I totally re-did this entire chapter, and I am going to re-do this entire story because I was unhappy with it.  Please Review! oOoOo and I do not own any of the characters, except for Sadie, she's my creation J

Chapter 1

5 Years Later: 2004

Chandler sighed heavily as he shifted his weight from one foot to the other.  Carefully he moved the sleeping toddler to his other arm.  His feet were killing him and his arms were aching.  He had been standing outside of JFK for almost an hour now.  He could not believe that the usual punctual Ross was this late.  Chandler also regretted the fact that he actually decided to come back to New York.  He should have never let Ross talk him into it.  The city brought back too many painful memories for Chandler.  It took him a while to finally block out all of those memories and now he feared that they would resurface.  It had been five long years since he had stepped foot in New York.  One person, the woman who he thought was his soul mate kept him away from the city.  He knew that if he saw her again, old feelings would be resurfaced, and Chandler did not need that know.  He had other things more important to worry about then past loves. 

"Chandler!" Ross called snapping Chandler out of his thoughts. Ross hurriedly got out of the Saturn that he was driving and picked up Chandler's blue duffle bag.  He threw it into the back seat.  "Sorry about being late, I got held up at home." Ross apologized as soon as Chandler was about to open his mouth. 

Chandler gave a half-smile, "It's ok; you didn't have to pick me up, anyway."

An uncomfortable silence fell over the two former college roommates.  Ross searched for something to say, when he finally saw the bundle in Chandler's arms.  "Oh my God, Chandler, is she yours?" Ross questioned.  He never imagined Chandler as a parent; let alone what seemed to be a single father.

Lovingly Chandler looked down at the sleeping girl in his arms.  "Yea," as Chandler spoke about his daughter he glowed, "she's the one thing that keeps me going, my pride and joy." Chandler stated proudly.

"Why didn't you tell Rachel and I about her?  We would have liked to go out and visited." Ross inquired feeling a bit hurt.  He couldn't believe that the friend that used to tell him everything would keep something so huge a secret. 

Chandler shrugged.  "I don't know." Chandler simply answered. 

Unfortunately Ross could not sense that Chandler did not want him to dig any deeper, "Where's her mother?"   Instantly regretting that he even opened his mouth when he saw the look on Chandler's face.  Not thinking before speaking really was his 'thing'.

Chandler looked down at his daughter with tears in his eyes.  "She's not around anymore."  Chandler dryly stated, "Anyway, it's getting cold out, can we just um, get into the car?" Chandler quickly changed the subject.  Sensing that he went too far and should not pry any further, Ross agreed. 

The car ride was very uncomfortable for both Chandler and Ross.  Although they had spent five years apart, they had nothing to talk about.  Chandler wanted to keep part of his life hidden, and Ross couldn't understand why.  With Chandler returning to New York, Ross thought that some of his unanswered questions to Chandler's sudden departure in 1999 would be answered.   As of now, it looked as if none of them would be answered.  The only two other people that seemed to know what ultimately led to Chandler's exit weren't talking, either.  Ross speculated what happened, but he never knew for a fact, and he wanted and needed to know.

"Ross, listen, can you just drop me off at a hotel?" Chandler spoke up just as they were crossing the bridge, "I don't want to burden you or Rachel.  You probably do not have enough room for Sadie and I to both stay in your apartment."

"What?  Don't be crazy!  Hotels in this area are so over-priced.  We have enough room for you two."  Ross quickly answered back.  He wasn't going to let Chandler back out of this.  He spent too much time trying to get Chandler to New York to have him leave now.

Chandler sighed and glanced back at his daughter, Sadie, who thankfully was still sleeping.  "I can't see Monica." Chandler dryly stated.  Ross took his eyes off of the road for a moment and looked at Chandler.  He could see a flash of pain in his eyes.  "Or Joey." Chandler added.

"They aren't at my apartment tonight.  You won't be seeing them at all today." Ross answered, trying to remain as truthful as possible.  He knew that it was inevitable that Chandler would bump into one of the two.

"Ross, I'm serious." Chandler hissed, "I'm not ready to see them yet.  I cannot face them."

"Chandler, it's been five years.  It's time to get over it." Ross responded, "Monica was the love of your life and Joey was your best friend.  What could have they possibly done for you to detest them so much?"  

Chandler stood silent for a moment.  Gazing out at all the city that he once loved, "They tore my heart into pieces."

Ross sighed.  "Look at your life now, Chandler.  You have a beautiful little girl.  If whatever that happened five years ago, didn't happen, you wouldn't have her.  That's a really good thing that came out of a horrible situation." Ross optimistically stated.  He needed to snap his friend out of it.  Never in a million years did Ross picture Chandler as a bitter person.