(A.N. : firstly, i want to apologise for the chapters that havent been
going up. with college and being ill, its been hard for me to write. so im
writing now because i have a few free hours. ill try and update at least
once a week from now on. im sorry. )
~*~*~*~*~*~ AN HOUR LATER ~*~*~*~*~*~
Lana stood in the hallway of her mothers house, also the Headquaters of the Order of the Phoenix. In the living room, Harry was sleeping in a cot that Lana and Sirius had brought for him. James was still at work, on the late shift. Lily was pacing the hallway, worried sick about James, and Lana was trying to calm her nerves. Sirius was sat watching Harry. Various other members were roaming the house, and Snape was somewhere.
"Lil, hell be fine, its James!" Lana said, giving her friend false hope and hating it.
"Dont lie to me Lana," as she walked down the hallway and opened the front door for the second time in 5 minutes to look for James.
"A watched kettle never boils." said Lana, taking Lilys arm and gently pulling her away from the door. "Its only..." she looked at her watch, "6pm. Hes 10 minutes late Lils, and if he was hurt, we'd know. You'd know."
Lilys bright green eyes bore into Lanas light brown ones. She sighed. "Youre right. Im just...worrying over nothing."
Lanas insides squirmed. She knew for a FACT that Lily had reason to be worried, but she couldnt tell her. How do you tell your best friend that shes a prime target for Voldemort to either kill or recruit, which ever one he can do faster? But they knew anyway.
Grabbing Lily in a quick hug, Lana smiled. "He'll be fine."
"Thanks." Lily whispered, hugging her best friend.
As they walked down the hallway, Harry whimpered. Lily sped up and was about to burst through the door that was slightly open, when Lana stopped her.
"Shh" Lana said, pointing through the door.
Sirius was awkwardly trying to pick Harry up, whos whimpering had now turned into small cries. He took the covers off of Harry, and gently picked him up, placing Harry against his chest, with one arm under Harry and one hand on the back of his neck, as Harry rested his head on Sirius' shoulder.
Lana leant against the door frame, and fiddled with the ring on her left hand. Since theyd done the spell, Lana had felt a kind of...Completion like she had never felt before. Lily leant her head on Lanas shoulder, even tho she was a few inches taller than Lana.
Harrys hair was already showing signs of being like his fathers - black and messy. The bright green eyes he got from his mother. He carried on crying for around a minute, then stopped, hiccuped, and was sick on Sirius' shoulder.
"Oh, Harry!" Sirius said, holding Harry out at arms length. He inspected the damage. He frowned, then as he looked back at Harry, who looked like he was going to cry, Sirius pulled a face and Harry laughed. "Its not as bad as the time Aunty Lana was sick on me tho," he said, and then grimaced at the memory of it.
Harry started to cry again and Sirius held him in one arm whilst wiping at his shirt with the other. Jiggling him slightly, Sirius walked up and down the wall, talking to Harry.
"So me and Lana went into the Muggle pub, (I'll take you to one when youre a bit older, I bet youll easily drink two old men like me and your dad under the table, maybe Moony will be there too, if its not, you know, moony outside...)" Sirius paused, "and anyway, Lana starts ordering all these drinks I never even heard of, being a great and talented wizard, I have no need for Muggle things, but dont go thinking just because theyre Muggle theyre not good,"
Lana felt the tears welling up in her eyes, and she bit down hard on her lip. Seeing Sirius like that with Harry made her want to have a child with Sirius, but in the midst of a war, and with the job that they both did, Lana didnt think it was such a good idea. She wanted to give the child everything that she never had, and so did Sirius - a stable home, in which they are supported in whatever choices they make. Obviously not Death-Eater choices, but Sirius said that any child with half of Lana and his genes would never be that dense, and she had to laugh. "Be like a super-child," Sirius had said, "and with my...whats the Muggle word? Movie star good looks, be a good looking super-brain as well"
Lily saw the effect this was having on Lana, and after the chat they had last week, in which Lana cried her heart out, Lily stepped forward into the room.
"Hey there Godfather, let the mummy in while you go get cleaned up," she said, taking Harry from Sirius.
"Thanks Lil," he said, looking over at the door to Lana.
His eyebrows narrowed for a second with concern, and he made a half-smile at Lana, which made her turn and walk from the doorway. He turned to Lily, who motioned for him to go after her.
Lana was stood leaning against the door, her back to him. He knew that she was crying. He stood a few feet away, watching.
"Hey," he said softly, "You okay?"
Quickly wiping her eyes on her t-shirt, she turned around. "Yeah Im fine."
"Listen, if what we were talking about the other day put pressure on you, I didnt mean to, not at all, you know that right?" he asked, hugging her.
She breathed in Sirius, let her hands wander in his hair, put her face in it and then kissed him lightly on the cheek. "I have to go now. Meeting with Dumbledore and then straight to work. I will be back to tomorow afternoon at the very latest."
He sighed. He hated this. "Okay then. I love you."
