looking up at Kira with sleep laden eyes.

Setsuna sighed softly, rolling back over.  "Go away, Kira..." he muttered.

"No..." Kira responded.  "We....we need to talk..."

"I don't think we need to."

"I do..." Kira stated.  He turned Setsuna over, grabbing both of his wrists with one hand, his other hand on the blonde's stomach to keep him from turning.

Setsuna glared up at Kira.  "What do you think you're doing?!"

"I have something I want to say and I'm going to say it.  So you're going to lay here and listen to me."  Kira growled.  Setsuna glared at Kira again but didn't respond.  Kira sighed softly, releasing his grasp on Setsuna.  The blonde moved into the sitting position.  "Okay...you were partly right."

"Excuse me?"

"What you said earlier, you were partly right in what you said." Kira stated. 

Setsuna raised a blonde eyebrow. "So you admit that you're scared?"

"No...I'm not scared."  Kira stated.  "But....I have my reasons for not letting people help me."

"Really? There's more then the simple fact that you're an ass?" Setsuna retorted.

"Shut up!" Kira snapped.  Setsuna became quiet. "I just...I didn't trust anyone before I got here and I still don't."

"So that's why you sleep around?"

"No, I do that for fun." Kira stated.

"Right...have you ever been with just one person?" Setsuna asked, stressing the word 'one'.

"Once...but you know, they betrayed me.  I guess that's when I stopped trusting people."

"So instead of having your heart broken you break other people's hearts?"

"I guess...if you want to put it that way..."

Setsuna sighed.  "Is there a reason you're telling me this?"

"Yes..."

"What is it, then?"

Kira smiled softly, leaning over and giving Setsuna a quick kiss. "I guess...I'm trying to say I'm sorry...." he stated.

"And you do a hell of a job..." Setsuna stated.

Kira rolled his eyes.  "Go back to sleep, we'll talk later."

"Fine." Setsuna laid back down, curling into a little ball.