Disclaimer: I own no one in this chapter.. but Elle..
A/N: MISTAKE: IN 1ST OR SECOND CHAPTER- JESS IS 26 ALONG WITH RORY.. took me forever, but here it is. I hope you guys like it : )
LYRICS ARE IN ITALICS.
"Mommy.!" cried Rory, "I'm tired!... Home?"
"Yea. who woulda thought that after playing bagel hockey, one would get so tired!." said Lorelai.
"It's a cruel, cruel world mother."
"Indeed it is, fair daughter. indeed it is."
"Hey look." said Lorelai pointing by the window.
"What?" asked Rory, turning to see what she was pointing to. Rory turned and saw that by the window in a booth was Elle, sound asleep, in the protective and guarded arms of Jess. Both Lorelai and Rory smiled softly. Rory gently stood and quietly walked over to where they both were sleeping.
Luke came in out of the kitchen from washing dishes. He too, smiled faintly. Rory quietly picked Elle up and rocked her sweetly, in her arms. Lorelai came to Rory and put out her hands. Rory handed Lorelai Elle as they quietly made it out of the deserted diner.
Luke glanced over at Rory as she watched Jess sleep. Luke whispered, "I'll be upstairs if ya need me." Rory nodded as she watched Luke's retreating figure ascend up the stairs. Rory glanced back at Jess and smiled again.
He looked all curled up; cuddled so closely to the glass window that supported his body. Rory stood up from being seated opposite of Jess and tapped him ever- so lightly. He shifted softly and slowly opened his eyes. He half smiled at her as he took his time to sit up properly.
Rory stood as she stretched her hand out, offering Jess her support. He took her hand and slid out of the booth. They both stopped out of the diner, their body movements synchronized with the others', and walked into the dark airy space outside. Rory smiled as she inhaled the sweet scent of January. Breathing lightly, Jess watched as the cloud of air passed nimbly through his lips and into the dark abyss of the night. Rory caught sight of his odd behavior so her glance ended up being a rude and obnoxious stare.
He stopped watching the cloudy mystery when he saw that Rory was starring at him. Before they knew it, their feet had taken them to the bridge. They both let go of each other's hand as they walked single file down the path. Jess stopped close to the entrance while Rory walked to the center. Jess eyed her with curiosity, blooming vigorously, showing signs of the symptoms on his face.
"Why are sitting there?" Jess asked, the beaming curiosity still taunting him.
"When I sit in the middle, it makes me feel like I own it," Rory answered humbly.
She played with her fingers as her eyes watched the soft wind making baby ripples in the water. The full moon smiled happily in the hallow depths of the hallow lake.
"Huh." was Jess' only reply.
Rory's eyes traveled down the bridge to him as the string of interest dangled crudely in front of her face.
Rory asked him, "Why do you sit away from the center?"
Jess' head turned so that when he faced her, he'd look her in the eye.
"So I feel like I don't own it. one of the hardest things to get over is loss." He waited- patiently, for her reaction, a slight flinch or shame, something to let him know that she'd gotten the double meaning.
Rory sat there trying not to show any signs of regret or hurt. She stood strong, so to speak. However, she noticed that the playing with her hands had increased. They slid so evenly together because of the sweat formed by her nervous thoughts.
Rory know that Jess saw her hands; it was quite evident. He nodded for no apparent reason and looked away, as if nothing had happened- as if the conversation didn't even exist. Rory sat there on the bridge, thinking about what would have happened if she had gone to California in search of him, 9 years ago. Where would she start? What would've happened if she found him? Would they be together? Would they be married now? The never- ending flow of questions clouded her mind. She shook herself furiously, shooing away the overload of thoughts.
Looking back towards Jess, he seemed to be swimming in his own pool of thoughts.
'Maybe what happened.. Was for the best. maybe he needed to leave to change something. maybe it was for the better,' thought Rory.
She looked to where Jess previously was and noticed that he wasn't there.
"Jess?" she called out.
