CK: Hey everyone, it's me!!! And...erm....remember the tissues that some of you said you'd used back during Chapter 5? If I've done my job right, you might want to go find them again........and it's songfic time!!!!

I don't own Yugioh, and I don't own 'In My Arms Again', sung by Michael Smith on one of his CDs. (Don't know which one.....if there is more than one.......) By the way, to my friend Jenn out there, thank you SO MUCH for showing me that song. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 9-Blessed Are They Who Mourn

Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
-The Beatitudes

Yugi and his friends sat together in the lobby......with the air of ignorance hanging over them. In all honesty, they really had no idea what they were doing there. It certainly had nothing to do with any worries anyone had about Pegasus........except for Yugi, none of the members of the group had any real compassion for him........and they didn't know Cecilia well enough to take her pain any more seriously than a tragedy they would watch on the news.....
Yugi, however, was different tha the others there. Yugi's nature just couldn't let him be indifferent to anyone's pain....and Cecilia did seem like an alright person, although all the times he'd seen her so far, she had been in a state of panic. HE even felt a twinge of empathy for Pegasus himself......but most of what Yugi felt right now was pain. Tea had died only two hours ago........and yet, with everything that was going on, the pace at which everything was happening made the others forget their grief. But Yugi wasn't like them. He knew that years from now, he would be able to hear Tea's screams as well as he could remember them now.
No wonder Pegasus was still insane about Cecilia's death after ten years...........kind of ironic, now that Yugi thought about it.........
He felt Yami stirring inside his mind......but he couldn't let him back out. Yugi needed to come back to the world after Tea's death sometime.....he might as well get it over with........ No matter how hard it was.......no matter how much it hurt.......
Everyone had gone to see Kaiba.......restless and cranky as ever. He had told them everything that had happened to him and Pegasus, when he had fallen asleep later, everyone sat back out in the lobby to think about what they'd heard........ The silence was broken by, of all people, Mai. "So.....how do you think he did it?" Everyone else there seemed clueless as to what she was talking about. "'Ow do we tink who did what?" asked Joey. "How Weevil got his hair color. I'm talking about Pegasus. How do you guys think he brought back Cecilia?" Ryou shrugged. "It...it must have had to do with that machine that me and Yugi saw.......after all, that's what she came out of after.........................you know......"

Yugi's head, which had been hanging sullenly, looked up a little. Mai responded. "I know that, it's just that it seems suspicious.......after all, look what he's done to other people. He tried to kill Yugi before......it just seems strange..........."

Tristan nodded. "Yeah, but we haven't got any proof, about that, no matter how suspicious it seems. After all......Yugi and Ryou said she was fiddling with the knobs and all.....before.....it happened....."

Yugi grew angry. Tears slipped silently from his eyes. "Why don't any of you just say it?????? Why can't any of you just say that Tea DIED????" Tristan shifted a little uncomfortably. "We....we just didn't want to keep reminding you of it, Yug.........you're taking this the hardest.....she was your friend before she even knew any of us........"
Yugi was crying now, tears streaming freely down his face. "I'm going to remember her death without your help......just stop acting like you didn't know her, like this was something you read in the news............. It's not.........." "Yugi, clam down............."

Yugi swallowed, then nodded. Why was he freaking out like this? Why was he the only one crying while everyone else had faces of stone..................? Mai returned to the conversation as though nothing had just happened. "The only reason I'm here right now is to figure out what scheme Pegasus has up his slimy sleeve that's killed Tea.....and......"

She jerked her head in the direction of Pegasus's hospital room. The door was open, and everyone knew that Mai wouldn't want Cecilia to hear what she was saying. "......I mean, she seems nice and all, but she really picked the wrong guy in the romance department. My bet is that Pegasus has some way of bringing people back to life by killing people.....it would explain everything. It would be just like him to lure someone into that sort of a trap like that......."

Yugi looked a little puzzled. "But Mai.....Pegasus would need to have someone to be put in the trap...........................and Kaiba said that Pegasus was the only one on the island when he got there........"

Mai seemed stumped by that one for awhile, until her eyes brightened. "Kaiba." "What about him?" "He's the one Pegasus wanted.......................................and that machine that Kaiba was going after.......he'd said that no one had bought any of those kinds of machines for years..........so I'm betting Pegasus used it as a lame distraction to get Kaiba onto the island....after all, Pegasus probably still despises Kaiba, after all, we all know Kaiba ain't too fond of him....." Yugi sighed......"Mai, there are so many gaping holes in your idea. We'll need more information then what we've got right now to figure this out......." Mai smirked. "Oh, I think I know one way we can get information without even leaving the building. "How?"

Mai jerked her head in the direction of the hospital room once more. Yugi was horrified. "MAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"Yugi, keep your voice down!!! Look, she seems to know more than I'd have ever guessed about what's going on. I can't exactly say what it's like to die, but I'm willing to bet she's seen a lot of whatever's been going on with Peggy for the last ten years......."

Yugi, having died at Pegasus's hands only to return minutes later, knew that Mai was right, but didn't want to tell her that...........it felt almost like they were using Cecilia................................................. "I mean, think about it!!! She knows immediately to speak in Japanese instead of English around us, I think she even called me by my name once or twice.......she'll be perfect!!!"

"But how come she didn't know where Pegasus was....?"

