Re-appearing in Dumbledores office, Lana wanted to be violently sick. She
had kept this charade up for almost a month now - lying to her soul mate
about where she was going, trying hard not to slip up in front of
Lucius... And last night, it had gone one step too far. No going back now,
Lana told herself. Got to get the job done.
"Afternoon." Dumbledores low voice sounded behind Lana.
Lana turned to face him, deep purple bruises on her arms showing already. "Dont act like you care." she said spitefully, to his concerned expression.
"I do."
"Course ya do," Lana said, walking around the other side of his desk. "Hows Sirius?"
Dumbledore sat down, he was wearing robes of a deep blue, with gold stars and moons printed on them. "He..."
He was about to answer when the door of Dumbledores office flung open and Sirius walked in.
His hair had grown long, just the way Lana liked it, and he was in his usual black shirt and black trousers. The shirt showed his muscular arms, made from his battles with Lana. (She had been teaching him how Muggles fight and had loved it, so they had been doing training every night. Plus, it was his natural physique. Quidditch also helped.)
Eyes travelling exactly where Lana knew they would, despite wearing an extremely hooker-ish dress.
"Who bruised your arms?" he asked, walking over to her. Lana backed off a few steps, the worried look in his eyes hurting her like a physical blow.
"Lucius Malfoy." She told him truthfully. Dumbledore shot her a warning glance over Sirius' shoulder.
Sirius' brow creased. "Malfoy?"
"Yeah, he err, I disarmed him." Lana said, recovering quickly, "And he decided to get physical.." (oh the irony, she thought)
Then he did what Lana knew hed do second.
"Why are you wearing...That?" he said, looking at it in a way that told Lana he didnt like it.
"You dont like it?" she asked, knowing that he would say no.
"No..." then his dark brown eyes glittered and he broke into a crooked grin that Lana loved.
He believes me, Lana thought, her heart dropping. She half-wished he would grab her and shake her "I KNOW! I KNOW WHAT YOU WERE DOING WITH HIM!". But he trusted her. All the way. And that was killing her.
One thing bugged her. Why hadnt he asked her where she was?
He kissed her lightly on the cheek, and wrapped his arms around her. "You okay? I know about the raid last night. You sure you dont have any other injuries?"
Lana shook her head, felt the tears glittering. "These'll heal soon anyway. Always do." She avoided looking at Dumbledore and shut her eyes as she hugged Sirius.
"Mind if I steal my Lady away for a few hours?" Sirius asked Dumbledore.
Dumbledore nodded. This young couple, so in love, a bright future ahead of them both...If only the present werent so damn dark. Lies, secrets, deciet...All part of the usual day. He knew it was wrong to ask someone like Lana to undertake such a dangerous job - undercover with Lucius Malfoy. But she was his weak link, and the information they had gotten out of him had saved many lives. It had also cost a few too, on both sides. He would talk with Lana later.
~*~*~*~*~*~ SIRIUS AND LANAS PLACE - 22 JULY 1981 ~*~*~*~*~*~
Lana had pushed all thoughts of Lucius Malfoy and last night from her mind. Every now and then, tho, one would come creeping through and she would physically feel sick, like breaking down and sobbing.
Standing in front of the wardrobe, wearing nothing but her black underwear, Lana smiled at Sirius who was sat on the bed.
"God youre beautiful" he said, staring at Lana.
Tears clouded her eyes again. She loved this man, with every fibre of her being. She had given him her heart, body and soul.
Sirius tipped his head to the side. "Whats wrong baby?"
"I - " Lana closed her eyes. Then she shook her head. "Nothing. Nothing, its just..Nothing." Turning back to the wardrobe, she pulled out a pair of light blue, low slung denim jeans, and a black top.
As she pulled the top down, she felt his smooth arms snake around her waist and his hands pull her around to face him.
"Lana, if theres something bothering you...You can tell me you know. Im always here for you. I love you baby." His dark brown eyes bore into hers, concernedly.
