Disclaimer: I don't own Newsies! I don't own I Call Your Name by the Beatles or I Will by the Beatles, either!
Yes, I know I didn't get STRAIGHT to this chapter…I kinda got distracted by Peter. Is it MY fault we started making out? Psh, no!
Ok, I've decided to do something a bit different…I'm gunna stick some songs in here to interpret the feelings and emotions of whoever the chapter's about. This chapter is about Specs…and yeah just read ok?
Thanks to all my reviewers! I love you!
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Specs' pape flew to his side as he gave up selling for that day. He had tried every headline, improving each one as best as he could. It wasn't good enough, though. He still had 30 papes left and it was getting darker and darker each minute.
As he walked to the DC to return his papes, he passed couple after couple. Each were holding hands, talking and smiling; like him and Rachel used to do. After 6 months, he still couldn't believe she had gone. Just like that, she left him.
I call your name but you're not there
Was I to blame for being unfair
Oh I can't sleep at night
Since you've been gone
I never weep at night
I can't go on
Don't you know I can't take it
I don't know who can
I'm not goin' to make it
I'm not that kind of man
Every day, he thought about her. What she was doing at that exact moment, if she had changed at all and especially if she thought about him as much as he did her. He would see cats in the alleyway and think of her. It was that bad. He never told anyone this. No, they wouldn't understand. Blink would, maybe, but they were never the best of friends. Specs had to keep this inside of him until he saw her again…IF he ever saw her again.
He always imagined what it would be like if someway, somehow, Rachel came back. He would hold her in his arms and give her millions of kisses. He would hold her hand and read to her, like they used to. He would hug her every chance he could, and the most important thing: he would never let go.
Who knows how long I've loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to, I will
Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we're together
Love you when we're apart
And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
Oh, you know I will
I will
The coins jingled in his pocket as he walked back to the Lodging House, a sad expression on his face. Rachel was the only girl he had ever truly loved. She was only in his life for two measly days, yet there was something about her that made him love her.
Skittery watched as his best friend trudged into the bunk room on the verge of crying. He rolled over, got out of bed, and walked towards Specs.
"What's tha mattah?" He patted Specs on the back and put his hands in his pockets. He wasn't really good with confrontation; it made him uncomfortable.
"I was just thinking 'bout Rachel." He looked down at his shoes, trying to keep his response simple. Skittery and him didn't communicate all that much. They never had the long, deep talks like most best friends do. Their brotherly love for each other showed through their actions.
"Oh. Well…sorry 'bout that. I, uh, I hope you get to see her again." He responded before grinning and heading back towards his bunk. Specs proceeded to the washroom to perform his nightly routine. Washing his face, brushing his teeth, the whole kit and caboodle. After that, he slipped into his bed and starting thinking. Why did she have to come here? Why did she have to like ME? Why did she have to be so beautiful? Everything would have been so much easier if we had never met. But I don't want that. I would rather live one life having met her then a million lives having not. I just miss her so much. This sucks ass. Oh, pardon my language. Wait, I'm thinking to myself! Don't pardon my language! He scoffed and decided to just fall asleep. There was no use thinking about it. It happened and that's that. He closed his eyes and feel into a deep slumber, only to awake the next morning and do the whole thing over again.
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*wipes tear from eye* Poor Specsy. I really want Rachel to come back!!! Geez, I wish I could make her come back!!
Pete: But you're the author…you can.
Oh, right! I can! Well, you'll just have to wait and see if she comes back!! *looks at Specs with puppy face* I'm sorry.
Specs: It's ok…I'll forgive you if you make out with me!
Pete: *stands like he does in the movie in front of me* I don't think so, four eyes.
Specs: *glares back*
Uh oh…umm, I'll be back with the next chapter soon, ok?
