(A/N: - I'd like to thank Lazy-Anji for all of her wonderful reviews I'm
really glad that you like the story so far. I'm trying to get as much of it
done before I have to go back to work; well that is in-between writing by
own books as well and sending them off to publishers.
Anyway, I hope that you and everyone who reads these stories will enjoy them as much as I enjoyed writing them. Now on with the story.)
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me
Have you forgotten all I know
And all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
(Words from the song 'Taking over me' by 'Evanescence' of the album 'Fallen'.)
The Return of Sirius Black, But at What Cost?
Nissa woke up the next morning feeling very unsure about her self in every way, he dream seemed to be lingering as were the feelings. She still felt so strongly for him just like she had done in her dreams; she shock the feeling away knowing that she was being stupid because it was only a dream it didn't mean anything, did it?
She got dressed and then went down to the Great Hall for breakfast and to make her announcement, after she had finished eating she stood up.
"Good morning everyone, I won't take up much of your time just a small announcement." Nissa told them, as they all stopped eating and taking and looked up at her. "At my old school we had duelling clubs, and I was hoping to start them here as well; if anyone is at all interested in joining them then you need to come and speak to me. I'll be taking name now until tomorrow evening, just to get an idea at how many of you would like to join. Though only come and speak to me about it, and break and after I've finished eating of course at meal times; oh and of course not all at once."
As she sat back down everyone started talking again, but about what she had just told them of course; Severus hadn't taken his eyes off her the whole time, and he was still staring at her now; she could feel him watching her and she wished that he wouldn't because he was making her feel very uncomfortable indeed.
She was iodated with students all day who was interested in the duelling club; they were finally going to get one, by a real teacher and a real ex- Auror as well. Nissa was quit glad of it all as well because it kept her mind off Severus and it also kept him away for the day.
She sat in her at her desk in her apartment going through all the names of everyone who had signed up for the club, most of the school had signed up; there were far to many to just have the one club she would have to have three like at her old school. She was sure she could find the time; she did there so it shouldn't be any different here.
Nissa sat up and looked down at Sirius sat beside of her desk, she smiled at him as she got up and walked over to her bed to get undressed for bed. Sirius just sat there staring at her, she pulled off her robe and turned round and saw him staring.
"Can you not look at me, look another way." Nissa told him, and then smiled to herself.
She walked over to the door to let him out while she changed; because she felt uncomfortable with him staring at her while she got changed; as though he was a real person who was watching her. She knew she was probably being stupid but she still didn't want him staring at her while she changed.
"Just while I change then you can come back in." Nissa told him.
He followed her over to the door, but he stepped in front of her blocking her path; she smiled slightly at him as she tried to get past. He started to walk towards her as Nissa stepped back (She wasn't as keen on dogs as she was on cats, she only had him because he reminded her of Sirius and he wanted to be with her as well.)
Nissa started to feel dizzy as she walked backwards, she back towards the bed without realising it; the back of her legs hit the bed as the dog seemed to grow larger. She fell back on the bed and moved away from it, as she turned away; she felt someone reach out and touch her hand.
She knew who that hand belonged too, as she slowly turned round to face him. And there knelt on the floor looking up at her, was Sirius; but not Sirius the dog but Sirius the man, the man she loved.
"It can't be you, it just can't be; you died." Nissa whispered to him.
She wanted to move, to move away from him; but she couldn't she just sat there transfixed. He reached out and touched her face, she closed her eyes remembering his touch; she opened her eyes slowly, as she did so he led forward and kissed her softly.
Nissa wanted to believe more then anything else in the world that this was real and this man was really Sirius, his every touch screamed out at her that it was really him. She pulled away and smiled at him, he smiled back. She just let everything go and give into him. She wrapped her arms around him as he got up off his knee's and picked her up, he laid her down on the bed and climbed on top of her.
Nissa woke up the next morning feeling very well rested from her nights sleep and other thing's, she smiled to herself as she remembered the night the before and turned over; the smile vanished straight away. He wasn't there; she just lay there for a moment before she sat up on the edge of the bed.
