AN: New chapter! Ya! And I promise this one will be long, it'll have to keep you all weekend cause I'm going to my dad's. But when I get back Sunday night I want at least 25 reviews. You think you guys can do that for me?? (Allison puts on her best puppy dog eyes) Thank you!!! So enough of my chatter! Here's the next chapter!
This is the way that I say, 'I need you'
This is the way that I say, 'I love you'
This is the way that I say, 'I'm yours'
This is the way, This is the way,
That I'm learning to breath,
I'm learning to crawl,
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall,
I'm living again, awake and alive I dieing to breath in these abundant skies.
I'm learning to breath ~Switchfoot
"James?"
"Hum?"
"Do you think dreams mean anything?"
"Nah."
We're sitting on the couch in the common, my head resting on his shoulder.
"I should probably finish my potions homework..." James mussed.
"What? That essay? James! It's due tomorrow! I had mine done a week ago!"
"Merlin, Lily calm down it's no big deal!"
"James! You're head boy, you're supposed to set an example! That means getting homework done on time."
"It's not late yet!"
I stood up, "I'm going to bed. Finish your essay."
"Aw, come on Lils'. Come back!"
I ignored him as I walked up to my dorm. This is silly! We're fighting over a stupid essay! oh, well, it's too late to give in now.
Damn me and my stupid pride.
Just great . I left my Transfiguration book down stairs.
"Rachel?"
No answer.
"Rach?"
Hum... weird. Oh well. It'll just have to wait.
Hum de dum... Pig's bum be bum...
I'm board.
I really need to do that assignment! Maybe James left the common room already. I check my watch.
8:39
I can't risk it.
Duh! Rachel's book! Merlin, how stupid do I get?
I'm digging through Rachel's trunk when I find what looks like a diary. Uh oh.
Just put it back Lily. Drop the book and close the trunk.
Rachel keeps a diary?
I'll put it back as soon as I find out what year this is from.
I open the front cover.
1970
Okay, so we were in fourth year...
Okay, so now I close- wait! What's this!
February 21, 1970
I can honestly say people, in general, annoy me. I am not a people person. ('You got that right' I think to myself.) People, again in general, are shallow and nosey and care about the stupidest things. Like who likes who and such. Like blonds. Honestly, what makes blonds so popular? They're stupid! You know dumb blondes? But yet they've got guys drooling at their feet! Sure some of them are really nice people but... I dunno. Maybe I'm just jealous. Like I said, people annoy me. There are of course a few exceptions to the rule; Lily for example only gets on my nerves around that time of month. Besides her though humans are annoying. And I'm not saying I'm not annoying cause I know I probably am. I'm loud and obnoxious but anywho... I think I'm depressed. Or maybe just heartbroken. That's probably it. I feel weird about him. ('Who?' I wonder, as far as I know Rachel hasn't ever really loved anybody like that.) Different. I'm pretty sure I love him. I know it's wrong and I shouldn't and he'll never feel that way about me. ('A professor? Ew!) I don't want to love him. I don't even like him! I mean he's a certified asshole! I like absolutely nothing about his personality! ('I Slytherian?') He does have a wicked sense of humor though. But that's not the point. The point is this is unhealthy! I can't sleep. I have no appetite. I'm flunking potions and transfiguration. I JUST WANT TO FEEL NORMAL AND GET OVER FUCKING SIRIUS BLACK!!!!
Sirius Black?!? Rachel used to love Sirius Black? Wow. That's defiantly news to me. Wow. I'm in like total shock. Wow.
I look at my watch. 9:38 I hurry to put the diary back at the bottom of Rachel's trunk so she won't know that I read her diary. James has probably left the common room.
I hurry to shut Rachel's trunk, hiding the evidence to what I've just found out.
I run down tot the common room.
"Oh, James. You're still up."
"I'm not the one who said I was going to bed." he says looking up from his paper.
"I forgot my book."
"Right."
"Right. Well goodnight."
"Wait, Lily."
I pause before turning around at the bottom of the stairs. Quite dramatic if I do say so myself. "Yes James?"
"I'm sorry okay?"
"Apology accepted." and I turn back around and flounce back upstairs.
"Hey! Lily!" I hear him whine but I simply chuckle to myself.
I'm pretty mean aren't I?
But by nature I'm not a mean person and my conscience would bother me if I went to bed and left him like this. So I run back down stairs give my boyfriend a quick kiss before running back up to my dorm.
A girl could get a damn good work out just going up and down these stairs a few times a night.
9:55
Still no sing of Rachel. I wonder where she is... Oh well. She's a big girl and take care of herself.
I walk over to my trunk and get out some pajamas and head into the bathroom for a nice hot shower. Or maybe a bath... Hum, I could got the head's special bathroom... Nah, it's getting late. Shower it is.
After my shower Rachel still isn't back yet. Where in Merlin's name could she be? It's past curfew... Did she have detention? No I don't think so....
Oh well. I'm not her baby-sitter.
I sink into bad.
Sigh.
I love being in bed. I love sleeping....
I love James, too.
I smile to myself as I drift off to sleep.
In the morning I'm woken again by Rachel.
I look over at the clock.
6:02
It's like, 'Do you want me to be grouchy all day?'
"Come on Evans. Up you get."
Apparently she does.
I'm not sure if I like this change in roles.
"Rach, where were you last night?"
"Library."
She's lying. But I don't push it. I'm too tired to argue.
"Rach, really, it's only six o'clock!:
"Yep, so get up and get ready to greet the day."
"Rachel! Classes don't start until nine!"
"Quit arguing with me! You're wasting precious time!"
"Rach?"
"What?"
"Go back to bed."
And I pull the curtain back around my bed and plop down into my pillow.
But it's too late. Once I'm up, I'm up.
I rip the curtain back open, send an evil glare in Rachel's direction and stomp into the bathroom.
After my shower I apologize to Rachel and tell her if she wants a best friend she'd better not wake me this early again.
Damn my nice nature.
It was a normal day. I hung out with James and Rachel and when ever Sirius found it in his fancy to join us Rachel scurried off to the 'library'.
"What's with her?" Sirius asked confused after Rachel ran off for the fifth time.
"I'm not sure, but girls tend to avoid guys who barf at the thought of them," I said sarcastically before chasing after Rachel.
Honestly. Boys are so dense.
In transfiguration, the last class of the day we were assigned partners. I was pleased to be with James but much to Rachel's disgust she was put with Sirius.
"This project will last a month," Professor Barnett explained. "It's to get ready for the real world. To be parents. You will have a doll. The dolls have been charmed to be like real baby's. They will cry. You must feed them, change their diapers, everything you'd have to do if the baby was real."
This would be fun. I look over at James. He looks quite amused. But if you think about it it's weird. I mean, this is transfiguration! Oh well... It'll be easy.
Later up in our dorm I forwarded my thought on the assignment to Rachel.
"Speak for your self! You're with your precious boyfriend! You know your gonna have a kid with each other so this is like a practice run through or something for you! I'm stuck with a jackass who'll probably kill our baby for a partner!"
"Rachel! I'm sure he won't kill your baby..."
"You just wait and see."
AN: Oh! Cliffy! But I gotta go. But remember! Review!!!!! ~Allison
