Chapter 9: I wanna be somebody else

"Eleanor?" another voice asked, a hand touched her face.

Ellie opened her eyes and looked into the concerned eyes of her father. "Dad?" she asked.

"Thank God," he said, hugging her.

Ellie looked at her arm, it was bandaged up and a bracelet was around her wrist with her name on it. ELEANOR NASH.

She looked around the hospital room. Her mother was sitting on the chair. She was sober (for once).

"Your friends are in the waiting room," Mr. Nash said. "They're worried about you. Especially, Sean."

"Sean?"

He nodded. At the mention of his name, Sean walked in. He had dark circles under his eyes. "Hi, Ellie," he said.

"Hey," she replied.

Her parents left so that they could be alone. "You scared the hell out me, Ellie."

"I'm sorry," she said.

"What did I say that triggered you?"

"Nothing," she said. "It was what I was thinking that triggered me."

He touched her face. "Don't do anything like that ever again, Ellie."

"I won't."

"Promise?"

"Promise." She blinked and smiled.

Sean squeezed her hand and sat down and kissed her hand. "Your family cares about you," he said. "So does Ashley, Marco, and me. We all do."

"I know."

Sean went to get up to let Ashley and Marco, who were both standing at the door, talk to her. She grabbed his hand. He turned and looked at her.

"Promise me something," she said. He nodded. "Don't let me get me."

"I won't," he replied. He turned and left. Ellie smiled and talked to her other two worry-stricken friends.

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror/Can't take the person staring back at me/I'm a hazard to myself/Don't let me get me/I'm my own worst enemy/It's bad when you annoy yourself/So irritating/Don't want to be my friend no more/I wanna be somebody else

Don't Let Me Get Me song by Pink