Disclaimer: Disney owns the Might Duck's I'm just borrowing them for a while

Chapter 1

The Attempt

Adam Banks sat in the Ice Rink at Eden Hall surrounded by his precious possessions. His to duck jerseys, both emblazoned his #99, his stick and his skates, his diary's and his Celtic Cross and his Friendship bracelet (shared with Charlie and Jessie). In his hand he held two pieces of paper. The first read:

Dear Jess and Charlie

I know you two will be the ones to find me because before I do it I'm gonna call you, and my family. The thing is they won't figure out what's wrong until it's to late, cause they don't really know me, not like you two do. All my dad cares about is that I'm the best at everything. He doesn't love me. To him I'm a tool, a means to the end. Coach Bombay once said that my dad would be proud of me, what ever I do, cause I'm his son, but he was wrong my dad has never been proud of me in my whole life.

What I want to tell you guys is that I love you guys and I'll always appreciate all you did for me. I'm sorry I'm doing this but I can't take the strain anymore, so I'm gonna duck out while I'm still somewhat stable. The only people who will miss me are you two; to every one else I'm just a tool. I'm sorry to put you through this pain but remember we're best friends forever. We're Blood Brothers and confidants, and I will always love you and care for you both. I'm sitting here thinking about the irony of our favourite verse from Lives song 'Stage' 'I wanna Feel, I wanna Try, I wanna Rock in the City Tonight, I wanna Deal, Don't wanna Die, I wanna Bring my Captain Hook into the Light' (1)

The fact is I can't try any longer and I can't just deal. I'm tired of feeling and I just wanna die. Remember guys 'we meet again it's like we never left, time in-between was just a dream, did we leave this place?'(2)

I'll miss you guys, but I don't wanna see you for a long time, Okay.

Love forever and always, Cake Eater.

The other read:

The Final Will and Testament of Adam Banks, Junior, Eden Hall Academy.

All possessions I deem to be worth anything lie around me and will go to the following people:

My Original Duck Jersey - To Jessie Hall - So you will always remember just why I got the name Cake Eater.

My Goodwill Games Jersey - To Charlie Conway - Cause I've always remembered how you let me play in your spot, even though you were Captain and by far a better player than me.

My Stick - To Charlie Conway - Use it to score a few goals when you reach the NHL wont you.

My Skates - To Jessie Hall - Always remember me when you're speeding down the ice.

My Photo's - To Jessie Hall and Charlie Conway - Guys split them but always let the other see them if they need to.

My Diary's - To Jessie Hall and Charlie Conway - Always remember just what good friends you've been, and if you start to forget just pick one of them up and read, it'll show you what you did for me.

My Celtic Cross - To Charlie Conway - I always thought it looked good on you. Wear it well

My Friendship Bracelet - To Jessie Hall - I always thought you were the hard-core roughster of the team, until you gave me and Charlie these, use this to show people not to judge you by how you act but by the person you hide from people cause you fear getting hurt.

And my final words to both of you treasure each other because a better friend will be exceptionally hard to find.

Adam Banks

Adam Banks

Reading them through once more to make sure everything was in order I placed them on top of one of my jerseys.

I then took out my phone.

I phoned home and spoke to my dad. I told him I loved him and was sorry and to tell every one else I was sorry and I loved them. I said goodbye and hung up the phone not even giving him the chance to speak, I left him feeling very confused.

I then phoned Jessie:

"Hall Residence, can I help you?" The unmistakeable voice of Jessie answered.

"Jessie, It's Adam, I love you man and I'm sorry. I'll miss you."

"Adam what the ." Was the last thing I heard before hanging up the phone.

I phoned Charlie with much the same conversation, the only difference, his last words were, "Adam, No don't .'

I put the phone in my pocket, ignoring the ringing that I new was my dad. I picked you the knife and carefully examined it. Admiring its sharp smooth steel edge. With tears rolling down my cheeks I slashed across my right wrist, cutting the veins almost in two. I then swapped hands and did the same with the other wrist. I admired the blood flowing down my pale hand, staining it read and pooling at my feet. I started to feel dizzy and light-headed, when I heard the doors slam open in the back round, and Charlie's and Jessie's voiced desperately calling my name. I let a small smile grace my lips. I new they'd be the ones to find me, and with that thought my world turned black.

********************************* Adam Banks new no more.

A/N: - All credit goes to Live for these lyrics - If any one can tell me which Live song these come from I'll dedicate the next chapter to you

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