Title: Blurry
Author: Ren201
Spoilers: Up to 'The Telling' (end of season 2). I'll tell you if anything else from the show has happened as we go along.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Alias! I only own the people you don't recognise, if there are any! I don't anything that belongs to anyone else.
Author's note: R&R and tell me what you think. Thanks for all of the reviews! I know it was depressing, but it gets better, I'm so sorry it took me so long to post! I blame homework and revision for exams. Damn teachers!
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While I think of it, I've being to ask people this, but doesn't Brittany Spears' song 'Toxic' remind you of Alias?
Anyway thanks for all the reviews; much appreciated! And on with the story ...
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He was inches away from her as she closed her eyes and leaned backwards, allowing herself to fall.
Running forwards, Vaughn grabbed Sydney's arms and tried to pull her back. She couldn't die, he loved her, and she had to know that.
"Hang on Syd, please don't do this. I love you. Do you hear me? I love you!" Vaughn whispered to Sydney as he tried to regain his grip on Sydney's arms as she slowly slipped from his grasp. Refusing to let go, Vaughn held tighter and pulled her closer, whispering his undying love for her as he pulled her back to where she belonged, with him.
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Sydney woke up startled, before promptly scanning the room for the cause of her disturbance. Then she remembered. She remembered what had caused her to wake so suddenly, she remembered that day, almost 2 weeks ago. Tears sprung to her eyes as her thoughts drifted back to that day.
*Flashback*
Sydney fell into Vaughn's embrace, allowing him to comfort her with words of love and happiness. She had fallen so far, and yet he was still able to pull her back, he was always able to pull her back. Sydney looked up into his eyes before finally giving into her exhaustion.
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Hours later, Sydney awoke to find herself in unfamiliar surroundings, confused and dazed by what had happened earlier that day as, she subconsciously placed a hand over her stomach. Sydney felt a small tear fall down her face as the events of the day caught up with her again, and she wished, once again that she was on edge of the bridge. Her thoughts suddenly switched to Vaughn. Had he actually been there or was it some kind of mirage that she had created to save herself?
Pulling herself out of her thoughts and directing herself away from the question she really wanted to ask, she scanned the room for an escape, but found none. There was however, something familiar about the room, something that she couldn't quite put her finger, she knew that she hadn't been here before ... but there was still ... something. Sydney looked more carefully round the room, in search of something that would tell her where she was and how she got here.
Sydney still couldn't get the sense of familiarity out of her system, as she rose from the comfortable bed, in search of a quick exit. Upon seeing the door, Sydney mentally scolded herself for not noticing it before. Sydney cautiously looked around the room one last time before she opened the door to reveal the horrors awaiting her.
As Sydney opened the bedroom door, she realised why everything had felt so familiar. Everything felt of Vaughn. The furniture, the smell, the colour scheme; everything screamed Vaughn. Sydney suddenly felt her heart plummet as she saw Vaughn. He was sitting in a chair in, what she assumed to be the living room, with a bottle of Whiskey in one hand and the only picture of himself and Sydney that either one of them possessed. Sydney's eyes slowly began to fill with tears as she realised that she was in the house that Vaughn and Lauren shared, and she had been sleeping in the *bed* that they slept in every night. Sydney felt her breath catch in her throat as she looked around the house, abruptly taking in what she had failed to notice.
Sydney gradually turned back towards Vaughn watching him for a moment before speaking.
"You know..." Sydney said quietly, startling Vaughn with her presence,
"You won't find the answers at the bottom of that bottle ... Trust me .... I know." Sydney finished softly, as she looked up at Vaughn, whose gaze was fixed on the bottle in front of him.
"Yeah well ... so says the women who tried to find the answers by jumping off a bridge." Vaughn replied as he sighed and took another mouthful of the warm liquor.
