Memories as the Sun Goes Down
Over the following weeks Nissa got to know everyone who were also staying at the house, and also what has really been going on since she left for America. And also with a bit of help from Remus she had planned for most of her lesson's, and found out quit a bit of information about the student's that she didn't normally; though it helps that other student's were helping with that.
Harry also arrived late one night with Remus, Tonks and Moody, in Nissa's third week; she had only seen him briefly but she could still see that he was still full of grief over Sirius' death, as was she.
Ron and Hermione had filled Harry in on what had been happening, with Lupin going to America and who he had brought back; though they didn't really know a lot about her. They told him that she was going to be their new teacher and that she had taught the subject for ten years. They also told him what Mundungus had told them he over heard though they weren't sure if this was true or not of course.
They rooted through old photo's trying to find some with her on them, until finally they came across a very old box full of photos and there she was; her and Sirius, Lupin and also his parents.
But still even with the photo's none of them would ask her what she had really been to Sirius, because he had never mentioned her before to any of them; and they couldn't see them together, well looking at the photo's they could but other then that they couldn't.
Every time that Nissa went out she saw it, she saw the dog; as though it had taken up following her. She wished that it wouldn't because it reminded her so much of Sirius that it hurt deep inside every time she saw it. She even over heard Harry talking with his friends about a dog that he had seen that looked just like him as well, though of course they didn't really think much about it; because after you've lots someone you often seen them everywhere around you even though you know that their gone.
Every night before Nissa went to bed, her mind started to wonder; as she walked about her room as she brushed her hair she swear that she had seen him looking back at her, but she knew that it wasn't really; though it hadn't stopped her from turning around to just double check.
She would just lay there in bed thinking about their time together in America as she would fall asleep......
Nissa left the school on most weekends, she had even left on the first on back to term; they hadn't really minded because she had already given up so much of her free time with the duelling clubs; and they knew that she also owned her own shops as well. So they let her go, even without asking why she wanted to go back home.
The first couple of visit's back neither of them had mentioned the night he had turned up on her door step and what she had said, but the week of her third visit he had ventured up to the school to see her; which she had been both annoyed and pleased to see him.
She had arrived back early Saturday morning, even before Sirius had woken up; she decided to make him breakfast for when he did get up. Sirius walked slowly into the kitchen yawning, and rubbing his naked chest not looking where he was going walking on the hem of his trousers.
"Morning, I hope that you slept well?" Nissa said brightly.
Sirius looked up following the sound of her voice, he was quit surprised to see her here so early he hadn't even heard her. He smiled brightly at her as he walked over to the breakfast bar to eat with her.
"Not so bad thanks." Sirius answered as he sat down.
They ate breakfast and caught each other up on everything, with Nissa telling him that he should be more careful about coming up to the school to see her.
"It was meant to be a surprise." Sirius told her.
"Believe me it was, I'm not really complaining it's just." Nissa told him. "I worry about you; I don't want you to get caught because of me."
"I'm not going to get caught." Sirius told her as he got up to go upstairs to get washed and dressed, while Nissa cleared up the breakfast things.
After she had finished she went upstairs to her bedroom, she stood over her bed folding clothes; as Sirius walked past her open door. He looked at her and then stopped and walked into her bedroom, he stopped right behind her turning her around to face him.
"What's wrong?" Nissa asked him.
"You asked me the night that I arrived here, why did I come back to you?" Sirius said. "I didn't tell you everything I wanted too, I came because I knew you had believed in me...but I also wanted to know that you still did...But also if you still felt the same way. When I saw you, you were just as beautiful as I remembered even more so. But when I held you in my arms I knew..."
Nissa just stood there waiting to hear what he knew, she knew that she couldn't speak to ask him; but wait for him.
"But then in the kitchen, and what you said." Sirius carried on. "I can't."
"You can't what?" Nissa found herself asking.
"I can't give you what you want like this." Sirius told her.
Nissa turned away from him and then walked away and around to the other side of the bed, she looked out of the window over the close before she turned back round to face him.
