Later that night, Lana sat on the roof of the Burrow, feeling the cold
night air on her legs and face. She had dug out her old diary, and she sat
reading it, wanting to remember and re-live everything about Sirius...
Lana was in shock as Sirius walked off. She stood up and looked at the clock. It was almost 11pm, and she was glad it was the weekend tomorow, she was tired. She looked around the commonroom and couldnt see James, Remus or Peter anywhere. She wondered where they were at, and where Lily was, she had to tell her that. Lana smoothed down her jeans and headed up to the dorms.
Thats when Christie, the last girl that went out with Sirius before Lana, got up and strode over to her. Christies long curly blonde hair bounced as she walked over, her blue eyes glittering. She grabbed Lana by the arm and spun her around. Lana twisted around and raised an eyebrow at Christie, then looked at Christies hand on her arm, and then back up at Christie.
"Let go of me" Lana said, not in a scared way, but in a threatening voice that made Christie blink. But she quickly recovered and tightened her grip, but Lana barely flinched, and looked up at her cooly.
"Listen, little girl, Im gonna tell you something, and its for your own good." Christie told her.
"Really? Well, let me tell you something for your own good....Let Go Of Me." Lana said, glaring at Christie. Christie was completely thrown by the girls tone, and Lana even shocked herself. Christie was a good 3 inches taller than her, and 3 years older. Christie let go of Lanas arm, but gave her a shove as she did....But Lana didnt even shake.
"I didnt mean it to sound like that Lana. Im sorry, its just....I hate Sirius. I hate the way he thinks he can treat people. Girls, mainly."
Lana said nothing, but leant against the wall and looked at her.
"He'll just use you, Lana. He did me. He'll tell you what you want to hear, then he'll seduce you and then when hes had what he wants, he'll just blow you off. Its not just me, hes done it to all my friends as well."
"Before or after he used you?"
"After, but thats not the point, the point is - "
"Guess youre just bitter that you were bottom of the pile then." Lana said, more than a little pissed off. Christies eyes narrowed and she stepped close to Lana.
"Im telling you for your own good. Dont get too attached, he likes that. He likes to hurt people. He gets some kind of kick out of it."
"I dont know what your problem is, Kirsty - "
"CHRISTIE"
"Whatever. But Sirius is with me, and, I think you have a case of the green eyed monster. And Im not a tramp like you."
"Youre just a little girl. What Sirius needs is a woman."
"You mean you? Cos, personally, I always wondered if you were a man in drag." Lana spat at her.
Christie was about to slap Lana, when Lana shot her hand up and grabbed Christies hand, inches from Lanas face. Christies eyes widened in shock, and so did Lanas, and Lana dug her nails into Christies wrist.
"Listen, Bitch, you need to back off. If I catch you near Sirius, I will rip you limb from limb.....you got me?" Christie then kicked Lana in the shin and Lana winced as Christie stalked back into the common room.
Lana walked up into the dorm rooms, very pissed off, but wondering about what Christie said. "Stupid fucking bitch. How dare she treaten me, stupid jealous bitch.." Lana muttered to herself as she walked around the dorm, getting undressed. "And anyway, Im not a tramp like her, I dont go around just sleeping with anyone....But Sirius would...has....oh my god, what if Christies right? Hes not exactly Mr Virginity is he? Unless you count how many girls have lost it to him..oh god. Shes right. Hes just using me..." Lana took her shirt off, and pulled on a black halter neck top. She shook her head.
"No, hes not, hes not like that. Not with me. Yeah, we have the odd moments in the broom cupboard...with the heavy passion and all...with the wandering hands....but hes never tried..." Lana smiled to herself as she remembered, but that smile quickly faded as she realised that he had been a bit pushy about the sexual stuff, but she had shoved him away and told him to stop it. "Not ready for all that yet. Sirius said hed wait..but what if I make him wait too long and then he gets bored?" Lana kicked herself as she pulled off her skirt. "There you go again, thinking he just wants...."
Lana pulled on some black hotpants and sat down on her bed as she brushed her hair. Lana desperately, in her heart, wanted to believe that this time was different, that he wouldnt just use and abuse her, like he had all the other, but her head was asking what it was that made her different..and she couldnt find a reason. And as much as she wanted to, she wouldnt let her heart rule her head. Sirius' reputation as a womaniser went against him, but Lana didnt want to hold that against him, wanted to see it as a new start, sort of thing. But she couldnt....Lana was so conflicted inside, had no idea what to think or do. Lana couldnt allow her feelings to develop any further, she couldnt start to fall in love with him...No, thats not right....Fall in love with him any more. Cos then hed just cast her off, leave her there, all broken.
Lana tied her hair back into a low, loose ponytail and walked over to the open window, opened it more and slide through it, and sat on the wide window ledge on the outside, looking at the stars and feeling the cool breeze on her bare arms and legs. She decided that she would just play it by ear. If he dumped her, then she would deal. If he didnt, then great. As she looked down at the Hogwarts grounds, she saw 5 figures stood talking...
