Running Away
Nissa woke up suddenly from the dream, and opened her eyes; sat on top of her looking straight at her was another set of huge brown eyes, set in black fur. She screamed at the top of her voice, as she managed to throw the covers back and scramble out of bed and over to the door.
A moment later she heard half a dozen feet or so running towards her bedroom, as she tried to calm herself down; as the dog just sat there staring at her. She was sure that it looked amused; she shock her head knowing that just sounded stupid.
The door burst open, Remus ran in with his wand in his hand half dressed; closely followed by Bill and Moody. They all looked at the dog on the bed and then at Nissa who was stood against the wall, who was now trying not to laugh at what she had just done.
"What happened?" Moody asked her as he walked over to the bed.
Bill though was still staring at Nissa, as was his brothers and Harry who had now joined them; while Remus tried his hardest to look the other way. She had her down lose, and was wearing a silk blue low cut thin strapped slip; which was quit short, it didn't really leave much to the imagination.
"Sorry." Nissa said. "I just woke up and there it was, looking at me. But Remus, that's it that's the dog that's been following me; you can't say that it doesn't look like Sirius. How do you explain that, and it getting into the house and into my bedroom?"
"I told you I wasn't seeing things." Harry told Ron.
"Well, erm...erm..." Bill said.
"Well yes, a bit of a mystery." Moody said walking back over to them. "But I don't think there's anything really to worry about; you've just got yourself a new pet."
"He's not staying here." Nissa told Remus.
Remus though, who was normally so cool and collative was just stood there trying to say something but nothing came out; because he was still studded by her appearance. He had never seen her like that, and had never really imaged her like that; well he knew she was beautiful but, it was never like that with him.
Everyone was up now, a little earlier then normal; but they were they up. They all got dressed and went down to the kitchen, Harry took the dog with him; and named him 'Sirius' which he was very pleased about this. Hermione helped Nissa with a few of her books, while the rest went to get their breakfasts.
"Did you see her?" Fred said grinning.
"She was hot." George said. "I'm glad that I'm not in school anymore, but I won't get to see her."
"I know shame." Fred agreed.
"Who are you talking about?" Mundungus asked, he had somehow managed to sleep through the whole thing; so he had no idea who they were talking about and had no idea where the dog had come from either.
"Oh she was." Bill said dreamily.
"Now boys." Molly said sternly.
"I never really realised what Sirius saw in her, but it's quit obvious really; I'm just surprised that I never realised before now." Remus said, not realising fully what he was saying to everyone; that that was what they have been waiting for, to find out that Sirius and Nissa were more then just friends.
"She was a goddess." Bill told them.
"Now personally I think you're all going over the top." Tonks said.
"So Nissa and Sirius were together then?" Harry asked Lupin while he was distracted.
"I told you so." Mundungus told them, though no one was listening to him.
"I bet that's why he kept her secret so that no one else would have a look in with her." Fred said.
"Were they still together when he stayed with her, and when he was killed?" Harry asked him.
Remus looked at them all realising what he had just said; he had just betrayed Nissa's trust she had asked him not to say anything and with just one look at her he had lost all self control.
"Well?" Harry prompted.
"They were together when Sirius was sent to Azkaban, yes." Remus said slowly. "It had been over thirteen years; he needed somewhere to stay out of the way."
"You still haven't answered my question." Harry said, just as Nissa stepped off the bottom step into the kitchen; everyone turned round to look at her.
Harry suddenly stood up. "You said that you were only friends, but you weren't!"
Nissa looked at Harry a little taken back by his statement and then looked at Remus.
"Sorry it kind of slipped out." Remus told her,
"You both lied." Harry shouted at them. "What were you a shamed of him?"
"No of course not, never." Nissa said, as she walked over to the table.
"Then why weren't you here when he died?" Harry demanded of her.
It was the question she had been beating herself up about ever since Remus had told her that he had been killed, and Remus knew it.
"Harry I think that's enough." Remus told him.
"No, no it isn't; is she cared at all about him then why weren't she here?" Harry demanded. "And why did you lie about him?"
Nissa just stood there with all their eyes upon her, waiting for her answer.
