Hey guys. I no I no. Most of anyone reading my story has probably stopped because of the wait time between updates. All I can say is I'm really, really, sorry. It seems I can never sit down and type without someone coming to bug me. I wanted this chapter to be really good so I was picky with it. And it is turning out really long.

The reason I say "is" is because it's not finshed yet. I'm giving you guys the first have now and probably the last past will be out tonight or tomorrow. Monday at the latest.

Don't roll your eyes!

I swear this time I will keep my promise.

I promise.

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Disclaimer: Rumiko Takahashi is the genius who invented Inuyasha. Not me. So don't sue, you won't get much. Trust me.

Ohh. PS. There's a really long flash back in this chapter. It'll be in squiggly letters k!

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Cold. Dark. Alone.

His senses were going off, telling him this was bad. Something was wrong.

A chill ran up his spine.

He didn't remember getting here. Last he knew he was sitting on the God Tree. This had to be some form of dark magic.

He started to pick up the sense of another somewhere in this dark abyss and he began to growl a warning to who ever it was. His growl increased when he noticed he couldn't smell anything either. He got into fighting stance, ready for anything that may attack him. His ears twitched, straining to hear even the slightest noise.

He turned around when he heard soft footsteps behind him. He could make out see the outline of something, possibly human coming toward him. He growled louder and more threatening then before and the figure stopped.

Kagome?

He could make out by the shape of the outline that it was a woman. Long hair, curvy. But it had a long dress on, maybe even the pants of a priestess.

"Ki-Kikyo?"

He stopped his growl and stood up straight. If this was truly Kikyo then what should he do? Why was she back for the dead again?

He took a few steps toward the woman in the shadows.

"Stop there Inuyasha."

He stopped. That voice was not Kikyo's, it wasn't a voice that he recognized at all. His growl picked up again.

"Who are you? Show yourself!"

A small breeze blew around his body pushing his hair in front of his face.

He angrily shook it away.

"There is no need to be scared. I-"

"Who said anything about being scared! I just like to know who I kill before I do so!"

The woman laughed slightly and Inuyasha growled louder. Making it clear that whatever she found so funny he did not.

"You are impatient. And you both are stubborn." The woman sighed. "My life is never easy."

"What the hell are you talking about? Show yourself!"

The woman smiled, though he could not see it, and took a few graceful steps into his line of vision.

She wore ancient priestess clothing, older then even Kikyo's time, and armor made of demon bone and hide. Her hair was jet black and almost touched the ground but was tied back in a low ponytail.

She look so familiar to Inuyasha. Like he should know who she was. He racked his brains as he stared at her. Who was she?

She took another step forward and this time he noticed something that gave her away immediately. There was large hole that went clear through her right chest. Right where her heart should be.

"Midoriko?"

She smiled slightly and closed her eyes while nodding.

"I came here to-"

Inuyasha jumped back as a large wormlike youkai came out of nowhere and grabbed Midoriko with its fangs, cutting her off and dragging her away with it. Many more demons, some large and others small, started to fill the area after that. Most followed after the large youkai and Midoriko while some turned to Inuyasha and attacked.

Inuyasha leaped out of the way and pulled the Tetsusaiga from it's scabbard. It transformed immediately and he quickly sliced through a few of the demons within his reach.

"What the hell is going on?"

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Kagome walked cautiously into the magic filled well house. The hair on her arms and neck stood on end as a shiver ran down her spine at the immense amount of magic concentrated in this small area.

Ohh this is creepy. Creepy, creepy, creepy.

She walked down the steeps and stood before the well, the ground felt moist and cool on her bare feet. She absentmindedly noticed the edge of her yellow night shirt bump and slide against her knees softly, enticed by the gentle breeze swirling around inside the well house.

She took a step closer and placed her finger against the edge of the well, stroking the ancient wood softly.