Lana was in shock as Sirius walked off. She stood up and looked at the clock. It was almost 11pm, and she was glad it was the weekend tomorow, she was tired. She looked around the commonroom and couldnt see James, Remus or Peter anywhere. She wondered where they were at, and where Lily was, she had to tell her that. Lana smoothed down her jeans and headed up to the dorms.
Thats when Christie, the last girl that went out with Sirius before Lana, got up and strode over to her. Christies long curly blonde hair bounced as she walked over, her blue eyes glittering. She grabbed Lana by the arm and spun her around. Lana twisted around and raised an eyebrow at Christie, then looked at Christies hand on her arm, and then back up at Christie.
"Let go of me" Lana said, not in a scared way, but in a threatening voice that made Christie blink. But she quickly recovered and tightened her grip, but Lana barely flinched, and looked up at her cooly.
"Listen, little girl, Im gonna tell you something, and its for your own good." Christie told her.
"Really? Well, let me tell you something for your own good....Let Go Of Me." Lana said, glaring at Christie. Christie was completely thrown by the girls tone, and Lana even shocked herself. Christie was a good 3 inches taller than her, and 3 years older. Christie let go of Lanas arm, but gave her a shove as she did....But Lana didnt even shake.
"I didnt mean it to sound like that Lana. Im sorry, its just....I hate Sirius. I hate the way he thinks he can treat people. Girls, mainly."
Lana said nothing, but leant against the wall and looked at her.
"He'll just use you, Lana. He did me. He'll tell you what you want to hear, then he'll seduce you and then when hes had what he wants, he'll just blow you off. Its not just me, hes done it to all my friends as well."
"Before or after he used you?"
"After, but thats not the point, the point is - "
"Guess youre just bitter that you were bottom of the pile then." Lana said, more than a little pissed off. Christies eyes narrowed and she stepped close to Lana.
"Im telling you for your own good. Dont get too attached, he likes that. He likes to hurt people. He gets some kind of kick out of it."
"I dont know what your problem is, Kirsty - "
"CHRISTIE"
"Whatever. But Sirius is with me, and, I think you have a case of the green eyed monster. And Im not a tramp like you."
"Youre just a little girl. What Sirius needs is a woman."
"You mean you? Cos, personally, I always wondered if you were a man in drag." Lana spat at her.
Christie was about to slap Lana, when Lana shot her hand up and grabbed Christies hand, inches from Lanas face. Christies eyes widened in shock, and so did Lanas, and Lana dug her nails into Christies wrist.
"Listen, Bitch, you need to back off. If I catch you near Sirius, I will rip you limb from limb.....you got me?" Christie then kicked Lana in the shin and Lana winced as Christie stalked back into the common room.
Lana walked up into the dorm rooms, very pissed off, but wondering about what Christie said. "Stupid fucking bitch. How dare she treaten me, stupid jealous bitch.." Lana muttered to herself as she walked around the dorm, getting undressed. "And anyway, Im not a tramp like her, I dont go around just sleeping with anyone....But Sirius would...has....oh my god, what if Christies right? Hes not exactly Mr Virginity is he? Unless you count how many girls have lost it to him..oh god. Shes right. Hes just using me..." Lana took her shirt off, and pulled on a black halter neck top. She shook her head.
"No, hes not, hes not like that. Not with me. Yeah, we have the odd moments in the broom cupboard...with the heavy passion and all...with the wandering hands....but hes never tried..." Lana smiled to herself as she remembered, but that smile quickly faded as she realised that he had been a bit pushy about the sexual stuff, but she had shoved him away and told him to stop it. "Not ready for all that yet. Sirius said hed wait..but what if I make him wait too long and then he gets bored?" Lana kicked herself as she pulled off her skirt. "There you go again, thinking he just wants...."
Lana pulled on some black hotpants and sat down on her bed as she brushed her hair. Lana desperately, in her heart, wanted to believe that this time was different, that he wouldnt just use and abuse her, like he had all the other, but her head was asking what it was that made her different..and she couldnt find a reason. And as much as she wanted to, she wouldnt let her heart rule her head. Sirius' reputation as a womaniser went against him, but Lana didnt want to hold that against him, wanted to see it as a new start, sort of thing. But she couldnt....Lana was so conflicted inside, had no idea what to think or do. Lana couldnt allow her feelings to develop any further, she couldnt start to fall in love with him...No, thats not right....Fall in love with him any more. Cos then hed just cast her off, leave her there, all broken.
Lana tied her hair back into a low, loose ponytail and walked over to the open window, opened it more and slide through it, and sat on the wide window ledge on the outside, looking at the stars and feeling the cool breeze on her bare arms and legs. She decided that she would just play it by ear. If he dumped her, then she would deal. If he didnt, then great. As she looked down at the Hogwarts grounds, she saw 5 figures stood talking...
