Title: Blurry
Author: Ren201
Spoilers: Up to 'The Telling' (end of season 2). I'll tell you if anything else from the show has happened as we go along.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Alias! I only own the people you don't recognise, if there are any! I don't anything that belongs to anyone else.
Author's note: R&R and tell me what you think. Thanks for all of the reviews! I know it was depressing, but it gets better! Promise!
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My vision becomes blurred, as the tears and rain mix together preventing me from clearly seeing the cars below. Maybe that was how it should be, I turn my back to the cars and briefly watch the rain fall freely over the bridge and down onto the roads. I took another deep breath, closed my eyes and leant backwards, allowing my body to fall weightlessly down to the road below.
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I followed her. I had been following her since her return. Irina had ordered her me to follow her, not that that was the reason I follow her. She was dangerous and needed to be shielded from our past. I had been with her for 15 of those months, when she was first grieving over her loss. I was there with her, helping her through it and although it was likely that she would never remember it, I loved her, and she returned that love. But now, everything was different, she had gone back to the time when she was besotted with Agent Vaughn and despised me. All I could do now was watch helplessly, as *he* watched her. I couldn't come between them, this time; Sydney would have to work this out by herself, she needed to remember what we had.
He was never good enough for her and never will be; she deserves so much more than anything he can offer her. How could things come to this? She's stronger than this, I know she is. How could they have not read the signs? How is that he came and that he is the only person she wants right now? Things should have never come to this, it should be me there consoling her and if it was, she would have never made it onto that ledge. She would have been safe; we would have been safe. But he knew that *Vaughn* wouldn't let her fall, if he had any doubt of that, he would be out there with her right now, but he couldn't. He loved her too much and as much as it pained him, he needed to let someone else her help her this time.
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I knew she was there, that's the worst part. I knew she was watching me with Lauren in the office and I also knew that everyone was watching our reactions. I had to behave that way. I had no choice; I'm with Lauren. I love Lauren, I really do... but it's just sometimes when I look over at Sydney, I see everything I missed out on, everything *we* missed out on. It's just too hard to comprehend how good my life could have been if it was Sydney who wore the ring matching mine. I can't live that like that, I moved on, I have a family now who need me, especially after what we found out today. Lauren needs me, I have responsibilities now and that's something I won't hide from, something I *can't* hide from. My loyalties lie with Lauren now, that, was until Weiss told me what had happened, and now I'm torn ... I'm torn between my past and my present.
*Flashback*
Vaughn sat with Lauren, lightly stroking her leg, waiting for Sydney to leave and hoping that everyone else would cease their intense stares and leave him alone. He was married and no matter how much he wanted to be with Sydney, he couldn't and everyone had to accept that and let him move on. Vaughn finally let his guilt take over him and moved his gaze towards Sydney, only to find her hurrying away from him and towards the car park.
Sighing, he turned back towards Lauren and made an excuse about having work to catch up on, before reaching into his draw and pulling out the only picture of Sydney and him that he had. He sat for a moment looking at the crumpled picture of an innocent couple who, were truly in love. His thoughts were interrupted by a shadow that had settled over him, looking up to find Weiss standing over find, with a troubled look on his face. Vaughn quickly opened his draw and shoved the picture in.
"Hey." Vaughn said quickly, making it obvious that he had something to hide. Although, fortunately for him, Weiss was too distracted to notice.
"Yeah, em ... did you see Sydney come through here, she rushed out so quickly, I didn't have time to stop her." Weiss said as he scanned the room looking for Sydney
"Sure, she was here a minute ago, she seemed kind of ... upset or something. I didn't really notice. What's wrong?" Vaughn asked casually as he tried to hide the concern that was rising up inside his chest.
"You know what, that's just typical of you. Let me guess ... you were too wrapped up in your own life to notice the state she was in? She needed you, and as usual, you weren't there. She told me that she would have waited forever for you, but she was right, that would have been a complete waste of time!" Weiss yelled as he stormed off in search of Sydney, ignoring the looks that he received from other agents and gossiping receptionists. He needed to find Sydney, but more than that, she needed him.