Sirius walked out of the connecting bathroom, and smiled when he saw her sat there awake. He carefully crawled across the bed and wrapped his arms around her and kissed her softly of the cheek.
"For a moment I though it had all been a dream that you weren't really back." Nissa told him.
Sirius turned her around to face him smiling softly at her; he kissed her again and then ran his fingers through her hair; which had changed colour her once red tints were now blue.
"I was like a dream." Sirius said. "Personally I think I was better then any dream, the real thing always is."
Nissa smiled at him.
"I don't know how but I'm back, and I'm not going anywhere." Sirius told her. "We can be together."
His words seemed to bring Nissa back to her senses, what was she doing; she pulled away from him and stood up walking across the room.
"No, no." Nissa said. "Even if you are back, like you said before we can't really be together can we; what do you think that they're going to suddenly drop the charges? I don't think so; we can't just live happily ever after."
"Well maybe not like a fairy." Sirius said swinging his legs over the side of the bed, and getting up walking over to her. "But I was hoping that we could live together, you, me and Harry; you know like a family."
"I can't not again." Nissa told him as she turned away.
Sirius looked at her, he didn't understand why she didn't understand what he was telling her; he was giving her everything they have both wanted, and she was throwing it back in his face. He could she that she was hurt, that he had hurt her in the past but he also knew that she still loved him; or she wouldn't be acting the way she was. Sirius stepped forward, he kissed her on the cheek and then he walked around with her turning away from him again and he left.
Nissa turning around at the sound of the door closing, he had walked out on her again; but this time it hurt even worst then the other's because she had been the one.
She got dressed as quickly as could putting on the first clothes she found, which were not that that looked as though they belonged to a witch; especially a witch that taught Defence against the Dart Arts.
She didn't really care about much as she walked as fast as she could without running down to the Great Hall so that she could talk to Dumbledore and McGonagall; but she also wanted to see Sirius again. She walked into the Great Hall quit a lot of heads turned as they saw her walking up between the tables, her hair was down just below her shoulders and wasn't her normal colour; the red tints had changed into a cold blue that made her look older then what she was.
But her hair wasn't the only thing which was making them all look her way, it was also how she was dressed. She had on a white pin strapped fitted suit, a short jacket with a plain white shirt underneath; and tight fitting trousers which flared out at the bottom making her look a lot taller then she was.
She walked straight up to the high table and then walked behind to where Dumbledore and McGonagall was sitting, passing Severus who were one of the many people who were staring at her.
"Professor I need to speak with you, now." Nissa told him.
Both Dumbledore and McGonagall stood up straight away to find out what was so important and also why she was dressed in such a way.
"Something's happened." Nissa told the quietly. "The dog, he's no longer a dog; something happened to it."
"The dog called Sirius?" McGonagall asked
"Yes, he is Sirius." Nissa told them both; she looked over at Harry and his friends before she turned back. "Somehow it happened, but I don't know how. But he changed into Sirius, Sirius black; he's back its really him and he's still here in the castle."
Dumbledore and McGonagall looked quit speechless as they looked at her, but they both believed what she had told them; they could tell by the look on her face that she believed it all to be true, and her heart was breaking. Dumbledore nodded and then he and McGonagall stepped around her to start looking for Sirius, they walked down the centre tables; at this point the whole hall was talking wondering what was going on.
Severus stood up and walked up to Nissa, he was just about to reach out for her when she turned around; she looked at him for a moment before she stepped around him. She walked quickly back round the table closely followed by him, and down past the Gryffindor table; he stopped her just as she got to Harry and his friends.
"I need to talk to you in private." Severus told her, as he turned her around to look at him and blocked her way.
"Not at the moment." Nissa told him as she tried to pull her arm free of his grip.
The large black dog ran into the hall barking, and growing in size; but when he reached them he was a fully grown man.
"Get your greasy hands off of her." Sirius demanded as he pulled Nissa behind of him.
