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This Sesshomaru's Rin
Chapter 2: This Rin's Sesshomaru
Little do you know I've been having many sleepless nights myself, Sesshomaru-sama. I've been worrying about you. You've seemed so restless and uncomfortable lately. A lot of the time, whenever you start to say something, you stop, as if you're afraid that what you were going to say wouldn't sound right. You've been acting so withdrawn and self-conscious that it scares me. I don't want you to turn yourself into the merciless monster so many see you as.
Let me tell you something, Sesshomaru-sama: what they say, it isn't true. Whether you know it or not, I can see right through your icy façade, and I know that underneath that frigid pretense, you're really as kind and caring as a man can be. Why else would you have given me my life back, hmm? Surely it would have been no gain for you to rescue a helpless human child, so why did you do it?
Because I know that somewhere inside you, though you may try to hide it, there's compassion and understanding, and one of these days, you won't be able to cover it up anymore.
Why do you do this, Sesshomaru-sama? It certainly must be difficult, balancing your duties as Lord of the Western Lands with caring for Jaken and I, along with your other faithful servants. Sure, I can take care of myself, as you know, but yet you continue to protect me and provide for me as if you enjoy it, when so many others would have thrown me out on the street and told me to start a life of my own and get out of theirs. Though I try not to ask for more than is necessary, you seem to know everything I want, and I always get it. Except for one thing, of course.
You ask why that little girl helped you, Sesshomaru-sama. To be honest with you, even back then I could sense something about you, like a little lost puppy that only wanted someone to be there for them. You seemed so lonely, yet lying there in your sleep, you looked so peaceful, as if you hadn't a care in the world. I understood what it was like to have no one, but I never could have imagined someone could be so nonchalant about it as you. You intrigued me, Sesshomaru-sama. I could tell we were different in many ways, yet I felt a connection with you, as if in our solitude we could be together. You were alone, and I wanted to be the person that changed that. To this day, my most fervent wish is to one day make you happy, so that finally you will experience the feeling of having someone who cares. It's true that many would have abandoned you, but I wasn't afraid to stay with you, and I remain to this day living solely to try and coax you out of your shell.
How could I fear someone so beautiful? Indeed, you had, and still have, an ethereal quality to you, Sesshomaru-sama, a kind of otherworldly appeal that is without parallel. It might frighten others away, but in my opinion your demon heritage makes you utterly sexy, as embarrassing as it may be to say. I love the way your amber eyes can tell me everything about you, even if nothing else will give you away. I'll confess, I've always wondered what you look like under all that armor, Sesshomaru-sama. Though I can't find out for sure, judging by your extraordinary strength, I think I have a pretty good assumption, and let me tell you, it's very pleasing to the eyes. Also, I for one think it's pretty damn cool when a man has better hair than me, and yours is incredible, like spun silk. There have been many occasions when I've wanted to touch it, but I'm afraid that if I do, the ghostly entity that is my lord will disappear.
You confuse me, Sesshomaru-sama. Should the mood strike you, you have the ability to take over the entire country while barely breaking a sweat. You could easily use the people's respect for you to manipulate them into catering to your every whim, yet you choose to allow them their freedom and leave them to their lives. So much power, so much influence…but you keep it to yourself, only using it when necessary. I commend you for that, Sesshomaru-sama.
You may wonder, Sesshomaru-sama, what do I desire that you have kept from me? Well, if you really want to know…by hiding behind that frosty mask you have, you deny me a better knowledge of the real Sesshomaru-sama. I can figure a few things out, but how can I be sure of who you are when you refuse us all yourself? All I want is for you to grant me the only thing I truly want. Perhaps that's what you've done this night, and I can only pray that this is no cruel joke.
What I'm trying to say is I love you too, Sesshomaru-sama. I know I am only a mere human, nothing special in comparison to what kind of woman you could have if you only chose to accept her. I know I may be a burden to you, and I know I can never be worthy of someone so perfect, but I will accept your offer.
"If you will be this Rin's Sesshomaru."
End Chapter 2.
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