"Then that means that you could have never given me nothing; and all that was for nothing." Nissa said calmly somehow.
Sirius had wanted to finish what he was going to say to her, but it was as though the words had disappeared and he was left with nothing; he could think of nothing to make her feel better.
"It's just a shame that I've been such a blind fool all these years." Nissa said as she walked back round the bed. "I guess I was just like the rest of them, thinking that they were in love with you; but really it was just a stupid teenage crush, and I didn't know the difference. But that doesn't matter now, we're all grown up; and have moved on."
"Nissa..." Sirius started.
"I have to go." Nissa told him.
"What? But you just got here." Sirius said taken back, he didn't want her to go like this; they needed to talk.
"I need to do some shopping, and I might pop into the shop as well." Nissa told him as she walked out of the room. "I'll only be an hour or so."
Sirius just stood there watching her leave, he heard her quickly walking down the stairs, and out through the front door; he walked over to the window and watched her drive away.
"Damn It!" Sirius shouted as he punched the wall. "Why the hell did I have to go and open my big mouth, I should have just left it alone."
Sirius slowly walked down stairs and went through into the garage through the side door that looked like a corset. He sat down on the floor with the Hippogriff, and told him all about what had happened and him being a total idot.
Nissa went to work first surprising them all when she walked into the shop, because she never came into work while she was at school unless they had a problem; which really had only happened a couple of times out of all the years she had been working at the school.
They all wondered if there was something wrong with her being home and it took quit a bit of work to reassure them all that there was nothing at all wrong; that she was just home for the weekend having a bit of time to her self, and wanted to pick up some work while she was here.
She didn't really stay for that long, because of all the questioning she wasn't really in the mood; and then she went to the shops to get some more food in. But while she was going around picking up food for him, she wondered if he would stay after what just happened; she hoped he would she would hate to think that she would drive him away to living ruff again.
But he didn't go which she was glad about, but neither of them talked much for the rest of the weekend making it the worst so far.
The following weekend Nissa came home again and decided that she was going to put everything that had happened so far behind her; to make his stay a lot better while she visited, and for herself as well.
But also she had an idea she had been working on for quit a while now, and was looking for to trying it out; and it would be quit a treat for Sirius as well.
Sirius came down stairs early again half dressed to see of Nissa had arrived yet, he was surprised when he walked into the kitchen to see her stood there waiting for him smiling. He smiled back at her as he walked over to the breakfast bar to eat with her.
"I've got a surprise for you later." Nissa told him as he sat down next to her.
"Really? So long do I have to wait to find out what it is?" Sirius asked her smiling.
"Later tonight." Nissa answered
"I can't wait that long, can't I just have it now?" Sirius said, making her laugh.
"No, it's for tonight." Nissa told him.
The atmosphere was a lot better that afternoon, then the whole time he had stayed so far. Sirius question and teased her about what the surprise could be all day, he just loved surprises and was acting like a big kid and himself.
Nissa some how managed to get him to dress up quit smartly considering that he only thought they were staying in for tea again, because of course he couldn't go out anywhere. Sirius was stood in the kitchen dressed in a brand new suit, waiting for Nissa to come down; and wondering why he was dressed up and why she hadn't cooked anything at all.
Nissa walked into the kitchen making him stare at her, it had been along time since he had seen her look so beautiful; not that she didn't all the time. But tonight was different her hair was tied back making it look longer then it was, and she was wearing a short strappy lilac and silver dress.
Nissa smiled at him as she walked over and pulled her wand out of no where.
"Now that's the Sirius I remember, but you could still do with a couple of good meals down you." Nissa told him.
Sirius smiled at her. "And you, you look...beautiful, wonderful."
"Well considering that we're all dressed up we might as well go out for dinner." Nissa told him pleasantly. "I've been working on this spell and potion, if anyone sees you who recognises you; they won't think anything of it. It's a bit like the charms we put on our builds so muggles don't know we there, you know what I mean."
Sirius smiled at her a little unsure, but he was also excited an the idea that he would be finally going out and not have to hide; well kind of not hide.