Severus stepped back as though he had seen a ghost of someone he never thought he would see again, he pulled out his wand and pointed it at his heart; at this Sirius pulled out a wand and pointed it at him in return.
"How dare you touch her." Sirius shot at him.
"You...you should be dead." Severus said." How the hell can you be here?"
Nissa reached for her wand, but realised for the first time that day that she didn't have it on her; she looked over at Sirius and realised that the wand that he was holding was hers. She walked up to Sirius and took her wand back.
"I believe this is mine." Nissa told him as she replaced it, and turned him away from Severus and in Harry's direction. "Instead of duelling with Severus, why don't you talk with Harry; I'm sure he's got a million or so questions for you."
Sirius nodded, but as soon as he saw Harry stood there looking at him he forgot at once about Severus and walked over to him.
"Sirius, is it really you." Harry said numbly, Sirius nodded and he lunged himself at Sirius and hugged him tightly.
"Yes, it's me." Sirius told him, as he hugged him back. "I'm back, not sure how but it doesn't really matter; because I'm back and I'm not going anywhere."
Nissa left them to it, she walked around the very distracted Severus and left the hall; no one of course was paying much attention to what she was doing now. All she wanted to do was to get away, it was too much for her; the man she loved was alive and this Severus she didn't understand what was going on there. And of course she did not want to talk to him about it, well especially not at the moment with her mind and feelings all over the place.
Harry was over the moon that Sirius was back, they went up to Dumbledore's office to talk and to sort thing's out; but Harry couldn't stay because he had to go to his first lesson. But Sirius promised him that they would have plenty of time together.
Harry walked into his first lesson of the day smiling, the Gryffindor were all talking excitedly about what had happened; but of course the Slytherin's weren't at all pleased with the fact that he was still at the school and he didn't seem as though he would be leaving any time soon.
It was ten minutes into the lesson when the door opened and Sirius walked in smiling and walked up to the front of the class where Nissa was stood.
"I'm in the middle of a lesson." Nissa told him.
"Yes I know; but this, I couldn't wait." Sirius told her, as he took her hand in his and went down on one knee. "Now after all these years, I can finally give you what you want; that I couldn't until now. We're free to live; by the end of the week I'll be a free man. And I want to share the rest of my life with you, I want us to be together like we were always meant to be; will you marry me?"
Nissa smiled at him, she couldn't help but smiled; he was smiling back at her even more brightly thinking that she was going to say. Because this was it, this was what she had been waiting for; for them to be able to be together. But she couldn't.
"I would have given you the answer you excepted, even what I excepted to give; but I can't." Nissa told him. "I've lost you more then once, twice; I can't take it, my heart can't take it again. I can't, I'm sorry."
Sirius looked up into her eyes, he could see the pain in them that it was taking her to say no to him; he didn't understand because he knew that she still loved him, or he wouldn't be there now, he just didn't understand.
Nissa pulled her hand out of his slowly." I'm sorry Sirius, but please; I have a lesson can we talk about this later?"
Sirius just stayed where he was, but Nissa went to get on with her lesson; like anyone was at all interest in the lesson after what had just happened. Sirius looked at her and then quickly got to his feet, he reached out for her; but she pulled away from him.
"Nissa." Sirius said, she looked at him and then walked out of the classroom closely followed by him and most of the student's. "Nissa! I don't understand..."
Nissa turned around. "Sirius I..."
"I love you." Sirius told her in front of the filling corridor of student's and teacher'. "I know you feel the same way, I can see it; I know you too well."
"That's just it, you think that you know me; but you don't." Nissa told him. "You don't know..."
Nissa couldn't finish telling him, she turned away to walk off but he stopped her.
"I don't know what, tell me." Sirius said.
"I...I..." Nissa said as she slowly turned round, she decided in that moment that it was finally time to tell him. "Do you remember that I said that I needed to talk with you, the week Lily and James were killed?"
"Yes, but you know why I couldn't come round." Sirius answered.
"Yes, of course." Nissa said. "I was pregnant."
