Insecurity R summary- Harry has some problems what will he do when his least favorite person finds out. What's Draco to do when he realizes just how far gone potter really is? A/N- This fic has got some seriously dark stuff. If I offend anyone I apologize but I hope most people like this overall. Warnings-child abuse, self mutilation, eating disorders, rape(way later)

Most would say that Harry Potter was amazing the savior of the wizarding world, The-Boy-Who-Lived and all that. But Harry didn't feel amazing years and years of taunting from the Dursleys had messed with his self image. He knew he was messed up but instead of believing that the faults lyed in how the Dursleys treated him he blamed it on the wizarding world. Imagine this will you? You are raised your whole life with one way of thinking then in come these people that you don't even know and they tell you a whole bunch of things that totally contradict the things you were told when you were younger. You'd be confused wouldn't you? Harry sure was. He didn't know what to do here were the Dursleys who whether he liked it or not he had known his whole life and then here comes these people who he had never even seen , never heard of. If these were such good people, that cared for him so much, then why couldn't they have taken him in why did they leave him to live with the Dursley's. But they were taking him away, giving him a chance to be normal, so he smiled real big and nodded his head like he understood. His first year had shown Harry something important, he would never be normal. He was a freak here and he was a freak there it didn't matter where he went he would always be different. Hogwarts hadn't much changed since first year but Harry sure did things seemed to get worse at the Dursley. They were not scared of him a and took great joy in hurting him. Harry continued to hear how useless he was and by now he truly believed it he could do nothing right so why try. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------

The starting feast of Harry Potter's Fifth year started as they all do the students were sorted, the speech was made, the food appeared. The months of starvation meant that Harry was hungry so he began eating as much as he could get his hands on. Ronald Weasly, Harry Potter's best-friend, was not known for his tactfulness, his foot always seemed to be making it 's way into his mouth. "whoa mate slow down if you wouldn't want to look like that great pig Dudley now would you" to Ron it was just a joke but to Harry it was voicing fears even he didn't even know he had. Was he really like Dudley. Dudley was the type of person who overate and so was Vernon was he like them. Was he the kind of person who would do the kind of thing they did. Harry was so lost in his own thoughts he missed Ron getting scolded for saying that by Hermoine. He was done eating despite 'mione's protest that Ron was a prat with a bad sense of humor. He left with his friends and made his was through the common room to the dorm's he laid down in his bed and hiked his shirt up to expose his stomach he poked and prodded his stomach for a full ten minutes before he pulled his shirt back down quickly. He didn't know how he came to look like this when had he started looking like a pig, sure he wasn't Dudley size thankfully but if he continued the rate he was going he would be. why hadn't any of his friends told him about the weight he was putting. How many people besides Ron thought he was over eating. He didn't want to be like Dudley and Vernon, he wouldn't do the things they did, he would find a way to get down to his weight back to normal again.