Note: Song is from Evanescence and their song "Field of Innocence" . All characters mentioned here are owned by Square Soft/Square Enix. Not mine, though I wish I could have been so creative. Enjoy.

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

I loved you. I loved my home, the mountains, the people living inside that perfect little snow globe world. Now I can see the globe has been shaken, and the pieces of reality are swiftly falling around me.

I know now what evil lurked in the shadows of my thoughts, in the shadows of my mind. I can see what a perfect image becomes with realization. I know what evils rested inside that mountain. In the mansion and inside of him.

Deep within you was the only candle. The only beacon that cut away the gloom. A bright, brilliant glow once poured out of your soul. The candles been flickering for years now, and I can see its about the be snuffed out. What happened to our perfect story book ending?



Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all

I am being swayed. Love for you or love for her. My heart is torn in two. Then there his him, and her, and you. My minds in a dizzy downward spiral. I was his shadow. Is that why I loved her? I lived in an ignorant shell, deep under my skin. Letting his life take over slowly, sinking into me.

His love for her, that's what I tasted. His desire to be with her again, alive again. That's what I felt. Now I have been spun back into the right track. Into the tracks of my mind. I can see clearly now what chaos falls about us.

Before it was a clouded image, with colors of you. Now the image is clear, and you are blurred. I would rather crawl back into my ignorance. Not face this... But... there is no going back. I have no options left. I am here. I am me. And now, I must face this. Alone.


I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

When I was little... You shunned me. You never looked at me, but I admired you and your life from the window of my mind. I watched you, watched over you forever. Every turn I got, I was shoved to my knees. My soul shattered with every mistake.

You would smile at me, and the sun would warm the ice I created over my heart. My light, my candle. My every memory and breath. You, you. For you. You seem... older now. Grown up. More independent. Less in need of my aid. Of my constant guidance, though it was never taken into your thoughts. You were hiding, hiding from me as I had hid from you. You were crying for me as I always wished to save you. The world is rejecting me, as it did back then… And you will only look at me. You'll turn before I can see your smile.


Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
Believing in everything

I have lost so much time, hiding under you, Zack. I thank you for all this. For all you did to shelter me from the cold. I will never forget what I have caused to happen to you. Forever a nightmare that rests within me. But I didn't let you die. I spread your life through my own actions. I let my heart bleed in till it died and you took its place.

I want to rewind time now. Rewind and start over. I could keep you from dying. Keep Tifa from ever shunning me. Keep Aeris from being lost. Keep everything. I want to rewind and become the hero you wished me to be, Tifa. The hero I promised to be, so very long ago. I want to go back believing in Sephiroth. In believe in in Shinra and SOLDIER.

I want to go back and believe in me.