"Go." Whispered a voice, this time more in her head than her ears. It was fainter, but with the amount of energy pushing against her it didn't have to be loud for her to understand it's force.

She took a deep shaky breath. "Go where?" She spoke quietly, despite the fact that she all ready knew the answer to her question. Why else would this force drawl her into the well house unless it wanted her to go through the well.

The wind inside the well bumped and shifted around her causing her knees to bump against the edge of the well. I guess that's my only answer.

A few silent moments passed as Kagome gathered her nerve up again to speak. She kept her knees resting against the side of the ancient well, her fingers still lightly grazing the top, as she stared down into it's depths.

"W-Who are you. What-"

She froze when she felt the magic in the air start to shift drastically. It turned and swirled into a oval across from her. It was so concentrated now that she could clearly she the outline of a human. Man or woman she could not say.

Don't freak out. Don't freak out. Ohh don't freak out.

Kagome backed up slightly as the features became clearer. The transparent pink glow formed into the obvious shape of a woman. She had long hair, a pretty face, and ancient looking clothes. She looked familiar but she couldn't place where she had seen her before.

And it was that sense of familiarity that kept her from being truly afraid when the woman stepped forward. She stood on the opposite side of the well from Kagome and when she spoke it was eerie and distant, and almost sad.

"Follow."

With that the woman slipped into the well, lighting it a soft pink before disappearing.

Kagome stood at the edge of the well looking down after the magic woman who had just left. She wasn't sure what this meant. Should she try and use the well? Would it work this time?

It was so horrible…last time.

She kneeled down by the ancient well, dropping her gaze to stare unfocusedly at the dirt now starting to cover her feet. Her thoughts drifted to one week earlier. The horrible week she could easily call her worst week ever. Something she did not wish to remember.

She had almost lost it.

Or, maybe she had.

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A red faced and teary eyed Kagome walked slowly from her room, dragging her top bed sheet, which was half wrapped around her shoulders, with her. She stumbled down the stairs and into the kitchen, sniffing slightly.

Three of the four occupants in the kitchen jumped up at her arrival, rushing over to her and helping her to a chair. "Oh my gosh Kagome, this time you must really be sick." The tallest of the three young girls said while placing a hand to Kagome's forehead.

"Yah Kagome, Eri's right. You really don't look good." Yuka, he shortest on the three agreed.

Ayumi, the closest to Kagome of the three girls, looked at her sadly, noticing the look of utter loss in her friends eyes.

Kagome looked up at her three friends and tried to smile, an attempt that she failed miserably at. "I'm-I'm so happy…to see you guys…really." She paused to take a deep shaky breath. "But I'm really, I'll be in school again soon….It's nothing."

She broke off staring into space. Her lip quivered slightly and a tear ran down her cheek.

"Kagome." Ayumi wrapped an arm around her friends shoulder.

Another tear fell down her blotchy cheek.

Kagome's mother stood up from the table. Just seeing her daughter like this was to much to take. She didn't know what to do anymore. She had hoped that the sight of her friends would get her out of her depression but it obliviously didn't work.

"Come on girls. I'm glad you could come out and I'm sorry Kagome wasn't feeling better. I think it's best if she goes back to bed."

The three girls reluctantly let go of the now crying girl and moved toward the kitchen door. Ayumi stopped in the door way and turned to the girl left sitting in the chair. She had slumped over and was now crying into her knees. Ayumi walked back to the her. She kneeled in front of the weeping woman and placed her hands on Kagome's shoulders.

Kagome didn't move or knowledge her presence but Ayumi didn't care. She leaned forward and kissed the top of her head while wrapping her arms around her back. She whispered into her ear gently. "Don't cry. No guy is worth wasting your life crying over him. Cheer up. …I bet, if you think about it, he was a jerk and not worth your time anyway. You always said that."

Kagome stopped crying and just sat there listening to her friends kind voice. Her head remained resting on her knees though, partly because she didn't want Ayumi to see her this upset and partly because Ayumi was holding her down with her hug.