Sirius just stared at her, that had been the last thing he had been excepting to hear; and was now wondering if she was going to tell him that he was a father.
"But when I went to America." Nissa went on. "I lost the...I lost it. The doctor's said that there was nothing wrong, that these thing's happen. But then when you stayed with me...I...I ended up pregnant again."
"What, why the hell didn't you tell me?" Sirius demanded, more then asked.
"I couldn't." Nissa said. "I lost it; the doctor's said that I can't have children that they should have picked it up the first time round."
Sirius just stood there staring at her, as a tear ran down her cheek; he wanted to tell her that it was all alright that he still wanted her and to be with her, but nothing seemed to be coming out.
"That was why I didn't come over, I couldn't" Nissa told him. "I couldn't face you, I couldn't tell you; and I didn't want to tall you like this."
Sirius stepped forward but this time she didn't move away from him; but just then she saw Severus step out from behind some students. Her whole body suddenly went ice cold; she didn't know what was going on as everything went to black around her. Her hair changed to blue as did her lips, figure nails and her closing eyes. Sirius just caught her in his arms as he stepped forward and sank to the floor with her.
"Nissa?" Sirius said as he touched her ice cold face, panic setting in not knowing what was wrong with her. He scoped her up in his arms, and made his way through the crowded corridor up to the hospital.
Severus raced up to the hospital wing after them, closely followed by Harry and his friends. Severus wanted needed to know what was happened, but he also knew that Sirius wouldn't tell him willingly. But Severus loved her also, more then any of them could ever know; but here he wasn't aloud too because here she wasn't his but she was Sirius', and he hated him even more for it.
Sirius laid Nissa down softly on the third empty bed from the door, and shouted. "Madam Pomfery!"
She came running out of her office wondering what was going on, but as soon as she saw him she stopped dead; horrified by who was stood before her and stood at the bottom of one of her beds, then she realised who it was.
"Please! Do something, don't just stand; help her." Sirius told her. "She's ice cold and hardly breathing, she just went blue and cold and just collapsed; please do something."
Madam Pomfery looked into his pleading face, and knew at that moment that he was a good man; and ran over to Nissa's side to help her.
Anyway, I hope that you and everyone who reads these stories will enjoy them as much as I enjoyed writing them. Now on with the story.)
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me
Have you forgotten all I know
And all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
(Words from the song 'Taking over me' by 'Evanescence' of the album 'Fallen'.)
The Return of Sirius Black, But at What Cost?
Nissa woke up the next morning feeling very unsure about her self in every way, he dream seemed to be lingering as were the feelings. She still felt so strongly for him just like she had done in her dreams; she shock the feeling away knowing that she was being stupid because it was only a dream it didn't mean anything, did it?
She got dressed and then went down to the Great Hall for breakfast and to make her announcement, after she had finished eating she stood up.
"Good morning everyone, I won't take up much of your time just a small announcement." Nissa told them, as they all stopped eating and taking and looked up at her. "At my old school we had duelling clubs, and I was hoping to start them here as well; if anyone is at all interested in joining them then you need to come and speak to me. I'll be taking name now until tomorrow evening, just to get an idea at how many of you would like to join. Though only come and speak to me about it, and break and after I've finished eating of course at meal times; oh and of course not all at once."
As she sat back down everyone started talking again, but about what she had just told them of course; Severus hadn't taken his eyes off her the whole time, and he was still staring at her now; she could feel him watching her and she wished that he wouldn't because he was making her feel very uncomfortable indeed.
She was iodated with students all day who was interested in the duelling club; they were finally going to get one, by a real teacher and a real ex- Auror as well. Nissa was quit glad of it all as well because it kept her mind off Severus and it also kept him away for the day.
She sat in her at her desk in her apartment going through all the names of everyone who had signed up for the club, most of the school had signed up; there were far to many to just have the one club she would have to have three like at her old school. She was sure she could find the time; she did there so it shouldn't be any different here.
