A/N: For the sake of this story, Spike doesn't have a chip in his head

A/N: The song is "Every breath you take" by the Police ft Sting

I want to be her only one. I want to be the only one she thinks about, dreams about, fantasizes about. But she doesn't love me. She doesn't want or need me. I can't get her to touch me, the only thing I can ever hope for is a major kicking off my ass.

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So if she doesn't want to love me, I will make her think about me in another way. I won't let her love anybody else. I want to be the only one she thinks about, from the first breath after she wakes up until she turns off the lights to go to sleep.

If she can't love me I will make her hate me. I will make her so scared she will be thinking about me all day long. I want her to be so frightened she'll turn around in the dark, expecting me to be there. I want her to walk faster when she's alone, to look around her, feeling that I'm close...that I'm always there...haunting her and watching every step.

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Every breath you take

And every move you make

Every bond you break

Every step you take

I'll be watching you

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There were times when I just lived for the kill. I've killed two slayers in my time and I never expected this one to be different. It was going to be easy. I was going to find her, fight her, and bite her. There's something about slayerblood that makes me feel so strong. Maybe it's some of that strength that flows through her veins, but I can always feel the warmth spreading through my body, the strength searing through my veins.

I loved to see her dead body fall to the ground.

But this one was different. She had friends, people that cared about her, and they made it harder to kill her. And god...was she bitchy. She used to hurt me more with her comments than with her fists, and damn did those fists hurt.

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Every single day

And every word you say

Every game you play

Every night you stay

I'll be watching you

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But now I don't want to kill her anymore. I just want to hurt her. I want her to be alive to taste a bit of the misery I'm feeling. I want her to be nearly dead, but still fully aware to feel the pain of losing people. I want her to beg me for her death and I won't give in. I won't let her die. I won't let her get away this easy.

I want her to suffer. I want her to feel something for me. Anything. Even if it's just hate.

And I don't want her to love anybody. If she can't love me she shouldn't love other people either. Her pathetic little friends don't deserve it. Not like I do. I would treasure her love, I would stay with her until the end. Not like Captain friggin Cardboard or Xander and Willow who have been drifting farther and farther away from her. I would never hurt her.

But she doesn't love me. So she leaves me no other choice.

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Oh, can't you see

You belong to me

Now my poor heart aches

With every step you take

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I think I'll start with Xander. Not that he looks like a yummy treat but he loved her, some time ago. And eventhough she never loved him back she still cares about him. Like she should have cared about me.

I will make her feel haunted, I will make her feel real pain like she's giving me.

I will kill all her friends so eventually she will have no one left to turn to, no one left to love.

Except me.