Vaughn stood dazed by his encounter with Weiss, he couldn't believed what had just happened, he didn't understand why he had reacted this way, but he was going to find out. Seconds later, Vaughn was following Weiss determined to get an explanation. He deserved that, he *needed* an explanation.
"What the hell was that about?" Vaughn shouted at Weiss as he entered the parking lot, noticing that Sydney's car had gone and Weiss was making his way over to his car.
"You wouldn't understand." Weiss replied angrily as he moved to unlock the car, but was stopped by a concerned Vaughn.
"What happened? What happened to Sydney?" Vaughn demanded as he took Weiss' keys out of his hand and stepped back. Weiss sighed as he leaned against his car and prepared himself to give Vaughn the news that had shocked him more than he could describe.
"We ... Sydney was called in this morning by Med. Services and they told her that she would need someone to come in with her so, she asked me ... the doctor had some results for her and they ... they weren't good." Weiss said as he looked down, not wanting to continue, in fear that if he said what he had heard out loud, then it would be real and this nightmare would be really happening.
Vaughn waited patiently for what seemed like hours before Weiss finally continued.
"They had performed a biopsy after they found something wrong in her ultrasound and she found out something that had happened during the 9 months she endured Electro Shock." Weiss paused again before reluctantly continuing.
"They found that, ... during those 9 months, Sydney had a miscarriage. I am *so* sorry man. She's heartbroken, and seeing you with Lauren could have only made it worse. I need to find her." Weiss said sadly as he attempted to grab his keys back from Vaughn.
Vaughn stood in complete in complete shock, as he felt tears form in his eyes, this was exactly what he had wanted, a family with Sydney. Now everything was so blurry, things were completely screwed up and he had no idea what he could do to change any of it. Vaughn stood there for what seemed like an eternity, absorbing what he had just heard until a voice interrupted his thoughts.
"Agent Vaughn!" Jack Bristow yelled angrily across the car park, closely followed by Dixon, Marshall and Carrie, who had all seen the display between Sydney and Vaughn and then Vaughn and Weiss, and now wanted to know what was going on and were concerned about Sydney.
Vaughn couldn't take this, now, he needed to find Sydney and Jack Bristow would not help the matter. Instead Vaughn shoved Weiss' keys in his car, jumped in and sped off, leaving Weiss to explain what had happened to Sydney's closest friends. They would understand, and he needed to get to Sydney before anyone else did.
*End Flashback*
So, he had followed her from her apartment and jogged slowly behind her, speeding up when she did, following her path exactly. It had led him here, to an old abandoned bridge, which lead across a busy highway. He watched.
He watched as she broke down in front of him. The strongest women he had ever had the privilege to know, and as he watched, he felt his own heart break. He couldn't help but desperately call out to her, pleading her to stop as she climbed onto the ledge. She didn't hear him, not this time. He watched as she peered over the edge and down onto the road below. He knew that she would never do it, she was too strong, she had gone through too much to quit now.
He watched, as he started moving slowly towards her, not wanting to startle her. He walked slowly as the rain fell around him, blurring his vision. Suddenly, Sydney turned around and faced him. Vaughn froze, as she looked straight through him, not seeing him there. He was inches away from her as she closed her eyes and leaned backwards, allowing herself to fall.
Running forwards, Vaughn grabbed Sydney's arms and tried to pull her back. She couldn't die, he loved her, and she had to know that.
"Hang on Syd, please don't do this. I love you. Do you hear me? I love you!" Vaughn whispered to Sydney as he tried to regain his grip on Sydney's arms as she slowly slipped from his grasp. Refusing to let go, Vaughn held tighter and pulled her closer, whispering his undying love for her as he pulled her back to where she belonged, with him.
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What do you think? Review! I have some surprises in store! To give you a clue, you should be asking yourselves what news Lauren and Vaughn received and what lengths Sark will go to, to get Sydney back. Now, review!
