I Sigh…

When I think of why I am here,

It suddenly becomes crystal clear,

I sigh…

A weapon, destroyer, killer of men,

A black-hearted, cruel, vicious beast.

I try to swim to the surface again,

But the shadow pulls me down.

When I look in the crystal pool of life,

The shadows swilling in the depths.

The murky illusions of grief and strife

Are clouding my vision and mind.

The shadows emanate in my black heart,

They are clouding my fated path.

Sending me to a path apart:

The path of hate and wrath.

I want to live a normal life,

I want to be free and fair,

I wish that my heart could melt the ice,

But my life is riddled with despair.

I know that I will never be

A normal person.

But this is never the me

I wish to be.

When I think about life ahead,

The shadows going around my head,

I sigh…