"Yes I should have been here, but I wasn't." Nissa said finally. "He asked me to come over more then once, but I always made up some excuse about not being able to come; when I knew that I should have. I now, yes I know it's kind of late..."
She couldn't tell them the reason why she never came over, when she could never tell Sirius himself; but now she was never going to get the chance to tell him. It hurt her so much being confronted like this, because she had never told him; and she had never come over when he had asked her. She looked at Harry, and then at Remus; she then turned and left the room closely followed by Sirius. She left the house with him, he wouldn't leave her side.
...It was Saturday night and Sirius had been staying at her house for nearly three months, they walked into the living room after dinner. Sirius sat down on the sofa and put his feet up; Nissa sat down next to him and curled up in his arms.
After sitting together for about five minutes listening to music, Sirius sat up and put his glass down on the floor; and then looked at her very seriously.
"I've been thinking about this for a while now." Sirius told her. "I've stayed here far too long."
"What are you talking about; you can stay as long as you want too." Nissa told him, not liking the sound of where this was going.
"You know that this was only a stop over." Sirius told her, he could see the hurt in her eyes even though she tried to hide it. "I can't give you what you want from me, at the moment."
"All I what is you." Nissa told him.
"And I can't even give you that, we can't really be together." Sirius told her. "When it's all over yes; but not like this."
Sirius got to his feet and started for the door, but Nissa had got up and stopped him.
"You're going now?" Nissa said. "You can't not right away, not again."
"Again." Sirius said realising what she meant.
"I know that it wasn't your fault, it's just..." Nissa started but she couldn't finish and turned away from him.
Sirius wanted to say something, but he had already said everything he needed too; even though he could sense that she was keeping something from him. But he still had too go; he turned her around and kissed her one last time; before he left her again.
It was Christmas and Nissa hadn't seen Sirius since he had walked out on her; she had received a few owls from him but of course it wasn't the same, but better then last time when she had no contact at all from him.
It was the day before Christmas Eve; she was walking down the corridor with Anna a fellow teacher and friend.
"I am surprised that you didn't go home." Anna said.
"I didn't need too." Nissa told her, and then made up her mind. "Can I tell you something?"
"Yeah course you can." Anna said.
"I'm pregent." Nissa told her.
Anna looked at her and then stopped her. "So that's why you kept leaving for a guy, it was about time. But why aren't you with him now?"
"He left." Nissa answered.
"Does he know?" Anna asked surprised by hearing this.
"No, he doesn't." Nissa answered.
January came and Nissa still hadn't told Sirius that he was going to be a father; though considering that she had had some trouble over Christmas and still wasn't completely over it.
She walked in-between the desk in her class room, listening the student's talk while they did their assignments. Zack turned round to talk to his friends behind him, Nissa stopped at the side of his desk; she didn't mind them talking as long as they also got on with their work.
"Zack, I'm sure what..." Nissa said, but was cut off when he turned round suddenly and elbowed her in the stomach quit hard by accident; she stumbled back slightly holding her stomach.
"Sorry Professor, are you alright?" Zack asked quit concerned.
"Yes, I'm fine." Nissa answered, but she wasn't so sure considering what happened over Christmas; but she still stayed until the end of class. But as soon as it was over she went straight to the bathroom, one of her students told Anna as they were passing her and she almost ran down the corridor.
Anna took her up to the hospital wing, but she already knew; she lost the baby; again...
Nissa didn't stay at the house for the rest of the summer, she moved into her apartment at Hogwarts. All her things were sent over, as were her cats and owl; she also still had Sirius with her, she didn't have the heart to send him away she hoped so much that it was him somehow; knowing that it wouldn't come true.
She re-familiarized herself with the school and met most of the teacher's, though one ignored her because she had gotten the job he had wanted or so she had been told. Quit a few of the teacher though were a little unsure of her considering the history of the post, but those who knew her from when she was a student here herself thought that she would be alright for the post. But when they heard about her post in America and her ten years teaching there and being an ex-Auror they were all quit impressed except for one, the only teacher she hadn't meet yet; though she wasn't really in a hurry to met the head of Slytherin.
Dumbledore hadn't minded her bringing all her animals and her new one as well; he was just glad that she was here and he had someone who could teach the subject that he could trust.
