Hi! Sorry about not updating for so long, but I've had a serious case of
writers block- my mind had gone blank of ideas!!! But I've managed to
scrape up some stuff that works with my story (the problem is that when I
start a story or an event- such as Ranma kissing Shampoo- in a story the
story really does the writing. I just get the credit! But then, I have to
figure out how things go together!! It would ALL be easier of there was no
such thing as foresight!!!). I hope you enjoy!!
-Chinagirl223
Disclaimer: I do not own Ranma or any of his friends.
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**Shampoo's POV**
I watch his face intently. I can hardly believe he's here! And in my bed!! But of course, Grandmother- rather grudgingly- insisted that I must take the futon mattress. But it's worth it just to have Ranma in my room. It was Great Grandmother that offered Ranma to stay, but Ranma said yes on his own! I think he must really like me. I knew everything would work out, Grandmother's plans never fail. But I feel terrible about having to drug my love.
"He is not in love with you yet, great granddaughter. We still have much to do."
That is what she said. But I don't worry. I know that he loves me- why else would he kiss me so? I have faith in my Ranma. We BELONG together. I can feel my heart pounding- I'm having these feelings explode inside of me.....just like when he kissed me. I want to touch him- to feel him. Just to make sure he's not a dream. I've had so many. But I hear his breathing, and my body shivers from the heat radiating from his body. I want to be apart of that heat. I want him. My heart is still thumping. I study his face- the slight frown, the relaxed eyelids. I wish his eyes were opened, just so I could gaze into his sapphire blue eyes. And he could gaze at me....,..
I wish him to feel lust for me also- not just love. I want it- I need it. I want him to hold me and to make me tingle everywhere. I want to make his heart stop. I want to be his. But somebody else occupies his heart. I can see it by the way his body turns rigid when I shift closer, and how his frown deepens. I've been lying to myself- and I know it. I've known it since the day that I'd first seen him.....and that girl together. How I loathe her. Even before they began to go out, I could tell he longed to taste her lips- as I longed to taste his.
But right now, everything is perfect. No, perhaps not perfect. But as soon as he drinks Great Grandmother's potion, everything WILL be. We will just be a happy couple...in love.
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They say that seeing is believing. But maybe it's wrong, maybe what you see isn't always what is really there. What's right in front of you might just be a sham. That's what my heart hopes. But I know better. Why else would Ranma betray me again? No, he isn't mine to betray. But his words still circle my head.
"Akane- I have to do this. You'll see, it's for you- for US."
I know I shouldn't, but I think I believe him. I have faith. Now, though, the kiss comes back into my head- our first kiss. I've thought about it so many times. And I ponder on how it went about and how much the events of tonight are so similar to it. It was like a beautiful memory gone wrong. It brings me so much pain. Why did he have to go and screw up on me! The hate is surging- I can feel it pumping through my heart, but I know it is hollow. It is replaced by what is really there and always has been- since the day I saw him first kiss Nabiki- a great sadness. A great blue one that envelopes your soul and mind. It leaves you numb and senseless to everything. Except, sometimes you see glimpses of the outside world. If those small scraps of the place outside of your sorrow are good and kind- like fresh air and meadows- then you might just slip out and become sane again. But mines are sad and painful and just remind me of how I wish that I had never met the boy with the blue eyes. The only other time I've ever traveled between these worlds like so was when my mother died. I miss here now.
I think of how she would comfort me and tell me how everything would be alright and that Ranma was a stupid pig for doing this. She would make me tea and cry with me and help the goodness in my heart grow stronger. I look for her now- but she is not there. It's empty.
Now, I have come out of my trance for a while. All I see is rain- pouring around me. I stand on the bridge. And I look into the water. That dark, deep, endless, pool of black and blue. So much darker than his eyes, but just as beautiful. Wouldn't it be lovely to be a graceful mermaid and spend all day basking in the waters? I've always fantasized about it- even when I was just a little girl. I look at the water now, and smile. Maybe my dream will come true one day- only one way to find out.
