Shadow Lover

Disclaimer: I don't own X-Men or the song, come to think of it I don't know ho owns the song... damn…

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Shadow Lover, never seen by day,
Only deep in dreams do you appear.
Wisdom tells me I should turn away,
Love of mist and shadow all unclear.
Nothing can I hold of you but thought,
Shadow Lover, mist and twilight wrought.

I never though it would be like this, just one single moment, just one single kiss then your gone, nothing left but despair. And you'll never know, because you're already there on the battlefield, fighting, alone. And I stand alone in the dark cold night, crying, destroyed, alone.

Shadow Lover, comfort me in pain,
And love, although I never see your face.
All who'd have me fear you speak in vain,
Never would I shrink from your embrace.
Shadow Lover, gentle is your hand,
Never could another understand.

You refused to be near me in the light of day, you swore somebody would see. And of course we could never be together, so
I was your secret, then now and forever. But your gone never again will I be understood. You were my light in this sea of darkness. You understood me, one voice out of a million that got through. And I listened to you and held your hand as you described your past, so sad really, yet when push came to shove, you shoved. You shoved me right out of your life.


Shadow Lover, soothe me when I'm old,
Mourn for all who left me here alone.
When my grief is too much to be borne,
When my burdens crushing great have grown.
Shadow Lover, I can not forget,
Help me bear the burdens I have yet.

You took me along with my past crimes and sins, no matter what I did you swore it was what was within that counted, and all you saw was a pretty soul. I stood alone before and I stand alone now, but for a time we were together. And for a time I was happy, but now, I am empty.

Shadow Lover, you alone can know,
How I long to reach a point of peace.
How I fade with weariness and woe,
How I long for you to bring release.
Shadow Lover, court me in my dreams,
Bring the peace that suffering redeems.

I wish to be with you again no matter the cost, no matter the pain it brings me, no matter what is lost. If death is what it takes for you to see my love then I'll show you in loud crimson letters. For all to see. Maybe then you will see the pain you caused inside of me. The death you brought to my soul.


Shadow Lover, from the shadows made,
Lead me into shadow once again.
Where you lead I cannot be afraid,
For with you I shall come home again.
In your arms I shall not fear the night,
Shadow Lover, lead me into light.

I'm leaving this world now, don't blame yourself. I know that reading this note will hurt, that it will bring up things better left unsaid. But I had to say it before I left before my journey in this life ends. I'm bleeding you know. I hope no blood gets on the note, I want you to be able to read it. Oh well, I'm sorry for wasting your time. I love you (It had to be said).

Sorry, Yours always in love,

Kathrine Pryde