"I see you soon." Ayumi spook a little louder as she stood and walked to the other two girls who stood at the door way. They looked at her a little odd but said nothing. Mrs. Higurashi then lead the three to the door, smiling slightly to herself, hoping against hope that her plan would work.

Kagome remained in the kitchen, sitting in her chair, contemplating her friends words. The more they ran over in her head the more she came to dislike them. Ayumi was completely wrong. Inuyasha was worth crying over. He had been the best thing in her life and now he was gone.

And she hadn't meant anything she had said all those times she came back and happened to vent on her friends. He wasn't a jerk. Well, not all the time. He could be really sweet when he wanted to. And anyway she loved him, all of him. The good, the bad, the human and the demon. She didn't want to spend anymore time without him.

She needed to go back to him now. She wanted to see him again. She didn't care how much of a fool she looked running back to him. She needed to.

She stood abruptly, the blanket dropping from her shoulders and falling in a pile at her feet. She had a knew found determination and strength she hadn't had since she'd last seen him.

She walked out the back door and across the shrine yard to the old well house. She walked right up to the door and slid it open widely. Bright afternoon light spilled into the shack and down the stairs, only a bit of it actually reaching the rim of the well. She took a deep breath and walked down the stairs and toward the well.

The cool dirt felt good on her bare feet, having not grabbed shoes as she walked out. She placed both hands on the rim of the well ready to leap over and into the past.

But she paused as a thought struck her. It's been three whole weeks since she left. She thought he would of come by now. Maybe he really didn't want to see her again. Maybe he didn't come because he didn't want to. Maybe he didn't love her.

He held the Shikon Jewel now. What if he wished to become full youkai. She remembered he had said he wouldn't while she was still around but the quest was over, and she wasn't around. What now.

He could of even wished Kikyo back to life.

She took a step back. She couldn't go to him. So many things could be different. It would probably break her heart more if indeed she did return.

But, what if the reason he hadn't come was because he was being shy. Inuyasha was always awfully shy about his own feelings. She wasn't sure if this was because of his lack of interaction with people his own age or he was just a shy boy who put on a gruff exterior. She had a feeling it was a little of both.

Or what if he was attacked. He held the jewel and she knew he was strong but he always got so hurt during the battles. What if he had been wounded so badly that he couldn't make it to the village. Would anyone take care of him.

So many more possible thoughts filled her head and she took another steep forward.

No, I have to go to him. I have to know.

With her mind now made up she quickly placed her hand on the edge on the well. She had to jump now, or else she never would. She filled her lungs with a good deep breath before lifting up and launching herself over the edge.

The weightless feeling of falling lasted a lot shorted than she expected and she came crashing cruelly into the ground. A strong shot pain filled her feet and lower legs and she stumbled and fell over at the unexpected landing.

"Huh?" She looked up quickly to look for sky. She didn't care what color, blue, gray, orange, she just wanted to see sky.

She was horrible disappointed, and confused, to see the well house above her.

"W-wha?"

The Shikon Jewel!

She mentally smacked herself. She needed the jewel to cross. Without it, she was stranded.

She couldn't go see Inuyasha. No matter how much she wanted to, she couldn't go to him.

"No, no Inuyasha. NO"

She quickly climbed up the robe latter the hung down the inside of the old well and sat at the top.

She refused to believe that she couldn't go to him. That was impossible. They were meant to be together. There had to be someway to get to him. Maybe if she just tried hard enough.

She took another deep breath and jumped off the edge of the well again. She fell for a second before hitting the hard ground again, this time landing on her knees. She shook her head and looked up at he ceiling. "Dam."

She stood and climbed the ladder again, repeating the process. She jumped again and again hitting the hard ground on her side of the well.

She wouldn't stop, it was almost like she couldn't. After each fall she would hurt a little more, became determined a little more even though secretly she lost a little hope, and became a little more frustrated.

