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Disclaimer: roses are red, violets are blue, I don't own Ranma, and neither do you!! (unless you are Rumiko Takahashi) ^-^
Warning: OOCness and swearing.
Chapter 6:What Lies in the Truth
By Chinagirl223
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***Akane's Dream***
We are in a field. Alone. The trees at the edge of the tall grasses rustle and sway. They are our destination. We travel the maze of flowers and grass. We don't really know where we are headed, but we are being watched- I can feel it. I think that I have been here before. But different. And old woman points west, "Nerima..." She whispers. We head the other way. My companion does not wish to go back. Go back? To what? To where? To who? But somehow, we only get closer and now, there are more people who tell us, "Nerima..."
But me it whispers a different name. A who, not a where or why. Ranma. It is the same for my companion- but for a different reason.
Now it is stormy in the sky. The clouds crash like waves against each other. They battle for justice. And they battle against it. They battle for truth. That is the only thing I see. So who is battling who? Is Ranma battling Ryouga? Or am I battling the truth? The truth that Ranma may not care; the truth that Ranma kissed Nabiki; the truth that he might not love me- that he lied. Did he even look for me? No. That is also the truth. It can be painful- knowing the full story, but it is better than lies; lying to yourself- being blind to what is right in front of you. Or is it? Would it be better to not know this? To live in my own wonderful world, fooling myself into believing that it was all alright? Or am I right to think that the truth is better. That Ranma was unfaithful that he let my sister kiss him- twice. That people have always been lying to me. That Ryouga has slept in my bed before my true love ever touched it. And despite the hurt, I still believe in truth. I still believe that the truth is that Ranma loves me. There is truth in that. But perhaps I made a mistake; perhaps the word should be loved. Loved is not the same as love, but it is the truth.
***End of Dream***
My head is pounding. I can feel the light pulsing down on me. Is it morning? Am I still in the forest with Ryouga? My heart hardens at the thought of him- lying to me all this time. But then voices come into my head they whisper to me: Ranma lied too, though, didn't he? And about so much more..... My heart clenches. I love you Ranma....I do. But do you still love me? Please let me still be in the woods. Anywhere. Anywhere but where you are, Ranma. I cannot face you. Not just yet.....because my heart still aches for you. But I know yours doesn't love back. It has settled with another. My sister. I saw.
I hear the door open- two people enter. I think one is Nabiki- how DARE she! But the other? I know who it is immediately. I can sense his blue aura. His scent is forever locked inside my memory, from the moments we'd spent so close together- in embrace and ,once, in love. I keep my eyes closed. "Ranma, what happened last night?"
"I found Akane and Ryouga lying on the road- unconscious."
My heart skips. Why did Ranma lie to Nabiki. Flashes of the night before come into my mind. Ryouga, dark, lamppost, pain, Ranma. He was watching. Good, he is nothing but scum. He does not deserve my love- but he has it anyway. Why must this wretched heart love so?
"Ranma, tell me the truth!"
"That was the truth." He mutters in response.
"NO IT WASN'T!!"
"GO NABIKI!!! Before I lose my temper."
"You can't yell at me. I'm the head of the house!!!"
" Your father is the head of the house!!"
There is silence. Nabiki and father had never truly been on good terms. Now he has gone mad? How could this have happened? She speaks again." My father has gone insane!!!! AND ALL BECAUSE THAT DAMN AKANE GOT KIDNAPPED!!!!! HE NEVER CARED ENOUGH ABOUT ME!!! NOT EVEN THOUGH I'M TEN TIMES BETTER!!!! AND YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME EITHER!!! " then she stopped. " Shampoo love Ranma." Her voice quivered and shook, it sounded just like.....Shampoo? Tension filled the air. Shampoo? What was going on? "I have to go." The girl said quickly. The door opened and slammed shut.
I opened my eyes. " Ranma."
The pigtailed boy looked over immediately. " Akane.....you heard?"
I nodded.
"Look Akane, I'm sorry but-"
"Do you love me?"
