Chapter 6: It's bad when you annoy yourself
Ellie heard the last bell of the day and realized that she had skipped the rest of her classes. She jumped off of the toilet and took off out of the school losing herself in the swarm of kids.
"Hey, Ellie," Marco said, running up to her. "Where were you last period?"
She shrugged.
"You skipped?" he asked.
"No," she lied. "I was with Raditch." Oh my God, she thought. I'm lying to my best friend…to his FACE!
"Oh," he said. He didn't seem to notice her little white lie. He shrugged. "I have the notes if you want to copy them."
He handed her his notebook and she took it. "Thanks," she replied.
Marco looked up and saw Dylan and smiled. "Um, Ellie," he said. "I'll talk to you later."
Ellie followed his eyes and smiled. "Oh, ok," she replied.
Marco took off over to Dylan and Ellie smiled. She was glad he was with someone that made him happy. Too bad it wasn't her.
Ellie sighed and walked out of the school.
There were so many thoughts going through her head at once and she stared off into space. She didn't realize it until she walked right into Sean. She fell backwards onto the sidewalk, anyone (ok, everyone) who had seen, pointed and laughed at her.
Sean glared at them and they turned and scattered, Sean reached down and picked her up off of the ground. "You ok?" he asked.
"Is that all you people can say?" she snapped at him.
"Sorry," he replied. "But you fell pretty hard."
"Oh, that. Yeah I'm fine."
"What did you think I was talking about?"
She shrugged. "I don't know."
Sean looked at her questionably. "Could I walk you home?" he asked, finally after a few minutes of awkward silence.
"Um," she said. "No."
"No?" he asked.
"That's what I said."
He looked at her and dropped his eyes to her arm, she looked down and a little bit of a scar was showing. She pulled her arm warmer up. Sean's eyes snapped up at her. "Ok," he replied. "Just pay attention to what you're doing, Ellie."
She nodded. "I will," she replied.
He looked at her and then smiled. "Ok," he said.
"Ok." She grinned and turned and walked away fast.
She hated lying to people, saying that she was ok. But then again, she couldn't stop herself. Just like with cutting. She couldn't stop herself.
