There are words I never said to you...emotions I never shared even though I had you all to myself. Maybe I wasn't meant too? Well...these words I will speak are for you...my love...my koi...my life that was taken away from me...

You made me glad...

Although, I think you felt it the other way around but I felt it this way. Every look you gave me, every smile made me want to smile. My heart was never saddened even if it seemed I was depressed at that moment, I was never internally.

You were beautiful

You never believed it but you were. Your hair...your face...your body...your personality...beautiful. My looks upon you I can only imagine were filled with shock that I had such a beautiful creature to myself.

Your captures of me

The way your hand guided the colors made it seem real. The imaginary world it put me in seemed to be real...I realized that I wasn't in a dream anymore, but reality. You seemed to be obsessed with me the same way I was with you but you were able to show it. All I could do was smile and bake in the heat that your emotions gave me.

That day...

My body felt cold. My heart, my essence...everything was numb. They brushed their hands across my face but I could not feel it. I probably wouldn't have realized it if not for when I looked up. I thought the heat you gave me was lost forever...I was afraid...

Your visit...

Your eyes were deeply saddened. Stains of past fallen tears were still stained on your face and I could feel your sorrow. Ironically it didn't make me sad. The numb feeling, it vanished. As if melted by the heat of the love you gave me. I could feel myself again even if it was for a short period...

Your words...

I knew then of what was about to befall upon me but I didn't come to terms with it. Nothing could keep me from being warmed...nothing. Your mouth quivered as you parted your lips as if the very words you were about to say would not reach me. They did...

"...I loved you more then anything...you're presence made me feel...

...

...

...

Warm..."

There was that term. The same word that best described what I felt, you spoke of. Describing the way you felt made me realize...you made me happy. No matter what the out come of your journey and your future...remember one thing...

We were not put on this planet to be unhappy...

...

All I want...

Is for you...

Too be happy the way you made me.

And so...

I no longer feel cold.

"I will find a way...a way to bring you back. Someday, somewhere I know...I will get you back...my precious Cecilia..."

~Fin~

I got this idea when I read the story "The day we lost" by Ocean (on fanfiction.net)...I also listened to the song Eden by Sarah Brightman over and over again. This is told by Cecilia's point of view as she drifted to heaven the day she died...sad but touching. I will be, hopefully, making more of these...these sad but romantic fics about characters that died. I think this may be my only Yugioh story like this unless I do yaoi...as you all probably realized I don't believe Anzu/Tea has a chance with Yugi or Yami...because I believe they love each other. Review please.

~A.R.K.~