(Thanks again to 'yaukira' for your reviews, glad that you like the story;
and that you think I'm a good writer. Hopefully when I send my book off to
be published this week, the publishers will think the same thing; but I
still post on here as well if I do get lucky.
Anyway enough of that on with the story.)
Hiding Secrets
Lena hated lying to all of her friends back home every time they wrote to her, but she just couldn't tell them the truth; she knew that she should tell Remus that he was going to be a father but she couldn't do that without hurting Sirius. She knew though no matter what she did someone was going to get hurt; and she was hurt now keeping all this from them.
She got a letter from Lily near Christmas, telling her that they were excepting a baby; and they wanted her to come back over to be godmother when it was born. She couldn't believe it, after everything they still wanted her to be a godmother; unless it was just to get her to come back over.
She couldn't go back, she had made her mind up; and anyway if she went now they would all know. It was kind of obvious that she was pregnant, she was seven moths gone; and it was killing her during the full moon, she wanted him so much.
February 17th
Lena went into labour, her brother had been completely useless during the whole thing didn't have a clue; even her older brother Regan who had told them when he got back to England was going to kill Sirius completely freaked out. It was a good thing that she had had her aunt with her or she would have been completely lost.
At 21:23
Lena had her first child, a baby girl; then five minutes later she had a little boy. She called her daughter Antonia and her son Lupus after his father.
***
Over a year later in October she received a letter from Sirius, telling her that he didn't just want turn up on her door step from he was hoping that he could for a while because things were getting worst; and he needed somewhere to hide.
She wrote back to him, she couldn't refuse him if he was in trouble; she just didn't know how she was going to explain that she now had twins.
She waited but he never came over, so she sent another letter over to him to make sure that he was alright; but as soon as she had sent her letter she had received one from her Regan with the Daily Prophet in it as well.
She couldn't believe it, the front page. The fall of Voldermot, the Potter's were killed and their baby Harry Potter brought the Dark Lord down. And then Sirius Black had been sent to Azkaban...she couldn't read any more but she knew see had to...he was jailed for the death of Peter Pettigrew and for a dozen or so muggles. (Couldn't remember how many it was, if you know let me know will you.)
"No." Lena whispered to her self as she sank to the ground holding the paper to her chest, she wanted to cry but the tears never came.
Lena got both Antonia and Lupus ready, and then she took them around to Marcus' place; she knocked on his front door as though she desperately needed to get inside.
"Calm down will you." Marcus told her as he answered the door.
"I need you to look after the twins while I go to England." Lena told him as she pushed her way inside, and put the twins down on his sofa. "He sent you the newspaper of course; I have to go."
"What why?" Marcus asked her.
"They were my friends, and Sirius wouldn't do a thing like that; I don't care what the papers say he just wouldn't do it." Lena almost shouted at him. "I'm going there, but I can't take them; please Marcus do this for me please."
"Find, but only this once." Marcus agreed. "And don't do anything stupid."
"Stu...pid." Antonia said giggling.
"She even Antonia agrees with me." Marcus said smiling at his sister.
Lena smiled at them all. "Don't teach them stupid things to say while I'm gone."
"Well you better get back quickly then, shouldn't you?" Marcus teased.
"Thanks." Lena said and kissed him on the cheek; she went over to the twins and kissed them both goodbye. "Mummy will be back soon, but Uncle Marcus is going to look after you until I get back. Behaviour, and make sure that he stays out of trouble."
"Troubull." Lupus shouting, she kissed them both again; before she apperated. ***
Lena arrived in England, the day after; she went straight round to Remus' house because he had been the only one not mentioned in the paper. She stood on his doorstep with her umbrella up, and knocked on the door hoping that he was alright.
No one answered the door, so she knocked again and again; she felt as though she had been waiting hours for him to answer when it had only been a couple of minutes. The slowly opened and Remus appeared, she dropped the umbrella and flung her arms around him.
