"You were halfway through telling us what happened today..." Lupin edged her on. He noticed she skimmed over the kiss, and that she was obviously skimming over what Lucius said to her, it was very likely hed goad her about Sirius. And skimming over what Sirius had said. It was very obvious that Lana wasnt ready to talk about her relationship with Sirius in front of Harry, although he was betting that Ron and Hermione already knew.

"Oh, yeah." Lana said, and Lupin could tell she was detatching herself from her emotions again, and after hed told her not to, he assumed she was practicing Occlumency. He was surpised Lana hadnt torn Mrs Weasleys head off.

"Ah, Dumbledore, Moody, Tonks...Severus." Lupin said, the last name obviously with restraint.

Lana spun around at the mention of Snapes name.

"YOU!" Lana screamed, pushing her chair back and pointing her wand at Snapes chest, who moved his hand. "I WOULDNT MOVE IF I WAS YOU."

Dumbledore spoke softly. "Lana..I trust Severus."

"Yeah?" Lana sneered. "Well I bloody dont." And, not taking her eyes from Snape, she waved her wand and took a chunk of Snapes hair out, getting a huge laugh from Harry, despite the circumstances.

Harry looked at Lana, who wasnt laughing, but on the brink of tears, and she was trembling.

"Do you know what he said to me?" Lana asked, her voice barely above a whisper, and Harry noted that she had the same intense dislike in her eyes as Sirius had whenever he looked at Snape, but they were also flecked with a deep pain.

Snape grabbed his wand quickly, there was a flash of blue light and Lanas robe spattered with blood from her face. Harry stood up and pointed his wand at Snape, as did Lupin and Moody.

"Expelliarmus." Dumbledore said lazily, and their wands flew out of their hands and into Dumbledores.

Lana only looked put off for a second. "Fine. I dont need a wand to hurt him." She raised her hand and Lupin grabbed it firmly in his and pulled it down.

"Dont." he said quietly.

Lana turned to him, a look of disbelief on her face. "You dont want me to kill him, or the very least put him in an extreme amount of pain? This worthless piece of shit gets to live and someone I loved with all my heart and soul is dead?" her brown eyes locked on his blue ones.

Everyone in the room was looking intently at Lana and Lupin, who were obviously sharing some kind of moment. Harrys face changed as a few things slotted into place in his head.

Blood was slowly trickling down Lanas face, but she paid it no heed. She yanked her hand away from Lupin and turned back to Snape.

"Snivellus, I get that youre a double agent. But I still want to kill you. Dumbledore may think that youve reformed, but I really dont. I think you should pay for your past crimes." Lanas eyes narrowed dangerously, and Harry was happy to see that Snape was sweating, a sheen appearing on his forehead. His eyes were fixated on Lana, but he was obviously doing some quick thinking. "You better hope I dont get left alone with you...Or you dont turn your back on me, or even look at me in the wrong way...Cos..My hand just might..." she made a gesture that made him jump.. "slip"

She stepped forwards, her breathing getting heavier, her icy exterior fading rapidly, and Harry noticed that she was crying, so did everyone else in the room.

Dumbledore didnt move to stop Lana, because he knew that she wouldnt hurt him.

Moody was glaring at Lana, with both eyes. Bill was still leaning back on his chair, surveying the scene with some amusement. Charlie was stood beside his mother, who looked worried. Tonks kept changing her nose, a sign of nervousness, (or amusing Hermione and Ginny). Harry and Lupins eyes were flipping from Lana to Snape.

"You wouldnt dare." Snape taunted. "You never did anything without Sirius. I dont even know how youve coped these past 2 weeks without him."

Lana let out a roar and flung herself at Snape, managing to land at least one punch on him before he pushed her away, and Lupin grabbed her around the waist, wrapping his arms tight around her and pulling her out of the way and off Snape.

"ARGH! GET OFF ME!" Lana shouted, trying to smack at Lupin, rage over coming all of her senses, and Charlie had hold of Harry.

Snape stood up, smoothing off his robes and wiping blood from his lip.