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The pounding rain, outside, woke him. Actually, he had been awake all night thinking.....about her. But as he peered around him, all thoughts vanished- except one. He knew what he had to do. His eyes landed on the clock. It was almost midnight. Perfect. * They should be asleep by now. * The pigtailed boy rose from the bed and made his way to the door.
"Shampoo love Ranma...."
The boy's head swiveled towards the other bed, but Shampoo had only been talking in her sleep. The boy tiptoed on- his sapphire eyes wide and alert. There it was at the end of the hallway. The room he'd been looking for- Cologne's room. The door creaked slightly as he slipped in. He eyed the room and found the old woman sleeping in the corner.
The room was old fashioned and had the air of a meditation room-feeding into an open porch, but he could not waist his time looking around- he had to find the proof, and quickly. The boy made his way, silently, across the room. His eyes on the lookout for anything that might be used for....mind control. The pools of blue settled on an open drawer. Inside, lay bottles of every shape and size. Some empty- some not. For some reason, his hand reached for one of the bottles that was empty- though it had traces of green liquid inside of it. The tiny droplets seemed to mesmerize him. It almost seemed- just by looking at them- they made him forget everything. He shook himself back into reality. He decided to take just one more bottle- full of a red liquid. He couldn't risk taking more and having Cologne notice. He snuck back to his room- he'd see Dr. Tofu tomorrow.
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"Akane-I have to do this. You'll see, it's for you- for US."
Those words, they echo in my mind- kindling a flame of hope in my heart. But it cannot really trust again, not after such a hurt. I thought we would truly be together. If we could, I might even forget how he hurt me- deceived me. But forgive-and-forget is out of the question now. I feel scarred. I don't really want to go on anymore. Life is just hurt and deception. I feel like I'm drowning in it.....drowning.
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The rain is pounding hard. Water everywhere- in my ears, my eyes, my mouth, my lungs...how can there be so much water? It has soaked through my clothes. It touches my bare skin as if I'm wearing nothing. I feel like I'm floating.....in water. I remember my dream. It must of come true- I am a mermaid, swimming in the sea. I wave to my mermaid friends and laugh playfully with Nabiki- we have always been mermaid sisters, happy and honest with each other. But I see something behind me. It is dark and evil- it wants me. It is going to eat me alive, I can feel it. I swim for my life- as fast as I can. But it is no use. It catches my in it's cloudy darkness and takes me down, down, down.....Suddenly, I have an urge- the urge to breathe. I haven't even realized that I can't breathe. But now I can feel the water in my lungs- I'm under water. I struggle upwards, but the water pulls me down. I remember, now, that I cant swim- great. It is no use, I never learned, despite how I tried. I'm now wondering how I ended up in the water. My chest is tightening- my heart hurts so. Everything has gone dark, I can barely think.....need....air....drowning.
***FLASH BACK***
It was a cheerful sight, the pool. It was sunny and the noises of splashing and playful yelling surrounded all. At the far corner of the pool were the swim lessons. Groups of little children huddled together in fright and excitement. The youngest group gathered at the edge of the pool.
"Okay kids, form a line at the edge of the pool and jump in towards me on my go!" shouted the young instructor.
At the head of the line, stood a shiny faced girl with the eager anticipation that many of the other toddlers lacked. "Okay Akane, you're first! Just jump in and try to get to the surface. If you don't come up in a few seconds, I'll get you- okay?" The girl nodded eagerly and without notice, jumped in. " WAIT!!" the instructor's cry was not heard, for the youth had plopped joyously into the water.
The feeling was exilerating, but as she sank lower the dark haired child became frightened. Suddenly, something pushed past her, and her body was thrust to the walls of the deep end. Then came a pain in her side, why was the water turning red? She tried to cry, but she could not feel the tears, and her screams were in vain for they only became bubbles. How could something that she'd been looking forward to for so long be so terrible? Where was the instructor? The light of the sun just above her seemed to darken- everything went black. Suddenly, she felt a blast of cold wash over her. She was out of the pool. There were so many people around her. All she wanted was her mommy. But she wasn't there.