Author: Ren201
Spoilers: Up to 'The Telling' (end of season 2). I'll tell you if anything else from the show has happened as we go along.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Alias! I only own the people you don't recognise, if there are any! I don't anything that belongs to anyone else.
Author's note: R&R and tell me what you think. Thanks for all of the reviews! I know it was depressing, but it gets better! Promise!
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My vision becomes blurred, as the tears and rain mix together preventing me from clearly seeing the cars below. Maybe that was how it should be, I turn my back to the cars and briefly watch the rain fall freely over the bridge and down onto the roads. I took another deep breath, closed my eyes and leant backwards, allowing my body to fall weightlessly down to the road below.
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I followed her. I had been following her since her return. Irina had ordered her me to follow her, not that that was the reason I follow her. She was dangerous and needed to be shielded from our past. I had been with her for 15 of those months, when she was first grieving over her loss. I was there with her, helping her through it and although it was likely that she would never remember it, I loved her, and she returned that love. But now, everything was different, she had gone back to the time when she was besotted with Agent Vaughn and despised me. All I could do now was watch helplessly, as *he* watched her. I couldn't come between them, this time; Sydney would have to work this out by herself, she needed to remember what we had.
He was never good enough for her and never will be; she deserves so much more than anything he can offer her. How could things come to this? She's stronger than this, I know she is. How could they have not read the signs? How is that he came and that he is the only person she wants right now? Things should have never come to this, it should be me there consoling her and if it was, she would have never made it onto that ledge. She would have been safe; we would have been safe. But he knew that *Vaughn* wouldn't let her fall, if he had any doubt of that, he would be out there with her right now, but he couldn't. He loved her too much and as much as it pained him, he needed to let someone else her help her this time.
~#~ Vaughn's POV ~#~
I knew she was there, that's the worst part. I knew she was watching me with Lauren in the office and I also knew that everyone was watching our reactions. I had to behave that way. I had no choice; I'm with Lauren. I love Lauren, I really do... but it's just sometimes when I look over at Sydney, I see everything I missed out on, everything *we* missed out on. It's just too hard to comprehend how good my life could have been if it was Sydney who wore the ring matching mine. I can't live that like that, I moved on, I have a family now who need me, especially after what we found out today. Lauren needs me, I have responsibilities now and that's something I won't hide from, something I *can't* hide from. My loyalties lie with Lauren now, that, was until Weiss told me what had happened, and now I'm torn ... I'm torn between my past and my present.
*Flashback*
Vaughn sat with Lauren, lightly stroking her leg, waiting for Sydney to leave and hoping that everyone else would cease their intense stares and leave him alone. He was married and no matter how much he wanted to be with Sydney, he couldn't and everyone had to accept that and let him move on. Vaughn finally let his guilt take over him and moved his gaze towards Sydney, only to find her hurrying away from him and towards the car park.
Sighing, he turned back towards Lauren and made an excuse about having work to catch up on, before reaching into his draw and pulling out the only picture of Sydney and him that he had. He sat for a moment looking at the crumpled picture of an innocent couple who, were truly in love. His thoughts were interrupted by a shadow that had settled over him, looking up to find Weiss standing over find, with a troubled look on his face. Vaughn quickly opened his draw and shoved the picture in.
"Hey." Vaughn said quickly, making it obvious that he had something to hide. Although, fortunately for him, Weiss was too distracted to notice.
"Yeah, em ... did you see Sydney come through here, she rushed out so quickly, I didn't have time to stop her." Weiss said as he scanned the room looking for Sydney
"Sure, she was here a minute ago, she seemed kind of ... upset or something. I didn't really notice. What's wrong?" Vaughn asked casually as he tried to hide the concern that was rising up inside his chest.
"You know what, that's just typical of you. Let me guess ... you were too wrapped up in your own life to notice the state she was in? She needed you, and as usual, you weren't there. She told me that she would have waited forever for you, but she was right, that would have been a complete waste of time!" Weiss yelled as he stormed off in search of Sydney, ignoring the looks that he received from other agents and gossiping receptionists. He needed to find Sydney, but more than that, she needed him.
