AN: This part is quite short and I was thinking about maybe posting the end
tonight. What do you think about that? Note the timestamp, this takes place
before the second and fourth part.
Part 5
July 2010
"What are you doing here?" Harm asked her when he opened the door to his apartment.
"I wanted to catch you before you had a chance to sneak off without saying goodbye," Mac said. The anger was steaming just bellow surface growing stronger waiting for chance to come out.
"So you found out about my transfer," Harm stated.
"Yeah, AJ told me. He thought that since you'd known about it for so long I would already know about it."
"So it's AJ now."
"He's not my CO anymore..." she snapped at him "And don't switch subjects with me here. When were you going to tell me? When were you going to tell your son about this?"
"Well, I sure wasn't going to leave without telling him first. I was just looking for the right time," Harm defended himself.
"You've still just decided to move to the other side of the country without discussing it with me," Mac accused him.
"We're not in a relationship, Mac. I don't have to ask for your permission to do anything."
"Whether you like it or not I'm still the mother of you child," Mac said.
"And that's all you are to me now."
Mac slapped him. It was the truth, but neither one of them had ever acknowledged it in words like that before and her first instinct had been to slap him.
Harm turned his eyes back at her. They both stood quite shocked staring into each other's eyes.
"How did we end up like this?" he whispered.
"I don't know," she whispered back ashamed of what she had just done.
"It doesn't have to be like this," he said and moved closer to her touching her cheek.
"It doesn't?" Mac asked against better knowing.
"No," he bent over and kissed her. It took a few seconds before she started kissing him back.
They both knew that this was wrong. They had done this before just like this without stating their intentions and declaring their emotions. Still they wished that it would have a different ending this time, but how could it when they were still the same people and they were still as unknowing of their partner's feelings.
A few hours later Mac woke up in his arms. It was the one place in the world where she should have felt safest, but just like the last time she was there, she was more scared than she had ever been in her whole life. It had been a mistake. She had once told herself that she never did the same mistake twice, but it had turned out to be wrong. Nothing was different this time than it had been the last. All it had given her was a certification that despite being eight years older and having carried and breastfed one child she could still turn him on. It hadn't been worth it. It wasn't worth the pain and hurt she knew was going to come now. She had tried so hard to forget about her feelings for him, but she had failed even though it had become a very bitter sort of love mingled with hatred. She hated him because she couldn't hate him. Now she was back to square one again.
She untangled herself from him and the sheets and went to search for her clothes that lay discredited around the apartment, carefully she gathered them one by one trying to be so quite that she wouldn't wake him up. When she stood by the door she was almost tempted to go back and look at him. She swore to herself that this was the last time she would ever see him like that. Her willpower was stronger and she went out of the door without looking back again.
The night only added to the raft between them and it became one more memory for them both to ignore and bury, only faith had something up its sleeve that would make it impossible for them to do so.
TBC
Part 5
July 2010
"What are you doing here?" Harm asked her when he opened the door to his apartment.
"I wanted to catch you before you had a chance to sneak off without saying goodbye," Mac said. The anger was steaming just bellow surface growing stronger waiting for chance to come out.
"So you found out about my transfer," Harm stated.
"Yeah, AJ told me. He thought that since you'd known about it for so long I would already know about it."
"So it's AJ now."
"He's not my CO anymore..." she snapped at him "And don't switch subjects with me here. When were you going to tell me? When were you going to tell your son about this?"
"Well, I sure wasn't going to leave without telling him first. I was just looking for the right time," Harm defended himself.
"You've still just decided to move to the other side of the country without discussing it with me," Mac accused him.
"We're not in a relationship, Mac. I don't have to ask for your permission to do anything."
"Whether you like it or not I'm still the mother of you child," Mac said.
"And that's all you are to me now."
Mac slapped him. It was the truth, but neither one of them had ever acknowledged it in words like that before and her first instinct had been to slap him.
Harm turned his eyes back at her. They both stood quite shocked staring into each other's eyes.
"How did we end up like this?" he whispered.
"I don't know," she whispered back ashamed of what she had just done.
"It doesn't have to be like this," he said and moved closer to her touching her cheek.
"It doesn't?" Mac asked against better knowing.
"No," he bent over and kissed her. It took a few seconds before she started kissing him back.
They both knew that this was wrong. They had done this before just like this without stating their intentions and declaring their emotions. Still they wished that it would have a different ending this time, but how could it when they were still the same people and they were still as unknowing of their partner's feelings.
A few hours later Mac woke up in his arms. It was the one place in the world where she should have felt safest, but just like the last time she was there, she was more scared than she had ever been in her whole life. It had been a mistake. She had once told herself that she never did the same mistake twice, but it had turned out to be wrong. Nothing was different this time than it had been the last. All it had given her was a certification that despite being eight years older and having carried and breastfed one child she could still turn him on. It hadn't been worth it. It wasn't worth the pain and hurt she knew was going to come now. She had tried so hard to forget about her feelings for him, but she had failed even though it had become a very bitter sort of love mingled with hatred. She hated him because she couldn't hate him. Now she was back to square one again.
She untangled herself from him and the sheets and went to search for her clothes that lay discredited around the apartment, carefully she gathered them one by one trying to be so quite that she wouldn't wake him up. When she stood by the door she was almost tempted to go back and look at him. She swore to herself that this was the last time she would ever see him like that. Her willpower was stronger and she went out of the door without looking back again.
The night only added to the raft between them and it became one more memory for them both to ignore and bury, only faith had something up its sleeve that would make it impossible for them to do so.
TBC