But now that she was back in England and at the school, she had started having those dreams a lot more often; but what was even stranger is that when she had left for America she had stopped having them and now that she was back they have started up again.
Nissa ran out of her apartment after Sirius just as the student's were arriving, she hadn't even been down to the great hall yet because she hadn't been able to deal with him; he had been acting so odd all day and now he wanted to go run about the school, this was all she needed.
Sirius ran down the corridor barking as he went, echoing around the empty school which was filling below them. Nissa ran after him as fast as she could carrying the bottom of her layered dress so that she wouldn't trip over the hem of it.
After Hagrid had brought the first years up to the school, he went out to help Nissa with her new dog after he had heard him barking while he brought the students up.
They stopped in the middle of the grounds, Nissa held her wand out lit so that she could see; well not that far.
"Maybe you should use magic?" Hagrid suggested.
"No, I would never." Nissa told him. "Maybe you should go, and tell Dumbledore for me; tell him I'm sorry."
Hagrid smiled at her from underneath his beard, and then went back inside; he just reached the doors to the great hall as Dumbledore was talking.
"We have a new Defence against the Dark Arts teacher this year, a Professor Tiania." Dumbledore announced, and at his words whispers started around the great hall; and even Professor Snape seemed interested with the name. "But she is unable to be with us tonight, though will be teaching as normal in the morning."
"I'm surprised that she hasn't run back to America." Harry said loud enough for most around him to hear, they all started to talk wondering how he knew who the new teacher was already considering that none of them had met her yet.
Hagrid went straight up to Dumbledore and told him what had happened and where Nissa was, Dumbledore was just pleased that she was alright; which he had known she was but it is always nice to hear.
Nissa looked into the darkness but she still couldn't see him anywhere, she sack to the ground.
"I give up!" Nissa shouted into the darkness.
A moment later, he walked up behind her and lay down beside her resting his head on her lap. She smiled slightly to herself as she looked down at him.
They sat together for a while, before they finally went back inside him now being a lot calmer; she wasn't really in the mood for eating now so she just went back to her apartment.
Nissa woke up suddenly from the dream, and opened her eyes; sat on top of her looking straight at her was another set of huge brown eyes, set in black fur. She screamed at the top of her voice, as she managed to throw the covers back and scramble out of bed and over to the door.
A moment later she heard half a dozen feet or so running towards her bedroom, as she tried to calm herself down; as the dog just sat there staring at her. She was sure that it looked amused; she shock her head knowing that just sounded stupid.
The door burst open, Remus ran in with his wand in his hand half dressed; closely followed by Bill and Moody. They all looked at the dog on the bed and then at Nissa who was stood against the wall, who was now trying not to laugh at what she had just done.
"What happened?" Moody asked her as he walked over to the bed.
Bill though was still staring at Nissa, as was his brothers and Harry who had now joined them; while Remus tried his hardest to look the other way. She had her down lose, and was wearing a silk blue low cut thin strapped slip; which was quit short, it didn't really leave much to the imagination.
"Sorry." Nissa said. "I just woke up and there it was, looking at me. But Remus, that's it that's the dog that's been following me; you can't say that it doesn't look like Sirius. How do you explain that, and it getting into the house and into my bedroom?"
"I told you I wasn't seeing things." Harry told Ron.
"Well, erm...erm..." Bill said.
"Well yes, a bit of a mystery." Moody said walking back over to them. "But I don't think there's anything really to worry about; you've just got yourself a new pet."
"He's not staying here." Nissa told Remus.
Remus though, who was normally so cool and collative was just stood there trying to say something but nothing came out; because he was still studded by her appearance. He had never seen her like that, and had never really imaged her like that; well he knew she was beautiful but, it was never like that with him.
Everyone was up now, a little earlier then normal; but they were they up. They all got dressed and went down to the kitchen, Harry took the dog with him; and named him 'Sirius' which he was very pleased about this. Hermione helped Nissa with a few of her books, while the rest went to get their breakfasts.
"Did you see her?" Fred said grinning.
"She was hot." George said. "I'm glad that I'm not in school anymore, but I won't get to see her."
"I know shame." Fred agreed.