"Not half as much as I love you." she said, kissing him again lightly and eyeballing Snape who had just walked up from the basement.
"Dumbledore has just called. He wants us there right away." Snape said, eyeballing the couple he hated.
"Fine," Lana said, smiling at Sirius.
Snape, in his black cloak, swept down the hallway past Sirius, and walked behind Lana.
~*~*~*~*~*~ DUMBLEDORES OFFICE ~*~*~*~*~*~
Lanas hair that had been swept up into a neat ponytail was now falling out around her flushed face. Her fists were clenched and she had been screaming herself hoarse for the past 10 minutes.
Snape stood unflinching, and Dumbledore had dropped his clam composure and stood up to meet Lanas threat.
"I AM NOT DOING IT ANYMORE! YOU HEAR ME? I QUIT!" Lana screamed.
"I think you are going to carry on with this mission until we have the desired information." Snape said silkily.
Lana turned on him. "OH YEAH, INFORMATION WHICH YOU - " Lana pointed at him and he flinched - "COULD QUITE EASILY GET BUT YOURE JUST TOO FUCKING CHICKEN TO GET IT."
"Calm yourself" Dumbledore said, an edge in his voice which Lana didnt like. "Severus is quite right. I feel sure, myself, that you will continue with this mission."
"Is that A THREAT?" Lana asked, turning back to Dumbledore, putting her hands on her hips.
"Interpret it however you will." Dumbledore said, sitting back down.
Lana was visibly shaking with anger, and Snape took a step back. "You have no authority over me Dumbledore. Im not stupid. Youre using my love for your own purposes. You know I wont quit because it will endanger not only my life but everyone I loves, even more so than now. Only difference is, I get a heads-up on when someone I know is going to be hit. You know I wont give that up." Lana swallowed and shook her head. "You know how much this is tearing me up inside. You know how to protect the people I love I have to hurt them, to lie to them, to decieve them."
"And for that, I hate you." she said, stepping out of Dumbledores office.
~*~*~*~*~*~ THE MALFOY ESTATE ~*~*~*~*~*
The black dress with the gold snake snaking from around the side fit her perfectly. The gold shoes looked great. Her long dark hair had been twisted back into an elegant bun, showing off her great shoulders and chest. Looking down, Lana never realised she had a cleavage quite like that.
Lucius walked into the room, tuxedo-clad. He was talking to a small, square 6 inch screen that was hovering above him. "Everythings ready, its all prepared." He waved his wand and the screen disappeared with a small pop. He was walking and stopped in his tracks when he saw Lana.
"Merlins Beard" he said softly.
"Actually, Im Lana." she said, with a grin.
~*~*~*~*~*~ AN HOUR LATER ~*~*~*~*~*~
Lana stood in the hallway of her mothers house, also the Headquaters of the Order of the Phoenix. In the living room, Harry was sleeping in a cot that Lana and Sirius had brought for him. James was still at work, on the late shift. Lily was pacing the hallway, worried sick about James, and Lana was trying to calm her nerves. Sirius was sat watching Harry. Various other members were roaming the house, and Snape was somewhere.
"Lil, hell be fine, its James!" Lana said, giving her friend false hope and hating it.
"Dont lie to me Lana," as she walked down the hallway and opened the front door for the second time in 5 minutes to look for James.
"A watched kettle never boils." said Lana, taking Lilys arm and gently pulling her away from the door. "Its only..." she looked at her watch, "6pm. Hes 10 minutes late Lils, and if he was hurt, we'd know. You'd know."
Lilys bright green eyes bore into Lanas light brown ones. She sighed. "Youre right. Im just...worrying over nothing."
Lanas insides squirmed. She knew for a FACT that Lily had reason to be worried, but she couldnt tell her. How do you tell your best friend that shes a prime target for Voldemort to either kill or recruit, which ever one he can do faster? But they knew anyway.
Grabbing Lily in a quick hug, Lana smiled. "He'll be fine."
"Thanks." Lily whispered, hugging her best friend.
As they walked down the hallway, Harry whimpered. Lily sped up and was about to burst through the door that was slightly open, when Lana stopped her.
"Shh" Lana said, pointing through the door.
Sirius was awkwardly trying to pick Harry up, whos whimpering had now turned into small cries. He took the covers off of Harry, and gently picked him up, placing Harry against his chest, with one arm under Harry and one hand on the back of his neck, as Harry rested his head on Sirius' shoulder.
Lana leant against the door frame, and fiddled with the ring on her left hand. Since theyd done the spell, Lana had felt a kind of...Completion like she had never felt before. Lily leant her head on Lanas shoulder, even tho she was a few inches taller than Lana.
Harrys hair was already showing signs of being like his fathers - black and messy. The bright green eyes he got from his mother. He carried on crying for around a minute, then stopped, hiccuped, and was sick on Sirius' shoulder.
"Oh, Harry!" Sirius said, holding Harry out at arms length. He inspected the damage. He frowned, then as he looked back at Harry, who looked like he was going to cry, Sirius pulled a face and Harry laughed. "Its not as bad as the time Aunty Lana was sick on me tho," he said, and then grimaced at the memory of it.