Vaughn stood dazed by his encounter with Weiss, he couldn't believed what had just happened, he didn't understand why he had reacted this way, but he was going to find out. Seconds later, Vaughn was following Weiss determined to get an explanation. He deserved that, he *needed* an explanation.
"What the hell was that about?" Vaughn shouted at Weiss as he entered the parking lot, noticing that Sydney's car had gone and Weiss was making his way over to his car.
"You wouldn't understand." Weiss replied angrily as he moved to unlock the car, but was stopped by a concerned Vaughn.
"What happened? What happened to Sydney?" Vaughn demanded as he took Weiss' keys out of his hand and stepped back. Weiss sighed as he leaned against his car and prepared himself to give Vaughn the news that had shocked him more than he could describe.
"We ... Sydney was called in this morning by Med. Services and they told her that she would need someone to come in with her so, she asked me ... the doctor had some results for her and they ... they weren't good." Weiss said as he looked down, not wanting to continue, in fear that if he said what he had heard out loud, then it would be real and this nightmare would be really happening.
Vaughn waited patiently for what seemed like hours before Weiss finally continued.
"They had performed a biopsy after they found something wrong in her ultrasound and she found out something that had happened during the 9 months she endured Electro Shock." Weiss paused again before reluctantly continuing.
"They found that, ... during those 9 months, Sydney had a miscarriage. I am *so* sorry man. She's heartbroken, and seeing you with Lauren could have only made it worse. I need to find her." Weiss said sadly as he attempted to grab his keys back from Vaughn.
Vaughn stood in complete in complete shock, as he felt tears form in his eyes, this was exactly what he had wanted, a family with Sydney. Now everything was so blurry, things were completely screwed up and he had no idea what he could do to change any of it. Vaughn stood there for what seemed like an eternity, absorbing what he had just heard until a voice interrupted his thoughts.
"Agent Vaughn!" Jack Bristow yelled angrily across the car park, closely followed by Dixon, Marshall and Carrie, who had all seen the display between Sydney and Vaughn and then Vaughn and Weiss, and now wanted to know what was going on and were concerned about Sydney.
Vaughn couldn't take this, now, he needed to find Sydney and Jack Bristow would not help the matter. Instead Vaughn shoved Weiss' keys in his car, jumped in and sped off, leaving Weiss to explain what had happened to Sydney's closest friends. They would understand, and he needed to get to Sydney before anyone else did.
*End Flashback*
So, he had followed her from her apartment and jogged slowly behind her, speeding up when she did, following her path exactly. It had led him here, to an old abandoned bridge, which lead across a busy highway. He watched.
He watched as she broke down in front of him. The strongest women he had ever had the privilege to know, and as he watched, he felt his own heart break. He couldn't help but desperately call out to her, pleading her to stop as she climbed onto the ledge. She didn't hear him, not this time. He watched as she peered over the edge and down onto the road below. He knew that she would never do it, she was too strong, she had gone through too much to quit now.
He watched, as he started moving slowly towards her, not wanting to startle her. He walked slowly as the rain fell around him, blurring his vision. Suddenly, Sydney turned around and faced him. Vaughn froze, as she looked straight through him, not seeing him there. He was inches away from her as she closed her eyes and leaned backwards, allowing herself to fall.
Running forwards, Vaughn grabbed Sydney's arms and tried to pull her back. She couldn't die, he loved her, and she had to know that.
"Hang on Syd, please don't do this. I love you. Do you hear me? I love you!" Vaughn whispered to Sydney as he tried to regain his grip on Sydney's arms as she slowly slipped from his grasp. Refusing to let go, Vaughn held tighter and pulled her closer, whispering his undying love for her as he pulled her back to where she belonged, with him.
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What do you think? Review! I have some surprises in store! To give you a clue, you should be asking yourselves what news Lauren and Vaughn received and what lengths Sark will go to, to get Sydney back. Now, review!