"Who are you talking about?" Mundungus asked, he had somehow managed to sleep through the whole thing; so he had no idea who they were talking about and had no idea where the dog had come from either.
"Oh she was." Bill said dreamily.
"Now boys." Molly said sternly.
"I never really realised what Sirius saw in her, but it's quit obvious really; I'm just surprised that I never realised before now." Remus said, not realising fully what he was saying to everyone; that that was what they have been waiting for, to find out that Sirius and Nissa were more then just friends.
"She was a goddess." Bill told them.
"Now personally I think you're all going over the top." Tonks said.
"So Nissa and Sirius were together then?" Harry asked Lupin while he was distracted.
"I told you so." Mundungus told them, though no one was listening to him.
"I bet that's why he kept her secret so that no one else would have a look in with her." Fred said.
"Were they still together when he stayed with her, and when he was killed?" Harry asked him.
Remus looked at them all realising what he had just said; he had just betrayed Nissa's trust she had asked him not to say anything and with just one look at her he had lost all self control.
"Well?" Harry prompted.
"They were together when Sirius was sent to Azkaban, yes." Remus said slowly. "It had been over thirteen years; he needed somewhere to stay out of the way."
"You still haven't answered my question." Harry said, just as Nissa stepped off the bottom step into the kitchen; everyone turned round to look at her.
Harry suddenly stood up. "You said that you were only friends, but you weren't!"
Nissa looked at Harry a little taken back by his statement and then looked at Remus.
"Sorry it kind of slipped out." Remus told her,
"You both lied." Harry shouted at them. "What were you a shamed of him?"
"No of course not, never." Nissa said, as she walked over to the table.
"Then why weren't you here when he died?" Harry demanded of her.
It was the question she had been beating herself up about ever since Remus had told her that he had been killed, and Remus knew it.
"Harry I think that's enough." Remus told him.
"No, no it isn't; is she cared at all about him then why weren't she here?" Harry demanded. "And why did you lie about him?"
Nissa just stood there with all their eyes upon her, waiting for her answer.
"Yes I should have been here, but I wasn't." Nissa said finally. "He asked me to come over more then once, but I always made up some excuse about not being able to come; when I knew that I should have. I now, yes I know it's kind of late..."
She couldn't tell them the reason why she never came over, when she could never tell Sirius himself; but now she was never going to get the chance to tell him. It hurt her so much being confronted like this, because she had never told him; and she had never come over when he had asked her. She looked at Harry, and then at Remus; she then turned and left the room closely followed by Sirius. She left the house with him, he wouldn't leave her side.
...It was Saturday night and Sirius had been staying at her house for nearly three months, they walked into the living room after dinner. Sirius sat down on the sofa and put his feet up; Nissa sat down next to him and curled up in his arms.
After sitting together for about five minutes listening to music, Sirius sat up and put his glass down on the floor; and then looked at her very seriously.
"I've been thinking about this for a while now." Sirius told her. "I've stayed here far too long."
"What are you talking about; you can stay as long as you want too." Nissa told him, not liking the sound of where this was going.
"You know that this was only a stop over." Sirius told her, he could see the hurt in her eyes even though she tried to hide it. "I can't give you what you want from me, at the moment."
"All I what is you." Nissa told him.
"And I can't even give you that, we can't really be together." Sirius told her. "When it's all over yes; but not like this."
Sirius got to his feet and started for the door, but Nissa had got up and stopped him.
"You're going now?" Nissa said. "You can't not right away, not again."
"Again." Sirius said realising what she meant.
"I know that it wasn't your fault, it's just..." Nissa started but she couldn't finish and turned away from him.
Sirius wanted to say something, but he had already said everything he needed too; even though he could sense that she was keeping something from him. But he still had too go; he turned her around and kissed her one last time; before he left her again.
It was Christmas and Nissa hadn't seen Sirius since he had walked out on her; she had received a few owls from him but of course it wasn't the same, but better then last time when she had no contact at all from him.
It was the day before Christmas Eve; she was walking down the corridor with Anna a fellow teacher and friend.
"I am surprised that you didn't go home." Anna said.
"I didn't need too." Nissa told her, and then made up her mind. "Can I tell you something?"