"Oh Remus, please tell me that it isn't true." Lena said into his shoulder.
But he didn't answer, he just held her tightly; she knew and cried into his should. He lead her into his house and carefully sat her down on the sofa, but she never let him go.
"I'm so sorry, that I left without saying anything." Lena told him.
"Well your ok, that's the main thing isn't it." Remus said softly.
"I can't believe it though, James and Lily dead." Lena said looking up at him, only pulling back slightly; because she needed to be with him now more then ever. "I can't believe what I read, especially about Sirius he would never; you know he wouldn't."
Remus pulled away from her and got up walked across the room. "I don't know what to believe anymore."
Lena looked at him, and then walked over to him. "Remus he's your best friend, you know that he wouldn't; they meant so much to him."
"You left remember, you don't know what it was really like." Remus shot at her.
"I couldn't stay, not after what we did." Lena told him. "I might not have been here; but I do know that Sirius would never turn on his friends." She hit him hard in the arm. "And so do you Remus."
Remus suddenly grabbed hold of her and pinned her hard against the wall. He looked so anger she had never seen him look like that before, she wasn't scared of him; she just wanted to make everything right between them, and she still wanted to be him.
"Don't push me." Remus warned her, as he tighten his grip on her arms.
She looked at him and then closed her eyes, and rested her head on his shoulder; and whispered. "I'm sorry Remus."
Remus let go of her as quickly as he had taken hold of her, and then took her in his arms and hugged her.
"I'm so sorry, I...I..." Lena tried to say, she wanted to tell him more then anything else in the world as he just held her; but she knew this wasn't really the time or maybe she was just making excuses not to do it.
"I would have loved to be you with you, if so many things would have been different." Remus told her. "If I wouldn't have been such a coward to have told you long ago." And then whispered to him self more then to her. "And if I wasn't a monster."
She looked up at him, touching his face softly. "You not a monster Remus, you could never be a monster."
He smiled at her weakly. "Your not staying are you, no matter what I say to you?"
"I can't, I just can't." Lena said. "Come back with me; to America."
Remus looked at her shocked, and then smiled but he was shocking his head at the same time. "I can't leave here."
"But why not?" Lena demanded moving back out of her arms. "You just said that you would love to be with me, there's nothing stopping you."
Remus knew that she was right, and that he was doing it again; he was being a coward but he couldn't do it. It meant some much that he would have to tell her everything, he loved her to much to ever hurt her; and if he went with her he just might.
"I'm sorry, I just can't." Remus told her.
"Remus...I...I..." Lena tried, but she just couldn't do it; she knew if she told him that he was father that he would come back with her. Then she wondered if he would, would she wanted him to go back just because of that? "Remus, I want...oh it doesn't matter."
Lena turned round, and looked out of the window her umbrella was still outside and it was still raining.
"I should go then." Lena told him as she turned back round.
"What, no but you just came back." Remus said quickly moving over to her, but she stepped around of him.
"I know, but there's nothing really keeping me here now is there?" Lena looked at him, waiting for his answered she wanted him so much it hurt; she decided if he asked her now to stay and he loved her then she would. But she knew that he wouldn't, deep down; he was a bit like her really hiding away from the world.
"Oh right...well then..." Remus said; he could hear the voice shouting in his mind 'idiot!' repeatedly.
Lena nodded and head for the door, he stopped her just as he reached it; she turned back round and looked into his eyes.
"Lena..." Remus said. 'Do it, do it now!' "I'll write to you, is that alright?" 'IDIOT!'
"Yeah that's fine Remus." Lena said, she kissed him on the cheek and he let go of her.
She walked down the hall and opened the front door; she bent down for her umbrella and then turned back to him.
"Goodbye Remus." Lena said, smiling slightly at him. She put her umbrella up and then stepped out and closed the door behind her.
"Damn it!" Remus shouted and then punched the wall. "I love you! How hard is it to say!"
