Title: Wide Awake and Dreaming
Author: alianora
Email: alia@silverspiral.net
Spoilers: Heart of Mine
Summery: Alex is still dreaming of Isabel.
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I have got to be dreaming.
I am kissing Isabel Evans. And what is more amazing is that Isabel Evans is kissing back.
She is kissing me, Alexander Charles Whitman, in front of God and everybody.
And I wasn't expecting this at all. I wasn't even going to go to the prom. I said no and everything. And it's not easy to say no to her.
It made me cringe to see the look on her face when I did it, but I said no. And I had good reasons too. I'm not sure what it was about Sweden that cleared things up for me.
Maybe it was the cold, or the people. Maybe it was just being away from all the alien weirdness for a while.
It gave me a chance to figure some things out. Everything I told Isabel was true. I don't want to go back to being pathetic and love sick. Yes, she is beautiful, but I had to move on.
But it's really hard to move on when this gorgeous girl is sitting beside you almost begging you to take her to the prom.
I never expected her to show up at my window. The last time she came by my house was during that very brief period when we were "dating." It wasn't really dating. I thought it was at the time, but that was before I learned about the dreams she and Michael were having.
That hurt. Bad. But I stayed loyal, told her I was always going to be here for her. Even when there were rumors of a baby. Michael's baby.
And so then we were back to "let's just be friends, Alex." I'm so sick of that phrase. Especially when it goes with, "I just can't date anyone right now, Alex," followed immediately by, "I have a date with Grant."
So I was really surprised when she started hanging out with me again after I got back. I was being good, staying cool, not following her around like a puppy. And it was nice to be the one who said no for a change.
But I guess I just can't say no to Isabel, because here I am.
She looked so desperate and lonely sitting there beside me. And she says she is leaving soon.
No one else knows about her early graduation idea. I wonder what Max will say. I wonder how she's planning on getting into any colleges if she hasn't started applying yet.
I wonder if I'm over thinking this.
Tonight is the first time she has looked happy in a long time. I'd like to think it's because of me. And to a point, it probably is. But in reality, I know she is just happy to be doing something so normal as going to the prom. I'm just a side note.
But I'm going to enjoy tonight. I'm here with a beautiful girl who is currently giving me a thousand watt smile. She looks like she is about to kiss me again. Who am I to say no?
Tonight, I'll let myself be the lovesick guy again, completely nuts for Isabel Evans. It makes her happy. And that's all I've ever wanted.
And tomorrow, I'll go back to being the cool, non pathetic friend who got to take her to the prom.
Or maybe I'll get lucky, and I'll still be dreaming.
Author: alianora
Email: alia@silverspiral.net
Spoilers: Heart of Mine
Summery: Alex is still dreaming of Isabel.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I have got to be dreaming.
I am kissing Isabel Evans. And what is more amazing is that Isabel Evans is kissing back.
She is kissing me, Alexander Charles Whitman, in front of God and everybody.
And I wasn't expecting this at all. I wasn't even going to go to the prom. I said no and everything. And it's not easy to say no to her.
It made me cringe to see the look on her face when I did it, but I said no. And I had good reasons too. I'm not sure what it was about Sweden that cleared things up for me.
Maybe it was the cold, or the people. Maybe it was just being away from all the alien weirdness for a while.
It gave me a chance to figure some things out. Everything I told Isabel was true. I don't want to go back to being pathetic and love sick. Yes, she is beautiful, but I had to move on.
But it's really hard to move on when this gorgeous girl is sitting beside you almost begging you to take her to the prom.
I never expected her to show up at my window. The last time she came by my house was during that very brief period when we were "dating." It wasn't really dating. I thought it was at the time, but that was before I learned about the dreams she and Michael were having.
That hurt. Bad. But I stayed loyal, told her I was always going to be here for her. Even when there were rumors of a baby. Michael's baby.
And so then we were back to "let's just be friends, Alex." I'm so sick of that phrase. Especially when it goes with, "I just can't date anyone right now, Alex," followed immediately by, "I have a date with Grant."
So I was really surprised when she started hanging out with me again after I got back. I was being good, staying cool, not following her around like a puppy. And it was nice to be the one who said no for a change.
But I guess I just can't say no to Isabel, because here I am.
She looked so desperate and lonely sitting there beside me. And she says she is leaving soon.
No one else knows about her early graduation idea. I wonder what Max will say. I wonder how she's planning on getting into any colleges if she hasn't started applying yet.
I wonder if I'm over thinking this.
Tonight is the first time she has looked happy in a long time. I'd like to think it's because of me. And to a point, it probably is. But in reality, I know she is just happy to be doing something so normal as going to the prom. I'm just a side note.
But I'm going to enjoy tonight. I'm here with a beautiful girl who is currently giving me a thousand watt smile. She looks like she is about to kiss me again. Who am I to say no?
Tonight, I'll let myself be the lovesick guy again, completely nuts for Isabel Evans. It makes her happy. And that's all I've ever wanted.
And tomorrow, I'll go back to being the cool, non pathetic friend who got to take her to the prom.
Or maybe I'll get lucky, and I'll still be dreaming.