"Hmm?" he answered, seating himself next to her.
She turned to face him, startled at his swift motion.
"I- you. you weren't there."
"Are you referring to just now or. what happened long ago.?"
".Both." said Rory, her eyes never leaving his.
He nodded.
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
Jess stood from where he sat, starring blankly at the placid lake. Rory followed his actions.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
Rory took his hand in hers and held on to it tightly. He turned to face her.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
"I never wanted to hurt you, or make you cry." he said, waiting for her crystal blue eyes to meet his chocolate brown.
"I know." she whispered, finally meeting his eyes.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you [x4]
He half smiled and took her other hand and held it tightly.
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
"But, I left. because and for you.. you always wanted me to be me. instead of hiding behind a wall and letting others see what they wanted to see. I left. to change myself. I'm definitely not perfect, but when I'm with you.. Perfection doesn't matter.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
She smiled at him and brushed her lips lightly against his.
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you..
The familiarity sunk in so fast. It was like standing out in the cold; you ask yourself so many questions all at once like, 'why didn't I put on a heavier jacket?' or 'why didn't I wear a knitted long- sleeved shirt?'- It's like a rush of consciousness and the whimsical thing is, is everything that was on your mind, has fallen into the depths of familiarity.
And so you grasp this 'sensation' of familiarity, but when it's gone, you feel like you've somehow lost something; yet strangely enough, you've gained something.
SONG IS BY HOOBASTANK. CALLED, 'THE REASON'..
PLEASE, PLEASE REVIEW!! IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO DO THIS CHAPTER AND I FEEL REALLY PROUD OF THIS ONE SO PLEEAASSEEE REVIEW!! IVE ALREADY GOT THE NEXT CHAPTER GOING SO. IF I DON'T GET AT LEAST A COUPLE OF REVIEWS ON THIS, I'LL TAKE MY PRECIOUS TIME DOING THE NEXT CHAPTER.NAH JUS JOKIN'! I WOULD NEVER DO THAT! BUT SERIOUSLY, PLEASE REVIEW!
A/N: MISTAKE: IN 1ST OR SECOND CHAPTER- JESS IS 26 ALONG WITH RORY.. took me forever, but here it is. I hope you guys like it : )
LYRICS ARE IN ITALICS.
"Mommy.!" cried Rory, "I'm tired!... Home?"
"Yea. who woulda thought that after playing bagel hockey, one would get so tired!." said Lorelai.
"It's a cruel, cruel world mother."
"Indeed it is, fair daughter. indeed it is."
"Hey look." said Lorelai pointing by the window.
"What?" asked Rory, turning to see what she was pointing to. Rory turned and saw that by the window in a booth was Elle, sound asleep, in the protective and guarded arms of Jess. Both Lorelai and Rory smiled softly. Rory gently stood and quietly walked over to where they both were sleeping.
Luke came in out of the kitchen from washing dishes. He too, smiled faintly. Rory quietly picked Elle up and rocked her sweetly, in her arms. Lorelai came to Rory and put out her hands. Rory handed Lorelai Elle as they quietly made it out of the deserted diner.
Luke glanced over at Rory as she watched Jess sleep. Luke whispered, "I'll be upstairs if ya need me." Rory nodded as she watched Luke's retreating figure ascend up the stairs. Rory glanced back at Jess and smiled again.
He looked all curled up; cuddled so closely to the glass window that supported his body. Rory stood up from being seated opposite of Jess and tapped him ever- so lightly. He shifted softly and slowly opened his eyes. He half smiled at her as he took his time to sit up properly.
Rory stood as she stretched her hand out, offering Jess her support. He took her hand and slid out of the booth. They both stopped out of the diner, their body movements synchronized with the others', and walked into the dark airy space outside. Rory smiled as she inhaled the sweet scent of January. Breathing lightly, Jess watched as the cloud of air passed nimbly through his lips and into the dark abyss of the night. Rory caught sight of his odd behavior so her glance ended up being a rude and obnoxious stare.