Nissa sat up and looked down at Sirius sat beside of her desk, she smiled at him as she got up and walked over to her bed to get undressed for bed. Sirius just sat there staring at her, she pulled off her robe and turned round and saw him staring.
"Can you not look at me, look another way." Nissa told him, and then smiled to herself.
She walked over to the door to let him out while she changed; because she felt uncomfortable with him staring at her while she got changed; as though he was a real person who was watching her. She knew she was probably being stupid but she still didn't want him staring at her while she changed.
"Just while I change then you can come back in." Nissa told him.
He followed her over to the door, but he stepped in front of her blocking her path; she smiled slightly at him as she tried to get past. He started to walk towards her as Nissa stepped back (She wasn't as keen on dogs as she was on cats, she only had him because he reminded her of Sirius and he wanted to be with her as well.)
Nissa started to feel dizzy as she walked backwards, she back towards the bed without realising it; the back of her legs hit the bed as the dog seemed to grow larger. She fell back on the bed and moved away from it, as she turned away; she felt someone reach out and touch her hand.
She knew who that hand belonged too, as she slowly turned round to face him. And there knelt on the floor looking up at her, was Sirius; but not Sirius the dog but Sirius the man, the man she loved.
"It can't be you, it just can't be; you died." Nissa whispered to him.
She wanted to move, to move away from him; but she couldn't she just sat there transfixed. He reached out and touched her face, she closed her eyes remembering his touch; she opened her eyes slowly, as she did so he led forward and kissed her softly.
Nissa wanted to believe more then anything else in the world that this was real and this man was really Sirius, his every touch screamed out at her that it was really him. She pulled away and smiled at him, he smiled back. She just let everything go and give into him. She wrapped her arms around him as he got up off his knee's and picked her up, he laid her down on the bed and climbed on top of her.
Nissa woke up the next morning feeling very well rested from her nights sleep and other thing's, she smiled to herself as she remembered the night the before and turned over; the smile vanished straight away. He wasn't there; she just lay there for a moment before she sat up on the edge of the bed.
Sirius walked out of the connecting bathroom, and smiled when he saw her sat there awake. He carefully crawled across the bed and wrapped his arms around her and kissed her softly of the cheek.
"For a moment I though it had all been a dream that you weren't really back." Nissa told him.
Sirius turned her around to face him smiling softly at her; he kissed her again and then ran his fingers through her hair; which had changed colour her once red tints were now blue.
"I was like a dream." Sirius said. "Personally I think I was better then any dream, the real thing always is."
Nissa smiled at him.
"I don't know how but I'm back, and I'm not going anywhere." Sirius told her. "We can be together."
His words seemed to bring Nissa back to her senses, what was she doing; she pulled away from him and stood up walking across the room.
"No, no." Nissa said. "Even if you are back, like you said before we can't really be together can we; what do you think that they're going to suddenly drop the charges? I don't think so; we can't just live happily ever after."
"Well maybe not like a fairy." Sirius said swinging his legs over the side of the bed, and getting up walking over to her. "But I was hoping that we could live together, you, me and Harry; you know like a family."
"I can't not again." Nissa told him as she turned away.
Sirius looked at her, he didn't understand why she didn't understand what he was telling her; he was giving her everything they have both wanted, and she was throwing it back in his face. He could she that she was hurt, that he had hurt her in the past but he also knew that she still loved him; or she wouldn't be acting the way she was. Sirius stepped forward, he kissed her on the cheek and then he walked around with her turning away from him again and he left.
Nissa turning around at the sound of the door closing, he had walked out on her again; but this time it hurt even worst then the other's because she had been the one.
She got dressed as quickly as could putting on the first clothes she found, which were not that that looked as though they belonged to a witch; especially a witch that taught Defence against the Dart Arts.
She didn't really care about much as she walked as fast as she could without running down to the Great Hall so that she could talk to Dumbledore and McGonagall; but she also wanted to see Sirius again. She walked into the Great Hall quit a lot of heads turned as they saw her walking up between the tables, her hair was down just below her shoulders and wasn't her normal colour; the red tints had changed into a cold blue that made her look older then what she was.
