Fear of the Return
Nissa just sat there on her sofa in the living room, she didn't even realise when Remus had brought her home, it was as though she had shut down not wanting to think about it.
Remus made her something eat, not that she eat much of it but it brought her back to her senses, not that she wanting too to have the pain so close to her heart. Nissa followed him through to the kitchen when she had finished.
"Remus. When and how did it happen?" Nissa asked him slowly.
"Last month, by his cousin Bellatrix." Remus told him. "We went to rescue Harry, he dead saving his life."
Nissa smiled slightly, it was an honourable death. "He wrote to me, he was sounding a lot better at Christmas." Nissa said as though she was a million miles away. "I wrote back to him, he had asked me to come over. I told him that I was too busy. How could I have told him I was too busy to go over and see him? He never wrote back after that, I don't blame him. I should have made the time, why didn't I make the time to go and see him?"
"He understood." Remus told her softly as he took her in his arms. "Come back with me, we need you."
Nissa looked up at him and pulled out of his arms shacking her head, she wasn't sure what she wanted to do; he had just walked back into her life and expected her to just drop everything, like Sirius had wanted. The words hit her, she was doing it again.
"Ok, I'll come back with you." Nissa told him taking him quit by surprise at her sudden change in mind.
"That was..." Remus said taken back.
"I know, but I'll come back with you." Nissa told him. "I've got a few things to sort out first, but I should able to leave by the end of the week."
Remus smiled at her warmly. "I'm glad, now I hope that you're hungry because I've made us something to eat."
Nissa smiled at him, she was she just hadn't thought about it until then.
Over the next week Nissa spent most of her time organising all of her shops and student's while she'll be away, and also went to see the Head Master as well because she didn't know how long she was going to be gone for. Her student's were surprised by her leaving, she had never left them before she had always been around when they needed her and now she was leaving; she had told them because someone else needs her in England.
It was all done, like she had said by the end of the week; and now Remus and Nissa were on their way back to England, she hadn't been back for fourteen years.
As soon as they arrived in London they received an owl from Albus Dumbledore telling Nissa where the Order was, she read the letter and then destroyed it afterwards.
Nissa stood there at the end of the street, now that she was here everything seemed different from being in a American; she didn't want to face everyone after she had let Sirius down by not coming back when he had asked her to in the first place.
"Am I doing the right thing by being here Remus?" Nissa asked him. "This is too late; I should have come when he asked me to too start with."
Remus stepped in front of her and said softly. "He never held it against you; you helped him when he needed it the most. And you're here now, so that's all that matters isn't it."
"But..." Nissa said still unsure.
"But nothing. Are you going to come in with me or not?" Remus asked her smiling slightly.
Just then Auther Weasley with Tonks at his side, they walked up behind her and smiled at Remus.
"Your back, that's great. Oh, and with a date as well." Tonks said brightly.
"Yes I'm back, but with a friend not a date." Remus told her. "She's come to help."
"Good we could use all the help we can get nowadays." Tonks said. "I'm Tonks, nice to meet you."
"And I'm Auther Weasley." Auther told her as they started to walk again, well she didn't really have much choice now that there were three of them.
"Nissa Tiania." Nissa told them.
They all went inside; Nissa came in last behind Remus and then followed them all down the hall and down the stair's that led into the kitchen.
"Remus is back." Tonks announced to everyone as she walked in, making everyone look up to welcome him back.
They all wanted to know why he had been to American none of them had really been told, only something about a friend he was hoping to find and bring back. Remus stepped aside as he came down to reveal Nissa to them all, she had known that their were going to be a few of them here; there were about half a dozen and most looked as though they were related.
Auther sat next to his wife Molly, while Tonks sat next to a young girl who was their daughter she also had red hair like the lads who sat around the table looking at her.
"I'm going to start going away with Lupin if he comes back with women like that." Fred said brightly to George his twin sat next to him, who nodded his agreement.
"This is Nissa; she's an old friend from school." Remus told them all, as they sat down facing one another.
But at this statement they all looked at Remus and then at Nissa and back to Remus, they couldn't believe that they were the same age; she looked so much younger.
"You were at school together? But she looks about ten years younger." George said a seat down from her, he led forward so that he could get a better look at her; and then added quickly. "No offence mate."
"None taken." Remus said smiling. 2Your right, I said so myself when I meet her again; you do look great."
"So how old are you then?" Ron asked.
"Ron! You can't ask her that." Molly told him sternly. "He's sorry."
"It's alright, I'm three years younger then Remus; I was two years below weren't I?" Nissa said.
"Yeah, because of your birthday being right at the end of the year." Remus said.
They were staring even more now that they kind of knew her age, they didn't know how old Remus was but they had an idea; and was surprised that she was only a couple of years younger.
"She's always looked great." Remus told them.
Fred and George wicked at him which he just smiled.
"Though Sirius was right wasn't he, I do cheat from time to time on that front." Nissa said the Remus.
A silence fell over the room as it always did at the mention of Sirius' name, and now with her mentioning it when none of them knew her; it was even stranger.
"So you and Sirius were friends, like you and Remus?" Tonks asked breaking then silence and wanting to know about her.
"Yes, we were just friends." Nissa answered making Remus looked at her, but she didn't look at him knowing what would happen if she did.