He has no idea just what he does to me, she thought. Seeing those eyes, that hair, that face..Made all the bad in the world disappear, and all there was was them. Bu the fear was still there. Something bad, even worse, was going down with Voldemort and the Death Eaters, and now Lana was in the thick of it. She knew exactly what her main fear was.
"I just - Im so scared," she admitted, and Sirius knew there was something wrong, because Lana would never admit that, not even to him. She trembled and he pulled her closer to him. "I dont want to lose, and you Im so scared, terrified in fact, that youre going to die and then Ill never see you again and - "
Sirius was amazed. She was terrified. Terrified. "My God...Lana, Im not - Oh baby," he said as she started crying. Gently, he wiped her tears with his fingers. "Baby, Lana, listen to me - Im not going to die. Nobody can kill me, Im Sirius Black, I am NOT going to die that easily."
Lana laughed a little. "That cousin of yours has come close a few times."
"Bella?" he laughed. "That little bitch couldnt kill me if she tried. Which she has," he added after a beat.
He kissed her softly on the lips, putting his hands in that long brown hair of hers that he loved so much.
"Have I told you today how much I love you?" she asked, smiling a little.
"Might have let it slip in four or five times," he said, that grin spreading across his face. "You dont love me half as much as I love you."
Rolling her eyes she pulled him to her, kissing him hard on the lips, getting her hands lost in his long black hair. She moaned lightly as their kiss deepened, and she let her lips linger on his for a while. "Did I tell you how much I love kissing you?" she said, between kissing him.
"Mmmhmm," Sirius said, moving his hands down Lanas arms, and then moving them sharply away as she flinched.
Avoiding Sirius' eyes, she moved away from him, walking across the bedroom, she tucked her hair behind her ears.
"Im sorry if I hurt your arms." he said quietly.
Lana stopped, her back to Sirius, thinking how much she so didnt deserve him. He was the best, caring, understanding, he was everything that she had fallen for at school and more.The pressure of the past month of lying, even tho nothing had actually happened until last night, finally went overboard and Lana broke down crying.
"Afternoon." Dumbledores low voice sounded behind Lana.
Lana turned to face him, deep purple bruises on her arms showing already. "Dont act like you care." she said spitefully, to his concerned expression.
"I do."
"Course ya do," Lana said, walking around the other side of his desk. "Hows Sirius?"
Dumbledore sat down, he was wearing robes of a deep blue, with gold stars and moons printed on them. "He..."
He was about to answer when the door of Dumbledores office flung open and Sirius walked in.
His hair had grown long, just the way Lana liked it, and he was in his usual black shirt and black trousers. The shirt showed his muscular arms, made from his battles with Lana. (She had been teaching him how Muggles fight and had loved it, so they had been doing training every night. Plus, it was his natural physique. Quidditch also helped.)
Eyes travelling exactly where Lana knew they would, despite wearing an extremely hooker-ish dress.
"Who bruised your arms?" he asked, walking over to her. Lana backed off a few steps, the worried look in his eyes hurting her like a physical blow.
"Lucius Malfoy." She told him truthfully. Dumbledore shot her a warning glance over Sirius' shoulder.
Sirius' brow creased. "Malfoy?"
"Yeah, he err, I disarmed him." Lana said, recovering quickly, "And he decided to get physical.." (oh the irony, she thought)
Then he did what Lana knew hed do second.
"Why are you wearing...That?" he said, looking at it in a way that told Lana he didnt like it.
"You dont like it?" she asked, knowing that he would say no.
"No..." then his dark brown eyes glittered and he broke into a crooked grin that Lana loved.
He believes me, Lana thought, her heart dropping. She half-wished he would grab her and shake her "I KNOW! I KNOW WHAT YOU WERE DOING WITH HIM!". But he trusted her. All the way. And that was killing her.
One thing bugged her. Why hadnt he asked her where she was?