***END OF FLASHBACK***
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A bit shorter, yes, but it was really all I could come up with. Don't worry- more will come soon. I hope this reveals a little about why Ranma started dating w/ Shampoo. NOW! You must REVIEW!!!!!!!
Chinagirl223
-Chinagirl223
Disclaimer: I do not own Ranma or any of his friends.
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**Shampoo's POV**
I watch his face intently. I can hardly believe he's here! And in my bed!! But of course, Grandmother- rather grudgingly- insisted that I must take the futon mattress. But it's worth it just to have Ranma in my room. It was Great Grandmother that offered Ranma to stay, but Ranma said yes on his own! I think he must really like me. I knew everything would work out, Grandmother's plans never fail. But I feel terrible about having to drug my love.
"He is not in love with you yet, great granddaughter. We still have much to do."
That is what she said. But I don't worry. I know that he loves me- why else would he kiss me so? I have faith in my Ranma. We BELONG together. I can feel my heart pounding- I'm having these feelings explode inside of me.....just like when he kissed me. I want to touch him- to feel him. Just to make sure he's not a dream. I've had so many. But I hear his breathing, and my body shivers from the heat radiating from his body. I want to be apart of that heat. I want him. My heart is still thumping. I study his face- the slight frown, the relaxed eyelids. I wish his eyes were opened, just so I could gaze into his sapphire blue eyes. And he could gaze at me....,..
I wish him to feel lust for me also- not just love. I want it- I need it. I want him to hold me and to make me tingle everywhere. I want to make his heart stop. I want to be his. But somebody else occupies his heart. I can see it by the way his body turns rigid when I shift closer, and how his frown deepens. I've been lying to myself- and I know it. I've known it since the day that I'd first seen him.....and that girl together. How I loathe her. Even before they began to go out, I could tell he longed to taste her lips- as I longed to taste his.
But right now, everything is perfect. No, perhaps not perfect. But as soon as he drinks Great Grandmother's potion, everything WILL be. We will just be a happy couple...in love.
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They say that seeing is believing. But maybe it's wrong, maybe what you see isn't always what is really there. What's right in front of you might just be a sham. That's what my heart hopes. But I know better. Why else would Ranma betray me again? No, he isn't mine to betray. But his words still circle my head.
"Akane- I have to do this. You'll see, it's for you- for US."
I know I shouldn't, but I think I believe him. I have faith. Now, though, the kiss comes back into my head- our first kiss. I've thought about it so many times. And I ponder on how it went about and how much the events of tonight are so similar to it. It was like a beautiful memory gone wrong. It brings me so much pain. Why did he have to go and screw up on me! The hate is surging- I can feel it pumping through my heart, but I know it is hollow. It is replaced by what is really there and always has been- since the day I saw him first kiss Nabiki- a great sadness. A great blue one that envelopes your soul and mind. It leaves you numb and senseless to everything. Except, sometimes you see glimpses of the outside world. If those small scraps of the place outside of your sorrow are good and kind- like fresh air and meadows- then you might just slip out and become sane again. But mines are sad and painful and just remind me of how I wish that I had never met the boy with the blue eyes. The only other time I've ever traveled between these worlds like so was when my mother died. I miss here now.
I think of how she would comfort me and tell me how everything would be alright and that Ranma was a stupid pig for doing this. She would make me tea and cry with me and help the goodness in my heart grow stronger. I look for her now- but she is not there. It's empty.
Now, I have come out of my trance for a while. All I see is rain- pouring around me. I stand on the bridge. And I look into the water. That dark, deep, endless, pool of black and blue. So much darker than his eyes, but just as beautiful. Wouldn't it be lovely to be a graceful mermaid and spend all day basking in the waters? I've always fantasized about it- even when I was just a little girl. I look at the water now, and smile. Maybe my dream will come true one day- only one way to find out.
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The pounding rain, outside, woke him. Actually, he had been awake all night thinking.....about her. But as he peered around him, all thoughts vanished- except one. He knew what he had to do. His eyes landed on the clock. It was almost midnight. Perfect. * They should be asleep by now. * The pigtailed boy rose from the bed and made his way to the door.