"Who CARES????? What we need now is someone to talk to her, someone who can get bits of information without her getting suspicious....."

Tristan raised his eyebrows a little. "So you mean....someone who's friendly, someone who's good-natured and nice......" Joey nodded. "Prob'ly should be smaht enough ta know what's crossin' any lines 'o sumthin......someone who's got a talent for dealin' wit people....."

Yugi had been following what they said in a sort of daze, not realizing what they meant until it hit him like a sledge-hammer. "What??? You don't mean........ME?????" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
In the middle of his coma, Pegasus was dreaming........................... It was the night Cecilia died.......and Pegasus was able to remember every detail of it........
Cecilia was as pale as a ghost.......her golden hair framed her face, sleeping, unaware that she would not wake up in the same realm where she had started.
She didn't move, not at all.....her breathing was light, and her hand was as cold as ice when Pegasus held it in his own......Pegasus remembered wondering if she had already died and no one had noticed.....
Pegasus watched this all in an out-of-body experience.......although he wasn't experiencing it first-hand, Pegasus still felt his loneliness and pain well up again..........Pegasus ached for her to be with him on Earth again.......like he always did. He murmured her name.... "Cecilia"........ I really wanna see you I really wanna touch you If only I could hold you in my arms again I really wanna reach you Forever to be with you If only I could hold you in my arms again

Pegasus had always loved Cecilia.....but remembering times like these always resurfaced it, stronger than last time......and it also brought along the loneliness that flowed through him.
He couldn't imagine living without her.......he had always loved her, he knew that he would always need her with him......even if she didn't feel the way he felt. One of the happiest days of his life was when they told each other how they felt................it would stay in Pegasus's memory forever..........

It was written in the stars On the pages of my heart Oh, that someday I would find The love I feel for you tonight

Sometimes, even when Cecilia was alive, Pegasus was alone.............her parents shuttled her and her sisters around between two different estates throughout the year.......his own parents did the same......but every winter shone in Pegasus's memory, because Cecilia would be there..........the day that the two of them had married was the happiest day of each of their lives.............he'd thought that then would be the end to all his loneliness.......even if it was only the two of them, he wouldn't be alone.....she was all he needed.........she was the only person in the world that truly seemed to matter to him..........

On the ocean of our dreams Like a prayer you came to me And the longing that had been Found its ending in your eyes And I am missing you tonight

Pegasus saw himself stroke her face gently with his finger.....he remembered hoping that she would stir, hoping that she would wake up and they could escape from this nightmare.....escape from all that would occur for the ten long years to come..... He didn't think it was possible to forget her.......and, as much as it hurt, he didn't want to........she was the beacon in the storm, the light in the tunnel.............she was his salvation, but she had died......and, for the one time that mattered in his life, Pegasus had no control over what was happening................. Guilt gnawed away at him......he felt like this was his fault....if only he'd known she was sick, if only he hadn't taken her out in the cold, if only he'd watched where she'd stepped.......................
They say that the guilt phase of dealing with death passes fairly quickly in most cases. Pegasus was still going through it ten years later.
Pegasus watched the nurse walk quietly up to him, seeing in her eyes that she hated watching people unhappy.......but she too had no control over what was going on......
She tapped his shoulder.................

I really wanna see you I really wanna touch you If only I could hold you in my arms again I really wanna reach you Forever to be with you If only I could hold you in my arms again

He watched the nurse tell him that it was time......time for her to take away the only thing that was keeping Cecilia alive.... Pegasus had wished that there was someway to blame her for all this......but no machine was going to keep Cecilia now........
They say that eventually, you come to the point where you can accept the loss of a loved one........but Pegasus didn't. Maybe he just couldn't. It made no sense......Pegasus had come to grips with loss before. His parents had died shortly after Cecilia.....his brother had vanished years ago.....and all of his friends from before had abandoned him for one reason or another.......loss was one thing that Pegasus knew well.......

Across the waves, across the sea Separating you from me Here's a promise and it's mine I will love you for all time I'm wishing you were here tonight

Pegasus watched the doctors remove all the machines.........he saw himself grip Cecilia's hand tightly, pleading silently once again that this would all end............
The heart monitor started to slow......in very little time, it made no sound whatsoever, and he knew that Cecilia had breathed her last....
She hadn't even gotten the chance to wake up..................... Pegasus watched himself quietly......he kissed Cecilia three times...........once on her left eyelid, once on her right eyelid, and finally on the lips...........
The nurse told him that if he'd like, he could stay a little while longer.........but Pegasus refused. If he didn't leave now, he knew he might never truly be able to leave...... Once Pegasus really thought about it, he realized that he never had.
The hospital room began to melt away, but Pegasus didn't notice. He was too caught up knowing that Cecilia was dead and that there was very little he could do about it...............

I really wanna see you I really wanna touch you If only I could hold you in my arms again I really wanna reach you Forever to be with you If only I could hold you in my arms again

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ CK: Okay............I have finished another chapter!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just need to ask one thing from you readers: tell me what you think of the story idea I told you last chappie!!! It's a SERIOUS fic, and I'm gonna be bored if I only type up my humor fic once this story's over with (once again, that's not gonna be for awhile, but I need to plan, folks....) So if someone could just respond, that would really be great......I don't even care if you're telling me you don't like the idea, I want to know if I'm about to type crap. So anyway, that's it, read and review!!! Ja ne!!!!!!