The boy looked at me oddly, "What?"
"Do you love me." I repeated. I feel the tears welling up, about to fall down my cheeks. "Answer me Ranma."
" I...I'm not sure." I let go. It is no use to hold them back anymore- to hold back the tears. They were inevitable. Ranma continued, " I want to know that I love you- but I just don't. Please don't hate me."
I wiped my eyes. I would not cry- not for this bastard. " I wish I could Ranma. I wish I could hate you. It would make things so much easier."
"Don't hate me Akane. I truly think I love you, its just there has been so much chaos. Nobody knows what to think anymore. I love you, I do."
Lies. I know they are lies, my heart tells me. But I still want it to be the truth. I look up into those deep blue eyes- searching. I am searching, trying to find even the slightest hint of truth to his words. I see nothing but blue. Nothing but blue. He turns his head. My love cannot bare my gaze. I see his doubt. I feel the sadness inside me growing. How did this happen.
"Ranma," he looks at me. " Ryouga tried to get away from here, and yet here I am. Perhaps it was destiny- destiny that I saw you lose hope so easily in finding me. Lose your self in my own sister's kiss. I ask you, does that kiss still linger on your lips? If I kissed you now would I find the aura of my sister still clinging to your body? Have you even shared a bed together?" The boy's eyes widened. He hadn't known I'd been watching. He hadn't known that I'd seen.
He is calm, but disturbed. "Akane, how long have you been in Nerima."
"For three days."
The pigtailed head hung itself low. Was he feeling guilt? Remorse? Sadness? Could the man that I gave my heart to love at all? "Ranma," I said with a low whisper, "perhaps I should've stayed away. Then you could be happy with my sister!" The tears stung. My heart ached so, what was I saying? Was I trying to get revenge? How could this hurt so much, to stare the truth in the face. Truth was a monster. And it had eaten me up. I could only wish they were lies.
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I stood there and I watched her cry. I felt so weak, like all I could do was stand there- guilty. What had happened, did she think that I actually didn't care for her? I felt guilt, but I also felt anger. Anger at myself, for being so stupid. Anger at Nabiki, for kissing me. Anger at Ryouga, for taking her. And scariest of all, I felt angry towards Akane. Why couldn't she see that I was suffering too? I almost felt a hatred for the woman I loved. Suddenly, she stood- I could see the anger in her eyes. After that, she punched me..hard.
When I woke up, she was gone. And I knew she had left the house. I had to find her. Why did I have to be such a jerk! Couldn't she see that I never meant to hurt her? I just wanted to be with her. And now it's all blown up in my face. What was happening. Suddenly the doorbell rang. It was Shampoo. I hadn't seen her for a week- I had forgotten about her.
"Hey Shampoo." Why did she have to come now?
"Ni Hao Ranma! Go on date with Shampoo? Shampoo have pork ramen for Ranma!"
Pork....pig! The words stuck in my head. I looked into the crimson-purple eyes in front of me and searched for knowledge- what Shampoo knew that she didn't want to reveal. Red. Her eyes were red as if they were....crying? Akane had been crying- so had Nabiki. I HAD been stupid. It was all right here in front of me, but why would Shampoo do such a thing? And why hadn't I noticed before? I knew what I had to do. Dear God, may Akane forgive me for what I'm about to do.
I kissed her.
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The purple haired girl's eyes widened in surprise- and fright- as the boy pressed his lips to hers. *Could this all be a dream? Am I asleep?* The dark eyes began to close themselves, as the girl eased herself into the kiss. Still, she was self-conscious. His breath, his body still a few inches away, but his arm had begun to make it's way around her waist.
Between closed lips, the girl murmured something, "I love you, Ranma."
Now it was the boy's turn to be surprised. She loved him? Is that why she started all of this? The sapphire eyes forced themselves shut- but he said nothing. They finally broke apart, but the girl could feel something was wrong. He wouldn't even look at her. *Didn't he hear me? Maybe I should tell him again later.* The girl took the pigtailed boy's hand.
"Ranma want to go with Shampoo?"