Lana was still struggling against Lupin, fighting to get to Snape, "ILL FUCKING TEAR YOU UP YOU BASTARD" But shed stopped struggling as much and was now crying harder, barely able to get her words out.

Harry was extremely confused. From what he could gather, Lana obviously loved Sirius deeply. But how she could, he didnt know. He didnt think Sirius would go for someone so young...But Snapes taunt about Sirius...Hed just ask Lana later.

Everyone in the room watched the scene unfold, not knowing what to do or say.

Lana stopped struggling and just kind of...Flopped. Her tears were flowing faster and she was still shouting at Snape. "DONT FUCKING TAUNT ME ABOUT SIRIUS! YOU DONT KNOW, YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING YOU PICE OF SHIT! ILL FUCKING KILL YOU, OH YOU JUST WAIT SNIVELLY YOU WENT TOOO FUCKING FAR WHEN YOU DECIDED TO PAY ME A VISIT, TOO FUCKING FAR! AND DONT EVER TRY AND GET IN MY MIND AGAIN YOU SICK SON OF A BITCH, DO YOU WANNA KNOW HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW? OH TOOO FAR"

"I FU - I HA- I I - - " Lana stopped, unable to speak, and put her hands in fists and put them to the side of her head "arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" she said, voice full of pain. Lupin stopped pulling against her and just stood there, and caught her as her legs gave way, it hurt her too much to stand up, and he held her steady for a few seconds and she covered her face with her hands as she broke down again.

Mrs Weasley couldnt believe it; the girl really was broken. On edge. Not stable.

Nobody in the room had a blank expression on their face - it was either shock, pity, slight amusement, or hate. Harry was crying, and Lupin was looking dreadfully pained.

Lana stopped, steadied herself on her feet and shoved Lupins hands away from her. Lana felt a cold shudder pass through her body, and for some reason, Sirius' presence. She looked at Harry, and as their eyes locked, she knew that he'd felt it too.

She pointed at Snape, her voice shaking, her whole body trembling. "If I - find out - " she took deep breaths between speaking "that the thing - with Sirius - Ghost Roads - was anything - to do with - Voldemort - some kind of - trick - Ill kill you for it - "

And with that, she snatched her wand from Dumbledore and walked from the room.

Harry wasnt sure why, but he got up and followed Lana out of the room.

Dumbledore looked around the room, and Moody spoke uncharacteristically softly.

"Did Lana just say Sirius and Ghost Roads in the same sentence?"

Dumbledore nodded.

"Does this mean what I think it could mean?" Lupin asked.

Dumbledore nodded, his face ashen. "It could mean one of a few things...Each as bad as the other."

~*~*~*~*~*~THE GHOST ROADS~*~*~*~*~*~

Sirius spent most of his time confused as to where the hell he was at what the hell he was seeing. Past and present events, and the odd future event. Nothing important, he saw nothing to do with the people he knew and loved. For some reason, the things he seemed to be wandering in the middle of the most were Egyptian times. He knew where he was - The Ghost Roads.

Dumbledore had mentioned them a few times, saying that there were 4 types of people and things wandering the Ghost Roads. People waiting for other loved ones to die; people being punished; "Angels"; and people who had died an "unnatural" death. The only one that meant you werent screwed was being an Angel, and Sirius knew he wasnt one, because the Angels mainly had blonde hair and green eyes, or red hair and green eyes. And besides, he often had no idea what the fuck he was doing.

The times when he did see Lana and Harry were times when they were in great pain. He hated the thought that, he, Sirius, could cause so much pain in 2 of the people he cared most about in the world. It was hard for him, because although he was there, watching and hearing, he was on another plane of existence and therefore could make no contact with anyone in the room. He hated it. He was amused when Lana flung a punch at Snape, typical Lana, act now, ask questions never. Its what he loved about her. Harry was angry, and Sirius understood that. He was angry when Lily and James were betrayed by that little bastard Peter. Harry was sick of everyone molly coddling him, and it seemed now that Sirius was gone, he wouldnt get to know anything. But Sirius knew different. If he knew Lana, which he did, she would insist that Harry be told everything that was going on.