(A/N: - What do you think let me know, don't worry there's more to come when I get round to writing it; just keep checking for updates.)
Anyway enough of that on with the story.)
Hiding Secrets
Lena hated lying to all of her friends back home every time they wrote to her, but she just couldn't tell them the truth; she knew that she should tell Remus that he was going to be a father but she couldn't do that without hurting Sirius. She knew though no matter what she did someone was going to get hurt; and she was hurt now keeping all this from them.
She got a letter from Lily near Christmas, telling her that they were excepting a baby; and they wanted her to come back over to be godmother when it was born. She couldn't believe it, after everything they still wanted her to be a godmother; unless it was just to get her to come back over.
She couldn't go back, she had made her mind up; and anyway if she went now they would all know. It was kind of obvious that she was pregnant, she was seven moths gone; and it was killing her during the full moon, she wanted him so much.
February 17th
Lena went into labour, her brother had been completely useless during the whole thing didn't have a clue; even her older brother Regan who had told them when he got back to England was going to kill Sirius completely freaked out. It was a good thing that she had had her aunt with her or she would have been completely lost.
At 21:23
Lena had her first child, a baby girl; then five minutes later she had a little boy. She called her daughter Antonia and her son Lupus after his father.
***
Over a year later in October she received a letter from Sirius, telling her that he didn't just want turn up on her door step from he was hoping that he could for a while because things were getting worst; and he needed somewhere to hide.
She wrote back to him, she couldn't refuse him if he was in trouble; she just didn't know how she was going to explain that she now had twins.
She waited but he never came over, so she sent another letter over to him to make sure that he was alright; but as soon as she had sent her letter she had received one from her Regan with the Daily Prophet in it as well.
She couldn't believe it, the front page. The fall of Voldermot, the Potter's were killed and their baby Harry Potter brought the Dark Lord down. And then Sirius Black had been sent to Azkaban...she couldn't read any more but she knew see had to...he was jailed for the death of Peter Pettigrew and for a dozen or so muggles. (Couldn't remember how many it was, if you know let me know will you.)
"No." Lena whispered to her self as she sank to the ground holding the paper to her chest, she wanted to cry but the tears never came.
Lena got both Antonia and Lupus ready, and then she took them around to Marcus' place; she knocked on his front door as though she desperately needed to get inside.
"Calm down will you." Marcus told her as he answered the door.
"I need you to look after the twins while I go to England." Lena told him as she pushed her way inside, and put the twins down on his sofa. "He sent you the newspaper of course; I have to go."
"What why?" Marcus asked her.
"They were my friends, and Sirius wouldn't do a thing like that; I don't care what the papers say he just wouldn't do it." Lena almost shouted at him. "I'm going there, but I can't take them; please Marcus do this for me please."
"Find, but only this once." Marcus agreed. "And don't do anything stupid."
"Stu...pid." Antonia said giggling.
"She even Antonia agrees with me." Marcus said smiling at his sister.
Lena smiled at them all. "Don't teach them stupid things to say while I'm gone."
"Well you better get back quickly then, shouldn't you?" Marcus teased.
"Thanks." Lena said and kissed him on the cheek; she went over to the twins and kissed them both goodbye. "Mummy will be back soon, but Uncle Marcus is going to look after you until I get back. Behaviour, and make sure that he stays out of trouble."
"Troubull." Lupus shouting, she kissed them both again; before she apperated. ***
Lena arrived in England, the day after; she went straight round to Remus' house because he had been the only one not mentioned in the paper. She stood on his doorstep with her umbrella up, and knocked on the door hoping that he was alright.
No one answered the door, so she knocked again and again; she felt as though she had been waiting hours for him to answer when it had only been a couple of minutes. The slowly opened and Remus appeared, she dropped the umbrella and flung her arms around him.
"Oh Remus, please tell me that it isn't true." Lena said into his shoulder.
