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No Wings To Fly

by

Marie Darkholme

4. Following

I stood up in a defensive position. The person behind the trash bin revealed herself. I relaxed when I recognized Kay.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to scary you." He said approaching. I wiped my tears with the back of my hand and faked a smile. He approached me and grabbed my hands. That was really beginning to be a habit, one that I thought was particularly sweet of him.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, walking the opposite way to the other wall, releasing my hands from his. I turned to face him but his back were still turned on me.

"I followed you." He replied turning to face me with a smile pasted on his face, his green eyes looking straight at me in an intense way. He followed me? But why and how? I thought he was at school.

"You followed me?" I raised an eyebrow. "Yeah! I'm sorry about that too, but I heard you yelling at Mimi and then you ran so I followed you. Are you okay?" he asked stepping closer to me.

I stared at the sky, above the high buildings almost out of sight. "Yeah!" I told him though both of us knew that was a lie. Again he approached me, and again he grabbed my hands. I felt strange being like that with him. I mean, I didn't knew him that well.

Then, suddenly I had this feeling that I wanted to kiss him. We drew closer and our lips slightly touched, but in that moment the only person I thought about was Taichi. I quickly pulled apart and stared at the ground. What the hell was that? I was kissing a guy that I barely knew and thinking of Tai.

Kay looked at the ground too. "Sorry, I didn't mean to... to... force you... I'm sor..." "No, there's no need for that. We just made a mistake, that's all." I told him, but I didn't really believe that. We remained silent for a while. I think Kay was embarrassed as well. My head was confusing my feelings and I wasn't sure how I felt about Kay or Taichi anymore.

It was Kay who broke the silence when he noticed my hand bleeding. "Your hand is bleeding, Sor." I looked at it. The bandage was drenched in blood. "You need to change your bandage." He said.

"Don't worry, is nothing." I said, though I could see the bandage was really looking ugly. But Kay didn't buy it. He grabbed my other hand and pulled me. "Where are you taking me?" I asked, surprised by his movements.

"To my house, to treat your hand." Came his reply. I kicked myself mentally. I couldn't go to his house. We almost kissed in the alley. Who knows what could happen in the house. I didn't even want to think about it. But on the other hand, I really needed my bandage changed and I couldn't go home since I was missing classes. Thinking and reflecting through the way made me think that it was better for me to go. Besides if I went to school with my hand like that, people would certainly noticed it much more often and ask questions so I went with him.

Kay's house wasn't far from the alley where we were. It was a strange neighbourhood, nothing like mine and Taichi's, who lived in the building across mine. The walls had graffiti draws everywhere and there were a lot of vandalised stuff like the bus stop and benches.

He finally stopped in front of a building with the bricks showing. It seemed pretty old and the front door was wide open. Kay entered and I followed him. It was a four floors building and he lived in the third floor. He climbed up the stairs quickly until he reached the third floor. I followed him. He opened the door.

The house seemed almost abandoned. The dust seemed to be accumulating for years and there were spiderwebs in the ceiling. I felt pity for him. The room where we were was obviously the living room cause it had a yellow couch and a television.

We passed the living room and entered in Kay's room. It was completely a boy's room. It had posters spread all over the walls with bands and popular actresses. His single bed was placed against the wall so he had more room for his battery that laid in a corner next to the window.

Kay looked around and then at me. I could see his cheeks growing red. "I'm sorry for the mess." He replied. I laughed. He said that because he had never seen Taichi's room. It was a lot messier, kind of like his hair.

"You should see Tai's room." I said. Kay laughed and then disappeared through the door. I figured he had gone to pick a bandage. I allowed myself to sit on the bed. There was a strange smell in the air. I recognized it.

Kay came back right away with a scissor and a bandage. I was about to pick them to treat myself, but he picked my hand and started doing it himself. Once again I felt my cheeks burning. I turned away from his eyes, and tried to make a conversation.

"There's a strange smell in here. Is it what I think it is?" I asked, not really for being interested in it but to make conversation and try to take those confusing thoughts out of my head. Kay stopped and looked at me.

"Yeah! Why?" He eyed me suspiciously. "Nothing, just curious." I told him. He turned back to his job and after a while it was done. Then silence fell among us again. Finally I decided to break it. "Maybe I should go back to school." I replied, though I didn't want to go back. I would prefer to just stay there with Kay, but the silence was killing me.

For my surprise, Kay's eyes dropped. "Why did you run away anyway?" he asked me. I stood up and headed for the door. "Sorry, but I don't want to talk about it." I said, my back facing him. I heard him stepping closer and I felt his hand on my shoulder. "Shill out. Here." He said and handed me another one of those cigarettes.

I was about to handed it over, but Kay shook his head and pushed my hand to my chest in the meaning keep it. "It won't harm you. It's just to make you feel happier." He said. I looked at him. Our eyes met. My heart started bumping again but the Taichi's image kept me safe. I kissed his cheek and left.

I was on my way to school when I bumped into someone I knew. "Hi Kari." I greeted the younger girl, but there was no happiness in my voice and I guess she noticed it, because she eyed me suspiciously. She was Taichi's sister and talking with her made me realize how much I missed talking with him.

"Are you going to school?" Hikari asked. I nodded and we both started walking towards the school. The youngster kept eyeing me with a strange look. What did I do wrong this time? Why does everyone looks at me like I'm some kind of freak? I finally got tired of the staring.

"What?" I asked, stopping. I was so tired of these games. "What's what?" Hikari replied. I shook my head. "Why the hell are you looking at me like that?" I asked. She didn't reply and stared at the ground. "Well, Mimi called me." She started, but I didn't even let her finish. "Oh, I see. Mimi called you, saying that I'm not myself lately and that I'm hanging around with the wrong guy." I said crossing my arms in front of my chest. The youngster looked at me surprised by my reaction. I could see it in her eyes.

"It's nothing like that Sora. Don't be mean." She said. I laughed. I had to gather my entire strenght to stop. "Mean?" I said, while trying to stop laughing. "You have never seen me being mean, ever. And when you do, you won't have the courage to come speaking to me again 'cause you'll probably think I'm completely crazy. So don't come talking to me about being mean, okay? You don't know the hell my life is. So just shut up." I said and started walking the opposite way. I think Hikari stared at me for a while but I guess she gave up and went to school. As for me, I went down the street back to Kay's neighbourhood.

I picked up the joint from my pocket and lighted it. The smoke entered my lungs and I immediately felt better with myself. It gave me such a pleasure smoking. At the time, I thought not even sex could be that good. It was an entire new world ready to discover and I had all my life to do it and nothing to lose.

I think I stayed there for almost three hours. My cigarette was gone a long time ago, but I was still feeling its effect on my numb body. And it felt so damn good. I wanted more. I wanted to feel like that always.

I looked at my watch and noticed I was late to go to my mother's flower shop to help her, but I didn't care. I stood and slowly walked home. I seemed to be stepping in a cold hard floor and my feet weighed like a thousand pounds.

I arrived to my mom's flower shop an hour later. She was mad as hell.


-- Hope you've liked it. I know you asked for less Kayora but Kay has an important role on this story as you may see, and he will appear more, especially because this is Sora's POV so I only tell you what she is thinking and doing, and because she is now entering the hell road of drugs she'll spend most of her time with Kay But don't worry, I'll try to turn it Taiora. Like I said she won't be with Kay at the end. I think you might expect some hot chapters coming. I'm sorry for the delay and for the short chapter. Thanks for reviewing.

PS: this chapter had been edited.