"Shut up" Sirius muttered to the creepy 10 year old boy that seemed to follow him wherever he went in the Ghost Roads. He looked 10, but, as hed told Sirius, hed been travelling the Ghost Roads for about 300 years.

"Touch her," the boy said to him as Lana broke down. "And Harry too. Go on."

"Shut up! I cant and you bloody well know it." Sirius snapped.

"Oh but I think you can." the boy said, folding his arms and looking at Sirius.

"Fine. If itll get you to shut up." Sirius said, and he stepped through Harry, and felt the strangest shudder as he did. He stopped and bent down, looked at Harry. But Harry was looking right through him at Lana. Sirius followed his gaze and found that Lana was looking right at Harry, that they both had a strange expression on their faces and Sirius stood up and walked over to Lana.

"Whats happening?" Sirius asked the boy, as he stood in front of Lana, and went to wipe her tears from her face but his hand just went straight through her face.

"I told you that you could touch them." the boy said, in a sing-song voice that sent chills down Sirius spine.

"I cant! Look," he said, stepping back so the boy could see his hand.

"Yes you can...and you are" he said again.

Sirius shook his head and frowned. "Why do you torment me?" he asked.

"Im not tormenting you."

Sirius rolled his eyes. Hed given up on trying to get a straight answer from the boy. Although he was extremely irritating at times, he had been the one whod taught him how to drag Lanas astral self to the portal in the Ghost Roads. It was just pure luck that theyd found it, the Portal moves through time and space extremely fast, and you have to be careful. Sirius had wanted to drag Harry there too, but the boy had explained that Harry wasnt experienced enough with the mental abilities that Wizards have if they ever need them. And with Lana spending 15 years on another plane of existence, she woukd be fine. Sirius couldnt figure out how it worked, but the boy had said "You dont have to understand. You just have to know. Somethings arent meant to be understood."

After that, the scene had dissolved and Sirius found himself in the middle of a dense forest.

~*~*~*~*~*~THE LEAKY CAULDRON~*~*~*~*~*~

Lana stood outside in the summer afternoon, a Butterbeer in her hands. She was still trembling slightly and tears still flowed but silently. Shed felt Sirius presence and it had scared her. Diagon Alley was packed and Lana was thankful for that. Lana knew little to nothing about the Ghost Roads. After all, she wasnt dead, so how could she know?

In front of her, she had her notebook.

(*my immortal

i'm so tired of being here

suppressed by all of my childish fears

and if you have to leave

i wish that you would just leave

because your presence still lingers here

and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears

and i've held your hand through all of these years

but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me

by your resonating light

but now i'm bound by the life you left behind

your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears

and i've held your hand through all of these years

but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

and though you're still with me

i've been alone all along*)

Lana sat writing, shed been working on this for a few days. She wasnt sure if she meant what shed what shed written, but that was her feelings right now. Harry had come and sat opposite Lana about 10 minutes ago. Theyd sat in silence.

Harry was bursting to either shout at Lana or hug her. But he had so many questions.

Lana finally looked up and took a sip of her Butterbeer. She looked at Harry. "I guess youre pretty mad at me."

"You think?" Harry sneered.

"Id say sorry, but I know it wont make a difference to you."

Harry stopped. It was true. "Youre right there. You said you wouldnt lie to me."

"I also said that you asked the wrong questions, Harry. You never asked me anything directly." Lana corrected him. "So, technically, I didnt lie."

"YES YOU DID!" Harry shouted, getting stares from everyone sat around them.

"I said technically..." Lana said sheepishly, sipping her Butterbeer. "So do you have anything you want to ask me? And not something you know I cant answer."

Harry stared at her. He had a lot of questions, mainly surrounding her and Sirius. Now he knew that Lana knew his parents, he had a lot of questions about them too. Mainly he wanted to know what happened the night they were murdered, but he knew he wasnt ready to hear that. Hed spent the last 10 minutes trying to think of a question that would give him some answers.

"My dad hated Snape."

Lana smiled. "Oh yeah."

"Why?"

Lana thought this over for a second. "Im not sure. They hated each other on sight. Jealous of James' talent. He was good at everything."