But her hair wasn't the only thing which was making them all look her way, it was also how she was dressed. She had on a white pin strapped fitted suit, a short jacket with a plain white shirt underneath; and tight fitting trousers which flared out at the bottom making her look a lot taller then she was.
She walked straight up to the high table and then walked behind to where Dumbledore and McGonagall was sitting, passing Severus who were one of the many people who were staring at her.
"Professor I need to speak with you, now." Nissa told him.
Both Dumbledore and McGonagall stood up straight away to find out what was so important and also why she was dressed in such a way.
"Something's happened." Nissa told the quietly. "The dog, he's no longer a dog; something happened to it."
"The dog called Sirius?" McGonagall asked
"Yes, he is Sirius." Nissa told them both; she looked over at Harry and his friends before she turned back. "Somehow it happened, but I don't know how. But he changed into Sirius, Sirius black; he's back its really him and he's still here in the castle."
Dumbledore and McGonagall looked quit speechless as they looked at her, but they both believed what she had told them; they could tell by the look on her face that she believed it all to be true, and her heart was breaking. Dumbledore nodded and then he and McGonagall stepped around her to start looking for Sirius, they walked down the centre tables; at this point the whole hall was talking wondering what was going on.
Severus stood up and walked up to Nissa, he was just about to reach out for her when she turned around; she looked at him for a moment before she stepped around him. She walked quickly back round the table closely followed by him, and down past the Gryffindor table; he stopped her just as she got to Harry and his friends.
"I need to talk to you in private." Severus told her, as he turned her around to look at him and blocked her way.
"Not at the moment." Nissa told him as she tried to pull her arm free of his grip.
The large black dog ran into the hall barking, and growing in size; but when he reached them he was a fully grown man.
"Get your greasy hands off of her." Sirius demanded as he pulled Nissa behind of him.
Severus stepped back as though he had seen a ghost of someone he never thought he would see again, he pulled out his wand and pointed it at his heart; at this Sirius pulled out a wand and pointed it at him in return.
"How dare you touch her." Sirius shot at him.
"You...you should be dead." Severus said." How the hell can you be here?"
Nissa reached for her wand, but realised for the first time that day that she didn't have it on her; she looked over at Sirius and realised that the wand that he was holding was hers. She walked up to Sirius and took her wand back.
"I believe this is mine." Nissa told him as she replaced it, and turned him away from Severus and in Harry's direction. "Instead of duelling with Severus, why don't you talk with Harry; I'm sure he's got a million or so questions for you."
Sirius nodded, but as soon as he saw Harry stood there looking at him he forgot at once about Severus and walked over to him.
"Sirius, is it really you." Harry said numbly, Sirius nodded and he lunged himself at Sirius and hugged him tightly.
"Yes, it's me." Sirius told him, as he hugged him back. "I'm back, not sure how but it doesn't really matter; because I'm back and I'm not going anywhere."
Nissa left them to it, she walked around the very distracted Severus and left the hall; no one of course was paying much attention to what she was doing now. All she wanted to do was to get away, it was too much for her; the man she loved was alive and this Severus she didn't understand what was going on there. And of course she did not want to talk to him about it, well especially not at the moment with her mind and feelings all over the place.
Harry was over the moon that Sirius was back, they went up to Dumbledore's office to talk and to sort thing's out; but Harry couldn't stay because he had to go to his first lesson. But Sirius promised him that they would have plenty of time together.
Harry walked into his first lesson of the day smiling, the Gryffindor were all talking excitedly about what had happened; but of course the Slytherin's weren't at all pleased with the fact that he was still at the school and he didn't seem as though he would be leaving any time soon.
It was ten minutes into the lesson when the door opened and Sirius walked in smiling and walked up to the front of the class where Nissa was stood.
"I'm in the middle of a lesson." Nissa told him.
"Yes I know; but this, I couldn't wait." Sirius told her, as he took her hand in his and went down on one knee. "Now after all these years, I can finally give you what you want; that I couldn't until now. We're free to live; by the end of the week I'll be a free man. And I want to share the rest of my life with you, I want us to be together like we were always meant to be; will you marry me?"
