Kurt Wagner:

I am a horrible sinner.

I ran to my room and lit several candles to the Virgin and the saints, and bowed my head.

Dear God,

Have mercy on me. I have committed the sin of lust after my teammate, Ororo Munroe, also known as Storm, at least ten times today.

I have tried to remain faithful to my love, Amanda. I have done my best to keep my mind on her. I kept her lovely postcard with me today, which spoke of the good time she was having and how much she missed me. She even said we would have to talk when she returned of finally making an honest woman of her.

I love Amanda. I wish to marry her. She and I have been together for years. It is not fair to drop her for someone else.

Yet, dear Lord, I sin. I merely have to see her, hear her voice, and I wish to remain by her side forever. I wish to do … intimate things with her. I imagine what her body would be like while I do these things, and I do not wish to stop thinking about them.

Please have mercy on me.

Oh, Mary, Queen of Heaven, pray for me. Help me to be faithful to my love. Ask your Son to bless me with some of His strength. If possible, take this temptation from me.

I nearly reached out to touch her tonight, nearly stayed in the doorway. I wonder what would happen if I did stay, what her skin would feel like against me. I wonder if she feels the same, if her hand longs for my touch, if her lips desire my kiss. I can just see it, her eyes shining bluer than my fur, getting closer to mine, tasting, touching …

Oh, dear Lord. I am profaning my prayers with my desires for her!

Well. I will make sure I can focus, no matter what.

I found my fencing epee on the wall with my tail and raised it high. I will forget her. I will focus on God, not my beautiful sin.

With resolution, I brought the epee down again and again on my back, crying out from the pain, screaming my sin to God. I will not think of Storm. I will not think of Storm.

Dear God, lady Mary … help me. Cleanse me. Forgive me.

I do not know if I can keep myself from her without your help.