"Well, ... there were ... circumstances to that. Things that you don't need to know about." Sydney said, feeling the guilt rise up in her chest, knowing that she should tell Vaughn about their ... baby, but she wasn't ready to admit it yet. She couldn't accept the fact that she had lost the only true link she had left to share with Vaughn. He had Lauren now, she couldn't bear to ruin his life again; he deserved a normal life. A life that she couldn't give him.
"So, you weren't going to tell me then? This has everything to do with me Sydney, I deserved to know!" Vaughn yelled as he felt anger fill his body. As he recovered from his outburst he continued,
"Sydney, ... you should've come to me." Vaughn replied in a small voice that gave away his feelings of betrayal and hurt. Sydney looked over at him with tears in her eyes and a defeated look on her face.
"I did." Sydney whispered, hoping that he wouldn't hear her.
Vaughn didn't respond to her statement, as he thought about how this could have been prevented if he had only given her the attention he knew that she needed. He could have saved her, but instead he had chosen to ignore her.
"How did I get here?" Sydney asked suddenly, trying to break the rising tension in the room.
"Does that really matter?" Vaughn asked, as he realised that he had no idea how he had ended up back at his house, let alone with Sydney in his arms.
"I guess not." Sydney said as she hesitated before she asked her next question.
"Where's ... Lauren?" Sydney asked cautiously, looking around the room, half expecting Lauren to jump out from behind the curtain.
"Do you really want to know?" Vaughn asked harshly, before noticing Sydney's reaction to his comment.
"She left for a meeting in Washington earlier." Vaughn replied softly, looking over at Sydney, trying to decipher her reaction, when the phone interrupted his gaze. After what seemed like a constant ringing, Vaughn allowed the machine to take the message.
"Hey Darling." Lauren's voice chirped over the phone in her crisp British accent.
"You're probably still at work, so I'll just tell you now, because I can't keep this to myself any longer." Lauren said excitedly before quickly continuing,
"Well, the doctor called again with some more results and dates for the classes and our next appointment. I know that you said you wanted to be surprised, but I had to ask. We're having a boy Michael! I just couldn't know without telling you! And, well ... I was thinking that we could call him William after your father." Lauren paused again before once again continuing,
"Please call me when you get this message. I can't wait to speak to you! I love you." Lauren announced happily and she hung up and left Sydney and Vaughn in heart breaking silence.
Vaughn suddenly turned to Sydney, before looking away again. He couldn't stand the look of distress and betrayal on her face. It broke his heart to know that this could have been them; it could have been their baby. They could have been the happy newly weds, expecting their first child. But it wasn't and that was something that Vaughn would have to live with. He said that he didn't regret moving on, but the truth was that as soon as he saw Sydney again, he realised that it was the biggest regret of his life.
"I..." Vaughn started, but was immediately interrupted by Sydney,
"Congratulations." Sydney simply stated, as she felt the tears spill over her eyelashes, before making her way over to the front door. Vaughn quickly stood and approached her, forcing her to stop and look into his deep green eyes.
"Don't." Sydney stated as she moved around Vaughn towards the door again.
"Sydney, please don't do anything stupid. I couldn't live if I knew that you'd done something like this again because of ... today, and well ... everything. I do love you, but I have responsibilities to Lauren now." Vaughn said, as he felt a horrific pain in his heart as he said his soul mate, the only person he would ever be truly in love with. Lauren meant nothing to him in comparison to Sydney. He would leave Lauren in a heartbeat if he could, but the truth was, that he couldn't. He couldn't be selfish; he had to stay for his child. He knew the pain of growing up without a father, and he won't let that happen to his child.
Sydney merely nodded and opened the door to walk out before replying,
"I'm sorry I ruined your life." Sydney said before gently whispering, "You should have let me fall, I should never have come back."
Sydney left wondering how someone's heart can break so many times over the course of one day.
*End Flashback*
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A/N: So what do you think? If you want me to continue, then review. Have faith, because there's a really obvious question that you should be asking yourselves. The more reviews I get, the quicker I'll post again!