He kissed her lightly on the cheek, and wrapped his arms around her. "You okay? I know about the raid last night. You sure you dont have any other injuries?"
Lana shook her head, felt the tears glittering. "These'll heal soon anyway. Always do." She avoided looking at Dumbledore and shut her eyes as she hugged Sirius.
"Mind if I steal my Lady away for a few hours?" Sirius asked Dumbledore.
Dumbledore nodded. This young couple, so in love, a bright future ahead of them both...If only the present werent so damn dark. Lies, secrets, deciet...All part of the usual day. He knew it was wrong to ask someone like Lana to undertake such a dangerous job - undercover with Lucius Malfoy. But she was his weak link, and the information they had gotten out of him had saved many lives. It had also cost a few too, on both sides. He would talk with Lana later.
~*~*~*~*~*~ SIRIUS AND LANAS PLACE - 22 JULY 1981 ~*~*~*~*~*~
Lana had pushed all thoughts of Lucius Malfoy and last night from her mind. Every now and then, tho, one would come creeping through and she would physically feel sick, like breaking down and sobbing.
Standing in front of the wardrobe, wearing nothing but her black underwear, Lana smiled at Sirius who was sat on the bed.
"God youre beautiful" he said, staring at Lana.
Tears clouded her eyes again. She loved this man, with every fibre of her being. She had given him her heart, body and soul.
Sirius tipped his head to the side. "Whats wrong baby?"
"I - " Lana closed her eyes. Then she shook her head. "Nothing. Nothing, its just..Nothing." Turning back to the wardrobe, she pulled out a pair of light blue, low slung denim jeans, and a black top.
As she pulled the top down, she felt his smooth arms snake around her waist and his hands pull her around to face him.
"Lana, if theres something bothering you...You can tell me you know. Im always here for you. I love you baby." His dark brown eyes bore into hers, concernedly.
He has no idea just what he does to me, she thought. Seeing those eyes, that hair, that face..Made all the bad in the world disappear, and all there was was them. Bu the fear was still there. Something bad, even worse, was going down with Voldemort and the Death Eaters, and now Lana was in the thick of it. She knew exactly what her main fear was.
"I just - Im so scared," she admitted, and Sirius knew there was something wrong, because Lana would never admit that, not even to him. She trembled and he pulled her closer to him. "I dont want to lose, and you Im so scared, terrified in fact, that youre going to die and then Ill never see you again and - "
Sirius was amazed. She was terrified. Terrified. "My God...Lana, Im not - Oh baby," he said as she started crying. Gently, he wiped her tears with his fingers. "Baby, Lana, listen to me - Im not going to die. Nobody can kill me, Im Sirius Black, I am NOT going to die that easily."
Lana laughed a little. "That cousin of yours has come close a few times."
"Bella?" he laughed. "That little bitch couldnt kill me if she tried. Which she has," he added after a beat.
He kissed her softly on the lips, putting his hands in that long brown hair of hers that he loved so much.
"Have I told you today how much I love you?" she asked, smiling a little.
"Might have let it slip in four or five times," he said, that grin spreading across his face. "You dont love me half as much as I love you."
Rolling her eyes she pulled him to her, kissing him hard on the lips, getting her hands lost in his long black hair. She moaned lightly as their kiss deepened, and she let her lips linger on his for a while. "Did I tell you how much I love kissing you?" she said, between kissing him.
"Mmmhmm," Sirius said, moving his hands down Lanas arms, and then moving them sharply away as she flinched.
Avoiding Sirius' eyes, she moved away from him, walking across the bedroom, she tucked her hair behind her ears.
"Im sorry if I hurt your arms." he said quietly.
Lana stopped, her back to Sirius, thinking how much she so didnt deserve him. He was the best, caring, understanding, he was everything that she had fallen for at school and more.The pressure of the past month of lying, even tho nothing had actually happened until last night, finally went overboard and Lana broke down crying.
