~Rosedust Agony~

It hurts.

The sting, it's so fresh and raw, it burns. It blazes through my body like fire and nothing can heal it. No, not true, there is something, but it can never happen. I don't want to feel this way, I don't want to hurt and ache every time I see him. I want to run and scream and tear out my hair. I want to tell them not to kiss where I can see them, to laugh where I can hear them, to love where I can feel them. I want to yell at them to please stop, just till I leave, just till I'm gone, but I can't. I can't because they're not really here, but I can see, hear, feel everything when I look into his eyes. I can see when he looks at me, he doesn't see me, he sees another girl in pink with shining brown eyes and a warmth all her own. He doesn't see blonde hair and blue eyes, hear a soft accent he sees her. I can't look him in the eyes, I can't see what's there because I love him… and he loves her and she loves him.

 I never asked to have this feeling, to feel my heart speed up when I'm near him, to feel a trembling in my stomach, a smile spread across my face whenever he's near. I wish I didn't love him with his strength and charm and courage and amazing will. I wish others wouldn't look at me like I planned this; like it's my ingenious plot to separate them. I wanted her to be who she was, all of who she was so I helped her fight her fear and now…I'm in pink. I don't want to be pink…I want to be me; I want to be free from a love I can't have. I want to stop feeling this way! I don't want to steal! I just want to be loved and my foolish heart has fallen for a man I can't have and won't take. Part of me wishes that I could be the hero, like in books and movies where I would rescue him from his evil girlfriend. But she isn't a witch, she's a brave princess and he is her fierce knight who will wait for her return and I…I'm just the squire trudging next to him, supporting him in his quest and longing for him in my heart. That's all I ever can be…his supporter, his friend…and that will have to be enough for my aching heart.

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            This isn't right. This can't be right, I won't believe this, this isn't supposed to happen. I'm not supposed to look into his eyes and see him breaking, falling apart. I'm supposed to see love for someone else, I'm supposed to be secretly thrilled that he's available…but God his pain, he shouldn't hurt like this, it isn't right. He's trying to be brave, but he's dying. I need to do something, help him make it better, but how, how do you do that when the man you love and your friend is hurt beyond reason. I don't care who he ends up with, just someone please make the pain in his eyes go away, make my friend stop hurting. He doesn't deserve this! He's had enough pain, give him back his princess…give him someone. Let him be happy, he's saved the Earth countless times; he deserves happiness from someone…Heather. Heather she can make Tommy happy, she can make his pain less and then gone. It won't be me…but that doesn't matter anymore. Nothing matters but his happiness…if I can make him happy in this way then good, wonderful even. As long as his pain is gone and my friend is happy, that's all I care about. I love him, I really truly do and I want to see that loving warm glow in his eyes again…even if it's never meant for me.

Ok, just a little piece on unrequited love…from Kat's POV. Having felt the sting myself this piece just kinda popped into my head. Also, I don't own so please don't sue. Review as you like, but please no flames~Ice