Chapter 9

Rating: PG-13

Summery: Don't make me put the smack down on your ass.

Note: Sorry it's been a while just in mourning or the character Tyr. Four eps, can you believe that? That's all we are gonna get.

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Beka cleaned the mirror of fog with her hand and secured the towel more tightly against her body in a feeble attempt to ward off the chill and keep some of the warmth the shower had created. "Coward." She called her self under her breath. Even after Tyr had left she could still feel the weight of his gaze on her.

After he had left she went to the bathroom to put some water on her face and when she looked at her reflection she caught her breath. She knew the intensity of his gaze was that of a lovers, don't ask her how she knew since she kept her eyes close the entire time feigning sleep. But she felt it as the hair on the back of neck stood up and the flush decided to spread over her body.

She quickly dried off and dressed and brushed her hair and went to the mess hall to eat lunch. She had spent her morning working out and she was lucky to learn that Tyr had to meet a contact on one of the near by planets and wouldn't be on board again until evening.

For the life of her she didn't understand as to why he was staying as long as he was. And the crew, those that knew him and those that didn't, were starting to make rumors and ideas. So far everybody's favorite rumor was that she and Tyr had secretly been married, she made a face at that one. It hit to close to home, it brought back the memories of the day he left and the night she found the little present he left for her in her night table.

'I've often wished you were Nietchzen.' She made a face and raised her drink, a beer that she somehow managed to slip pass Rommie, and raised it while thinking 'I got your Neitchizen right here, Mister.' After the second gulp she decided no more unhappy thoughts and that he wasn't worth her effort to waste brainpower on him.

" I'm betting that the good captain would be unhappy to see his first officer drinking on the job." The smooth voice was condescending and arrogant at the same time.

The words 'son of a blue balled bitch' rang through her head and would have in the mess hall, but fortunately for her, her mouth was full of her lunch. But instead she raised a finger and finished chewing her lunch and took a drink of her beer before answering. " No more unhappy than he is to see on of his former crew members who betrayed his "friendship" and nearly got us all killed, back on board his ship."

Beka knew she sounded harsh and she didn't care. He had this coming along time now. She only got to tell him her feelings of hurt before she got a chance to tell him her anger, or in her case wanting to beat him up with her anger.

Tyr looked at the blond woman in the eyes and saw that her blue eyes were about as warm as a snow bank in minus degree weather. Her jaw was clenched and her entire figure was rigid with pent up rage. He knew he had hurt her bad, okay maybe more than her brother had or father or even Bobby put together. He had befriended her for three years and they have flirted, though very subtly, and created a sort of unnamable bond.

She had given him her trust and over time without warning he had taken hold of her heart. He had placed himself in the list of people who have shattered her heart and broken her trust and that was the last thing he wanted, but he had no choice. And that's what he told her.

" I had no choice." He was glade to find that his voice made it seem like he believed that, because looking into her cold broken eyes he was beginning to doubt that. Then he heard her scoff in disbelief.

"No choice? You had plenty of choice, Tyr." Her voice had a hard edge to it and it was void of emotion. "You had a choice to tell somebody that your son was alive, you didn't have to hold that alone. Yeah, that's right. I know about your son, Dylan told me." She said this as she saw the muscles in his arms flex a little in surprise.

"You had a choice to share with somebody that you were planning to unite the Neitchizen prides, but you didn't. You had a choice in telling somebody that YOU planned on ruling the prides, but you didn't. You had choices Tyr. They may have not been the choices you liked, but they were still choices." She decided to quite while she was ahead, her voice felt like it was ready to break.

" I had no choice. There was no one I could trust with...." He stopped right there when he realized what he had just said. He look up and saw the pain and betrayal in her eyes and face.

" I'm glade to see that I was ' no one'. So I guess with all the time we spent together and you telling me about your childhood and the hopes you once had were just all lies? Just some fun way to pass the time until you got what you wanted?" Beka wasn't aware that her voice was raising and that she had a few tears break free.

He stepped forward, brushing his braids to the back, and his hands of their own violation reached out for her. And they fell as he saw her jerk back and push herself against the wall. " I didn't mean it like that. I just meant-" he was cut off when she raised her hand in a dismissive gesture. " I know what you meant. You meant that you had no one as either a mate or another Neitchizen to trust in."

She ran a shaky hand through her hair and gave a hollow laugh before walking towards the door. As it opened she turned back. " If you had told me those things I would have never betrayed you Tyr. Because I would die to hold the secrets that those who I love tell me. Especially when they involve the lives of others. "

Beka was half way down the hall when she heard the sound of a table being flipped over.

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After Beka left Tyr felt anger at himself consume him and he flipped the table she was eating at. He leaned against the wall she had just vacated and slid to a sitting position. He saw the beer she had been drinking and by some miracle it remained in tact and semi-full, he brought the drink to his lips and realized that he could taster her on it. She tasted familiar. Which made him wonder if those dreams of his were real.

He saw the doors open and a newbie came in and he growled at him and the kids ran out and back into the hall. He rested his head on his arms as he realized that had a major job in rebuilding Beka's trust in him.

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Okay I don't know if you agree with me but did this chapter seem to suck? I don' t know, I just...whatever.