Author: Ren201
Spoilers: Up to 'The Telling' (end of season 2). I'll tell you if anything else from the show has happened as we go along.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Alias! I only own the people you don't recognise, if there are any! I don't anything that belongs to anyone else.
Author's note: R&R and tell me what you think. Thanks for all of the reviews! I know it was depressing, but it gets better, I'm so sorry it took me so long to post! I blame homework and revision for exams. Damn teachers!
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While I think of it, I've being to ask people this, but doesn't Brittany Spears' song 'Toxic' remind you of Alias?
Anyway thanks for all the reviews; much appreciated! And on with the story ...
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He was inches away from her as she closed her eyes and leaned backwards, allowing herself to fall.
Running forwards, Vaughn grabbed Sydney's arms and tried to pull her back. She couldn't die, he loved her, and she had to know that.
"Hang on Syd, please don't do this. I love you. Do you hear me? I love you!" Vaughn whispered to Sydney as he tried to regain his grip on Sydney's arms as she slowly slipped from his grasp. Refusing to let go, Vaughn held tighter and pulled her closer, whispering his undying love for her as he pulled her back to where she belonged, with him.
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Sydney woke up startled, before promptly scanning the room for the cause of her disturbance. Then she remembered. She remembered what had caused her to wake so suddenly, she remembered that day, almost 2 weeks ago. Tears sprung to her eyes as her thoughts drifted back to that day.
*Flashback*
Sydney fell into Vaughn's embrace, allowing him to comfort her with words of love and happiness. She had fallen so far, and yet he was still able to pull her back, he was always able to pull her back. Sydney looked up into his eyes before finally giving into her exhaustion.
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Hours later, Sydney awoke to find herself in unfamiliar surroundings, confused and dazed by what had happened earlier that day as, she subconsciously placed a hand over her stomach. Sydney felt a small tear fall down her face as the events of the day caught up with her again, and she wished, once again that she was on edge of the bridge. Her thoughts suddenly switched to Vaughn. Had he actually been there or was it some kind of mirage that she had created to save herself?
Pulling herself out of her thoughts and directing herself away from the question she really wanted to ask, she scanned the room for an escape, but found none. There was however, something familiar about the room, something that she couldn't quite put her finger, she knew that she hadn't been here before ... but there was still ... something. Sydney looked more carefully round the room, in search of something that would tell her where she was and how she got here.
Sydney still couldn't get the sense of familiarity out of her system, as she rose from the comfortable bed, in search of a quick exit. Upon seeing the door, Sydney mentally scolded herself for not noticing it before. Sydney cautiously looked around the room one last time before she opened the door to reveal the horrors awaiting her.
As Sydney opened the bedroom door, she realised why everything had felt so familiar. Everything felt of Vaughn. The furniture, the smell, the colour scheme; everything screamed Vaughn. Sydney suddenly felt her heart plummet as she saw Vaughn. He was sitting in a chair in, what she assumed to be the living room, with a bottle of Whiskey in one hand and the only picture of himself and Sydney that either one of them possessed. Sydney's eyes slowly began to fill with tears as she realised that she was in the house that Vaughn and Lauren shared, and she had been sleeping in the *bed* that they slept in every night. Sydney felt her breath catch in her throat as she looked around the house, abruptly taking in what she had failed to notice.
Sydney gradually turned back towards Vaughn watching him for a moment before speaking.
"You know..." Sydney said quietly, startling Vaughn with her presence,
"You won't find the answers at the bottom of that bottle ... Trust me .... I know." Sydney finished softly, as she looked up at Vaughn, whose gaze was fixed on the bottle in front of him.
"Yeah well ... so says the women who tried to find the answers by jumping off a bridge." Vaughn replied as he sighed and took another mouthful of the warm liquor.