"Shampoo love Ranma...."
The boy's head swiveled towards the other bed, but Shampoo had only been talking in her sleep. The boy tiptoed on- his sapphire eyes wide and alert. There it was at the end of the hallway. The room he'd been looking for- Cologne's room. The door creaked slightly as he slipped in. He eyed the room and found the old woman sleeping in the corner.
The room was old fashioned and had the air of a meditation room-feeding into an open porch, but he could not waist his time looking around- he had to find the proof, and quickly. The boy made his way, silently, across the room. His eyes on the lookout for anything that might be used for....mind control. The pools of blue settled on an open drawer. Inside, lay bottles of every shape and size. Some empty- some not. For some reason, his hand reached for one of the bottles that was empty- though it had traces of green liquid inside of it. The tiny droplets seemed to mesmerize him. It almost seemed- just by looking at them- they made him forget everything. He shook himself back into reality. He decided to take just one more bottle- full of a red liquid. He couldn't risk taking more and having Cologne notice. He snuck back to his room- he'd see Dr. Tofu tomorrow.
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"Akane-I have to do this. You'll see, it's for you- for US."
Those words, they echo in my mind- kindling a flame of hope in my heart. But it cannot really trust again, not after such a hurt. I thought we would truly be together. If we could, I might even forget how he hurt me- deceived me. But forgive-and-forget is out of the question now. I feel scarred. I don't really want to go on anymore. Life is just hurt and deception. I feel like I'm drowning in it.....drowning.
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The rain is pounding hard. Water everywhere- in my ears, my eyes, my mouth, my lungs...how can there be so much water? It has soaked through my clothes. It touches my bare skin as if I'm wearing nothing. I feel like I'm floating.....in water. I remember my dream. It must of come true- I am a mermaid, swimming in the sea. I wave to my mermaid friends and laugh playfully with Nabiki- we have always been mermaid sisters, happy and honest with each other. But I see something behind me. It is dark and evil- it wants me. It is going to eat me alive, I can feel it. I swim for my life- as fast as I can. But it is no use. It catches my in it's cloudy darkness and takes me down, down, down.....Suddenly, I have an urge- the urge to breathe. I haven't even realized that I can't breathe. But now I can feel the water in my lungs- I'm under water. I struggle upwards, but the water pulls me down. I remember, now, that I cant swim- great. It is no use, I never learned, despite how I tried. I'm now wondering how I ended up in the water. My chest is tightening- my heart hurts so. Everything has gone dark, I can barely think.....need....air....drowning.
***FLASH BACK***
It was a cheerful sight, the pool. It was sunny and the noises of splashing and playful yelling surrounded all. At the far corner of the pool were the swim lessons. Groups of little children huddled together in fright and excitement. The youngest group gathered at the edge of the pool.
"Okay kids, form a line at the edge of the pool and jump in towards me on my go!" shouted the young instructor.
At the head of the line, stood a shiny faced girl with the eager anticipation that many of the other toddlers lacked. "Okay Akane, you're first! Just jump in and try to get to the surface. If you don't come up in a few seconds, I'll get you- okay?" The girl nodded eagerly and without notice, jumped in. " WAIT!!" the instructor's cry was not heard, for the youth had plopped joyously into the water.
The feeling was exilerating, but as she sank lower the dark haired child became frightened. Suddenly, something pushed past her, and her body was thrust to the walls of the deep end. Then came a pain in her side, why was the water turning red? She tried to cry, but she could not feel the tears, and her screams were in vain for they only became bubbles. How could something that she'd been looking forward to for so long be so terrible? Where was the instructor? The light of the sun just above her seemed to darken- everything went black. Suddenly, she felt a blast of cold wash over her. She was out of the pool. There were so many people around her. All she wanted was her mommy. But she wasn't there.
***END OF FLASHBACK***
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A bit shorter, yes, but it was really all I could come up with. Don't worry- more will come soon. I hope this reveals a little about why Ranma started dating w/ Shampoo. NOW! You must REVIEW!!!!!!!
Chinagirl223
