Authors Note: Wow. Really sorry for lack of updates! I hope that this time I can keep on track more, but senior year has been keeping me so busy. I hope that you enjoy and I'd love to get any suggestions/reviews that you may have for me.

Chapter 10

Monica silently cursed herself as she watched Chandler's body saunter down the still bustling New York City street. She had thought that after she had talked with him, honestly and sincerely with no anger, he would forgive her. Unfortunately that was not the case.

Soon Monica's heaving sobs filled the Central Perk. Angrily she stormed out the coffee house and sprinted down the long city block to try to catch Chandler. It was to no avail, Chandler must have already returned to Ross's place; back to the one woman in his life that he loved. Monica yearned to be that woman, even if it was a three-year old.

"Wow," Monica spoke out loud as she pushed open the glass door to her apartment building, "I have sunk to a new low. Jealous of a toddler." She shook her head as she entered the elevator.

Within minutes Monica reached her apartment. Her heart fluttered when she saw the red light on her answering machine blink incessantly. Maybe Chandler had changed his mind and called her to tell her that he had forgiven her; that he wanted to rekindle the hot romance that they once shared.

With a shaky hand Monica hit the 'message' button. Instead of Chandler's voice flooding into her ears, Joey's New York drawl replaced it. "Monica, you won't believe who I." Furiously Monica ripped the machine off of the table and threw it against the wall causing it to break into pieces, just like her relationship with Chandler.

Hot tears flooded down her cheeks. Once again sobs overtook her body. She put her hands to her face and let all of her emotions out. Never would she have thought it would have been this horrible. What happened to the strong Monica? The Monica that would be freaking out right now knowing that a mess was lying on the floor? She was gone, but Monica desperately wanted to find her. She needed to find that Monica so Chandler would once again fall in love with her.
..................... Thankfully, the apartment was silent when Chandler entered it. He assumed that everyone was asleep and was surprised when the living room light flickered on.

"Where have you been?" Rachel asked, as she stood cross-armed in her fluffy white robe.

For a moment Chandler stood silent, he did not want to answer her but he knew that she was not going to let him reach the comfort of the guest bedroom until he did. "I just went to the Central Perk." Chandler replied conveniently leaving out the fact that he had not only talked to Joey, but to Monica as well.

"Oh." Rachel replied shuffling over to the couch and plopping down on it. Chandler rolled his eyes. He knew that she wanted to talk. "Sadie told me that you had dinner with 'daddy's friend who ate a lot' today, but she couldn't remember his name." Rachel stared at Chandler wanting him to say something. When he didn't she continued, "Did it happen to be Joey?"

Chandler sighed. He scratched his head as he too, retreated over the couch. "Yes, we talked for a bit, he explained to me everything. That's all."

"Did you forgive him?" Rachel asked the question that Chandler had known was coming.

"In a way." Chandler replied not wanting to elaborate. Although he made amends with Joey, he was not sure if his heart was fully ready to forgive him.

"Chandler." Rachel sighed going to a place where she knew that she shouldn't go, but she had to at least give it a try, "I'm sure it was just a mistake. Joey and Monica never meant to hurt you in that way. It's been five years, do you think that it's about time move on?"

Anger flashed into Chandler's now hollow blue eyes. He could not believe that Rachel, of all people, was saying this right now. "No." Chandler steadily replied, trying his hardest to hold back the fury in his voice, "Not only were Monica's actions that day unforgivable so were her actions that she displayed upon my return. I have had it Rach. Tomorrow I am packing up and leaving the city, never to return again. I can't put myself on the line again. I do not only have myself to look after I have Sadie as well. I can't put myself back into a tumultuous relationship with Monica again. Never." Chandler stormed out of the room leaving Rachel speechless. What had she done?