He stopped watching the cloudy mystery when he saw that Rory was starring at him. Before they knew it, their feet had taken them to the bridge. They both let go of each other's hand as they walked single file down the path. Jess stopped close to the entrance while Rory walked to the center. Jess eyed her with curiosity, blooming vigorously, showing signs of the symptoms on his face.
"Why are sitting there?" Jess asked, the beaming curiosity still taunting him.
"When I sit in the middle, it makes me feel like I own it," Rory answered humbly.
She played with her fingers as her eyes watched the soft wind making baby ripples in the water. The full moon smiled happily in the hallow depths of the hallow lake.
"Huh." was Jess' only reply.
Rory's eyes traveled down the bridge to him as the string of interest dangled crudely in front of her face.
Rory asked him, "Why do you sit away from the center?"
Jess' head turned so that when he faced her, he'd look her in the eye.
"So I feel like I don't own it. one of the hardest things to get over is loss." He waited- patiently, for her reaction, a slight flinch or shame, something to let him know that she'd gotten the double meaning.
Rory sat there trying not to show any signs of regret or hurt. She stood strong, so to speak. However, she noticed that the playing with her hands had increased. They slid so evenly together because of the sweat formed by her nervous thoughts.
Rory know that Jess saw her hands; it was quite evident. He nodded for no apparent reason and looked away, as if nothing had happened- as if the conversation didn't even exist. Rory sat there on the bridge, thinking about what would have happened if she had gone to California in search of him, 9 years ago. Where would she start? What would've happened if she found him? Would they be together? Would they be married now? The never- ending flow of questions clouded her mind. She shook herself furiously, shooing away the overload of thoughts.
Looking back towards Jess, he seemed to be swimming in his own pool of thoughts.
'Maybe what happened.. Was for the best. maybe he needed to leave to change something. maybe it was for the better,' thought Rory.
She looked to where Jess previously was and noticed that he wasn't there.
"Jess?" she called out.
"Hmm?" he answered, seating himself next to her.
She turned to face him, startled at his swift motion.
"I- you. you weren't there."
"Are you referring to just now or. what happened long ago.?"
".Both." said Rory, her eyes never leaving his.
He nodded.
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
Jess stood from where he sat, starring blankly at the placid lake. Rory followed his actions.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
Rory took his hand in hers and held on to it tightly. He turned to face her.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
"I never wanted to hurt you, or make you cry." he said, waiting for her crystal blue eyes to meet his chocolate brown.
"I know." she whispered, finally meeting his eyes.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you [x4]
He half smiled and took her other hand and held it tightly.
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
"But, I left. because and for you.. you always wanted me to be me. instead of hiding behind a wall and letting others see what they wanted to see. I left. to change myself. I'm definitely not perfect, but when I'm with you.. Perfection doesn't matter.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
She smiled at him and brushed her lips lightly against his.
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you..
The familiarity sunk in so fast. It was like standing out in the cold; you ask yourself so many questions all at once like, 'why didn't I put on a heavier jacket?' or 'why didn't I wear a knitted long- sleeved shirt?'- It's like a rush of consciousness and the whimsical thing is, is everything that was on your mind, has fallen into the depths of familiarity.
And so you grasp this 'sensation' of familiarity, but when it's gone, you feel like you've somehow lost something; yet strangely enough, you've gained something.
SONG IS BY HOOBASTANK. CALLED, 'THE REASON'..
PLEASE, PLEASE REVIEW!! IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO DO THIS CHAPTER AND I FEEL REALLY PROUD OF THIS ONE SO PLEEAASSEEE REVIEW!! IVE ALREADY GOT THE NEXT CHAPTER GOING SO. IF I DON'T GET AT LEAST A COUPLE OF REVIEWS ON THIS, I'LL TAKE MY PRECIOUS TIME DOING THE NEXT CHAPTER.NAH JUS JOKIN'! I WOULD NEVER DO THAT! BUT SERIOUSLY, PLEASE REVIEW!