The process continued on for quite some time. She lost count of how many times she had tried to get though. Finally on one practically hard jump she fell over and hit her head against he side of the well's inner wall.

After that it was like everything reached it's boiling point and she started to cry. She wanted so bad to see Inuyasha, she couldn't stand it anymore. Tears fell fast and hot from her eyes. Burning there way down her cheek and into the soil.

"Inuyasha! Inuyasha, please! Please come back to me. I-I love you! I do. …So much!"

She started to sob more while yelling at the ground.

"Why can't you understand! I need you. I need you… If you'll just come back."

She dropped down to where she was just talking now. Her words sounding slurred, mixed in with the crying and the hiccupping.

"Inuyasha, please, if you'll just come back. I would do anything. Anything…. I love you."

She sat there and cried for a long time afterward. She thought about everything she had screw up in her life. Every possible thing, cheating of a English test in 4th grade, locking her brother in the scroll room when she was 13, casing the cat on her 15th birthday.

She paused mid-thought. No, she didn't think that was a mistake, that was the best thing to ever happen to her.

No the biggest mistake she had ever made was walking away from Inuyasha three weeks ago. That would be something she would regret for the rest of her life.

"Please come get me."

She sat up and looked up at the ceiling of the well house.

Maybe, just one more time.

She slowly got up, quite painfully, and climbed up the ladder. Her whole body hurt, but it was mostly her legs that slowed her movements.

She turned around at the top of the ladder and sat on the rim of the well. Her breath came in ragged short breaths. She was tired, sore, and depressed. All she wanted was Inuyasha to come to get her.

"One, more time."

She leaned forward to toss herself in when two warm arms wrapped around her waist, stopping her. They pulled her off the side of the well and onto the moist ground.

At first she was to shocked to move and just laid there while staring at the ceiling. She heard the sounds of someone crying quietly behind her and she became curious so she tilted her head back to look.

She was surprised to find her mother sitting behind her crying. She turned over and sat up to get a better look at the crying woman.

"Mama?"

Her mother tried to smile at her while wiping the tears out of her eyes. She didn't say anything though.

"Mama why are you crying?"

All thoughts of tossing herself to the bottom of the well left her as Kagome watched her mother try to stop the tears that fell from her eyes. She hardly ever sees her mother cry. She was such a strong woman. She couldn't understand why-

"It's you."

Kagome blinked and looked at her mother in shock. "Wha-"

"Your so sad now Kagome. I've lost the smiling, happy child that I once had."

Her mother scooted over and wrapped her arms around Kagome's shoulders. "I've been standing in this door way for the better part of this day watching you through yourself into the well over and over. Screaming, crying, hurting yourself. Seeing you like this is so hard for me."

Kagome laid in her mothers arms listening to her words. She felt so horrible. She made her mother cry, that was something she never wanted to do, ever.

"Mama, I'm so sorry. I never meant.."

"Let's just go inside ok. Get your knees cleaned up."

"..My knees…?"

She looked down at her knees to see blood slowly oozing from open sores. She hadn't even realized she was cut. Sore yes, but she hadn't realized she done that much damage.

They both stood, Kagome somewhat slower than her mother, and walked up the stairs. At the top of the stairs Kagome stopped and looked back at the well. A look of longing filled her eyes as she realized she did get to reach her goal of getting to Inuyasha.

Kagome's mother watched her daughter for a moment before she grabbed her shoulders rather harshly. Kagome turned her gaze away for the well and toward her mother's eyes.

"Kagome, promise me you'll never do this again. You have to promise me."

Kagome's lip quivered. "I-"

"As tough as it is, as much as you don't want it, you have to realize. Inuyasha is not coming back. You have to move on with your life. You have to."

Her mother's words stung. Tears filled her eyes and threatened to fall.

"..I- I promise Mama."

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(the rest of this chapter will be out soon! So check tomorrow!)