"Lana, if that is your REAL name - "

"It is." Lana understood Harrys rudeness, and anger, and just let him take it out on her.

"I dont understand. I dont get what why you look about 18 yet you went to school with my parents. I dont get why you were so upset about Sirius. I dont get what there is between you and Lupin, cos theres obviously a connection. I dont get why you insist on me listening to everything, but thanks, Im sick of people molly coddling me, and I dont know why nobody challenged you when you said I could listen."

"Woah woah Harry - stop right there." Lana said, head spinning. Her face was still bleeding a little but she didnt care. "I dont know why Im so young. I should actually be 36." Lana winced at the age. "Dumbledores working on it. Moony and I just good friends. I want you to listen to everything because you are not a child and you should know. I explained it back there."

Harry was listenening closely. "You didnt mention you and Sirius."

Lana eyes clouded over. "I - we were together. Since I was 14 and he was 16. Right till Voldemort murdered - " she stopped.

"You and - you and Sirius?" Harry said, disbelieving.

"Yeah. Me and Sirius." Lana said, sipping her Butterbeer.

"Why werent you there when he got out of Azkaban then?" Harry asked, confused.

"And why did he never mention you to me? Im his godson!"

Lana shook her head. "I dont know. And I dont know."

"You thought he was guilty?" he asked

"No. I knew he wasnt." Lana said, voice bitter.

"You knew?! Why didnt you try and get him freed?" Harry asked, angrily.

"It wasnt that simple Harry."

"Actually I think it is." Harry snapped.

"No, its really not." Lana slammed her Butterbeer down. "To tell you everything would take me about 4 years. I told you." her voice softened. "Id never lie to you Harry."

"Then why werent you there?"

"I was in a coma. A magical kind - it was weird." Lana replied.

Harry stared. He felt himself softening despite wanting to be really angry at her. If shed gone through half as much as Sirius and Lupin, she had to be feeling pretty messed up. And being in a coma for 15 years, coming out and finding out - well,. everything all at once had to be a shock to the system.

"So...You went to school with them all then?" Harry asked, very curious.

"Yeah..." she smiled to herself. "It was..."

"What was my dad like at Quidditch?" Harry asked, wondering if he was as good as his father.

"He was great. The best. But the bossiest and most stubborn captain ever. He used to work us so hard."

"You played Qudditch?" Harry asked.

"Yep. I was a Chaser. Sirius was a Beater."

"SIRIUS played Quidditch?" he asked. "He never told me." Harrys head was swimming with all the information.

"Well, he wouldnt." Lana said with a small smile. "He was kicked off the team in the last year by McGonagall."

"Why?" Harry asked, moving his chair closer to Lana and feeling his spirits lift for the first time in weeks.

"He, um, smacked a Bludger at Snape during a match." Lana said, hardly able to keep her face straight. "Knocked him out. Sirius swore it was an accident, but...McGonagall knew. Not very often Bludgers go flying into the crowd..."

Harrys eyes widened and he laughed. "Really?"

Lana nodded. "Listen, Harry...I dont know if you know, but your dad saved Snapes life once."

"Oh, I know. Sirius told him to go through the tunnel under the Whomping Willow, cos Snape wanted to know where Lupin went every month."

"Oh." Lana said. "Do you know why Sirius told him to do that?"

"No." Harry was amazed. Hed never even asked why.

"I could tell you...But its a long story. Id probably just bore you, reminscing of my long gone school days.." Lana said, knowing full well Harry wanted to know as much as she wanted to tell him.

"I want to know! Tell me...Tell me about my dad, and you and Sirius, and my mum, and - " he said eagerly, really excited that he was finally going to get some knowledge of his parents. And he was really intrested in Lana and Sirius.

(DISCLAIMER : Not my lyrics. Evanescence's.)

(NOTE : After today, I wont be able to update for about 4 days because I have guests and I cant spend all day on the computer, that would be rude and ignorant. But a few chapters are flashback, and I write all my flashbacks on paper before I type them up and post them, so there will definately be an update on Tuesday sometime. Review all you lovely people!)