"Please Sirius." Nissa said.
Sirius smiled at her. "Of course, when do we leave?"
"Drink this." Nissa told him, as she handed him a glass, and performed the spell over him. "It only lasts for a couple of hours at the moment, about three. It's long enough for tonight; we'll have a great time."
Sirius smiled as she explained, and then they both went out; Nissa drove them to the restaurant. Afterward they went for a walk Nissa linking his arm, like it used to be when they been together; before everything was torn away from them all.
When they came back they sat in the living room, Nissa got out a couple of bottles of wine which Sirius insisted on opening saying that considering he was the guy and everything it was his place to do so; Nissa just let him she wasn't going to ague because they had had a brilliant night. They talked for hours until Nissa finally decided to go to bed.
They both went upstairs together, feeling happier then either of them have had in years. Nissa pushed open her bedroom door, and then turned back round to him.
"Goodnight." Nissa said smiling softly. "I have a wonderful time tonight."
Sirius smiled at her as he stepped a little closer. "So did I, thank you." He turn round and started to walk to his own room, but he didn't get very far before he turned back round and went back to her; he grabbed hold of her hand turning her back round and into his arms and kissed her passionately.
Nissa stumbled backwards slightly taken back by the kiss, as she hit the doorframe he stopped kissing her and just looked at her a deep longing in his eyes.
She smiled softly as she touched his face and then led forward and kissed him, Sirius pulled her close into him as his fold the top of her zip and pulled the fastener down. They moved farer into the room as Nissa unfasten Sirius' shirt. Nissa's legs hit the bed he was still pushing her forward, she back onto the bed pulling him down on top of her.
She smiled at him as she moved farer onto the bed with his still on top of her, pulling back his shirt and pulling her dress over her head and throwing it to the ground; she unfastened his trousers but here he stopped her and took her hands in his. He kissed her and then let go of her and he pushed them down and kicked them off from around his feet.
They longingly made love to one another, until they had no strength left and fell asleep in one another's arms....
Over the following weeks Nissa got to know everyone who were also staying at the house, and also what has really been going on since she left for America. And also with a bit of help from Remus she had planned for most of her lesson's, and found out quit a bit of information about the student's that she didn't normally; though it helps that other student's were helping with that.
Harry also arrived late one night with Remus, Tonks and Moody, in Nissa's third week; she had only seen him briefly but she could still see that he was still full of grief over Sirius' death, as was she.
Ron and Hermione had filled Harry in on what had been happening, with Lupin going to America and who he had brought back; though they didn't really know a lot about her. They told him that she was going to be their new teacher and that she had taught the subject for ten years. They also told him what Mundungus had told them he over heard though they weren't sure if this was true or not of course.
They rooted through old photo's trying to find some with her on them, until finally they came across a very old box full of photos and there she was; her and Sirius, Lupin and also his parents.
But still even with the photo's none of them would ask her what she had really been to Sirius, because he had never mentioned her before to any of them; and they couldn't see them together, well looking at the photo's they could but other then that they couldn't.
Every time that Nissa went out she saw it, she saw the dog; as though it had taken up following her. She wished that it wouldn't because it reminded her so much of Sirius that it hurt deep inside every time she saw it. She even over heard Harry talking with his friends about a dog that he had seen that looked just like him as well, though of course they didn't really think much about it; because after you've lots someone you often seen them everywhere around you even though you know that their gone.
Every night before Nissa went to bed, her mind started to wonder; as she walked about her room as she brushed her hair she swear that she had seen him looking back at her, but she knew that it wasn't really; though it hadn't stopped her from turning around to just double check.
She would just lay there in bed thinking about their time together in America as she would fall asleep......
Nissa left the school on most weekends, she had even left on the first on back to term; they hadn't really minded because she had already given up so much of her free time with the duelling clubs; and they knew that she also owned her own shops as well. So they let her go, even without asking why she wanted to go back home.