Harry started to cry again and Sirius held him in one arm whilst wiping at his shirt with the other. Jiggling him slightly, Sirius walked up and down the wall, talking to Harry.
"So me and Lana went into the Muggle pub, (I'll take you to one when youre a bit older, I bet youll easily drink two old men like me and your dad under the table, maybe Moony will be there too, if its not, you know, moony outside...)" Sirius paused, "and anyway, Lana starts ordering all these drinks I never even heard of, being a great and talented wizard, I have no need for Muggle things, but dont go thinking just because theyre Muggle theyre not good,"
Lana felt the tears welling up in her eyes, and she bit down hard on her lip. Seeing Sirius like that with Harry made her want to have a child with Sirius, but in the midst of a war, and with the job that they both did, Lana didnt think it was such a good idea. She wanted to give the child everything that she never had, and so did Sirius - a stable home, in which they are supported in whatever choices they make. Obviously not Death-Eater choices, but Sirius said that any child with half of Lana and his genes would never be that dense, and she had to laugh. "Be like a super-child," Sirius had said, "and with my...whats the Muggle word? Movie star good looks, be a good looking super-brain as well"
Lily saw the effect this was having on Lana, and after the chat they had last week, in which Lana cried her heart out, Lily stepped forward into the room.
"Hey there Godfather, let the mummy in while you go get cleaned up," she said, taking Harry from Sirius.
"Thanks Lil," he said, looking over at the door to Lana.
His eyebrows narrowed for a second with concern, and he made a half-smile at Lana, which made her turn and walk from the doorway. He turned to Lily, who motioned for him to go after her.
Lana was stood leaning against the door, her back to him. He knew that she was crying. He stood a few feet away, watching.
"Hey," he said softly, "You okay?"
Quickly wiping her eyes on her t-shirt, she turned around. "Yeah Im fine."
"Listen, if what we were talking about the other day put pressure on you, I didnt mean to, not at all, you know that right?" he asked, hugging her.
She breathed in Sirius, let her hands wander in his hair, put her face in it and then kissed him lightly on the cheek. "I have to go now. Meeting with Dumbledore and then straight to work. I will be back to tomorow afternoon at the very latest."
He sighed. He hated this. "Okay then. I love you."
"Not half as much as I love you." she said, kissing him again lightly and eyeballing Snape who had just walked up from the basement.
"Dumbledore has just called. He wants us there right away." Snape said, eyeballing the couple he hated.
"Fine," Lana said, smiling at Sirius.
Snape, in his black cloak, swept down the hallway past Sirius, and walked behind Lana.
~*~*~*~*~*~ DUMBLEDORES OFFICE ~*~*~*~*~*~
Lanas hair that had been swept up into a neat ponytail was now falling out around her flushed face. Her fists were clenched and she had been screaming herself hoarse for the past 10 minutes.
Snape stood unflinching, and Dumbledore had dropped his clam composure and stood up to meet Lanas threat.
"I AM NOT DOING IT ANYMORE! YOU HEAR ME? I QUIT!" Lana screamed.
"I think you are going to carry on with this mission until we have the desired information." Snape said silkily.
Lana turned on him. "OH YEAH, INFORMATION WHICH YOU - " Lana pointed at him and he flinched - "COULD QUITE EASILY GET BUT YOURE JUST TOO FUCKING CHICKEN TO GET IT."
"Calm yourself" Dumbledore said, an edge in his voice which Lana didnt like. "Severus is quite right. I feel sure, myself, that you will continue with this mission."
"Is that A THREAT?" Lana asked, turning back to Dumbledore, putting her hands on her hips.
"Interpret it however you will." Dumbledore said, sitting back down.
Lana was visibly shaking with anger, and Snape took a step back. "You have no authority over me Dumbledore. Im not stupid. Youre using my love for your own purposes. You know I wont quit because it will endanger not only my life but everyone I loves, even more so than now. Only difference is, I get a heads-up on when someone I know is going to be hit. You know I wont give that up." Lana swallowed and shook her head. "You know how much this is tearing me up inside. You know how to protect the people I love I have to hurt them, to lie to them, to decieve them."
"And for that, I hate you." she said, stepping out of Dumbledores office.
~*~*~*~*~*~ THE MALFOY ESTATE ~*~*~*~*~*
The black dress with the gold snake snaking from around the side fit her perfectly. The gold shoes looked great. Her long dark hair had been twisted back into an elegant bun, showing off her great shoulders and chest. Looking down, Lana never realised she had a cleavage quite like that.
Lucius walked into the room, tuxedo-clad. He was talking to a small, square 6 inch screen that was hovering above him. "Everythings ready, its all prepared." He waved his wand and the screen disappeared with a small pop. He was walking and stopped in his tracks when he saw Lana.
"Merlins Beard" he said softly.
"Actually, Im Lana." she said, with a grin.