"Well, ... there were ... circumstances to that. Things that you don't need to know about." Sydney said, feeling the guilt rise up in her chest, knowing that she should tell Vaughn about their ... baby, but she wasn't ready to admit it yet. She couldn't accept the fact that she had lost the only true link she had left to share with Vaughn. He had Lauren now, she couldn't bear to ruin his life again; he deserved a normal life. A life that she couldn't give him.
"So, you weren't going to tell me then? This has everything to do with me Sydney, I deserved to know!" Vaughn yelled as he felt anger fill his body. As he recovered from his outburst he continued,
"Sydney, ... you should've come to me." Vaughn replied in a small voice that gave away his feelings of betrayal and hurt. Sydney looked over at him with tears in her eyes and a defeated look on her face.
"I did." Sydney whispered, hoping that he wouldn't hear her.
Vaughn didn't respond to her statement, as he thought about how this could have been prevented if he had only given her the attention he knew that she needed. He could have saved her, but instead he had chosen to ignore her.
"How did I get here?" Sydney asked suddenly, trying to break the rising tension in the room.
"Does that really matter?" Vaughn asked, as he realised that he had no idea how he had ended up back at his house, let alone with Sydney in his arms.
"I guess not." Sydney said as she hesitated before she asked her next question.
"Where's ... Lauren?" Sydney asked cautiously, looking around the room, half expecting Lauren to jump out from behind the curtain.
"Do you really want to know?" Vaughn asked harshly, before noticing Sydney's reaction to his comment.
"She left for a meeting in Washington earlier." Vaughn replied softly, looking over at Sydney, trying to decipher her reaction, when the phone interrupted his gaze. After what seemed like a constant ringing, Vaughn allowed the machine to take the message.
"Hey Darling." Lauren's voice chirped over the phone in her crisp British accent.
"You're probably still at work, so I'll just tell you now, because I can't keep this to myself any longer." Lauren said excitedly before quickly continuing,
"Well, the doctor called again with some more results and dates for the classes and our next appointment. I know that you said you wanted to be surprised, but I had to ask. We're having a boy Michael! I just couldn't know without telling you! And, well ... I was thinking that we could call him William after your father." Lauren paused again before once again continuing,
"Please call me when you get this message. I can't wait to speak to you! I love you." Lauren announced happily and she hung up and left Sydney and Vaughn in heart breaking silence.
Vaughn suddenly turned to Sydney, before looking away again. He couldn't stand the look of distress and betrayal on her face. It broke his heart to know that this could have been them; it could have been their baby. They could have been the happy newly weds, expecting their first child. But it wasn't and that was something that Vaughn would have to live with. He said that he didn't regret moving on, but the truth was that as soon as he saw Sydney again, he realised that it was the biggest regret of his life.
"I..." Vaughn started, but was immediately interrupted by Sydney,
"Congratulations." Sydney simply stated, as she felt the tears spill over her eyelashes, before making her way over to the front door. Vaughn quickly stood and approached her, forcing her to stop and look into his deep green eyes.
"Don't." Sydney stated as she moved around Vaughn towards the door again.
"Sydney, please don't do anything stupid. I couldn't live if I knew that you'd done something like this again because of ... today, and well ... everything. I do love you, but I have responsibilities to Lauren now." Vaughn said, as he felt a horrific pain in his heart as he said his soul mate, the only person he would ever be truly in love with. Lauren meant nothing to him in comparison to Sydney. He would leave Lauren in a heartbeat if he could, but the truth was, that he couldn't. He couldn't be selfish; he had to stay for his child. He knew the pain of growing up without a father, and he won't let that happen to his child.
Sydney merely nodded and opened the door to walk out before replying,
"I'm sorry I ruined your life." Sydney said before gently whispering, "You should have let me fall, I should never have come back."
Sydney left wondering how someone's heart can break so many times over the course of one day.
*End Flashback*
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A/N: So what do you think? If you want me to continue, then review. Have faith, because there's a really obvious question that you should be asking yourselves. The more reviews I get, the quicker I'll post again!