But he didn't answer, he just held her tightly; she knew and cried into his should. He lead her into his house and carefully sat her down on the sofa, but she never let him go.
"I'm so sorry, that I left without saying anything." Lena told him.
"Well your ok, that's the main thing isn't it." Remus said softly.
"I can't believe it though, James and Lily dead." Lena said looking up at him, only pulling back slightly; because she needed to be with him now more then ever. "I can't believe what I read, especially about Sirius he would never; you know he wouldn't."
Remus pulled away from her and got up walked across the room. "I don't know what to believe anymore."
Lena looked at him, and then walked over to him. "Remus he's your best friend, you know that he wouldn't; they meant so much to him."
"You left remember, you don't know what it was really like." Remus shot at her.
"I couldn't stay, not after what we did." Lena told him. "I might not have been here; but I do know that Sirius would never turn on his friends." She hit him hard in the arm. "And so do you Remus."
Remus suddenly grabbed hold of her and pinned her hard against the wall. He looked so anger she had never seen him look like that before, she wasn't scared of him; she just wanted to make everything right between them, and she still wanted to be him.
"Don't push me." Remus warned her, as he tighten his grip on her arms.
She looked at him and then closed her eyes, and rested her head on his shoulder; and whispered. "I'm sorry Remus."
Remus let go of her as quickly as he had taken hold of her, and then took her in his arms and hugged her.
"I'm so sorry, I...I..." Lena tried to say, she wanted to tell him more then anything else in the world as he just held her; but she knew this wasn't really the time or maybe she was just making excuses not to do it.
"I would have loved to be you with you, if so many things would have been different." Remus told her. "If I wouldn't have been such a coward to have told you long ago." And then whispered to him self more then to her. "And if I wasn't a monster."
She looked up at him, touching his face softly. "You not a monster Remus, you could never be a monster."
He smiled at her weakly. "Your not staying are you, no matter what I say to you?"
"I can't, I just can't." Lena said. "Come back with me; to America."
Remus looked at her shocked, and then smiled but he was shocking his head at the same time. "I can't leave here."
"But why not?" Lena demanded moving back out of her arms. "You just said that you would love to be with me, there's nothing stopping you."
Remus knew that she was right, and that he was doing it again; he was being a coward but he couldn't do it. It meant some much that he would have to tell her everything, he loved her to much to ever hurt her; and if he went with her he just might.
"I'm sorry, I just can't." Remus told her.
"Remus...I...I..." Lena tried, but she just couldn't do it; she knew if she told him that he was father that he would come back with her. Then she wondered if he would, would she wanted him to go back just because of that? "Remus, I want...oh it doesn't matter."
Lena turned round, and looked out of the window her umbrella was still outside and it was still raining.
"I should go then." Lena told him as she turned back round.
"What, no but you just came back." Remus said quickly moving over to her, but she stepped around of him.
"I know, but there's nothing really keeping me here now is there?" Lena looked at him, waiting for his answered she wanted him so much it hurt; she decided if he asked her now to stay and he loved her then she would. But she knew that he wouldn't, deep down; he was a bit like her really hiding away from the world.
"Oh right...well then..." Remus said; he could hear the voice shouting in his mind 'idiot!' repeatedly.
Lena nodded and head for the door, he stopped her just as he reached it; she turned back round and looked into his eyes.
"Lena..." Remus said. 'Do it, do it now!' "I'll write to you, is that alright?" 'IDIOT!'
"Yeah that's fine Remus." Lena said, she kissed him on the cheek and he let go of her.
She walked down the hall and opened the front door; she bent down for her umbrella and then turned back to him.
"Goodbye Remus." Lena said, smiling slightly at him. She put her umbrella up and then stepped out and closed the door behind her.
"Damn it!" Remus shouted and then punched the wall. "I love you! How hard is it to say!"
(A/N: - What do you think let me know, don't worry there's more to come when I get round to writing it; just keep checking for updates.)
