Disclaimer: I know, I know. It's not mine…but Jensen Ackles is, I wish he was *pout*.
CHAPTER 4: Love sucks
19th November, 2021. 11:38
Logan's apartment
Max walked into Logan's apartment without knocking on the door or anything.
"Logan, I gotta talk to you."
"Max? How about 'Hello'?" Logan was completely surprised to see her.
"Logan, I lied to you."
I knew it, she isn't together with Alec and wants to come back.
"I didn't break up with you because of Alec. That was just an excuse, we're not together. I did because of the virus… At least, that's what I thought until this morning."
"Meaning?" Logan looked at her, puzzled.
"Meaning: I realized that I don't love you anymore. If I ever really loved you."
"What?! So you wanna say that you never loved me?" Logan didn't believe what he had just heard. He was shocked, all the time he thought that Max was the love of his life and that she felt the same about this.
"It was the closest thing to love I ever felt, but still it wasn't. We're just too different, you tried to understand me, but no matter how hard you tried to do that, you would never understand me completely…that's the problem."
Logan was completely speechless now. He sat there in front of his computer staring at Max, who didn't even look at him and continued talking.
"I'm sorry, but I just had to tell you. I'm going now, don't call my beeper… please. Find someone who really loves you… Bye." Oh. My. God. This was harder than I thought it would be…
She walked through the door and left Logan staring after her.
19th November, 2021. 21:01
Crash
"I'd like to pay", Alec said to the girl who was standing in front of him and cleaning some glasses.
"Don't have to. That one's on me." She smiled at him.
She has a beautiful smile, Alec thought. But that smile didn't reach her eyes, that reminded him of Manticore, soldier mask. He shook that thought away fast. She couldn't be from Manticore, she didn't look like a super soldier. She looked so small and fragile…
"Huh? Why?"
"Maybe I got a thing for sad-looking guys…", she said, her green eyes sparkling.
"I'm not sad." Alec didn't look up.
"Whatever you say. I'm Suki, by the way."
"Interesting name. I'm Alec."
Suki went back to cleaning glasses.
"What makes a girl like you work in a bar?", Alec asked her.
"Lack of money? Where do you work?", Suki asked though she knew the answer.
"Jam Pony, I'm a bike messenger."
"I think I like my job better."
"What? You know that almost every guy in here is staring at you?"
"Why should they do that?"
"Cos you're a beautiful girl."
"Thanks. You're not that bad yourself." Suki could slap herself for flirting with Alec. She felt like betraying her boyfriend. But she had to do it, if she wanted to have him back.
Alec rolled his eyes as Max entered Crash.
"Great, my day's perfect now."
Suki looked over to Max. "Your girlfriend? Ex-girlfriend?" Am I too curious? I have to be careful, if I screw up it could mean that Matt gets killed. No, I don't wanna think of that. I won't screw up… I'll do exactly what White wants me to do.
"None of that. She was a friend", he said bitterly.
"Was? What has she done that she isn't anymore?"
"She involved me into something that I'd never do."
"What? Or don't you wanna talk about it?" Suki cocked her head to one side.
"She told her ex-boyfriend that we were together and that this was the reason why she split up with him. As if I would be the kind of guy who steals another guy's girl." Alec didn't know why he was telling this to a total strange. But she seemed so nice… and understanding.
"As if you'd do something like that." Suki smiled.
"You don't know me. So why do you think that?" He looked at her questioningly.
She shrugged. "You just don't seem like that kind of guy."
"I'll say it again: You don't know me." Usually I wouldn't care if a girl has a boyfriend or not, but it's different when you know that boyfriend. I'd never do it then. He continued: "And now do me a favor, leave me alone. I'm not in the mood for talking."
"Whatever, pretty boy." Suki left the bar and went over to the tables, filling up glasses.
Max had wanted to talk to Alec, but had changed her mind, when she had seen him talking to Suki. Instead she walked over to Original Cindy who was sitting at a table alone.
"Hey", she said, smiling at her best friend.
"Hey, boo."
"I told Logan this morning."
"Told Logan what?" OC didn't have a clue what Max was talking about.
"Told him that me and Alec are not together."
"So ya told him that ya can't risk anything cos of that damn virus?"
Max shook her head. "Well, not exactly."
"Huh? What then?", Cindy asked surprised.
"I made up my mind and came to the result that love did pretty much never exist between us", Max explained seriously.
"And ya told him that?"
"Well… yeah?", she thought for a moment then continued, "I shouldn't have, right?"
"Tellin him was okay, but I'm not quite sure, if ya weren't too direct. Anyway, don't ya wanna tell Alec?"
"Nope, he doesn't seem to care. Did you just see him talking to that girl? One moment, he's all angry at me and the next he's flirting with some chick", Max said annoyed.
"If I wouldn't know it better I'd say you're jealous-"
"What?! Me? We're still talking 'bout Alec, right?" If I wouldn't know it better, I'd say the same… That girl wasn't even beautiful, damn, she was. But, wait, he's not my boyfriend, not even close to that, so why do I care? I dunno and that's scary.
"Max, if ya listened carefully, I said 'If I wouldn't know it better' but I know better. So calm down."
"Sorry. It's just… nah, forget it, nothing."
"Boo, excuse me, I gotta talk to that girl." OC walked over to the girl she had met the previous night.
Max was now sitting at the table alone. She just wanted to finish her beer and then head home.
"Hey Maxie", said a familiar voice.
A/N2: That's it, chapter 4. I hope you liked it, or were there too many dialogues? I dunno, tell me!! Cos if you think some things have to improve you gotta tell me. I can't read your minds. So, please make me a happy girl again and review. I feel so forgotten when no one reviews… ~Lilja~
