I know I said there was only going to be three chapters but this last one was [B/]really[/B] long so thought I'd shorten it down. Thanks for all the reviews, they make me smile : )

You feel a clasp around your hand, and open your eyes slowly. Your eyes take a while to adjust to the bright lights, and your ear locates a faint beeping in the background. You turn to see who or what has clasped your hand like metal and a figure comes slowly into view. Her blonde hair folds delicately over her face, softening her delicate features, but the remaining brown shouts a big contrast, emphasising her character. Her deep brown eyes are locked on to you, investigating you, they shine with the enormous energy she promotes, but the skin around is red and puffy, and you notice a silent tear escape. You want to know what's made her cry, you want to protect her from what ever it is that's hurt her, you want to save her from anything hurting her again, and you smirk as you realise the pathetic romantic movie bloke you sound like, and why she closed you out in the first place. But her beautiful smile turns up at the corners as she sees you looking back at her, and you think maybe it's not too late, maybe things could return, she is by your bedside after all. You bring your free hand up to her face and clear a tear away. You feel her shiver under your touch.

"I was so worried, I thought, I know, it's stupid, but I thought, I thought you wouldn't wake up or that something would go wrong, I thought I'd hear that sound and I'd know that that would be it, I don't want that to be it"

Her words confuse you, and so does that perpetual beeping behind your right ear. Your eyes bring everything into focus, and with that the memory of everything else, like somebody's just lifted a veil over you. You're throat is scratchy and sour and you feel the pain of the nasal canula . You realise the pain of your every muscle as you recall the heartache. You begin to feel the power of the pills in your hand again, and that thought that everything could be cured.

"I'm so sorry Carter. I can't believe that you could slip and not tell me" You see your pain highlighted in her eyes "We, we err, we tried calling Kem, but you're butler, or what ever, said she'd gone back, I thought you said she was staying here until Jason was eight months, what's going on?" You here her inquisitive voice, and guess you owe her an explanation, after everything.