DISCLAIMER: been a long time. But this hasn't changed. I still don't own.  I don't own the song either.

A/N: HEYA!! Long time no write, eh? I have sooooooo much school work and stuff so please don't be angry with me… I apologize. Really. I'm very sorry. I don't have much time for anything anymore. This is a guilty pleasure I let myself indulge in once in a while. So trust me, as much as I want to, I can't update as soon as I should.

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'Let's face it,' he thought, 'I'm a reject.'

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As Kai aimlessly wandered the streets he sighed to himself, "What's going on with him? I can't figure out why Rei is like this now? Maybe it would be better if I just left him alone, all I want is for him to be happy." Shaking his head, he continued on his lost way.

Back in the hospital, Rei was contemplating over his life so far. He realized that his whole life had been a lie. When he was younger and his parents had died, he had been adopted. His whole life Rei had thought of those people as his family, but he was deluding himself as always. It was now that Rei Kon recognized that he was alone in this world, more now than ever. And it was now that he needed someone. That someone he had just pushed away. But what was the point if Kai would never love him again anyway? It wasn't worth it. Nothing was worth it anymore. Not since that day. Not since that time. Not since he was…. raped.

~ I died today

   But I'm still breathing

   Bleeding

   For now

   I'm broken ~

"Mr. Kon, you have a visitor." A nurse told the entranced teen. Without getting an answer she opened the door to let someone in. To Rei's dismay, it was the pink-haired bitch. Mariah.

"Hey Rei. How are you feeling?" She said quietly. 'Wow, she almost sounds as if she cares.' Thought the depressed boy.

"How do you think?" he spat at her. The nurse had already left the room so the air was left for all to bare.

"Rei, I just want to let you know that my offer still stands. And Rei-"

"STOP SAYING MY NAME LIKE THAT!" he exploded. "STOP SAYING IT LIKE YOU HAVE TO PITY ME!"

Tears welled in Mariah's eyes, "It's not pity, it's concern." She said slowly. But Rei would hear none of it.

"Please! You think and care about no one but yourself! You're a selfish brat!"

Mariah gasped. "You think I'M selfish. Tell me this Rei, in the past, let's say… week, have you thought of how anyone else feels about this whole ordeal?"

The male neko-jin narrowed his eyes. "Of course," he said in a matter-of-fact tone.

"Really?' asked Mariah, incredulously.

"Of course." He repeated.

Mariah scoffed. "I doubt that."  Rei just turned away, refusing to believe that Mariah was still there. Why wasn't it Kai? Why wasn't he here, apologizing? He should have been there… should have been claiming his undying love over and over until Rei couldn't ignore it. But no. He was not here and Mariah was.

~ You left me here

   Capsized and sinking

   Thinking

   Right now

   There's no more good guys ~

After a short while Mariah got fed up of standing there in defiant silence and left, finally leaving Rei in sole peace.

Mariah smirked as she noticed a lone figure wandering through the streets. "KAI!" she yelled. "WAIT UP!" Kai looked up at the sound and growled seeing whom it was. But no matter what he just couldn't get his legs to move. 

"You know, you really should have been there. I just visited Rei and we're now an item. He got sick of you. You're just… not good enough, I suppose."

Kai raised an eyebrow. "Shut up, Mariah. You're the worst liar ever."

She looked surprised. "How could you say that? I'm telling the truth. Really. After all, he does tell me everything."

Kai looked disbelieving. "Oh yeah? Like what?"

"Like how he was raped the other day. Oops. Did I just say that to you? My bad." She faked innocence. As his eyes grew wide, Kai was debating within himself whether to believe this lying spore or not. Finally, he realized that the only way he'd get some answers was to go to Rei himself. Breathing heavily, heart beating rapidly and thoughts flying at top speed he made his way back to the hospital.

Sitting numbly in the overly white room, tears made their way down the face of the youth.

~ You left me standing here

   Alone and cold

   I hope that someday soon

   These scars will… stop ~

After a while Rei heard some yelling out in the hall but ignored it. He then noticed it was coming closer and suddenly the door burst open and someone was sprawled on the floor. Doctors and nurses immediately followed, groping for the person. And as they clumsily stood up Rei knew whom it was. Kai.

"Is it true?" he asked.

Rei fell deaf to the question. "What are you doing here?" Kai just shook his head.

"Answer my question. Is it true? And don't try to lie, I know that you know what I'm talking about."

Rei sniffled. He did know what Kai was talking about. There was no going back now. This was the end for them. His tears came even harder now. This, being the only answer he needed, slowly and carefully Kai made his way over to the sobbing boy. "It'll be okay, Rei." He slowly moved his hand out to touch Rei's arm. He flinched away. Sighing, Kai asked, "So why didn't you tell me?" Rei looked through tear filled orbs.

"I'm unattractive now. I'm worthless. You don't want me."

"How could you think that, Koneko? I love you. I only wish you had told me sooner so I could have helped you get through this. I'd never leave you, I swear. I promise!"

Rei shook his head, "Don't make promises you can't keep."

"I won't." Kai answered lightly. "I promise…"

~ You died today

    But you're still breathing

    In my mind

    That is

     There's no more good guys ~

Rei half smiled, "I wish… I wish that I had it in me to believe you. I wish that none of this had ever happened. I wish… that… that…" he sighed. "I wish that we could go back to the way things were before, and just live happily ever after. Who knows, maybe this is just another hint. Maybe Kai, just maybe… we're not meant to be together. Just look at all the things we've had to fight through. And it makes me wonder, is it all worth it?"

~ There's no more good guys ~

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well there we go. Once again, sorry it took so long to get out. Please review. I would REALLY appreciate that. I hope to talk to you all next chapter! Hope you enjoyed this one! BYEBYE!! xxx

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