The first couple of visit's back neither of them had mentioned the night he had turned up on her door step and what she had said, but the week of her third visit he had ventured up to the school to see her; which she had been both annoyed and pleased to see him.
She had arrived back early Saturday morning, even before Sirius had woken up; she decided to make him breakfast for when he did get up. Sirius walked slowly into the kitchen yawning, and rubbing his naked chest not looking where he was going walking on the hem of his trousers.
"Morning, I hope that you slept well?" Nissa said brightly.
Sirius looked up following the sound of her voice, he was quit surprised to see her here so early he hadn't even heard her. He smiled brightly at her as he walked over to the breakfast bar to eat with her.
"Not so bad thanks." Sirius answered as he sat down.
They ate breakfast and caught each other up on everything, with Nissa telling him that he should be more careful about coming up to the school to see her.
"It was meant to be a surprise." Sirius told her.
"Believe me it was, I'm not really complaining it's just." Nissa told him. "I worry about you; I don't want you to get caught because of me."
"I'm not going to get caught." Sirius told her as he got up to go upstairs to get washed and dressed, while Nissa cleared up the breakfast things.
After she had finished she went upstairs to her bedroom, she stood over her bed folding clothes; as Sirius walked past her open door. He looked at her and then stopped and walked into her bedroom, he stopped right behind her turning her around to face him.
"What's wrong?" Nissa asked him.
"You asked me the night that I arrived here, why did I come back to you?" Sirius said. "I didn't tell you everything I wanted too, I came because I knew you had believed in me...but I also wanted to know that you still did...But also if you still felt the same way. When I saw you, you were just as beautiful as I remembered even more so. But when I held you in my arms I knew..."
Nissa just stood there waiting to hear what he knew, she knew that she couldn't speak to ask him; but wait for him.
"But then in the kitchen, and what you said." Sirius carried on. "I can't."
"You can't what?" Nissa found herself asking.
"I can't give you what you want like this." Sirius told her.
Nissa turned away from him and then walked away and around to the other side of the bed, she looked out of the window over the close before she turned back round to face him.
"Then that means that you could have never given me nothing; and all that was for nothing." Nissa said calmly somehow.
Sirius had wanted to finish what he was going to say to her, but it was as though the words had disappeared and he was left with nothing; he could think of nothing to make her feel better.
"It's just a shame that I've been such a blind fool all these years." Nissa said as she walked back round the bed. "I guess I was just like the rest of them, thinking that they were in love with you; but really it was just a stupid teenage crush, and I didn't know the difference. But that doesn't matter now, we're all grown up; and have moved on."
"Nissa..." Sirius started.
"I have to go." Nissa told him.
"What? But you just got here." Sirius said taken back, he didn't want her to go like this; they needed to talk.
"I need to do some shopping, and I might pop into the shop as well." Nissa told him as she walked out of the room. "I'll only be an hour or so."
Sirius just stood there watching her leave, he heard her quickly walking down the stairs, and out through the front door; he walked over to the window and watched her drive away.
"Damn It!" Sirius shouted as he punched the wall. "Why the hell did I have to go and open my big mouth, I should have just left it alone."
Sirius slowly walked down stairs and went through into the garage through the side door that looked like a corset. He sat down on the floor with the Hippogriff, and told him all about what had happened and him being a total idot.
Nissa went to work first surprising them all when she walked into the shop, because she never came into work while she was at school unless they had a problem; which really had only happened a couple of times out of all the years she had been working at the school.
They all wondered if there was something wrong with her being home and it took quit a bit of work to reassure them all that there was nothing at all wrong; that she was just home for the weekend having a bit of time to her self, and wanted to pick up some work while she was here.
She didn't really stay for that long, because of all the questioning she wasn't really in the mood; and then she went to the shops to get some more food in. But while she was going around picking up food for him, she wondered if he would stay after what just happened; she hoped he would she would hate to think that she would drive him away to living ruff again.
But he didn't go which she was glad about, but neither of them talked much for the rest of the weekend making it the worst so far.
