So just in a matter of WEEKS my life made a drastic change. I spent quite a few nights crying and I decided that falling in love was never good. Erin, who although was a sixth year, slept in the 7th year dormitories with us, but anyways, Erin, Libby, Arabella, and Candace were with me the whole time. I told them the WHOLE story and we all decided that falling in love was bad... an that we hated James Potter. Even Libby, who had also loved him.

After awhile I was better, kinda. James tried to talk to me earlier today, I can remember it PERFECTLY, every little word.

~*~*~*Flashback ~*~*~*

I was walking through a corridor, I was kinda lost, seeing a was got on one of the moving staircases but I wasn't that worried, it had happened many a times before. All of a sudden, James came up behind me, so now that I think about it I couldn't have been *that* lost. Anyways...he came up behind me and I was in NO mood to talk to him, I may have been calm about the whole staircase thing but I didn't like the fact that it happened and I didn't exactly want to talk to *him*... of all the people that could have came up behind me.

"Lils?"

"Don't call me 'Lils', only my friends can call me that."

He stopped walking for a second, I knew I had hurt his feelings, but look at what he had done to me. And now I sound selfish.

"LILY."

"That's better."

"Would you stop walking, please?"

"Why should I?"

"Because I want to talk to you."

For some odd reason, this made me mad, more than made, furious. Horribly. horribly furious, but enough about how mad I was.

"Oh. In THAT case," I stopped, dead in my tracks and spun around, sharply, so I was now facing him. My face was probably only a foot away from his. I hadn't realized he'd been that close. I certainly hadn't wanted him to be, had I? I continued my earlier sentence, "I'll just stop because you want me to. Why do you want to talk to me James? Hmm? Why? I'd really like to know. Do you want to torment me more? Hurt my feelings some more? Call me more names? Hmm? Your not answering me. I thought we were friends, as you one said, darn close to BEST FRIENDS, well just a little fact for you, best friends don't do what you did. But in that case, neither do friend friends. So I guess I was wrong, I shouldn't have thought we were friends. You just saw me as what I am. A mudblood. That's what I am isn't it? A filthy mudblood, that's no better than Slytherins? Hmm? Isn't that what called me?? Wasn't it YOU who said I was annoying and I thought I was better than everyone else?? Wasn't that you? Well you know what James Potter? I'm not better than anyone in this school and I know it. I've never thought that. And you of all people should know that. If you ever cared about me at all, you would've know that. But that's right...I'm just a mudblood, why would you care about me? But you know what? I'll stop walking, just because you want me too.

He stared at me, speechless.

"Nothing to say now? Well I have something to say to you. I HATE YOU JAMES POTTER." With that, I slapped him as hard as I could and turned, making sure my hair hit him in the face and walked away, calmly.

I heard him mumble something but I couldn't understand it.

~*~*~* End Flashback*~*~*~

"Lils?"

"Yeah Candie?"

"Do you know where everyone else is?"

"Nope. Why?"

"Oh--I was just--"

The door flew open and Erin, Bella, and Libby all walked in.

"Oh. I found them Candie."

"Found what?" asked Erin

"Oh, you know...nothin' that important."

"Oh."

Candie and I burst out laughing and the three gave us strange looks, very strange looks.

"Did we miss something?? What is *so* funny?"

"Nothing.... nothing...Inside joke...I guess." I said, or tried to say between giggles.

"Mmm-kay." said Bella, giving us even more weird glances.

"Anyways, what's up with James?"

I immediately stopped laughing and my head snapped up. "What about him?" I asked, grinning evilly.

"Well, he just walked in the a huge red spot on his cheek and he was mumbling something. I caught the words: "stupid, girl, talk, mad, and slap. Oh, and he looked like he had been crying..."

Crying. Had I made James Potter cry? Of course not, that was ridiculous, I knew it wouldn't have been from the slap, but what about what I said to him? That wouldn't made him CRY, would've it?

"Mmm, " started Candie "sounds like his newest "fling" got the best of him."

"Or someone else." I said, grinning.

They quickly understood and looked at me, shocked. "You slapped James Potter?"

"So what if I did?"

"Go Lily. He deserved it and all, with his stupid "new dating routine."

"Yeah, no really." (A/n: If you don't understand that it's an inside joke...it basically means yeah, no duh.)

I guess I better elaborate. Well, James, he's become what one could call a --well, -- PLAYER. I swear he has a different girlfriend every other day. Dates em, dumps em, gets and new one, dates her, dumps her. He can't even remember their NAMES half the time. It's degrading really.

But hey. All the more reason to DESPISE JAMES POTTER.

~*~*~ James POV*~*~*

I was walking along a corridor, I was kind of lost, and I blame it all on those stupid moving stairs. But of course, me, being a Marauder and all, wasn't REALLY lost, but I noticed a redhead about 10 feet in front of me and there was no mistaking who it was. Lily Evans.

I walked up to her, to try and talk to her, I realize that I had been harsh to her, actually, down right mean, but I hadn't meant to be. I had been having a bad day anyways.

"Lils?"

"Don't call me 'Lils', only my friends can call me that."

That hurt. A lot. But I guess I deserved it. But damn it, I wanted to be her friend. I wanted to be able to call her 'Lils'.

"LILY!"

"That's better."

"Would stop walking, please?"

We argued for a few more seconds before she finally stopped walking and turned to face me. She started yelling at me. and I was taking in all the words and I realized that I had been *more* than mean to her. A lot more. I wanted to hug her, and say 'sorry', like I had always used to. I wanted to be the one who always comforted her.

She started saying how I said she thought she was better than everyone else. Then she started saying that if I had EVER cared about her or listened to her at all I would have remember that that wasn't true. And then I remembered. Her life was far from perfect. Her father, who had died in her 3rd year, had always wanted her to be 'Miss Perfect'. So she tried, and he pushed her and pushed her. Her mother was much the same. Her sister on the other hand, they didn't care so much about. Lily figured that it was because her sister already was perfect. I hadn't ever seen her sister but from what I heard...well.. what I heard from Lily, was that she was perfect, pretty, smart, you know, everything. But from her friends, I heard the exact opposite. Lily always thought she was worse than everyone else because of it, and what I had said to her made it really bad. Before I knew it, she shouted "I HATE YOU JAMES POTTER" and then she slapped me.

She turned and walked away. When she said she hated me, it hurt me SO much. I mumbled something and I really hope she didn't hear it... or maybe I wish she would have. I had said what I had wanted to say to her since the beginning of 3rd year, "I love you Lily Evans."

I realized that I had started crying, and I didn't want that. I was crying because of Lily Evans. I walked towards the Entrance Hall, I needed fresh air. I stayed out there for who knows how long. And then I realized something. I could have lost my badge for what I said to Lily. She could have gone and turned me in. And I knew that she knew she could have, but she didn't. That's how she was though. She wouldn't hurt anyone, at least not intentionally, but she had definitely hurt me, more than I had ever been hurt before, but not on purpose.

But hey, all the more reason to LOVE LILY EVANS.

A/N: That was kinda fun to write!! Hehe!! Ok... sorry about the LONG wait and the short chapter. I would have had it up sooner but I had them all typed (all my next chapters except for two) but then I didn't have time to post that night and somehow they all got deleted so now I'm trying to re-type them but I have like NO time. OH WELL. And for anyone that reads my other stories I'm trying to re-type those too.

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