Authors Note: Sorry for lack of updates. I have been sick again and school has been so hard. I kept on meaning to update, but I just did not know what to write. I hope that you enjoy this chapter and thanks to everyone who has been posting reviews! It makes me want to write more. Since it's summer now, I defiantly won't wait another 3 months to update again, lol. Please review and tell me what you want to happen next! Thanks again, Jackie.
Chapter 9
Chandler walked around aimlessly; trying to make sense of his life. Right after he had met up with Joey, he brought Sadie back to the apartment. He wasn't in the right state of mind to be around her. He wanted to forget the responsibility of having a child for one night and he needed to think about himself.
Chandler needed to do was get his mind clear. He couldn't believe that he actually forgiven Joey. The only reason why he actually forgave him was because Sadie was there. Maybe that was the way that things were meant to be. It had been five years. Chandler needed to learn how to forgive. He needed his circle of friends back in his life. He wanted his friends back in his life. He didn't need and he didn't want to be the bitter person that he was.
Closing his eyes Chandler took one step forward and prayed to God for a sign.
"Chandler?" A timid voice called from behind. Chandler whirled around and he stood face to face with the whole that stuck a knife in his heart.
Tears welled up in Chandler's eyes. He looked at the line of shops, restaurants, and stores that lined the now desolate New York street. One particular shop caught his eye. "Want to um, get some coffee?" Chandler asked timidly. As Chandler waited for a response, he remembered what Adriana had told him the day that she died; she wanted him to move on. She wanted him to make amends with his friends because life was too short for hatred and if he didn't all that he would be left with was regret. He spent five years with hatred inside of him and where did that leave him? Nowhere.
"Yea, I would like that." Monica softly replied take Chandler out of his thoughts. Chandler meekly smiled.
The Central Perk was just how Chandler remembered it to be. Instead of his circle of friends sharing their spot on the couch, a new, happier circle filled their place. An empty table stood by the window and the former happy couple, sat across from each other. They stood in silence for what seemed like eternity. Chandler placed his hand around the huge midnight blue mug and took a sip of the black coffee.
"I'm so sorry about what I said about your daughter." Monica spoke up first, "I was out of place and I lost control of my emotions."
Chandler drummed his fingers on the table. He did not look up because he knew that if he looked at Monica's face and into her deep blue eyes, he would start to cry.
"Chandler…" Monica trailed off placing her hand on top of his, "Joey called me today."
Chandler looked up at Monica. Pools of water filled his eyes, "How could you do that to me?" Chandler's emotion filled voice was barely above a whisper, "Do you realize how much it hurt me when I saw you with him?"
"There was so much going on then Chandler." Monica responded with love in her voice, "I was going through so much, so much that you don't even know."
Chandler yanked his hand away from her. As much as he wanted to forgive her, he couldn't. His heart was broken in two and he did not know if it could be glued back together.
"Chandler, please listen." Monica cried. Tears streamed down her face profusely. "I didn't want to hurt you. I loved you, I still love you, and I always will. You are my soul mate, Chandler Bing."
Chandler swallowed hard, trying to make the lump that filled his throat go away. "I don't know if I can forgive you, Monica." Chandler responded as tears trickled down his face, "I just don't know." Then Chandler got up and left, leaving Monica an emotional mess.