The girl looked at her blankly, "Where?"
Shampoo thought a bit, "Cat Café."
The boy stood still, *I will have to announce it there.*
"Sure. I'll meet you there tonight at 7."
The girl smiled. It would be perfect- their first date.
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"Ring! Ring!"
"Hello?"
"Hey- Dr. Tofu?"
"Ah! Ranma! Erm....you know, Akane's here."
"I hoped so. Can I speak with her?"
"Of course."
Pause.
"Hello."
"Akane, I need you to come to the Cat Café- at 7."
"Why?"
tone......
*He hung up?! He wants me to go there!! No way! But.....do I want to go? 7....no. I wont go...*
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The Cat Café was bustling with business that day. Almost all the tables were full-almost all. In the corner a lonely girl with raven colored hair sat alone. Tears were streaming down her red cheeks. *How long have I been waiting? Maybe...maybe I should just go home. I mean he's not going to show up now- if ever.* The brown-eyed girl put her faced in her hands and sobbed some more. She got up to go. On the way out a purple haired girl with a tray of ramen stopped her, " Is Akane leave now?" The dark haired girl nodded meekly. The girl flipped her purple hair in a look of triumph. " Shampoo know Ranma no show up to see you. Ranma is only loving Shampoo. Oh! One day Ranma make Shampoo happy happy!"
The Chinese girl went misty-eyed at the thought of her Ranma, holding her in his arms, kissing her on their wedding day, telling her how much he loved-
" Akane!" a voice came. Not just anybody's voice but-
" Ranma!" The brown-eyed girl cried.
A boy w/ a large wooden umbrella came running through the doors. He had dazziling sapphire eyes and long black hair that was pulled back into a pigtail. The boy stopped in front of Akane. Those eyes- those beautiful blue eyes- how sad they looked. The brown-eyed girl shivered in anticipation- what was going to happen? "I'm so sorry, Akane." The boy whispered- barely audible. What did that mean? Suddenly, the boy took grasp of the amazon's hand.
"Excuse me- I would like to announce that Shampoo and I are now dating."
The Café exploded in applause- applause for the purple-haired waitress who was crying from joy, applause for the boy who had a new girlfriend, and applause for the old grandmother who was hoping for a son-in-law. But what about that sad girl in the corner? What about the lost love that was never meant to be crushed? Shampoo was crying, but Akane was crying too. The raven- haired girl stood there the tears falling namelessly from the face- she cried for no reason. Her love declaring to be dating another was not a reason. Her father going insane was not a reason. Only having dreams to remember the memories of her true love was not a reason. Ranma was not a reason.
Something tapped her shoulder. It was not a reason. The crowd hadn't even noticed that the pigtailed boy had slipped away. Cologne had started handing out free bowls of ramen and Shampoo was serving. Nobody noticed the girl crying by the door. "Akane- I have to do this. You'll see, it's for you- for US." The boy laid his hand upon hers. She knocked it away,
"Don't you TOUCH ME!!! Is this what you brought me here for?! To HURT me even MORE?!!! You are nothing but a LIAR!!!! I NEVER WANT TO LAY EYES ON YOUR FACE AGAIN!!!"
Ranma waited for it- the slap, the slug, the punch, the kick. But it never came. Only tears. All he could do was watch as she cried and as she ran away- maybe forever. "Oh kami, please let her forgive me."
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REVIEW!!!!!
OMG!!! Plze don't hurt (those of you who hate this situation)!!!! I am INNOCENT!!!!!!!! But isn't this a thrilling chapter???!!!! And it IS longer than my other chapters! I REALLY hope you like it!!!!!!!! And now, the only thing to do is REVIEW!!!!!!!!! I've made a goal of 20 reviews till I release the next chapter! (and I've already written a bunch of the following chappies rather than write as I go along- which is what I usually do- cuz I have a 2 day car ride to Santa Fe, a laptop, and NO way to upload chapters!!!!!!!!!) SO REVIEW!!!!!!!!!
