It's weird, the one time I actually want to run in James I can't seem to find him anywhere.
When I get back to the dorm Rachel cornered me.
"Well? Did you reschedule?"
"I couldn't find him and I've been thinking-"
"Uh oh, that's never good."
"Shut up! Anyway as I was saying, I've been thinking I don't know if I can... I mean-"
"Just suck up your stupid pride and tell him!"
"No," I said stubbornly.
"Fine, I will."
"What?!?"
"I'm going to tell him if you won't."
"Fine. I'll tell him."
"Now."
"Later."
"Now."
"But I couldn't find him!"
"Look harder!"
"Ah!" I screamed. "You suck!" and with that I marched out of the dorm to try (not to hardly) find James Potter and confess my undying love for him.
How convenient. He just so happened to be in the common room.
Surrounded by other people.
There was no way I was going to this in front of other people.
I turned to go back up stairs only to find Rachel standing on the stair. Just to make sure I didn't chicken out.
Naturally, when I don't want her to leave the dorm she does get over herself.
"Don't you trust me?" I asked sweetly.
"No."
I stuck my tongue out at her.
"James?"
He looked up surprised, "What's up Lils?"
I rolled my eyes and gritted my teeth, "Don't call me that."
"What's up Lily." he grinned. Not his nice smile that I love either, that sarcastic grimace he puts on for the crowd.
"Can I talk to you?"
"Talk."
"Alone." He really wasn't making this easy.
"I don't think we have anything else to say to each other." and he turned back to entertain his fans.
"Please?" I whispered. I didn't really expect him to hear me, but he did. He stopped talking and slowly turned towards me.
After studying me for what felt like forever he got up. He held open the portrait door, "After you."
We walked silently though the hall until we reached an empty classroom that he deemed suitable.
I turned to face him.
"Um, I just, wanted to, um.."
"Come on Evans I don't have all day." The normal warmth that was usually in his eyes was gone.
I looked up at the ceiling, praying for a miracle so I wouldn't have to do this.
"IthinkI'minlovewithyou," I whispered.
"What?"
I looked at him. There was no way I could say that again.
I walked forward, grabbed his collar and kissed him smack dab on the lips.
James stumbled backwards, surprised. Then he pulled away.
Defiantly not what I was expecting.
"What?"
"I can't do this Lily! As crazy and stupid as it might sound to you, I love you and I don't want you to just be with me because you found something out about the future!" he snapped, almost yelling.
"I don't!" I felt like I was about to cry, this couldn't be happening.
"No, that's not it!" a tear fell down my cheek, "Please James! Please, don't do this!"
"What do you want me to do Lily?" he is yelling at me now.
He's yelling at me? That was the last straw. I fell down into a chair and brook down into tears.
"Oh no! Please, come on Lily, don't cry!"
But I couldn't help it. The tears just keep pouring down my face.
After what felt like hours I stopped crying.
"James?"
"Ya?"
And I kissed him. Again.
He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me back.
So this is what heaven is like.
I heard the door of the classroom but it didn't quite click until the intruder cleared their throat.
I jumped a mile in the air.
Yes I know that is a stupid expression but it is the only thing that can described that particular event.
There was Harry, James' and my son, standing there looking quite amused.
~
"Well, did you tell him? Did you reschedule?"
"I love making out with James Potter. I think I love it almost as much as James Potter himself! It's like... heaven on earth." I simply said.
And I'm not exaggerating.
"So I take it things went well?" Rachel said dryly.
"Yes..." I sigh.