Nissa just sat there on her sofa in the living room, she didn't even realise when Remus had brought her home, it was as though she had shut down not wanting to think about it.
Remus made her something eat, not that she eat much of it but it brought her back to her senses, not that she wanting too to have the pain so close to her heart. Nissa followed him through to the kitchen when she had finished.
"Remus. When and how did it happen?" Nissa asked him slowly.
"Last month, by his cousin Bellatrix." Remus told him. "We went to rescue Harry, he dead saving his life."
Nissa smiled slightly, it was an honourable death. "He wrote to me, he was sounding a lot better at Christmas." Nissa said as though she was a million miles away. "I wrote back to him, he had asked me to come over. I told him that I was too busy. How could I have told him I was too busy to go over and see him? He never wrote back after that, I don't blame him. I should have made the time, why didn't I make the time to go and see him?"
"He understood." Remus told her softly as he took her in his arms. "Come back with me, we need you."
Nissa looked up at him and pulled out of his arms shacking her head, she wasn't sure what she wanted to do; he had just walked back into her life and expected her to just drop everything, like Sirius had wanted. The words hit her, she was doing it again.
"Ok, I'll come back with you." Nissa told him taking him quit by surprise at her sudden change in mind.
"That was..." Remus said taken back.
"I know, but I'll come back with you." Nissa told him. "I've got a few things to sort out first, but I should able to leave by the end of the week."
Remus smiled at her warmly. "I'm glad, now I hope that you're hungry because I've made us something to eat."
Nissa smiled at him, she was she just hadn't thought about it until then.
Over the next week Nissa spent most of her time organising all of her shops and student's while she'll be away, and also went to see the Head Master as well because she didn't know how long she was going to be gone for. Her student's were surprised by her leaving, she had never left them before she had always been around when they needed her and now she was leaving; she had told them because someone else needs her in England.
It was all done, like she had said by the end of the week; and now Remus and Nissa were on their way back to England, she hadn't been back for fourteen years.
As soon as they arrived in London they received an owl from Albus Dumbledore telling Nissa where the Order was, she read the letter and then destroyed it afterwards.
Nissa stood there at the end of the street, now that she was here everything seemed different from being in a American; she didn't want to face everyone after she had let Sirius down by not coming back when he had asked her to in the first place.
"Am I doing the right thing by being here Remus?" Nissa asked him. "This is too late; I should have come when he asked me to too start with."
Remus stepped in front of her and said softly. "He never held it against you; you helped him when he needed it the most. And you're here now, so that's all that matters isn't it."
"But..." Nissa said still unsure.
"But nothing. Are you going to come in with me or not?" Remus asked her smiling slightly.
Just then Auther Weasley with Tonks at his side, they walked up behind her and smiled at Remus.
"Your back, that's great. Oh, and with a date as well." Tonks said brightly.
"Yes I'm back, but with a friend not a date." Remus told her. "She's come to help."
"Good we could use all the help we can get nowadays." Tonks said. "I'm Tonks, nice to meet you."
"And I'm Auther Weasley." Auther told her as they started to walk again, well she didn't really have much choice now that there were three of them.
"Nissa Tiania." Nissa told them.
They all went inside; Nissa came in last behind Remus and then followed them all down the hall and down the stair's that led into the kitchen.
"Remus is back." Tonks announced to everyone as she walked in, making everyone look up to welcome him back.
They all wanted to know why he had been to American none of them had really been told, only something about a friend he was hoping to find and bring back. Remus stepped aside as he came down to reveal Nissa to them all, she had known that their were going to be a few of them here; there were about half a dozen and most looked as though they were related.
Auther sat next to his wife Molly, while Tonks sat next to a young girl who was their daughter she also had red hair like the lads who sat around the table looking at her.
"I'm going to start going away with Lupin if he comes back with women like that." Fred said brightly to George his twin sat next to him, who nodded his agreement.
"This is Nissa; she's an old friend from school." Remus told them all, as they sat down facing one another.
But at this statement they all looked at Remus and then at Nissa and back to Remus, they couldn't believe that they were the same age; she looked so much younger.
"You were at school together? But she looks about ten years younger." George said a seat down from her, he led forward so that he could get a better look at her; and then added quickly. "No offence mate."
"None taken." Remus said smiling. 2Your right, I said so myself when I meet her again; you do look great."
"So how old are you then?" Ron asked.
"Ron! You can't ask her that." Molly told him sternly. "He's sorry."
"It's alright, I'm three years younger then Remus; I was two years below weren't I?" Nissa said.
"Yeah, because of your birthday being right at the end of the year." Remus said.
They were staring even more now that they kind of knew her age, they didn't know how old Remus was but they had an idea; and was surprised that she was only a couple of years younger.
"She's always looked great." Remus told them.
Fred and George wicked at him which he just smiled.
"Though Sirius was right wasn't he, I do cheat from time to time on that front." Nissa said the Remus.
A silence fell over the room as it always did at the mention of Sirius' name, and now with her mentioning it when none of them knew her; it was even stranger.
"So you and Sirius were friends, like you and Remus?" Tonks asked breaking then silence and wanting to know about her.
"Yes, we were just friends." Nissa answered making Remus looked at her, but she didn't look at him knowing what would happen if she did.