-Chinagirl
Disclaimer: roses are red, violets are blue, I don't own Ranma, and neither do you!! (unless you are Rumiko Takahashi) ^-^
Warning: OOCness and swearing.
Chapter 6:What Lies in the Truth
By Chinagirl223
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***Akane's Dream***
We are in a field. Alone. The trees at the edge of the tall grasses rustle and sway. They are our destination. We travel the maze of flowers and grass. We don't really know where we are headed, but we are being watched- I can feel it. I think that I have been here before. But different. And old woman points west, "Nerima..." She whispers. We head the other way. My companion does not wish to go back. Go back? To what? To where? To who? But somehow, we only get closer and now, there are more people who tell us, "Nerima..."
But me it whispers a different name. A who, not a where or why. Ranma. It is the same for my companion- but for a different reason.
Now it is stormy in the sky. The clouds crash like waves against each other. They battle for justice. And they battle against it. They battle for truth. That is the only thing I see. So who is battling who? Is Ranma battling Ryouga? Or am I battling the truth? The truth that Ranma may not care; the truth that Ranma kissed Nabiki; the truth that he might not love me- that he lied. Did he even look for me? No. That is also the truth. It can be painful- knowing the full story, but it is better than lies; lying to yourself- being blind to what is right in front of you. Or is it? Would it be better to not know this? To live in my own wonderful world, fooling myself into believing that it was all alright? Or am I right to think that the truth is better. That Ranma was unfaithful that he let my sister kiss him- twice. That people have always been lying to me. That Ryouga has slept in my bed before my true love ever touched it. And despite the hurt, I still believe in truth. I still believe that the truth is that Ranma loves me. There is truth in that. But perhaps I made a mistake; perhaps the word should be loved. Loved is not the same as love, but it is the truth.
***End of Dream***
My head is pounding. I can feel the light pulsing down on me. Is it morning? Am I still in the forest with Ryouga? My heart hardens at the thought of him- lying to me all this time. But then voices come into my head they whisper to me: Ranma lied too, though, didn't he? And about so much more..... My heart clenches. I love you Ranma....I do. But do you still love me? Please let me still be in the woods. Anywhere. Anywhere but where you are, Ranma. I cannot face you. Not just yet.....because my heart still aches for you. But I know yours doesn't love back. It has settled with another. My sister. I saw.
I hear the door open- two people enter. I think one is Nabiki- how DARE she! But the other? I know who it is immediately. I can sense his blue aura. His scent is forever locked inside my memory, from the moments we'd spent so close together- in embrace and ,once, in love. I keep my eyes closed. "Ranma, what happened last night?"
"I found Akane and Ryouga lying on the road- unconscious."
My heart skips. Why did Ranma lie to Nabiki. Flashes of the night before come into my mind. Ryouga, dark, lamppost, pain, Ranma. He was watching. Good, he is nothing but scum. He does not deserve my love- but he has it anyway. Why must this wretched heart love so?
"Ranma, tell me the truth!"
"That was the truth." He mutters in response.
"NO IT WASN'T!!"
"GO NABIKI!!! Before I lose my temper."
"You can't yell at me. I'm the head of the house!!!"
" Your father is the head of the house!!"
There is silence. Nabiki and father had never truly been on good terms. Now he has gone mad? How could this have happened? She speaks again." My father has gone insane!!!! AND ALL BECAUSE THAT DAMN AKANE GOT KIDNAPPED!!!!! HE NEVER CARED ENOUGH ABOUT ME!!! NOT EVEN THOUGH I'M TEN TIMES BETTER!!!! AND YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME EITHER!!! " then she stopped. " Shampoo love Ranma." Her voice quivered and shook, it sounded just like.....Shampoo? Tension filled the air. Shampoo? What was going on? "I have to go." The girl said quickly. The door opened and slammed shut.
I opened my eyes. " Ranma."
The pigtailed boy looked over immediately. " Akane.....you heard?"
I nodded.
"Look Akane, I'm sorry but-"
"Do you love me?"
