Sirius was worried. Lana saying she was scared was rare - Lana saying that she was TERRIFIED was...Impossible. Terrified. The word rang in his ears as Lana sat down on the thick, cream coloured carpet of their bedroom, crying. He felt his stomach flip, a hand squeeze his heart. Twice he had seen Lana sob - When her mother died, and when Bella, Nott and Lucius had almost killed him, Lily and James.

Lana was sat on her knees, her head on her hands, and Sirius saw as he sat down next to her and put his arms around her and pulled him into his chest that she was trembling.

"Lana, what is it? Jesus Christ, youre scaring me, baby tell me.." he pleaded with her as she shook and cried in his arms, and she tried to push him away from her.

"Dont touch me" she managed to say after a few minutes of muttering incoherently, and she wrapped her hands around his and pulled his arms from around her, sitting looking at him, holding his hands tight.

Her eyes were red and puffy, and she could barely look him in the eye. Instinctively, he knew that there was something she was going to say that he wasnt going to like. This put him on edge.

"Last night - " Lana began, wondering where to start - "I wasnt...On a raid." she said, before wiping a few tears away. "I lied."

Sirius' dark brown eyes narrowed in confusion and suspision. "What are you trying to tell me?"

"I lied to you. I was at - " and Lana found that she couldnt say any more.

What was she trying to say? "Oh God..." Sirius said, standing up, he was agitated now. "Is - is - " he took a pause, and made himself say the question. "Is there someone else?"

Lana couldnt bring herself to look at him, instead covering her eyes with her hands. It wasnt exactly true, but she had been with someone else. The tears fell harder and she couldnt form an answer to the question.

"I dont know whether to take your silence as a yes or as a no. Help me out a little here." He had no idea what to do or say.

"No. Yes. I - No. No. No. No." Lana was babbling again and she knew it, so she shut up.

There were a few minutes of silence between them, each one going to say something but then didnt. Lana used the time to gather her thoughts and she was the first to break the silence.

"I was with someone else last night, but there ISNT anyone else...If you know what I mean," she said, standing up, exhausted from last night and from crying.

As she walked towards him, Sirius backed off, hands in his pockets. "How about you tell me where you were."

"I was on...Something for the Order. And something for work too. Undercover mission. I wasnt expecting to be there all night, but I was. And Im sorry." Lana said, meaning every word of it and she moved towards him again.

Again, he backed off. "Who were you with? Where WERE YOU?!" he shouted, "DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW WORRIED I WAS ABOUT YOU? I HATE THAT YOU HAVE TO DO THAT FUCKING JOB, I HATE THAT YOURE ALWAYS THE ONE WHO GETS SENT OUT ON ALL THESE JOBS!"

Lana flinched and tucked her hair behind her ears again, something she always did when she was nervous. "Dont you think I hate it? Dont you think I hate that Im always the one risking my life to save people? But I think thats the point, Sirius, I SAVE PEOPLES LIVES. And if I happen to die saving someone I love, so be it."

Sirius looked at her, at her exhausted face, at the fact that she could barely stand and he felt his anger melt, and what was left was love, but he was still torn up about the fact that he never knew if his girlfriend was going to be coming back from work, if that kiss goodbye would be the last... "Cant you just....Not be as powerful? Say youre powers just went...Poof. Didnt come back." he said hopefully.

Lana smiled a little. "I have...This undercover operation...You might hear, see, somethings about me that you dont like...But you know what its like, what with Snape coming across to our side..."

Sirius rolled his eyes. He didnt trust him as far as Snape could throw Lana. Which wasnt very far, cos the greaseball wouldnt get his slimy hands on Lana. "I know, I know....Its hard sometimes, when youve got a gorgeous, powerful..."

"Boyfriend who works at Hogwarts and all the schoolgirls are in love with him, and who can blame them cos hes just the best and..." Lana was stopped talking by Sirius' lips on hers.

"Im sorry.." Lana said, wrapping her arms around Sirius neck and standing on her top toes, running her hands through his hair. "I didnt mean to make you worry, or freak you out or anything when I started crying, Ive just had a long night and Im tired....And Ive got to go back undercover tonight..."

Sirius face fell from a grin to a frown.

Lana rolled her eyes and then closed them, and leant into Sirius chest. "Aw dont ask me to stay away baby, you know I cant. But I want to. So much."

Sirius grabbed Lanas hands gently and he stepped back, looking into her eyes, he said - "I love you. More than anything, ever in my whole life, in the past and Ill never love anyone or anything in the future as much as I do you." He leaned in and kissed Lana, and she kissed back, full of passion, but he forced himself to break away.

"What are you doing?" Lana asked, as Sirius reached in his pocket and knelt down in front of her. Her eyes widened in shock and she felt her legs telling her to RUN RUN RUN! But she couldnt.

"I know that we probably wont be able to have a big thing with lots of people because of the war, something in me is telling me that something big is going to happen soon and I want to ask you before this..Thing happens." he said quickly, hoping that Lana didnt click onto the fact that he had listened to her and Dumbledores conversation a few days earlier.

"Sirius - " she began, but then couldnt form other words.

"Marry me Lana." he said. Hed been planning to ask her for a few weeks now, but could never find the right time, what with one attack after another attack death after death.