The following weekend Nissa came home again and decided that she was going to put everything that had happened so far behind her; to make his stay a lot better while she visited, and for herself as well.
But also she had an idea she had been working on for quit a while now, and was looking for to trying it out; and it would be quit a treat for Sirius as well.
Sirius came down stairs early again half dressed to see of Nissa had arrived yet, he was surprised when he walked into the kitchen to see her stood there waiting for him smiling. He smiled back at her as he walked over to the breakfast bar to eat with her.
"I've got a surprise for you later." Nissa told him as he sat down next to her.
"Really? So long do I have to wait to find out what it is?" Sirius asked her smiling.
"Later tonight." Nissa answered
"I can't wait that long, can't I just have it now?" Sirius said, making her laugh.
"No, it's for tonight." Nissa told him.
The atmosphere was a lot better that afternoon, then the whole time he had stayed so far. Sirius question and teased her about what the surprise could be all day, he just loved surprises and was acting like a big kid and himself.
Nissa some how managed to get him to dress up quit smartly considering that he only thought they were staying in for tea again, because of course he couldn't go out anywhere. Sirius was stood in the kitchen dressed in a brand new suit, waiting for Nissa to come down; and wondering why he was dressed up and why she hadn't cooked anything at all.
Nissa walked into the kitchen making him stare at her, it had been along time since he had seen her look so beautiful; not that she didn't all the time. But tonight was different her hair was tied back making it look longer then it was, and she was wearing a short strappy lilac and silver dress.
Nissa smiled at him as she walked over and pulled her wand out of no where.
"Now that's the Sirius I remember, but you could still do with a couple of good meals down you." Nissa told him.
Sirius smiled at her. "And you, you look...beautiful, wonderful."
"Well considering that we're all dressed up we might as well go out for dinner." Nissa told him pleasantly. "I've been working on this spell and potion, if anyone sees you who recognises you; they won't think anything of it. It's a bit like the charms we put on our builds so muggles don't know we there, you know what I mean."
Sirius smiled at her a little unsure, but he was also excited an the idea that he would be finally going out and not have to hide; well kind of not hide.
"Please Sirius." Nissa said.
Sirius smiled at her. "Of course, when do we leave?"
"Drink this." Nissa told him, as she handed him a glass, and performed the spell over him. "It only lasts for a couple of hours at the moment, about three. It's long enough for tonight; we'll have a great time."
Sirius smiled as she explained, and then they both went out; Nissa drove them to the restaurant. Afterward they went for a walk Nissa linking his arm, like it used to be when they been together; before everything was torn away from them all.
When they came back they sat in the living room, Nissa got out a couple of bottles of wine which Sirius insisted on opening saying that considering he was the guy and everything it was his place to do so; Nissa just let him she wasn't going to ague because they had had a brilliant night. They talked for hours until Nissa finally decided to go to bed.
They both went upstairs together, feeling happier then either of them have had in years. Nissa pushed open her bedroom door, and then turned back round to him.
"Goodnight." Nissa said smiling softly. "I have a wonderful time tonight."
Sirius smiled at her as he stepped a little closer. "So did I, thank you." He turn round and started to walk to his own room, but he didn't get very far before he turned back round and went back to her; he grabbed hold of her hand turning her back round and into his arms and kissed her passionately.
Nissa stumbled backwards slightly taken back by the kiss, as she hit the doorframe he stopped kissing her and just looked at her a deep longing in his eyes.
She smiled softly as she touched his face and then led forward and kissed him, Sirius pulled her close into him as his fold the top of her zip and pulled the fastener down. They moved farer into the room as Nissa unfasten Sirius' shirt. Nissa's legs hit the bed he was still pushing her forward, she back onto the bed pulling him down on top of her.
She smiled at him as she moved farer onto the bed with his still on top of her, pulling back his shirt and pulling her dress over her head and throwing it to the ground; she unfastened his trousers but here he stopped her and took her hands in his. He kissed her and then let go of her and he pushed them down and kicked them off from around his feet.
They longingly made love to one another, until they had no strength left and fell asleep in one another's arms....