"Yeah course you can." Anna said.
"I'm pregent." Nissa told her.
Anna looked at her and then stopped her. "So that's why you kept leaving for a guy, it was about time. But why aren't you with him now?"
"He left." Nissa answered.
"Does he know?" Anna asked surprised by hearing this.
"No, he doesn't." Nissa answered.
January came and Nissa still hadn't told Sirius that he was going to be a father; though considering that she had had some trouble over Christmas and still wasn't completely over it.
She walked in-between the desk in her class room, listening the student's talk while they did their assignments. Zack turned round to talk to his friends behind him, Nissa stopped at the side of his desk; she didn't mind them talking as long as they also got on with their work.
"Zack, I'm sure what..." Nissa said, but was cut off when he turned round suddenly and elbowed her in the stomach quit hard by accident; she stumbled back slightly holding her stomach.
"Sorry Professor, are you alright?" Zack asked quit concerned.
"Yes, I'm fine." Nissa answered, but she wasn't so sure considering what happened over Christmas; but she still stayed until the end of class. But as soon as it was over she went straight to the bathroom, one of her students told Anna as they were passing her and she almost ran down the corridor.
Anna took her up to the hospital wing, but she already knew; she lost the baby; again...
Nissa didn't stay at the house for the rest of the summer, she moved into her apartment at Hogwarts. All her things were sent over, as were her cats and owl; she also still had Sirius with her, she didn't have the heart to send him away she hoped so much that it was him somehow; knowing that it wouldn't come true.
She re-familiarized herself with the school and met most of the teacher's, though one ignored her because she had gotten the job he had wanted or so she had been told. Quit a few of the teacher though were a little unsure of her considering the history of the post, but those who knew her from when she was a student here herself thought that she would be alright for the post. But when they heard about her post in America and her ten years teaching there and being an ex-Auror they were all quit impressed except for one, the only teacher she hadn't meet yet; though she wasn't really in a hurry to met the head of Slytherin.
Dumbledore hadn't minded her bringing all her animals and her new one as well; he was just glad that she was here and he had someone who could teach the subject that he could trust.
But now that she was back in England and at the school, she had started having those dreams a lot more often; but what was even stranger is that when she had left for America she had stopped having them and now that she was back they have started up again.
Nissa ran out of her apartment after Sirius just as the student's were arriving, she hadn't even been down to the great hall yet because she hadn't been able to deal with him; he had been acting so odd all day and now he wanted to go run about the school, this was all she needed.
Sirius ran down the corridor barking as he went, echoing around the empty school which was filling below them. Nissa ran after him as fast as she could carrying the bottom of her layered dress so that she wouldn't trip over the hem of it.
After Hagrid had brought the first years up to the school, he went out to help Nissa with her new dog after he had heard him barking while he brought the students up.
They stopped in the middle of the grounds, Nissa held her wand out lit so that she could see; well not that far.
"Maybe you should use magic?" Hagrid suggested.
"No, I would never." Nissa told him. "Maybe you should go, and tell Dumbledore for me; tell him I'm sorry."
Hagrid smiled at her from underneath his beard, and then went back inside; he just reached the doors to the great hall as Dumbledore was talking.
"We have a new Defence against the Dark Arts teacher this year, a Professor Tiania." Dumbledore announced, and at his words whispers started around the great hall; and even Professor Snape seemed interested with the name. "But she is unable to be with us tonight, though will be teaching as normal in the morning."
"I'm surprised that she hasn't run back to America." Harry said loud enough for most around him to hear, they all started to talk wondering how he knew who the new teacher was already considering that none of them had met her yet.
Hagrid went straight up to Dumbledore and told him what had happened and where Nissa was, Dumbledore was just pleased that she was alright; which he had known she was but it is always nice to hear.
Nissa looked into the darkness but she still couldn't see him anywhere, she sack to the ground.
"I give up!" Nissa shouted into the darkness.
A moment later, he walked up behind her and lay down beside her resting his head on her lap. She smiled slightly to herself as she looked down at him.
They sat together for a while, before they finally went back inside him now being a lot calmer; she wasn't really in the mood for eating now so she just went back to her apartment.