The boy looked at me oddly, "What?"
"Do you love me." I repeated. I feel the tears welling up, about to fall down my cheeks. "Answer me Ranma."
" I...I'm not sure." I let go. It is no use to hold them back anymore- to hold back the tears. They were inevitable. Ranma continued, " I want to know that I love you- but I just don't. Please don't hate me."
I wiped my eyes. I would not cry- not for this bastard. " I wish I could Ranma. I wish I could hate you. It would make things so much easier."
"Don't hate me Akane. I truly think I love you, its just there has been so much chaos. Nobody knows what to think anymore. I love you, I do."
Lies. I know they are lies, my heart tells me. But I still want it to be the truth. I look up into those deep blue eyes- searching. I am searching, trying to find even the slightest hint of truth to his words. I see nothing but blue. Nothing but blue. He turns his head. My love cannot bare my gaze. I see his doubt. I feel the sadness inside me growing. How did this happen.
"Ranma," he looks at me. " Ryouga tried to get away from here, and yet here I am. Perhaps it was destiny- destiny that I saw you lose hope so easily in finding me. Lose your self in my own sister's kiss. I ask you, does that kiss still linger on your lips? If I kissed you now would I find the aura of my sister still clinging to your body? Have you even shared a bed together?" The boy's eyes widened. He hadn't known I'd been watching. He hadn't known that I'd seen.
He is calm, but disturbed. "Akane, how long have you been in Nerima."
"For three days."
The pigtailed head hung itself low. Was he feeling guilt? Remorse? Sadness? Could the man that I gave my heart to love at all? "Ranma," I said with a low whisper, "perhaps I should've stayed away. Then you could be happy with my sister!" The tears stung. My heart ached so, what was I saying? Was I trying to get revenge? How could this hurt so much, to stare the truth in the face. Truth was a monster. And it had eaten me up. I could only wish they were lies.
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I stood there and I watched her cry. I felt so weak, like all I could do was stand there- guilty. What had happened, did she think that I actually didn't care for her? I felt guilt, but I also felt anger. Anger at myself, for being so stupid. Anger at Nabiki, for kissing me. Anger at Ryouga, for taking her. And scariest of all, I felt angry towards Akane. Why couldn't she see that I was suffering too? I almost felt a hatred for the woman I loved. Suddenly, she stood- I could see the anger in her eyes. After that, she punched me..hard.
When I woke up, she was gone. And I knew she had left the house. I had to find her. Why did I have to be such a jerk! Couldn't she see that I never meant to hurt her? I just wanted to be with her. And now it's all blown up in my face. What was happening. Suddenly the doorbell rang. It was Shampoo. I hadn't seen her for a week- I had forgotten about her.
"Hey Shampoo." Why did she have to come now?
"Ni Hao Ranma! Go on date with Shampoo? Shampoo have pork ramen for Ranma!"
Pork....pig! The words stuck in my head. I looked into the crimson-purple eyes in front of me and searched for knowledge- what Shampoo knew that she didn't want to reveal. Red. Her eyes were red as if they were....crying? Akane had been crying- so had Nabiki. I HAD been stupid. It was all right here in front of me, but why would Shampoo do such a thing? And why hadn't I noticed before? I knew what I had to do. Dear God, may Akane forgive me for what I'm about to do.
I kissed her.
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The purple haired girl's eyes widened in surprise- and fright- as the boy pressed his lips to hers. *Could this all be a dream? Am I asleep?* The dark eyes began to close themselves, as the girl eased herself into the kiss. Still, she was self-conscious. His breath, his body still a few inches away, but his arm had begun to make it's way around her waist.
Between closed lips, the girl murmured something, "I love you, Ranma."
Now it was the boy's turn to be surprised. She loved him? Is that why she started all of this? The sapphire eyes forced themselves shut- but he said nothing. They finally broke apart, but the girl could feel something was wrong. He wouldn't even look at her. *Didn't he hear me? Maybe I should tell him again later.* The girl took the pigtailed boy's hand.
"Ranma want to go with Shampoo?"
