Author's Note: Sorry for not updating!!! Junior year is hell!!! So many things that you have to do… And teachers always give millions of tests the week before vacation. Winter break is finally here! So… that means more time to write. My computer won't let sent any reviews. Does anyone know if there's like something that I can do, so I will be able to write them? Thanks for the help. Please review! I'd greatly appreciate it! Oh and happy Valentines Day!
Chapter 5
Chandler stood in the room that Ross had set up for him for hours. While he was in there his heart broke into a million pieces as he watched his daughter cry herself to sleep. Sadie needed a mother, she needed a woman's love, and it pained Chandler that she would never be able to have her mother's love again. He tried the best that he could to be both a father and a mother to Sadie, but he could not do it. His life was overwhelming him.
As Chandler sat against the hard headboard so many thoughts entered his mind. He should have never let his emotions get the best of him. It had been so long since he had shed tears. Everyone back in California told him that he had to be strong for the sake of his daughter. Although many times he wanted to cry, and needed to cry, he never did. He was always afraid that Sadie would hear him or come into the room when he was crying.
It was all too much for Chandler today though. His pain, anger, and sadness just kept on building up and seeing and hearing Monica say those horrible words made him burst inside. He couldn't help crying, it was as if his world was crashing in on him once again.
Sadie stirred in her sleep, lifting Chandler out of his profound thoughts, awaking him to reality. Chandler kissed the top of Sadie's head. He was going to enlighten his friends on what had really happened in California. He was going to tell them the truth and not sugar coat it like he did in the letters that he sent them and the phone calls that he made. Chandler needed to tell them, not only because they had a right to know, but also because it was necessary to get it off of his chest.
Before Chandler left his room, he made sure that Sadie was sound asleep. He did not want her to hear what he was going to say. Fortunately, she was in a deep sleep. Closing the door behind him, Chandler entered the living room bracing himself for what he was going to say.
Ross and Rachel were sitting on the couch watching TV, but they quickly turned it off once Chandler entered the room. They both could see the anguish in his eyes and they could sense that he wanted to talk to them.
"Chandler are you alright?" Rachel asked when he sat down on the chair adjacent to the couch. She rubbed his arm for comfort when she witnessed him swallow deeply.
Chandler closed his eyes slowly and just as slowly as he closed them he opened them up again. "There is something that I have to tell you." Chandler solemnly stated. Rachel gave a sympathetic nod and a small smile while Ross just stood silently watching his friends. Chandler continued in a hushed tone; "You both have the right to know why I left the city. The day that I left, I was going to propose to Monica," Chandler stopped for a moment, breathing out slowly, "when I got to the apartment and into my bedroom, I saw Monica and Joey…" Chandler stopped again; his throat clicked as he tried to hold back the tears, he was too emotional today. "They were having sex in our bed. I was so hurt and so upset, that I didn't think rationally, I just fled."
"Oh my God!" Ross gasped. He never wanted his suspicions to be proven true. He could not believe that Monica would do that to Chandler! She had been so distraught after he had left.
Chandler sighed, "There is so much more though."
Rachel put her hand on his knee, "You can tell us. We will listen."
Nodding, Chandler continued, "The first months in California were horrible, I missed you guys and Monica terribly, but then I met this wonderful woman." Chandler stopped at the thought of her. Tears came to his eyes whenever he mentioned her, "Her name was Adriana. I fell madly in love with her, head over heals, we actually got married." It was then that Chandler reached into his pocket, taking out his wallet. He thumbed through the thousands of photos of Sadie, until he came across the picture that he looked at before he went to asleep every night. Carefully, he took it out and passed it over to a shocked Rachel and Ross.
Rachel stared at the photograph of Chandler in a tuxedo and a beautiful woman with gorgeous dark hair and deep brown eyes in a crisp white wedding dress with awe. She could not believe that Chandler would not tell them about his wedding, it was supposed to be the happiest day of his life and she would have loved to share it with him.
Ross was in shock. He could not say anything. His ears couldn't possibly be hearing things correctly.
Before either of the two shock-stricken friends could say anything Chandler continued, "I'm sorry that I never told you. I just did not want Monica to know, and I knew that you would have told her." Rachel just nodded. She did not know what else to do. It took Chandler a moment before he could get out the rest of he wanted to say. He knew that he deeply hurt his friends by not inviting them to the wedding or even telling them about it.
"After the wedding, Adriana found out that she was pregnant. I was elated. Sadie was born three days after our first wedding anniversary. Our lives were perfect. We were so happy. We had bought a new house and were even planning on having another child, when our whole world collapsed. Adriana was diagnosed with ovarian cancer." Tears began to well up in Chandler's sad blue eyes, burning them. He blinked rapidly, trying to get them to stop. "She passed away seven months ago." Chandler could not say anything more.
"I'm so sorry." Rachel soothed embracing Chandler in a hug. She could not believe how horrible Chandler's life was; he never seemed to get a break. There was always something negative that happened to him.
