Hey guys! Let me just say I am SHOCKED. I never in a million years expected to get that may reviews for this story. I was hoping for maybe four or five but thirteen! (hmm my lucky number *cough cough*) For one chapter. I was very, very happy. So I decided to make this little one shot into a not so one shot. Hehe.
So anyway before you guys get all freaky about this chapter I promise there will be a third. Not quite sure about a forth well have to see how it turns out. So I hope you guys enjoy. I sure liked writing it.
Disclaimer: *sigh* No, ok no. They aren't mine.
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She stood there frozen to the spot. It seemed that after his name left her lips and he smiled his gorgeous smile she couldn't do anything. She stood there silently screaming in her disbelief.
How can you be real? How can you be here, standing in front of me like this? And smiling?
She couldn't laugh. She couldn't cry. She couldn't yell or scream. She couldn't even believe he was standing there in front of her.
Every day. Every day she had wished for this moment. Starting the day after she left him and she realized what she had truly done.
And for one month he had not returned. One long, agonizing month.
Her family had comforted her when she realized her dire mistake. Told her that as hopeless as it seemed the pain would pass. She would move on with her life.
"There will be other boys in your life Kagome. Boys that will make you feel even better than Inuyasha had. Boys that will love you."
That's what her mother had told her one night while she was crying. And as well as her mother had meant, saying those words, they only made her feel worse.
Her mother was saying to her, realizing it or not, that Inuyasha really did not love her. Not like she loved him.
And she did not want to think that. Thinking that made the pain worse.
And no matter what they said to her, or how many times they said it, the pain never left like they said it would. It did not fade as the days passed. It did not disappear.
It did quite the opposite.
In the beginning she had convinced herself that if he really loved her, really did hold deep feeling for her, he would come back for her. Come steal her away like he use to. She truly believed that after a few days he would return.
But as each day passed the pain became worse because each day, he never came.
And she was soon starting to think that just maybe he really did not love her.
That just maybe she had read him wrong. And all those times she had thought he was being shy or afraid of his own feelings were mistakes. That he really did not hold feelings past friendship with her.
That would explain the lack of emotion in his hug when she left. That last hug that made her cry. And why he did not speak a word to her before she left.
She was snapped back to reality when he took a step forward and placed a hand on her arm.
And out of sheer surprise she pulled away and took a step back. And she watched as the happy smile that had adorned his face crumpled into a sad frown.
"K-Kagome?"
She saw the confusion and hurt on his face. She recognized it as the same face that stared back at her when she looked in the mirror, only with amber eyes and colorless hair. She watched as he slowly pulled his arm back and cradled it softly.
"I...you-I'm, I never…"
She heard him start to stumble over his own words and she closed her eyes and turned her head away.
Just hearing his voice again was enough to make her want to cry. She tightened her eyes as water built up behind them, trying desperately not to let them fall.
And here I thought I was all cried out.
She tried greatly to find her voice. She wanted, maybe needed to say something to stop his ramblings. And after a moment of her throat tightening and going dry she did.
"W-why are you here?" She spoke not even looking at him. Her voice sounded high and foreign to her and she was painfully aware that he had stopped talking all together.
And for the longest time he did not say anything. He did not speak and she did not look.
After an eternity of seconds she opened her eyes and slowly tilted her head toward him.
She was shocked to see his eyes clenched shut and hands tightened in a fist. She opened her mouth to speak but this time nothing came out.
"I'm sorry."
It was all he said, his voice full of pain and hurt. The next second he turned and leapt into the well disappearing into blue magic.
And then all of a sudden her voice came to her in a rush and she screamed out his name.
But nothing happened.
She was only answered by aching quite.
What happened? Why did you leave?
She slowly stumbled toward the well. She gripped the wooden ridge of the wells edge as she stared down into the nothingness of the empty well.
As she gazed down into the well the realization that she had just found him struck her. But the fact that she had also lost him again hit her even harder. Tears started to fall from her dark blue eyes into the darkness of the five hundred year old well.
"Why?" She whispered hoarsely into the shadows. She slowly stood and started to back up, away from the well.
"Why?" She repeated a little more forcefully but still not over a whisper.
Her calf hit the bottom of the well stairs and she stumbled falling over and landing hard on her bottom. She cried out softly as she lifted herself up softly only to sit back down again.
And the pain from falling and the pain from losing him again clashed dangerously inside of her.
She turned sharply getting up and running up the stairs. She ripped the well house's door open violently and her eyes searched the yard for something, anything, to take her anger out on.
Her eyes fell on the God Tree and they hardened. She walked sternly over to the tree picking up a rather large rock on her way over.
She launched the rock at the tall tree with as much force as she could. "WHY?" She screamed picking up another rock and throwing it to at the tree.
"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?" She threw another rock at the tree, not caring that it missed completely. "WHY DID YOU TAKE HIM AWAY AGAIN? YOU STUPID TREE! WHY?" She shrieked up at the giant tree.
She ran her hands through her hair harshly gripping chunks and pulling hard. She closed her eyes and, in frustration, screamed as loud as she could. Trying desperately to force the pain she was feeling, had been feeling, out of her.
She fell to her knees, exhausted, and dropped her hands from her hair. She looked up at the God Tree that stood tall, unfazed by her attack. The orange and red sunlight from the sunset fell through the spaces in its leaves giving it a Godly light. Tears filled her once anger eyes as she stared up at the tree and her eyes fell upon the lone scar in the mighty tree.
The spot where he had once slept, pinned by a past lover's broken heart formed into an arrow.
In that long month when he never returned she would often sit under this tree. Sometimes, when she was feeling especially terrible she would even stare up at the tree and speak quietly to it.
And she would feel more connected to him, like just maybe he was sitting up in that tree, watching over her.
She sat backwards on the ground pulling her legs up in front of her and wrapping her arms around them. She rested her head on her knees and stared off into space.
"Why did you leave again?…I don't understand."
She heard someone walking slowly toward her but she did not move or look to see who it was.
"Kagome?" Came the quiet voice of her mother.
She closed her eyes tightly and tensed her shoulder muscles as she felt her mother's hand rest on her shoulder. She heard and felt her mother sit down beside her but still she didn't move.
"Kagome, what was all that about?" She asked kindly.
She could not take the kindness and worry in her mothers voice and she broke down yet another time that night.
She turned around quickly and hugged her mother forcefully around the stomach and she started to sob. Her mother just ran a hand through her long black hair gently as she comfortingly shushed her daughter.
"Kagome, why don't you get some sleep."
And this pain you gave to me, might kill me.