The girl looked at her blankly, "Where?"
Shampoo thought a bit, "Cat Café."
The boy stood still, *I will have to announce it there.*
"Sure. I'll meet you there tonight at 7."
The girl smiled. It would be perfect- their first date.
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"Ring! Ring!"
"Hello?"
"Hey- Dr. Tofu?"
"Ah! Ranma! Erm....you know, Akane's here."
"I hoped so. Can I speak with her?"
"Of course."
Pause.
"Hello."
"Akane, I need you to come to the Cat Café- at 7."
"Why?"
tone......
*He hung up?! He wants me to go there!! No way! But.....do I want to go? 7....no. I wont go...*
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The Cat Café was bustling with business that day. Almost all the tables were full-almost all. In the corner a lonely girl with raven colored hair sat alone. Tears were streaming down her red cheeks. *How long have I been waiting? Maybe...maybe I should just go home. I mean he's not going to show up now- if ever.* The brown-eyed girl put her faced in her hands and sobbed some more. She got up to go. On the way out a purple haired girl with a tray of ramen stopped her, " Is Akane leave now?" The dark haired girl nodded meekly. The girl flipped her purple hair in a look of triumph. " Shampoo know Ranma no show up to see you. Ranma is only loving Shampoo. Oh! One day Ranma make Shampoo happy happy!"
The Chinese girl went misty-eyed at the thought of her Ranma, holding her in his arms, kissing her on their wedding day, telling her how much he loved-
" Akane!" a voice came. Not just anybody's voice but-
" Ranma!" The brown-eyed girl cried.
A boy w/ a large wooden umbrella came running through the doors. He had dazziling sapphire eyes and long black hair that was pulled back into a pigtail. The boy stopped in front of Akane. Those eyes- those beautiful blue eyes- how sad they looked. The brown-eyed girl shivered in anticipation- what was going to happen? "I'm so sorry, Akane." The boy whispered- barely audible. What did that mean? Suddenly, the boy took grasp of the amazon's hand.
"Excuse me- I would like to announce that Shampoo and I are now dating."
The Café exploded in applause- applause for the purple-haired waitress who was crying from joy, applause for the boy who had a new girlfriend, and applause for the old grandmother who was hoping for a son-in-law. But what about that sad girl in the corner? What about the lost love that was never meant to be crushed? Shampoo was crying, but Akane was crying too. The raven- haired girl stood there the tears falling namelessly from the face- she cried for no reason. Her love declaring to be dating another was not a reason. Her father going insane was not a reason. Only having dreams to remember the memories of her true love was not a reason. Ranma was not a reason.
Something tapped her shoulder. It was not a reason. The crowd hadn't even noticed that the pigtailed boy had slipped away. Cologne had started handing out free bowls of ramen and Shampoo was serving. Nobody noticed the girl crying by the door. "Akane- I have to do this. You'll see, it's for you- for US." The boy laid his hand upon hers. She knocked it away,
"Don't you TOUCH ME!!! Is this what you brought me here for?! To HURT me even MORE?!!! You are nothing but a LIAR!!!! I NEVER WANT TO LAY EYES ON YOUR FACE AGAIN!!!"
Ranma waited for it- the slap, the slug, the punch, the kick. But it never came. Only tears. All he could do was watch as she cried and as she ran away- maybe forever. "Oh kami, please let her forgive me."
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REVIEW!!!!!
OMG!!! Plze don't hurt (those of you who hate this situation)!!!! I am INNOCENT!!!!!!!! But isn't this a thrilling chapter???!!!! And it IS longer than my other chapters! I REALLY hope you like it!!!!!!!! And now, the only thing to do is REVIEW!!!!!!!!! I've made a goal of 20 reviews till I release the next chapter! (and I've already written a bunch of the following chappies rather than write as I go along- which is what I usually do- cuz I have a 2 day car ride to Santa Fe, a laptop, and NO way to upload chapters!!!!!!!!!) SO REVIEW!!!!!!!!!
-Chinagirl