Nissa smiled at him, she couldn't help but smiled; he was smiling back at her even more brightly thinking that she was going to say. Because this was it, this was what she had been waiting for; for them to be able to be together. But she couldn't.
"I would have given you the answer you excepted, even what I excepted to give; but I can't." Nissa told him. "I've lost you more then once, twice; I can't take it, my heart can't take it again. I can't, I'm sorry."
Sirius looked up into her eyes, he could see the pain in them that it was taking her to say no to him; he didn't understand because he knew that she still loved him, or he wouldn't be there now, he just didn't understand.
Nissa pulled her hand out of his slowly." I'm sorry Sirius, but please; I have a lesson can we talk about this later?"
Sirius just stayed where he was, but Nissa went to get on with her lesson; like anyone was at all interest in the lesson after what had just happened. Sirius looked at her and then quickly got to his feet, he reached out for her; but she pulled away from him.
"Nissa." Sirius said, she looked at him and then walked out of the classroom closely followed by him and most of the student's. "Nissa! I don't understand..."
Nissa turned around. "Sirius I..."
"I love you." Sirius told her in front of the filling corridor of student's and teacher'. "I know you feel the same way, I can see it; I know you too well."
"That's just it, you think that you know me; but you don't." Nissa told him. "You don't know..."
Nissa couldn't finish telling him, she turned away to walk off but he stopped her.
"I don't know what, tell me." Sirius said.
"I...I..." Nissa said as she slowly turned round, she decided in that moment that it was finally time to tell him. "Do you remember that I said that I needed to talk with you, the week Lily and James were killed?"
"Yes, but you know why I couldn't come round." Sirius answered.
"Yes, of course." Nissa said. "I was pregnant."
Sirius just stared at her, that had been the last thing he had been excepting to hear; and was now wondering if she was going to tell him that he was a father.
"But when I went to America." Nissa went on. "I lost the...I lost it. The doctor's said that there was nothing wrong, that these thing's happen. But then when you stayed with me...I...I ended up pregnant again."
"What, why the hell didn't you tell me?" Sirius demanded, more then asked.
"I couldn't." Nissa said. "I lost it; the doctor's said that I can't have children that they should have picked it up the first time round."
Sirius just stood there staring at her, as a tear ran down her cheek; he wanted to tell her that it was all alright that he still wanted her and to be with her, but nothing seemed to be coming out.
"That was why I didn't come over, I couldn't" Nissa told him. "I couldn't face you, I couldn't tell you; and I didn't want to tall you like this."
Sirius stepped forward but this time she didn't move away from him; but just then she saw Severus step out from behind some students. Her whole body suddenly went ice cold; she didn't know what was going on as everything went to black around her. Her hair changed to blue as did her lips, figure nails and her closing eyes. Sirius just caught her in his arms as he stepped forward and sank to the floor with her.
"Nissa?" Sirius said as he touched her ice cold face, panic setting in not knowing what was wrong with her. He scoped her up in his arms, and made his way through the crowded corridor up to the hospital.
Severus raced up to the hospital wing after them, closely followed by Harry and his friends. Severus wanted needed to know what was happened, but he also knew that Sirius wouldn't tell him willingly. But Severus loved her also, more then any of them could ever know; but here he wasn't aloud too because here she wasn't his but she was Sirius', and he hated him even more for it.
Sirius laid Nissa down softly on the third empty bed from the door, and shouted. "Madam Pomfery!"
She came running out of her office wondering what was going on, but as soon as she saw him she stopped dead; horrified by who was stood before her and stood at the bottom of one of her beds, then she realised who it was.
"Please! Do something, don't just stand; help her." Sirius told her. "She's ice cold and hardly breathing, she just went blue and cold and just collapsed; please do something."
Madam Pomfery looked into his pleading face, and knew at that moment that he was a good man; and ran over to Nissa's side to help her.
